talk to me yeah talk to me and tell me that everything’s gon be fine
take some steps inside my shoes and see the chaos in my life
look at me and hold my face and tell me that it’s all okay to cry
when i melt inside your arms i think that’s where i wanna die
im not the same without you without you i am gone
gone out of this world
gone out of this world
gone out of this world
gone out of this world

who listens to me atp (prod. sickboi)

another day goes by 
i wanna cry cause im dying on the inside
and you ask why
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaask
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa-
i love you so but its plutonic and i
hug you tho although i vomit in my mouth
as the days go by im countin em up
we been together for like 6 months
it dont get better im such a chump
because this aint that real love 
real trust with them real hugs

dont ask me why im sad bitch lets just play castle crashers

(nocipher was here)
Everything feels like it’s just
Way too much for me
You’ve got your glasses on
But still can’t see

I’ve just been struggling every day
To keep my cool
And I just sit and reminisce about the days

When back in school it was me and you
And now it’s me and me
And now I’m here alone

I'm just wasting time
Maybe I’m gon' find
Some purpose

Drowning in my thoughts
‘Cause I’m still trying to reach the surface

And I cannot breathe again
We could sit and play pretend
We could maybe sit and try
Try to act like we’re both fine

We’re not, and we both know that’s a fact
Move on
And then never turn your back
‘Cause girl, maybe there’s something I lack
‘Cause girl, maybe there’s something I lack
(uncrypted)

I'm just wasting time
Maybe I’m gon' find
Some purpose

Drowning in my thoughts
‘Cause I’m still trying to reach the surface

And I cannot breathe again
We could sit and play pretend
We could maybe sit and try
Try to act like we’re both fine

i'm still lacking something

(totally better than, goth angelz)  

just woke, i'm already mad  
cause  
every little song i wrote  
is way too bad  

you never ever text  
and that makes me sad  
you went and forgot about  
everything we had  

i'm sitting all alone again  
but you tell me we could still be friends  
fuck that, i'd rather kill myself  
i'll take the pills stacked on my shelf  

ooh, ooh, oh  

(Uncrypted) 

i'm sitting all alone again  
but you tell me we could still be friends  
fuck that, i'd rather kill myself  
i'll take the pills stacked on my shelf   
ooh, ooh, oh

we can still be friends

I see her grinnin' through her red teeth
Blood stains on her bed sheets
Leave like i was nothing
Baby it's so crushing
Tell me that you love me, tell me that you hate me
I'll tell you why i like you and how you'll never escape me

I just wanna overdose alone in my room
I just wanna be just like you, just like you
I really should have known, i should have knew
But i'm still crushing up the blues, crushing up the blues

Black cats at the graveyard
Sleeves like an ace card
Body's in my back yard
Faces in the glass shards
Taking antihistamines like why were you so mean to me
I could give you everything, baby just believe in me

bed sheets

Another night alone
I'm ruining my health
You told me
''Please come home.''
I'm keeping to myself.

Last night, all alone
Couldn't fight it.
Cocaine on my phone, so i'm feeling excited.
Drugs after drugs and it never gets better.
I need something else to help me forget her.
[Nocipher ^]


I Can't forget her
It's never getting better
I'm in hell so i'm burning in the nether.

Kick the chair
You're the first one in the letter
She would try to take my soul
If I let her.
[Woods ^]

Wrote a letter
Hope She got to read it.
She blocked all contact
So I kinda feel defeated

I won't get over you that easy
Sit and wonder if you really
Don't miss me
[Nocipher ^]


rail a perc
then i smoke until my chest hurts
i need drugs,
But i'll cash this fucking check first
Check it out man i'm logging on the networth
spent my whole life
tryna clear a hex curse


Another night alone
I'm ruining my health
You told me
''Please come home.''
I'm keeping to myself.

Another night alone
I'm ruining my health
You told me
''Please come home.''
I'm keeping to myself.
[Woods ^]

prob burning in hell or sm

(blinker blinker blinker, *inhale*)
(cough cough*)
(god damn- )

i cant see my veins
tying belts to my arms
i dont cry when it's hard
man i love self harm
always try to leave
but i never get far
guess it's never in the cards
no it's never in the cards, like

All these bad bitches
brushing up to me
but there's none that i see
but there's none that i see
all these drugs man i swear it just can't be
nodding off on my knees
nodding off on my knees
(2x)

I'll never be the same
i admit that i'm a junkie
blues and xans is how i used to spend my money
when i pour up i might dose it like im Lucki
i might kill myself with drugs, and it's funny

V- Nocipher
I feel like slowly I've been losing my mind
And i'm struggling to find some fucking stupid reason
and I've been watching every episode unfold
heart has slowly gone cold
Think i'm at the final season
I'm way too lonely
need someone to hold me
i need love
or maybe i'm just horny
she took my number
but she never seemed to call me
she doesn't love me but i wish she could've told me.

arms

(uncrypted)

hold my hand and don't let go
if you care at all
i'm scared to fall asleep
’cause i might just miss your call

i'm way too attached
to a girl
that won’t care for me
keep falling in love
with girls way too easily

i could sit and lie or maybe
stay and pretend
like you're perfect, baby
but it will end

i don’t feel the same i used to—
i used to anymore

slowly come out the delusion
i’m finally awake
and i’m done with your illusions
’cause you must be a fake
think i came to the conclusion
that you might be a whore
and i know you couldn’t force me
to love you like before

ooohh~
to love you like before
oohhhh~
’cause you might be a whore


credits: prod. wingsxrra

internet women fucked me up

dumb as fuck
or maybe naive, tho
i can't lie, i chose to believe you
lie to me, yet still i don't leave you
feel stuck inside a cage, and i've been starved from all affection

i'm desperate for attention
there’s a few things i don't mention
i'm a loser and a poser
and that's maybe why i chose her

and i
look for validation
or to get some acclamation
i can't tell if it's fixation
or my own damn limitations

i'm way too lonely
too lonely
need a girl to hold me
i need love
or maybe i'm just horny

sit there and realize
there’s nothing else to find
i tried to try to be kind
but you're just out of your mind

i'm tryna be a savior
but i'm such a failure
i'm prob so pathetic
i may be apathetic

you're a lost cause, girl
i won't try again
don't ever text me saying
let's still be friends


credits: prod. wingsxrra

lonely & horny

nocipher