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I've Been Alone (Prod Splashgvng)
Key E Major
Bpm 152

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I've Been Alone

Waste Time

Waste Time w/ Retro Nicotine & American Dead Cross

Cover of crash by shizukesa and yokai dreams

crash (cover)

"The panopticon is a type of institutional building and a system of control designed by the English philosopher and social theorist Jeremy Bentham in the 18th century. The concept of the design is to allow all prisoners of an institution to be observed by a single security guard, without the inmates being able to tell whether they are being watched.

Although it is physically impossible for the single guard to observe all the inmates' cells at once, the fact that the inmates cannot know when they are being watched means that they are motivated to act as though they are being watched at all times. Thus, the inmates are effectively compelled to regulate their own behaviour. The architecture consists of a rotunda with an inspection house at its centre. From the centre, the manager or staff of the institution are able to watch the inmates. Bentham conceived the basic plan as being equally applicable to hospitals, schools, sanatoriums, and asylums, but he devoted most of his efforts to developing a design for a panopticon prison. It is his prison that is now most widely meant by the term "panopticon"."

do with that what you will

LYRICS:

i could do it forwards 
i could do it backwards
i could do it any way i like
the thought of someone watching
led me to a caution dictate how i live my life
observing who will spectate
perception of a vague hate
projection of opinions on my mind 
i don’t know who’s watching keep the panopticon alive 


one step and i’m a revenant
my pacing set a precedent
that i don’t gotta wear a letterman to be a better man than my fellow man
those empaths? go ahead let em in
cause the company that i keep unseen by me cause i’m not counting em i’m asleep
dreaming about options taken progress i’ve forsaken 
for the fear judging spectators to berate my creation
maybe B-Rate in relation to my peers in speculation
maybe i won’t pull the favorite to win and i’m still debating


whether i’m still growing up or simply grown and in a rut
my buried trauma come in clutch when i believe i’ll make the cut
say i only know the things i’ve ever known 
cacophony of crowds won’t you please just take my hone
i could take a longer time than planned but cool composure in demand
although i don’t know who commands these screams into the void i’m in
who is watching let them in
show the face i’m trynna win


laying in my bed sipping chamomile
chilling with my cat, chamomile 
without another voice reality just isn’t real
i found a cover from acceptance of the way i feel
i feel enlightened half the time but confidences half life isn’t high
so i’m up and down a sin wave is the function of my mind
and in conjunction with occurring trends and my deviance away from them
i lack the confidence to feel secure about decisions
that i make
break away from echo chambers bubbles trolls and instigators
saving face and shame go hand in hand when done for commentators
faceless wardens this a prison with no warning 
judge and jury in my head and still i worry 
bout the outcome and reception of my vulnerability 
shouldn’t look to others for mental stability 
eyes will drain your energy
but validation is a drug to me
and i can’t seem to get clean 
and that shit really gets to me

panopticon [prod. pieper]

0000

headphones on my head like every night
i dont have friends ive got me to fight
welcome to my life, ill help you see them, see them
i have a strange feeling that its the end, the end.

im addicted to my death and im addicted to this pattern
i realized every choice boils down to the same kind of people
and same kind of morals
and same kind of morals, so what do you believe in?
do you really think that this life has a meaning?
did you really think that id let you off easily?
oh hell fucking no ill come down on you like you did in my dreams
i know hes confused but i dont think i care
night time comes and once again you are a disgrace baby
you look entirely defaced lets rewind baby
to first base
when your place wasnt my place
ive always had shit to say but now im fucking say it 
cause ive spent too long putting up with it 
woah
 woah
  yeah i bet you got a death wish
see me in my room tied up by my necklace
you scandalously walk thru all my halls for an answer
but theres no answer
i float thru these walls as a ghost 
i see you in my grasp, getting close
imma pull you in
imma make you regret every single thing you did
no one will ever know..
what i did to you, cause i always kept my mouth closed
like you should have done about me 
keep it quiet and i wont ever fuck you up
dont worry bout it man the season calls for it
dont worry bout my plan youll know when it hits
this shit is really how i feel and theres only one
person that i wouldnt lie to
its my microphone
dont call your home
your soul will always be bound to my tomb
our stories in stone 
you took over my throne 
and now were just bones 
drink poison and enjoy it
basically my point is 
our puny love was disjointed
by you
by you
i float thru these walls as a ghost
i see you in my grasp getting close
imma pull you in
imma make you regret every single thing you did
no one will ever know 
what i did to you cause i always kept my mouth close
this is a story about all my demons 
welcome to my head, ill help you see them
when i hit 19 might as well be the end
i dont wanna die but im really not living
so stay a little longer just to make it funner
when i go under, please dont suffer

white lies lead to murder (domesticsoul)

tshirt song w dearme

i remember fl 12 up on my satellite
i remember when i got the shitty focusrite
2nd gen solo wit the broken always lit up light
dropped 200 on it but atleast i got a mic

