if I had my druthers id dwindle my phalanges fucked with strings I'd have the motivation to keep up on what I sing, I'd commit more of what I have in store to writing of the past, Present, future and more. I'd freestyle till I cried joyous knowing I am not alone. I'd fuck every mom of every fuck who left me all alone in more ways than one and then maybe if the days were nice I
I'd sit back and atone but then I'd paint a picture of the incident and send it to their home.

If I had my druthers those wouldn't be my druthers, they'd  make me feel my mind and slightly less than sunny disposition was a bit more than the gutter, I'm a step above a cutter.
I'm a pissed off acting masochist but mom paid for those classes so I'm lucky masks are so fucking good Noone ever asks or notices. 

that shit was damn dramatic.. I can be funny sometimes too?.. I can drink ungodly amounts and forget just what I do? nahh I need distractions and this music, art and hopefully a gift of speech that at least borders interesting can make me think I'll make it through. 

PS. if you produce... please get ahold of me.. I suck at computers but I love rapping. I should hope not to disappoint anyone in any artistic avenue. this far is early stages of pulling my head out of my ass and I just want to make art 

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