shitty cover of a song i love so much. also you should really check Blood Girl out, they are amazing. also i said "stand" instead of "strand"
update - why does the guitar sound so bad UM CHILE-

Excoriation For Dummies - Blood Girl Cover

i don’t understand why everything changes
i wish everything stayed the same
one day it works one certain way
and another day it’s the opposite

it makes me so anxious to go out
and function properly
it makes me so confused
to understand how to be like everybody else

i wish everything stayed the same
everything is different everyday
it makes me fucking go insane
to appear as mentally stable everyday
i wish everything stayed the same so i wouldn’t fucking go insane

everything i do is so useless to me
and i wish i could understand how good to it feels to be sane
and live a life where everything just goes as planned
but i am a mess, i am just a rotting corpse
i do nothing all day and still complain about being tired
i don’t know why i exist right here

i wish everything stayed the same
everything is different everyday
it makes me fucking go insane
to appear as mentally stable everyday
i wish everything stayed the same so i wouldn’t fucking go insane

so fucking insane

chords are : c, em, am, f 

insane

lyrics
my whole body aches everytime i try to do anything 
it’s like i am possessed
i see no point in existing ‘cause everything i do always fucks up my brain

when i was 13 i had to go see a psychiatrist
they told me i was crazy
they didn't even have the right diagnosis
because they thought i wasn’t sick enough

so i went to see another one and at least he had the right diagnosis 
but now everything i do feels like a weight on my back
and nothing really changed 
‘cause everytime i talk about my problems people think
i’m just making it up

everybody stares at me like i am dead
everytime i enter my classroom
maybe it’s cause i always look sad
or maybe i’m just the crazy dude everybody hates

spikes inside my body breaking me apart
turning me into shreds and making me decompose
i hope it will be fast cause i just can’t take this anymore
or maybe i’ll just get thrown into the fucked up folds of my sick brain
cause that’s where i belong 
that’s where i belong
that's just where i belong

chords - g, d, am, c capo 3 even though it will sound different if u play it 'cause the song is pitched up. if you want to play it with the right pitch then put the capo on the 4th fret <3

decompose.

this song is very old. i wrote it when i was 13 on july 18 2019. idk i just wanted to say that.

lyrics
why am i so left out
while everyone else has company
i think it’s just cause
i’m too much for people 
i don’t want to feel alone
it’s not good for my health
but i just can’t do anything about it

why the hell do i 
always feel anxious and panic in public
it feels like i’m trapped in a box
and everyone is staring at me
please stop staring at me
stop staring at me

i’ve been crying everyday
i don’t wanna get out of my room
it’s just that i’m too tired to get out
and start to live like everyone else
what am i gonna do about that

chords - f, am, em capo 3

mental breakdown

Green - Cavetown cover

i wrote this song on march 16 2021 (‎the actual oldest version of the song was actually made on february 29 2020)‎ and i originally uploaded a demo of the song called 'i wish i didn't have a body' on april 30 and deleted it 2 about weeks later.  that was because that song was very personal to me, and i've been hesitant to release it since then. sorry if it doesn't sound that great, theres so much i could do to make this song better but for now i will keep it like this, maybe forever. also thanks to @iambloodgirl for the follow. it really means a lot to me. your music always inspires me, and i relate to a lot of it. 

lyrics
TW. mentions of body dysmorphia and self harm

i wish i had control of my emotions and my body
tney make me live hell, when i wish i was always ok
but still, when i look down i only see a mess of skin
and flesh and blood and cuts that i don't want
because it makes me feel ugly

and i wish i didn't have a body 
and i wish i looked like i wanted to
but no, i have to be this distorted version of me

and i know that it's my brain that's telling me to feel like this
and i wish i was smart enough to understand it
but i am so stupid i think i am so useless
i just want to hit my stupid head into a wall

there's hair that i don't want
and there's skin that i don't want
there's everything that i don't want
and now it just makes me sad
that the way i look
isn't what i want it to be

'cause my body is a prison
and i try to rip off all the things that i hate 
i cut my skin off 
i cut, cut it off
but it never works, it never fucking works
i cut my skin off 
i cut, cut it off
but it never works, it never works

chords
d, a,  F♯m, g

body pain

lyrics 
my whole mind is so so sore
and my whole body is so so sore
and it’s been like that for years 

and my whole face is so so sore 
and everything just feels so sore 
it makes me feel tired all the time

why can’t i just stop hating myself 
i wish i could just understand my brain
but everytime i try i to do that end up even more confused

and i dont know why my mind and body do things they are not supposed to do
and that's just why i never feel comfortable with anything that i do 

