prod xona

-lyrics-
and I can’t wake up today
where I can’t speak, you’re in my way
I got bad thoughts all again
and I wish these things would end 
I’ll get everything you wish and ever wanted
I’ll tell you that I love you and I’m being honest
and I have thought of you since of august
so don’t look at me and leave me with no comment

and you put me through a circle 
feelings are vast, it abused my mental
and I envy many people, I see you through the evil
talking like we’re meant to be but I know it’s just lethal
yeah, I fucking hate everything but I’m obsessed 
I fucking love you, bet you wouldn’t guess 
and I’m tired of this feeling of regret
I’m fucking up and it burns me to my chest

I don’t want to hear your name 
I roll my eyes and I tend to look away 
I should’ve told you what’s the matter from that day
and I don’t feel okay with your name
I can feel it through my bones and it aches
I try and I try to pour the blame
and I wish you could’ve came my way
I find it funny that you see this as a game

and you put me through a circle 
feelings are vast, it abused my mental
and I envy many people, I see you through the evil
talking like we’re meant to be but I know it’s just lethal
yeah, i fucking hate everything but I’m obsessed 
I fucking love you, bet you wouldn’t guess
and I’m tired of this feeling of regret
I’m fucking up and it burns me to my chest

pessimist

spotify

prod by xona<3 this beat sucks im sorry(,:

thank you to all the ppl that help me make this ily (all in order)
@reesoo
@heylog
@hovis
@moodyriley
@quannnic
@cometesh
@1vil
@uglysneaker
@valerii

avoid

avoid w/ reesoo, heylog, hovis, moodyriley, comet, vil, uglysneaker & valerii

produced by @johnnyfriend

featuring @rouri404

my favorite view ft. rouri404 (johnnyfriend)

i recorded this while i was hella sick

Mean more than you could ever know
Sittin by myself in an empty grove
Still the same kids know we never grown
Haven’t seen you since the day I left home

Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own
Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own

Every now and then I lose track of
What I want from life I’ve lost passion
Fall asleep I won’t see the sun up
Brain feels like it’s made of plastic
Burn the house and play in the ashes
Seen a ghost, do you believe in magic?
Mouth sewn shut, your face dunked in acid
Last thing you’ll hear is me striking the matches

Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own
Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own

(Every now and then I lose track of
What I want from life I’ve lost passion
Fall asleep I won’t see the sun up
Brain feels like it’s made of plastic
Burn the house and play in the ashes
Seen a ghost, do you believe in magic?
Mouth sewn shut, your face dunked in acid
Last thing you’ll hear is me striking the matches)

spotify link<3

nothing (weikoo + 02ashes)

produced by xona

//ep

-lyrics-
and I’ll stay inside 
where I reside 
I’ll stay and watch the night
until i die

why do we fight?
mirror what we like?
take my holy life
I’m sorry to say it’s fine..

~

I got sick of everybody who speaks
to me you’re nothing, I can’t even get a week
to be alone with someone that I wanna see
and these crevices you placed cause you know I was weak
so push back.
and I’ve been personal
so let it go
I feel like..
you don’t even have to know me
that I don’t want you to hold me

~

~I’ll cry and end... 
my life.
stay and watch when I die~

I’ll quit 
to forget that I exist
but these spiders are my only friends
are my only 
friends…

spiders II

produced by @dercept x @daks9k

featuring @kuriositylol & @x1fern

lyrics:
(claude)
do u wanna fall in love?
i can kiss on ur lungs
i don't know him well
but i bet that ur boyfriend's pretty dumb
i saw my ships set sail and then they sunk
(x2)

i want two souls colliding
i want u so bad but i'm so focused on the timing
i've been stacking gold but i can't find the silver lining

(kuriosity)
oh, i wanna go
girl i think i wanna go back
oh i wanna know
like did this ever mean somethin
to u
all that u out me through 
there's nothing else to do
you left me so confused 

and so i try my best
i did all i could 
got nothing else to give
got no way to live (x2)

(claude)
do u wanna fall in love?
i can kiss on ur lungs
i don't know him well
but i bet that ur boyfriend's pretty dumb
i saw my ships set sail and then they sunk
(x2)

i want two souls colliding
i want u so bad but i'm so focused on the timing
i've been stacking gold but i can't find the silver lining

(fern)
don't even know what i'm saying
like everything feeling so lame ya
i know that i said that i hate ya
i'm out of touch and out of focus

ur the worst thing i never had
u always been treating me bad
sit alone as i'm counting my bag
u never noticed this life is bogus

emporium ft. kuriosity & 1fern (dercept x daks9k)

produced by grayskies

@xona

-lyrics-
who do you mind?
talking every minute of life? life
I don’t want to feel a sign that can’t stand my eyes 
everything I do is for you
why do I have to choose?
everything new we do?

so take ONE MORE STEP

you didn’t even know him
but I can’t sit and rest
when I just watched it 

nothing but a trail but I follow like it’s my fault
where it sits so frail, where I stuck it with a nail
everything I do is for you
why do I have to choose?
everything new we do?

so take ONE MORE STEP

you didn’t even know him
but I can’t sit and rest
when I just watched it

hang a life I might try to end
signs ahead that trick a mind 

(ONE STEP
MIGHT END)

so take ONE MORE STEP

you didn’t even know him
but I can’t sit and rest
when I just watched it

blister

blister (grayskies)

eyelids (drma x yunny)

prod by me :)

lyrics:

smokin brick in my free time, 
if he wanna test me we gon show him how the lights shine
i think you should ask him if it's brighter on the other side
don't be talkin shit if you can't back it boy it'll save your life

don't be takin shit from people I don't even understand
that's why you'll stay in my dm's actin like some fucking fan
you should really grow a pair and say it with your chest man
actin so pussy but you never even seen that

I know if I keep on talking shit things will get bad
but you hurt me and I won't forget that
If I go to hell you're gonna have to come with me


[[retaliation & hesitance]]

clone

produced by chalyre <3 

lyrics:
you make me
incomplete
no escaping
your cold reach

now my throat is sore
from saying your name
i'm not going to go
until you repay
the debt that you owe
its always the same 
for love

let go
of your hold

you say you love me
i would just die
i'll never be worthy
of your divine

you're killing me slowly
but i'll be fine

it's not like i'm better
from seeing the light

careworn

i'm not gonna bother you ever again

@heylog

pessimist

xona

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