soundcloud.com/xternalz x soundcloud.com/kyoakyo

i really couldn't be any happier than i am right now

[soundcloud.com/clay0127]
I don't ever wanna let go
But I knew: This love was never gonna hold
Still though, I'm always wishing for the most
Still holding on to a little bit of hope

There's just a little left
Fight to my last breath
In the kitchen, singing
Making food at 2am
The memories I make with you, they're my favorite
Babygirl, I can't believe I'm bouta waste this
Talk on nothing, take my hand; This my last dance
Falling in with you is something that I really couldn't have planned
I'll never understand the way the world works
I'll never understand why I keep getting hurt

It shouldn't feel like this, I should be excited 
Left home all alone got reminded
Of the beauty of the place I resided
Of all the people, all the love that I might miss
Of having someone that I really can confide in
Of why I shouldn't walk away, you're my light, and-
No, I don't ever wanna let go

(It's all wrong, when did I lose the plot)
(Everything falls apart)
(I don't know how to stop)

[hook]

Every day I see you, it feels like I'm waking up for the first time
You're the only thing that wanders all around my mind; I can't get enough
Feel the tears in my eyes welling up cause I know
We've only got a few months 'fore I go
But I think I'm in love, I wish I never got close (not true btw i dont regret a thing)
You hold my heart but my souls headed home
Still holding on to a little bit of hope

[soundcloud.com/xternalz]
I’m holding on
I can’t let go
Cause you’re all I want
You’re all I want

I wanted us to last for good
I did all I could
I wish you understood

(I’m still holding on)

Facing down at the floor
I’m chasing the steps now retracing
Don’t want anything replacing
What we had before
Why can’t you just stay?
I’m tired of walking away
This world is turning to grey
I don’t ever want to let go

[hook 2x]

{sidenote : this song is like 7 months old}

Holding Onto Hope w/ Xternalz [kyoa]

sample: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jslXH90KMMo
I, cant let it go
cuz ik Id miss u moree,,
I,,, cant let u know 
everytime I feel ignored :/
give u the most n u just want more//
its never enough! just the same as before.. 
tried picking u up , but im dragging u down 
it all plays out how it sounds </3
u make my head spin, cuz knowing ur intentions,, 
Idk how Im not dead...? 
how am I not 6ft under.....
so used to just pretendin, ur the one ill be dead with
I hope u get the message...

@1akura -
sick to my stomach when ur calling me
its a struggle everyday i cant fall asleep
tell me - tell me is it gonna end
need u - need u right by my side but ik u cant
but i need u so bad
but ikk that we wont lasttt
js know that i miss u morreee

miss u moreee (decago)

finally need clarity in my #life
prod @injurie @ppayn33 @tahu2x
master @aestyboy
@noahsuri

need your clarity (injurie ppayn33 tahu)

ty for featuring @os29 and @6hi 

prod @sshinju & @newgarasu

lyrics:

@angelonmyshoulder

and
every time im with you i start to feel numb
stop playing with me i know im not dumb
cus all the voices in my head
all these changes yeah i cant reset

and every time im with you i start to feel nauseous
but i know im not okay please just help me stop this
and i pray that i can make it out
to a god that i dont know about

@os29

all the memories they make me queasy
i dont wanna talk cos its not easy
why do i talk i know u wont believe me
walk inside the room why cant u see me

waiting for u in the back of my own stupid mind
but i dont wanna give up on u love is hard to find

i feel so sick i feel so nauseous 
always on my guard im feeling cautious
giving up everything ive got for this
when ur next to me u look so gorgeous

@6hi 

yeah, uh
i'm just tryna get home
i've been wasting all my time on you
watch me turn into dust, into
watch me put all my trust into, youuuu
your touch feels so good
can't help but feel nauseous
wanna feel something so true
girl you look like a goddess

no no, stop it
everybody watching
feel the pressure rising 
i can feel it locking
inside yeah i'm falling
outside i'm walking
i can't feel the difference
feel my flesh rotting

nauseous w/ suki & hini (prod. shinju + garasu)

feels good to be back, i got a new microphone
hope yall like the new sound, this is a lot more accurate to what my voice actually sounds like :)
prod @angelonmyshoulder @yashio20k @liamtakeover

lyrics:

i just wanted
a second to reach out
but you dont want that
and i can see that now
falling to the old ways again
i know this was all going to end

i can never tell
whats in your head
do you wish us well
or do you wish us dead
all the words that we left in that room
its all just a memory now...

in your house
thought we could figure it out
all we did was scream and shout
oh, i thought you were the one
oh, but now we're done

i had every reason
but i could never break it off
i couldnt handle loss
every feeling every thought
makes me just want to stop
never could figure it out
i know that now we cant be the same
that was never allowed
even if im still staring at the ground
i can still see your face around
around the corner

i just wanted
a second to reach out
but you dont want that
and i can see that now
falling to the old ways again
i know this was all going to end

i can never tell
whats in your head
do you wish us well
or do you wish us dead
all the words that we left in that room
its all just a memory now...