‘cause the words i say feel so so sore
and the whole day i feel so damn alone
and it’s been like that for years 

‘cause my braincells are ROTTEN TO THE CORE
and every night i just feel so sore 
it’s just the fact that i exist that makes me feel so fucking sore

there i go again, i still hate myself
i never learned to understand myself
i just gave up on trying because honestly it hurts like hell

and i know that my brain need pesticides 
cause there are demons chewing on it
what if i tried to pretend that i’m okay 
maybe my brain won’t feel so sore

won’t feel so sore

SO SORE 
SO FUCKING SORE
and tired

chords - d, g, bm,g

SORE

mostly rough cover of gecgecgec, but similar to the way dylan and laura sing it live. wanted to post the first song of 2022, so there u go.
thank u so much, gonna try to post more original songs <3

gecgecgec - 100 gecs cover (live version)


once again, another (almost) 2 year old demo that i just finished+released today.
and once again, backstory about the song that no one cares about (TW. homophobic slurs)
so the first demo of this song is from april 2 2020, and it had a very embarassing title. ''i'm a sad faggot uwu'' (I'M GAY/QUEER/MLM/NBLM, SO I CAN RECLAIM THIS SLUR) and as i often do, i finished it 2 years later  :)
artwork by my bestie - noe._.exe(ig)
also, sorry if the guitar and my voice sound weird, i recorded this while sick.

lyrics
people say i’m too much
and that's where i know i’m a burden
i know that my mind is to blame
that everybody fucking hates me

they throw away all the hope left in me
they kill all the life inside of me
i wanted to make everyone happy
but then i just fell to the ground

i need to kill my brain
that’s where the problems start
that’s where i fuck it all up
i need to kill my brain
i would be better off without it
if i do at least i’ll put an end to the pain

i don’t know how to act 
going insane is the only thing that makes me real
i can’t fathom the fact that i’m still here
i’m tired of living in a cave
but that’s the only place where i am safe
and the world is too scary for me

chords - capo 1  Bm, g, d

brain sentenced to death

lyrics
hi, how are you i’m fucking pissed
‘cause all you do is treat me like shit
try to act nice, and act like u care
swear to god i’ll punch u in the face

the more time i spend with you 
the more i wanna kill myself
i’m tired of acting like its my fault
when its clear its not fucking mine

hi how are you i feel like shit
and its because of you 
i don't care if i'm killing the mood
all those things you call jokes they make me wanna die
they’re gross and they make me wanna die


its always my fucking job
to understand normal people's feelings
i wish they all could fucking die
included you cause you are one of them

you make me so mad and you make me so sad
i’m tired of breathing in your polluted air
i thought i'd have a good time but i wish i was dead
i thought i’d have had a good time but damn, i wish i was dead

uke chords - em, c, cm, g. capo 1, no capo for unpitched version.

this song is really just a simple angry vent song. it's a song i wanted to write since forever but never really knew how to, cause i thought i had to do some great amazing dramatic emotional ballad to explain my feelings towards a person who treated me badly while pretending to like me just to talk about their stuff and everytime i talked about mine they wouldn't just give a shit. but then i realized a simple angry song explains my feelings in the most simple way. and i feel angry, i feel sad and i am so fed up with those people. please never let anyone put you and your mood down and when you try to leave they just guilt trip you into not doing that. that is abusive and manipulative. take care of urself pls. thank u.ᐸ3

hi, how are u im fucking pissed.

all the songs are distorted and nightcored here
i made this like 1 yr ago


enjoy the tinnitus!!

