this song would blow the fuck up with people who like nothing nowhere if it had a music video

Death of My Teenage

Fear'16

Biteki AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1LT7FyConbo
thank you all for the amazing support just in general.
love you all. take good care <3
featuring my extremely talented friend @sleepywater 💙
prod. @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~
[autumn]
you ok?..

so i tell myself
don't die on me
don't lie to me

i lie here, ask how i'm doing
words out my mouth 
is it trash that i'm spewing?
i deserve hell for every wrongdoing
you sewed up my heart
just after i skewed it

hate when anybody talk to me
there's not a lot to me
i'm just distraught and weak
there's so much to do in the day (day)
what do i have to do to make you stay (stay)

how does this world expect me to keep going
when all that i have are depleting emotions
and all that i am is pathetic and hopeless
and all that i ask, and all that i ask is to leave

i'm begging please
i'm falling down
whenever you leave
don't make a sound
don't even breathe
i finished counting all my steps
a cliff they lead

[sleepwater]
i'll be ready, drowning
heart beat too fast; anxiety
in my hollow frame
lost cause, puppet brain

spewing my heart 
over a fire; got dark
will you be my ember 
stuck in a cauldron
do you remember when i was holding
your achy arms i was all upon it
you got my clothes but 
you could of stopped it
sorry for the vacancy i wish i locked
it was a fucking job to you 
i wish i stopped it

[autumn]
lawless; aching doesn't stop
isn't this what i wanted from you
i'm so awful

[sleepwater]
don't make a sound, don't make a scene
filling my lungs with nicotine 
oh damn ur the one that i'll ever need
damn ur the one that just let me be

[autumn]
(let me be)
don't really know why you like me
are you just starving
for someone's pysche?
i can hear the hounds
yeah they're howling in the darkness
wonder what they found
either molly or a carcass

[sleepwater]
im prowling in the twilight
everything you say now its a delight
maybe ur an angel in disguise 
fucking up my psyche, cutting all my ties

[autumn]
i cannot talk for long
there's somewhere i gotta be
the green of the forest it calls
yeah i got a date with the-
i got a date with the trees

tell me who i am
and who i'm supposed to be
won't be here for long
bitemarks made with teeth
the frostwalker it crawls
arriving at your feet
let it rest beneath...

puppet brain w/ sleepwater [prod. afterlife]

produced by hiraeth


Call me
Bitch u never wanna call me
I don’t wanna die tn but im hoping
Crying in ur arms and I deserve all this
Cut me with the knife I forged and please don’t miss

Cut me with the knife I forged and please don’t miss
Hang me out to dry 
Drip blood from the ceiling
Im losing my mind so tell me if u mean it
Try not to cry while u rip me to pieces

Try not to cry just tell me if u mean it
Stop looking down its the blood from the ceiling
Its never my fault how tf do you miss him
Apart of me is gone that’s a part of me missing

forged

VERSE 1

(epitome)

i solidify the thoughts inside my head
the thoughts that are telling me i’m better off dead
no matter what you say to me
6 feet deep is where i’ll be
as the light from the tunnel grows darker and darker
my mind grows farther and farther away
please stay
stay with me
don’t leave my body alone to decay

VERSE 2

(paperthinwalls)

this is the last time i hope you see me 
(hope you see me)
6 feet underneath i’m not breathing 
it’s too late to go back
i cant run to the past
you left me shattered like glass
knew this would never last
it doesn’t matter i’ll be dead in the morning
body lined with chalk yeah i’m never returning 
i’m writing all these songs yeah this is my warning 
never had a place yeah this doesn’t concern me
oh oh oh
i’m burning it’s ok
i’m learning (i’m learning)
i’m so alone
got nobody i feel like a ghost

BRIDGE

(epitome)

i’m so alone 
i’m so close
to letting go
of the life i use to know

VERSE 3 (shared)

(epitome)

p-p-p-pain is never ending 
i cant find the beginning
my minds at war
don’t know what i’m searching for
a sense of hope maybe?
but i can’t find that lately (lately)

(paperthinwalls)

and lately i’ve been lost in this dream
and no hope of ever escaping
and oh god yeah look what you made me
i’m sorry it’s these feelings that change me