i got a way to uncompress all of my feelings
the folders way too big its gone corrupt no chance of healing
anxiety and  stress just raise the pressure to the ceiling
until i fuckin burst and all my friends just see the real me

but i dont know who i am
im almost 21 years old and what the fuck is my plan
im sick of people claiming family but dont give a damn
i try to grasp on to what i love but my fingers are jammed
fuck

shoutout pluto for the way you helped me from the start
was always there for me you hold a place inside my heart
ur like a brother and i cannot thank you quite enough
id love to stay but all this shit has gotten way too rough

id love to stay but i believe that its my time to go
i hope that when im gone youll listen to this as a note
i hope you start to analyze the lyrics that i wrote
when i was at my fuckin lowest wit no chance of hope

and i cannot see the birhgt side
always been a pessimistic cunt without a lifeline
never had someone to hold or even one to talk to
but that was until october 19th when i met you

thank you ally for the way you make me feel okay
thank you ally for wiping the tears off of my face
maybe ill be perfect and ill have the words to say
but at least for now im happy wit u in my place

i just hit 10 thousnad plays and its because of you
never woulda had an outlet for my navy blue
now im burnt out and i dont know what the fuck to do
so i guess il say goodbye and leave the scene to bloom
and i know that you gon be okay without me
everybody doin their own thing and founding
their collectives and their labels fuck the indsutry
aint nobody give a fuck abou you in the scene

everybody only care about themselves
try to latch onto the edge of fame and i just fuckin fell
try to battle wit the music and my own mental health
i cant keep it in no more im scared ill end up in hell

for the sins that i project upon the people in this room
am i really blowin up or am i left here to be doomed
i wanna hot box in my car wit the motherfucking exhaust fumes
cuz you never woulda been there for me motherfucker fuck you
fuck

but now im movin on to bigger things
i pinky promise im okay dont worry about me
dont worry bout the things i do dont watch me as i bleed
onto the flower carpet that i got when i was 17

so believe me when i tell you that im sorry
i know my disappearence is super fuckin dishearteniing
but its good for me dont see it as alarming
im like a loaded gun with no safe method to disarm me

i know my friends are really sad to see me walk away
got 10 thousand plays but got no raise within my little fame
i wont see the day i hit a million cuz ill be gray
and 6 feet under with the way that things have gone today

so i guess this is the end my final time has come
i declared a war not knowing of the outcome
i went in over my head i thought that i had won
but i ate my fucking words like ima eat this fucking gun

they say that you can only get so high
before you crash and burn when you fall out of the blue sky
im done acting like i car im sick of this disguise
so ima bite the bullet literally and meet demise

dont act like you knew me whenever i die
everybody saying "oh i rly liked that guy"
then tell me why you couldnt help when i was alive
so this is the ending of my life
this is my last goodbye

goodbye. (jewelryboy)

High
_____________________________________________________________
Oh I cannot take it
I'm feeling so naked
I'm coping with being alone
There was an old saying
That men in the making
Are both the mason and the stone
Now I-I-I-I'm feeling the pain
Now I-I-I-I'm stuck in the rain
I'm trying to survive all these changes
I'm calling out to all my angels
I always forget that a rainbow comes after the storm
I head inside by the fire to warm

I get so high, get so high
I touch the sky, touch the sky
I get so high, get so high
I touch the sky, touch the sky

But you always come down then it's cold
Once so young, now you're feeling so old
I guess some things you'll never control
You must be like the water and flow
Happiness goes with the tides
You will feel like yourself in some time
I stick my hand in the furnace & watch it remold
Don't get attached Don't get scared to let go

I'm trying to survive all these changes
I'm calling out to all my angels
I always forget that a rainbow comes after the storm
I head inside by the fire to warm

I get so high, get so high
I touch the sky, touch the sky
I get so high, get so high
I touch the sky, touch the sky
_____________________________________________________________

Produced & mixed by John Wehmeyer & Weepings
Written by Weepings
Mastered by Weepings
Eternal September | 2023

High

go go go v2 freestyle

Bad bitch, you want it? Have it. She living lavish,
Too bad that I'm a 'sad boy' she need a savage.
A savage, remember growing up we never had shit.
Pull up on ya block and let it ring, I let em have it.

Bad bitch, you want it? Have it. She living lavish,
Too bad that I'm a 'sad boy' she need a savage.
A savage, remember growing up we never had shit.
Pull up on ya block and let it ring, I let em have it.

I ain't tell her my name no, but she tell me I'm fuego,
I fell in love at my last show, me and you, we a pair, two.
I don't know where to go now, you can beat where you want to.
And these pussies is see through..

Bad bitch, you want it? Have it. She living lavish,
Too bad that I'm a 'sad boy' she need a savage.
A savage, remember growing up we never had shit.
Pull up on ya block and let it ring, I let em have it.

Bad bitch, you want it? Have it. She living lavish,
Too bad that I'm a 'sad boy' she need a savage.
A savage, remember growing up we never had shit.
Pull up on ya block and let it ring, I let em have it.

Waste Time w/ Retro Nicotine & American Dead Cross

Ekeon

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