1 - ada rook - gravity weapon
2 - poppy - 3.14 2:47
3 - zheani - napalm 4:30
4 - food house - mos thoser 6:36
5 - poppy - say cheese 9:22
6 - alice longyu gao ft. oli sykes - believe the hype 11:28

im going to stab u! - mix - september 2022

hi!
sorry if i havent uploaded in a while.
first of all thank u so much for 300+ plays on mental breakdown, for the support and for the few people that enjoy what i do. 
i have decided to release the last songs + covers under this style and then start over completely with a new style. as much as i love the songs i made so far and mean a lot to me, i feel like what i'm doing right now doesn't represent me well. 
to recap - 
i've decided to start a new part of my project which is called ''phase ii''. idk how long its gonna take me or what its really going to be so pls be patient. 
also for next year i'll try to put my music on spotify.
pls enjoy this cover of a song i really love.
thank u so much i love you<3.

look at me now - caroline polachek cover

heres another cover of a fucking beautiful song!
a while ago i said i wouldn't release it cause i didn't like it anymore.
sike
love y'all so much <3

cattails - yeule/big thief cover

chords -
capo 4 c, em, am, f

lyrics
i finally got where i wanted
and finally this situation calmed down
everythings way better now
but why do i still feel like shit sometimes

cause life is something that’s good sometimes
and sometimes it's never alright
i gave everything i had
i burned myself down

melting in candle wax
do everything to feel something
i have friends now, but they are all better 
they’re so much better than me

and everytime i meet someone new
and they act kind and friendly to me
it doesn't feel like a real thing
cause years ago this never happened

‘cause you are so much more stable than me
i do everything wrong and i’m just a fucking freak
and i don’t feel like i deserve to have your kindness
you try to help in any way that you can
you really do deserve all the people you have
and i love you for being a friend to me
and i wish i was you cause i have nothing you have

i’ve always kinda been this this way
over emotional,never knows what to say
but now at least i’m learning how to be ok
even with all this gunk in my brain
i’ll finally know what to say
i burned and melted down like candles do
and rebuilt myself as myself

'it's okay to be flawed, and i love you''

 hi everyone. this song is farewell to what i like to call ''phase i''. 
it's the last song i upload under this style. for now on i'll focus on working on new with music with a different style and i will upload way less for a while so please be patient. this is a very old song. the original demo for this song was made in late novemeber 2019 and it's my favorite song i've ever done and finished. it's a really great way to close this so-called ''phase i''. i've been making music this way since late 2018 when i was 13 and as much as i love what i've done, i feel like this acoustic sadcore style represents the past and it lives on the shadow of 13-14 year old me. i feel like i need to evolve with my music and do something that is relevant to me as of now. in the future i'll try to put my music on spotify btw.
thank u to the ppl who are here to listen, it is extremely important to me and i know i say it many times but - the suport means a lot to me.
thank u, i love you ᐸ3
phase ii incoming (july 2024 mb)

centipede song

songs :
1 - kyary pamyu pamyu - cherry bon bon - nightcore + distorted 
2 - kyary pamyu pamyu - ninja re bang bang - nightcore + distorted 3:03
3 - chaseicon - srs - 4:40
4 - ayesha erotica - nasty x baby's on fire 6:45
5 - ayesha erotica - real messy bitch - distorted 8:00
6 - that kid - mile high club - nightcore 9:30
7 - alice glass - cease and desist 12:00
8 - ayesha erotica - delicious - nightcore + distorted 13:47

i made this on nov 16 2021

manic screaming bitch - mix - nov 2021

songs : +
1 - kim petras - slut pop - nightcore 
2 - kyary pamyu pamyu - ninja re bang bang - cupcakke remix by ranpapi - distorted 1:41
3 - ayesha erotica - tina hick aka toothless tina's lost ark music factory demo - 5:55
4 - t.a.t.u - all the things she said - cupcakke remix - nightcore 6:49
5 - ayesha erotica - girl next door - nightcore 9:24
6 - ayesha erotica - i'm coming out as a christian - disorted 12:06
7 - kim possible theme song - cupcakke remix by ranpapi 13:19

this is godawful and a scourge on humanity, i made it when i was 16 so that explains why it's so bad

hornknee mountain goblin - mix - march 2022

1 - black dresses - paper planes (cover) - nightcore 
2 - webcage - self-esteem - nightcore + distorted 5:31
3 - IVE - after like - cupcakke, jiafei, noseporque111, n*cki remix - 8:05 - nightcore
4 - dreamcatcher - can't get you out of my mind - milkfish ''milkfish type beat'' remix 10:19

GASTRIC ACID - mix - march 2023

a small person who makes songs.
ig - anaveragealien

july ???

spotify https://open.spotify.com/user/iy8tqcinyu21gf13r3hkv84nt - my music is not on spotify for now i just make playlists

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