OUTRO

(epitome)

i’m so sorry
please for give me
i cant change
i know i’ll stay the same

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longing for death w/ paperthinwalls (metlast x luffy)

we all need time to bloom...
prod. @prodmichael
art by @ejcarrmusic
mastered by @jolst
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
if i take the time i find
some part of me is left behind
i’ve broken thru the ice
and now i need a place to dry

we all need time to bloom
when life subdues, we feel renewed

and i can feel it gettin better
i wanna be here forever
the trees are all turnin red
and i love her to fuckin death and i

saw this coming, no more running

i been livin like a dweller
im sinkin into my bed
and im hiding under the sheets
cuz my hair is a fuckin mess but i

saw this coming, no more running

if i take the time i see
im needing closure desperately
i failed to close the chapter of my life
i was living previously
what to do?
where to go?
i can’t handle questions, no
i do better living never
shitty weather suits me so
well
so well
if u ask me how im doin i won’t say im doin
so well
so well
cuz the time it takes
will lead the way for me

we all need time to bloom
when life subdues, we feel renewed

and i can feel it gettin better
i wanna be here forever
the trees are all turnin red
and i love her to fuckin death and i

saw this coming, no more running

i been livin like a dweller
im sinkin into my bed
and im hiding under the sheets
cuz my hair is a fuckin mess but i

saw this coming, no more running

we all need time to bloom
we pick and choose, we win and lose
we all need time to bloom
when life subdues, we feel renewed

bloom [xmichaelwarren]

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produced by: @prodneverforever

lyrics, mixing and mastering done by me 

and my eyes 
they burn white
where u been
all this time, i
i’m lonely
on white wine 
u won’t win
this time, i 
i won’t leave
and that’s fine 
and codeine leaks 
from my eyes, i
won’t breathe 
not this time, 
so get up
and don’t cry, boy
x2

burnwhite.

treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live
treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live

every song
that u get
is a piece
of my health
puppet strings control me
so for them make something else
she could kill me yet again
and this corpse would only sputter
this hope turns to
waiting for the waves to pull me under

treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live
treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live

i simply need someone's affection
but we could have phone sex
she says without idling
we store
idealized versions of eachother
in our heads
in our heads

i simply need someone's affection
but we could have phone sex
she says without idling
we store
idealized versions of eachother
in our heads
in our heads

treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live
treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live

residuals (afterlife x jolst)

(intro)
i feel so stuck
won’t you let me go..

(chorus)
i feel stuck in place
i know that i’ve seen better days
i wanna run away 
but my feet planted in my grave 
i know that i can’t stay
holding on to memories 
it’s bad to contemplate
cause i feed lies into my brain

( post chorus)
i know u have to go
(u have to go)
but just know to me u were my home
(u were my home)

(verse)
now i’m shaking 
and i can’t fucking stop it 
my world is breaking 
apart and u were on it
when all i wanted was for u to be honest
i’ll close my eyes as i beg for u to stop it

(bridge)
my bones have decayed with the winter
but still i feel her

(chorus)
i feel stuck in place
i know that i’ve seen better days
i wanna run away 
but my feet planted in my grave 
i know that i can’t stay
holding on to memories 
it’s bad to contemplate
cause i feed lies into my brain

( post chorus)
i know u have to go
(u have to go)
but just know to me u were my home
(u were my home)

i know u have to go (hero)

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @horoshavibes & @jolst
Art by Katie Imbro

LYRICS
You made a promise to me
Never thought that you’d be the one to do me so wrong
It’s over now
I’m still learning how to move on
I guess that this is progression
I thought about you no more than a second time tonight
If I could rewind
I’d rescind it all
And just go back to you
Like I always do
Not caring for the fall
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off

‘Cause I'm no good for you
You’re no good for me
We’re so out of sync
There’s no harmony
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off
Caught between a rock and a hard place
Don’t wanna be alone
But I really can’t stay no
Do you wanna do this the hard way
When it comes to you
I can’t say no

(sewerperson)
I bet you're so damn happy I have gone away
Still I wish we could feel what we had yesterday
Baby at this checkpoint I still feel the same
Call me if you give up on him for this pain supplied
I know you still hate me I just hope you're safe tonight
I remember everything we let go in that candlelight 
Even if we’re not together you're still a friend of mine
Sorry I can’t control what feelings I been dealt in life
Break me and tear me up how you prefer
I pray when I die I’m not locked into lucifer
I know everything is fine right now but the future's still unsure
Teach me how to rid my self of all her hurt

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Cut Me Off w/ sewerperson (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

not for profit

original:
https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson/lock-da-doors-samashi

love y'all, hope u enjoy
thanks for making this song king @sewerperson
shoutout samashi

lock da doors (cover) [samashi]

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead
https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz

lyrics:
livid..
why'd it get so tense?
tryna find the cause
just at what expense?

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

in motion, no i'm not the same
what i've chosen, was to leave the fray
so golden; but the sun betrayed
in search of yesterday

feelings fleeding fast
i've seen past the colors of this place
for what they truly say

i told my mind that night
save the pity
for every blemish on my chest confessed
that i am all but pretty

so listen here
this is all i have
let my stomach sear
it'll grow right back

but this'll be the one
could give a fuck bout if it's done

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

death is nearing tonight
give her my sight
into the tethered light

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

relapse; decay

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autumndropsdead - relapse; decay (nate2timez)

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beat every week

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residuals (afterlife x jolst)

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