I became the man that you wanted, but now you’re gone and I don’t know who I am anymore.

produced by guda & JibaoRockin

lyrics: 
open your eyes
open your eyes
open your eyes
open your eyes, eyes

i know you see me
you cant deceive me
you act like it's easy
to throw me away to rot

i know you see me
i know that
just open your eyes
just open up your eyes

you're not blind you're not deaf
i know you see and hear me well
you choose not to hear me
i feel i need to yell
and you say that it's love
but i'm not sure if you mean well
til death do us part
i guess i'll see your ass in hell
i'll see you then
i don't know when
just open your eyes
and you'll see me again
i'm neither foe or a friend
it's only us in the end
wish you could see through my lens
won't you just

open your eyes (just open up)
open your eyes (can you see me?)
open your eyes(just open up)
open your eyes, eyes (can you see me?)

ah

open your eyes

Nightmare (feat. Jades)

produced by vercettiprada

lyrics: 

only call me when you need sum
I’m not returning a call bitch I never need them
I said fuck em only need me and my money
I don’t need a threesome
you busy hatin on the net, I don’t think you bitches ever been loved

I done made bout 50 bands chillin in my bedroom
Plan on making 50 more chillin in the same room
I know that’s something you can’t do
Honestly baby I can’t lose
I know I said that before but now it’s sum I can prove

tell me where the fuck you at
where the fuck you been
tell me what’s the word
told me chase that fucking bag
Put in that work
And the world is yours
Told you that I never lack 
But I fucking did 
Bag up on the floor 
Yk imma bring it back
Stuff it in my bag
Bring it back home

call failed

I would fuck up my life for some money and change, for some rings and some chains
for some people to “love” me and scream out my name til it drives me insane
oh to be a somebody with numbers and fame, would it be such a shame
now if that’s what I wanted would I be to blame

go and get it uh
go and get everything you want
go and get everything you ever needed
everything you been conceding

you don’t gotta hide ur greed
you know ur secret is safe with me
you don’t gotta lie to me
rather have money than company

that’s what I tell myself
blame it on someone else
anybody but you cuz it’s racks over mental health

only care bout ur wealth
sick in the head doesn’t matter if you have some bread
just fill up ur pockets with money fuck over ur friends
you said that’s what you wanted you filled up ur wallet and left with a feeling of dread

greed

"hanging by a thread"

produced by elavy

lyrics:

I've been tryna change my ways, not lose my faith
if I don't take the step, then I'll just stay the same
staring at a screen to get through night and day
it's hard to keep my confidence in fucking place
i know you wonder where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
if I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

maybe I'm clueless
ignorant to what the truth is
can't run or hide, baby, it's useless
I know that I've been playing stupid
I gotta save myself
for me and for no one else
before I decay or melt
or wither away in hell
tired of acting like it's fine
wish I could speak my fucking mind
when I'm here, my tongue is tied
when I'm there, I'm free to fly

I need to get away from here 
Ignore all my biggest fears
feel the sounds ring through my ears

cause I know you wonder
where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

self destruct

my personal favorite off the EP

produced by waves

lyrics:

It’s been running through my head
All the things I could’ve said
If I did, you wouldn’t listen 
So I’ll save it til I’m dead

(til I’m dead- dead-)

Does it even matter anymore?
Stuck with this feeling in my core
Something that I never felt before
won’t let me go

I don’t wanna talk about it
I feel it wrap it’s arms around
Put its hands over my mouth
Feel the need to scream and shout
But when I try it won’t come out

Would anybody hear me?
Would anybody hear me if i tried?
If I’m screaming for my life
When I’m needing for a sign
Can you show me it’s alright?

Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)

It’s been running through my head
All the things I could’ve said
If I did, you wouldn’t listen 
So I’ll save it til I’m dead

(til I’m dead- dead-)

Does it even matter anymore?
Stuck with this feeling in my core
Something that I never felt before
Won’t let me go
(x2)

let me go

short outro

lyrics:

Even if it takes a little while
Learned from my mistakes to make you smile
Doing everything to make you proud

I just want to stand right by your side
Watch our hands slowly intertwine 
Let your life turn into mine
Until we’re one and our souls align

even if it takes awhile

song is by otuka, he just deleted it so i reuploaded it 😈

Lyrics:

(I'm just procrastinating)

As long as it's you, I don't care
As long as it's with you, I don't care
As long as it's with you
Don't care what it is, as long as it's with you
As long as it's you

Do you hear me, my dear?
I'm calling for you
I'll give up my fear, and step away from my room
Step away my safe place, my comfort is you
My heart's not in the same place when it comes to you
(When it comes to you)

As long as it's you, I don't care
As long as it's with you, I don't care
As long as it's with you
Don't care what it is, as long as it's with you
As long as it's you

darling

otuka - darling

otuka - break

raw vocals
guitar by michael harrison

I’m so afraid right now
feel like I’m close to the end somehow
thought I was just getting started
and now I’m stuck in my tracks

I’m scared that it’s all for nothing
I’ll lose it all in a blink of an eye
I devoted my life for this and I’d die for it

and I’d die for it
I’d die for it
would you die for it?

it feels like it’s all coming after me
they got my life on a stopwatch
feels like my own brain is after me
who even needs enemies
when you got urself straight torturing
put myself in a minefield
can’t even win when it’s my field
I’m losing a home game
how am I losing a home game?

home game

https://youtu.be/S4D89Z3DXNU?si=rHdCwNu7vKphLaab cuz not available in my country

otuka - still save a seat for you

throwaway

I’ve turned through every page in the book
still don’t know if I shouldn’t or I should
cuz you taste so bittersweet 
it’s like it shouldn’t have been me
but I can’t lie to you, it feels so good

feel like I should’ve known better
is this everything I wanted?
cuz I got it but I wish that i could-

take a u-turn, let it crumble
watch it burn down into rubble 
hoping that you go and find another one of me 

bitch I wish you would
but you prolly could
(oh why?)

wish u would

last 2 minutes of anything & everything installment of the year. thanks for the big 10K followers on here, this platform is where i started, and i plan to continue doing these little one off uploads for my fellow soundcloud users. love u always and keep holding on cuz we're almost there

1. polished
2. dilemma
3. journal (worm)
4. chrome
5. trunk
6. euphoria (this should've been on one of these a long time ago)
7. probably a jo song
8. parasite (a worm outtake)

hold on, we're almost there.

reupload. someone took it upon themselves to upload "eyelids" to all platforms as their own song and in turn, my upload of my own original song was copyright striked and taken down automatically. this is the same song just slightly pitched down. if it stays up without issue, enjoy.

produced by never forever


lyrics:

i know that i'm clouded
hope the sun shines someday upon me
I’ll open my eyelids
and see what I was missing 
cause my mind was so weak
crack open a smile for all the times I couldn’t speak
my mind

it don’t even matter, never lost faith in it
now I make a little pape with it
fuck around make a name with it
this a cold brew with some pain in it
now the boy got some age in em
same book but the page different
set a bookmark but it kept flipping on me
I’m running outta time

eyelids (reupload)

fools day. warm up
all plats now

produced by narxi 

lyrics:

the devils in my room tonight
hoping that I take the bite
pray my wrongs could all be right
that all my work would just suffice
extinguish hope and all the lights
the tables set for you and I 
I care bout your joy more than mine
if I walk out, am I justified?  

tell me when it all blows over
this rooms filled with paranoia
I admit I shoulda told ya
that I’m not ur strongest solider

and I never been, I know
I’m just frail flesh and bone
I hate the way you’ve changed ur tone

the devils in the room tonight 
the devils in the room tonight

you’re getting the best of me
I’ll take all the time I need
go and keep yourself alive for me
live your life then die for me

the devils in my room tonight
hoping that I take the bite
pray my wrongs could all be right
that all my work would just suffice
extinguish hope and all the lights
the tables set for you and I 
I care bout your joy more than mine
if I walk out, am I justified?  

am I justified?
cuz the devils in the room tonight
hoping that I take the bite
oh
cuz the devils in the room tonight
the tables set for you and I

wish u would

worm

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