in your house
thought we could figure it out
all we did was scream and shout
oh, i thought you were the one
oh, but now we're done

in your house

in ur house (attachxd + yashio + liamtakeover)

@dimpleb

https://open.spotify.com/track/3cSpMSG6ZGGFsqdcTsyBYF?si=6466a79c90ea4d9e

its just another day another lie
just another way for u
to hate my guts from the inside out
got so much to say, dont let it out
this the only way that i know

but u could never understand
all the shit i had to see just to make me who i am
can u imagine seein ur mama shoot up milligrams
my 3 little brothers they all look up to me
how can i teach them to be men
when no one showed me

too many times i seen my dad dragged away in cuffs
why the fuck was i ten yrs old lyin to cops
i was raised by the fiends so what does that make me
you know i come from the mud so girl dont dirty ur feet

SPOTIFY

who i am (dimpleb)

https://open.spotify.com/track/5CBCDcThy18wjEyYIboXNW?si=704d9329ab634e04
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@resolve1k
@mental
@arid
@bazington

you're breaking my heart
you're going down a path i can't follow
stop, stop now and come back 
I love you 
liar

take me back 
the way we laughed
say its my bad
put it way in the past
could you tell me when ur done
i want to be one
all i want is you 
you dont care what i want
ur the worst
you want me back but you left me in the dirt
i hope ur getting all the shit that you deserve
and i remember when you said it wouldnt work 
baby ur the worst
only care about yourself
no i dont want you
im with someone else
i bet you hate it, how its not you
i forgot your number
i forgot how much i blocked you (out)
i blocked out all our memories 
and blocked out how much we fought too

left me bad
looking at the things that i wish i said
now im gone and u want him instead
yea run away
i dont wanna lay inside my bed just to feel the pain
living in the scars and scratches
looking at me like i overreacted
miss the feeling when i wasnt static
just tell me that it never happened

pick up the pieces hope it helps
what's the point of talking if we lie and we won't tell?
what's the point of fighting if i'm putting you through hell?
no I don't wanna hear abt it pls say something else
just tell me that it's okay, don't tell me that it's too late
no matter what it might take, i'll do it for our sake
pick up the pieces hope it helps
what's the point of fighting if i'm putting you through hell?

take me back w/ arid + baz (inno + mental)

ich würde mich #zweiteilen um immer bei dir zu sein
my #heart feels cold recently

prod @1revert
master @aestyboy
@1kizuu
@stylas
@noahsuri

--- 
@noahsuri
ich bin ein hohler korpus, funktionen sind auf standby
nichtmal mehr das high kann mich befreien
mein kopf ist viel zu voll
ich fühle mich overwhelmed, hab viel zu viel zu tun
ich kann die last nicht stämmen
jeder tag fühlt sich an als würde ich verbrennen
wenn du bei mir bist dann sag auch dass du mich erkennst
verankert in meim' Brustkorb ist mein Herz lange nicht mehr
du brichst mir meine Rippen und hälst dich jetzt von mir fern
aber siehst du den Ort
siehst du die vision
ich teile mich in zwei
ich kann immer bei dir sein
egal ob tag oder nacht
wer braucht schon sich selbst
ich nehm dich in meinen arm
ich nehm dich in meinen schutz
ich bin wie eine spinne ich umhülle dich mit seide
verkriech mich in der ecke und nehme dich mit
du verfängst dich in meim' netz aus lauter liebe
oh nein ich habe dich zerdrückt

@1kizuu
ich weiß nicht was passiert ist doch
ich spür es immernoch 
und ich kann es auch noch sehen
ja es ist die angst in deine augen und ich weiß sie tut dir weh
ich weiß sie tut dir weh
es ist zeit zu gehen ich weiß
und es tut mir leid
und ich weiß dass du weißt
ich kann mir selbst nicht verzeihen
also liegt es an dir ob es für immer so bleibt

@stylas
toss me to the side
tell me its alright 
i dont even know
u got lots to hide
left me on my own
ive been up all night
im not in one piece
i cant find the strength to fight
can u tell me how to get away from here
i dont have the room to breathe i fear
u tore me into shreds
no i can never get it 
want me fucking dead well ur getting what u wanted
---

siehst du die vision ft. kizuu stylas (revert)

Lyrics:

[Hook]
I confide my mind in you
I confide my mind in you

[Verse]
I just want guala in my pockets
blue on bills that be what im fienin for
you say that you hungry, you dont know the meanin bro
G.G on her body that’s how I know she a real hoe
C.C in her body that’s how I know that she classy
runnin it up, yeah I run it up like it’s a track meet
I ain’t tryna worry bout the people thats around me
worried bout people so it be people im subtracting 

[Bridge]
im the only one who got my focus
everyone else showed me they dont deserve it
im stuck dont got no traction
lifes a bitch sometimes gotta own it

[Hook] 
I confide my mind in you
I confide my mind in you

Confide (IG: PARIAUSHINATTA)

SUM1

prod: @xxkintsugi @1bleedinggrey
mix/master: @ihateesca


siehst du die vision ft. kizuu stylas (revert)

suri

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