Woke up in a pool of sweat
Told me I haven't paid my debt
Mommy said I shouldn't fret
I'll probably go and pass this test
Realize what's before my eyes
Soundly take off my disguise
Funny how I didn't know
But it felt like I loved you so

The pictures hanging on my walls
Always reminded me of fall
The colors had specific sounds
Couldn't tell when I looked around

How am I the bigger one?
When I never took out my gun
And played along to all your games
But never really felt the same
I took your word and ran with it
But now it's time to call a quits
I'm tired and I'm bored of this
Like paint on walls, the way it sits

The sun sets on my day, I cry
The tears flowing from my eyes
My thoughts keep getting worse and worse
The Xanax I put in your purse
Might kill me, but I will not hurt
Meaningful, but just hearing words
Drift off to another place
Might be nice, but another day

How are you so hyperfocused?
Buzzing in my ears, the locusts
Eat my flesh and beg for more
Don't really know what's left in store
Someone's taking over now
So can you help me figure out?
Like, what I did? The cherry pits
All crushed around me, what is this?

And how am I the bigger one?
When I never took out my gun
And played along to all your games
But never really felt the same
I took your word and ran with it
But now it's time to call a quits
I'm tired and I'm bored of this
Like paint on walls, the way it sits

Paint

wondering how (acoustic lullaby version)

lyrics:
my trust is fucked from getting fucked over again
why's it so hard for me to buckle down and let somebody in
i keep on getting close to letting go and floating in the wind
i get so caught up in the feeling then it brutally begins
i was an addict back when doin drugs could make you better friends 
now i'm an addict with nobody who will stick thru til the end
i wish i had someone to cry to when the crying starts again
drowning in feelings in the mirror seems more likely fitting in

elastic organs they will fill my stomach up and i am plastic, i am lead, and you wish that i was dead, 
but i can't collect the data cos my processor is busted and my printer paper's jammed, can i fix it with my hand and you say no
you have to hang up all your clothes before you go to find a home
or else mother she will scold the both of us
people stuck inside the cusp of losing everything we love, should we risk it all for drugs or loosen up 
we're growing up, we're growing up
and i can't handle holding cups
my attention span is rough and you don't know 
how much i miss being in love with someone 
you can hear my heart a bumpin
playin to the beat of nothing

my trust is fucked i think that i won't trust again
until someone comes along and starts to act just like a friend
i get excited when i think it's closing in, i’m closing in
but excitement starts to fade, and the lights begin to dim, begin to dim

the beat of nothing (demo)

the a team

”BREATHING UNDERWATER” ON ALL PLATFORMS: https://idol-io.ffm.to/breathingunderwater

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“‘Breathing Underwater’ is a reflection of reverence for the vastness of nature, an overwhelming force of which I’m only a tiny fragment. At the centre is the element of water, which for me is a symbol of calm and safety, yet also of isolation and numbness. This ambivalence mirrors the timeless inner journey toward self-reconciliation and wholeness. Underwater, everything feels different — like being suspended in a surreal state. To escape it, I must rise to the surface. Until then, I breathe underwater.”

– Calida Ray, 2025

On his new EP “Breathing Underwater”, Berlin singer, producer, and pianist Calida Ray continues to explore immersive worlds between R&B, ambient textures, electronica, and experimental jazz. Across seven new tracks, the 21-year-old retains the ethereal and playful quality of his 2024 debut album “Between Me And Myself” while further developing and maturing his sound.

The EP features collaborations with Kommerz fellow artist and longtime collaborator INDOME, Nigerian-American multi-talent osaremen, rising New York artist AWET, and local trumpeter Paolo De Jesus Maido.

Composer: Frederick Schulze-Schilddorf
Lyricist: Frederick Schulze-Schilddorf
Producer: Calida Ray
Trumpet: Paolo de Jesus Maido (on 4, 5)
Additional vocals: Awet Aleu (on 4), Osaremen Uwaifo (on 5),
Candra Lorber (on 1, 2, 6)
Mixing Engineer: Calida Ray
Mastering Engineer: Mark Pfurtscheller - Chin Chat Studio
Graphic Design: Kim Winterhalter
A&R: Lukas Nixdorff, Jonathan Nixdorff
Label: Kommerz Records


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awakening in presentness

Whistle Before You Die – by Manug Mirage

The whistle is the last thing you hear.
It’s not a song. It’s a warning.

A slow, hypnotic horror piece that turns a playful melody into a killer’s lullaby. Minimal, cold, and dripping with tension.

AI-assisted composition: Lyrics, concept, and mood by Manug Mirage. Arrangement inspired by psychological horror sound design. Generated with the help of AI for sound layering and atmosphere.

© 2025 Manug Mirage. All rights reserved. This is art.

Whistle Before You Die

lyrics:
Im floating in my bed
Thoughts pooling in my head
My teeth are chomping down on popcorn
I can’t feel my limbs
My body feels so dim
My brain receptors follow him

I feel sound 
I feel sight
I feel everything around me tonight

The moon man looks at me
His toothy grin widening
My heart drops all the way to my knees
My vision’s getting blurry
Oh god why can’t I hurry
I can’t remember where we began

thin mints and popcorn (DEMO)

Scruffpuppie - Teeth

Scruffpuppie - Gone

lyrics:
that fateful day my mother passed away
i cried and laid there in her grave
it smelled of worms and rubber bands
and then the hands the hands the hands
pulled all of me deep in the depths
of heaven hell together
crept a lonely with who spoke her spells 
but couldn't seem to fix herself
and then i woke up in a place
i'd never seen but i related to the cracks along the wall
my eyes sunk in as i grew tall
and then you called me by my name
but i never was someone to blame
why must we all be filled with hate
the moon came out a little late

and so i remain here most every night
10,000 miles up in the sky
im here to promise you're alright
to be your friend to be your light

Scruffpuppie - a lesson from the moon

Scruffpuppie - carelessness (demo)

A LOT OF TRACKS PRIVATE!
due to getting more taken down. I can only keep some up that won't get strikes, message me for links to private songs if you really want :)
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I'm not @Scruffpuppie

Scruffpuppie - Teeth

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