Lyrics:

i could kill a fucking heart expressing how i felt
solitary with these thoughts is an existential hell
i'm only visiting i won't be here for long
preach good decisions while i rip another hit out of this bong
i can see right past ur face into ur mind 
if i send this fucking message i swear it's suicide  
i'll ask you every single option that i have
to make it right
and then in desperation complete the cycle and the questline

so what i'm just a monster with a mop
earning 12.50 an hour 9-5 upon the dot
it's me the janitor you know so very well
i just vented every thought of mine through songs to break my shell
and i
haven't made those in a week
and i'm getting so scared that this could be the end of my
career and it worsens my fear 
so i contemplate
all of the things that i'll never find
days turn to weeks
then to months then to years
could this project ever get done in time
pushed it back twice 
and the rush is a lie
n i'm sitting here stuck on a fucking line
i was a sight seer
i spent the night here
hang on a lease
while i ruin my teeth
and make sense of some things that should never rhyme

and i

and i hide my fucking feelings 
from my friends
and raise my walls
they can see a couple cracks
but they've not seen a thing at all
cement breaks
it's tempting
to breakdown
and lay waste

janitor pt. II

fantasia (prod. swaine)

smile until my heart breaks

scrapped ideas, demos, and things i made with friends for fun (2022-2023)

6hxst in thx 5hxll w/ sxmpra and kamaara

Find My Way

Find My Way w/ Hero.

lyrics 

I was in love with u 
but what was that u saying 
'coz im fucked up it's over 
and u just look like satan

was it just the sex
was it just the head
was it what was left of all my fucking flesh

u told me to stop
i'm going full throttle
u got all this dirt on my name
and u throwing the bottle

sometimes hard for me to wake
so I gotta wake and bake
I can't be the one to save u now
i'm not good with fake love

fucked my image but thats not enough
left my body in acid for a month
I don't love u baby it's just the drugs
I don't love u baby it's just ur body

I know that my soul was there to take
and it just fucking kills me when ur sorry
'coz I know u don't really feel that way 
I feel like i'm soon to take a bath thats bloody

in those first days..
in those first few days I look back and i'm ok

'coz thats not how I thought it'd be 
I told her she was my queen
she told me I was her king
but now our kingdoms dust & leaves

thought i'd set the perfect scene
but now I'm coming out clean
all I wanted u to be
was just happy in these sheets

first those whispers then those screams
hollow body, yes
sit aside my bones for u so u can chew on the flesh

dust & leaves (hollowprpl)

Blackonblack

hago plata   (prod @999kort)

9TAILS - Love Snack Ft. Micmole

Featuring https://soundcloud.com/cartoonben
Mastered by https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic
Art by https://soundcloud.com/emotionalbuu

[cartoon ben]
Why you playing with my heart like that
Stabbing that knife right through my back 
You talked a lot of shit please take it back
Why you gotta play my heart like that
Cause a scene like that do you want the drama 
Good at arguing, get it from your momma 
Wish I never met you, so things could be easier 
There’s a crater in my heart, you hit me like a meteor

[king theta]
Have another crisis,
You'll be runnin right back to me by the end of the night
It's how you like it,
Try to start a fight cause the drama's keepin you high
X2
She's a little bit crazy
One minute she hates me
In the next one she'll be runnin right back
Excitement, yeah she likes that
Won't fight back cause I'm not frightened
Come lie down, baby that's the right track

Always tryna find a way to push my buttons
Tryna play games but you don't win nothing
How'd you start flame from a simple discussion
Huffing and puffing, pushing and shoving
When you found me you knew that I couldn't draw a boundry
Now see, I know who I am, say it proudly
Doubt me, you know that tonight I'll sleep soundly
I know you wanna be around me
And you know that I want you too
I'm just not willing to waste my time
When tomorrow it'll be just fine
Girl I hope that you keep our truce
I'm just not tryin to ride that wave
You know I'm always gonna keep you safe

Have another crisis,
You'll be runnin right back to me by the end of the night
It's how you like it,
Try to start a fight cause the drama's keepin you high
X2
She's a little bit crazy
One minute she hates me
In the next one she'll be runnin right back
Excitement, yeah she likes that
Won't fight back cause I'm not frightened
Come lie down, baby that's the right track

Crisis ft. cartoon ben

@itsyungvan ft. @twotwntytwo "Held Back Tears" is the 20th track on “SOUND BITES,” a limited-edition CD compilation released with Blackhouse Records on December 17th, 2018 in support of the RAINN Foundation, a non-profit which carries out programs to prevent sexual violence, help survivors, and ensure that perpetrators are brought to justice

Limited to only 250 copies available, this CD compilation features 26 previously unreleased songs from some vital and prolific underground artists.

100% of the proceeds from CD sales will be donated to RAINN. Limited copies still available at: https://blackhouseinc.storenvy.com/products/25203801-underground-underdogs-sound-bites-cd-a-benefit-compilation-for-rainn

Find My Way w/ Hero.

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