ft @ripkais :)
prod hiraeth + sinxi
ENGALAND

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink
I only did it cause i had to
ur not who I think
and all my friends were tryna warn me
But I’m stupid as shit
i don’t know how id ever trust you
look what u did
i heard ur better off without me
I’ve got nothing to give

tell me what it cost me
im sinking in my body
memories floodin in of how I fkn lost me
I was never really here you can feel it
feel more claustrophobic the lower the ceiling

if you really don’t wanna talk to me don’t talk to me
know the only problem is the fkn honesty
I caught the leakin water drippin from your balcony
words cant fix this
and I just rly wanna stop fearin
the noises in my ceilin
im breathin real heavy
im anxious and im breakin
mistaken for a bad dream
I just want you happy,
but you wanna leave me in the car
body laid out in the backseat

ive had enough of it
let me out
ur turning love into a punishment
u let me drown
i swear were only arguing
she'll come around
i swear its so embarrassing
u let me down

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink

sink ft. kais

Lyrics:

lights out
i guess im tired
and i been fightin sumthin
im goin silence huntin
i just want a moment, give me a second to hone it
every day that i wake, i gotta sharpen the blade

oh you're takin it back like it was a typo uh
i guess i was never your type then huh
cause you only like em when they love you and then leave but i wasn't that cause i never did mistreat you
you put up your guard, defend
how do we start again
when every conversation we're havin ends in disgust
cause i got insecurities and i know you don't trust
but honestly baby i don't want it to be the end of us

every time that we start to get close you pull away
and i know that i still gotta say it right to your face
but i make time to make sure that i'm around
but you never called, even when i'm not im town
oh i'll stay here even tho i know that it's fake
and i guess that we tried but it's just not aligned to fate
honesty and regret abstained, i think i almost loved you

every body got an opinion, i will just shut down
cause maybe i don't wanna hear you out the picture run mouth
and baby if i'm honest, i think that you should run now
cause ain't it bout that time for us to get close and then bounce out
eyes bled red but i want hazel instead
i'm sorry that i wasn't there when you wished you were dead
axe grind, cut the line, let my neck snap
make sure that it's taut baby won't work if it's slack

overdose license, pure death i siphoned
bro said stick to the tests, don't give a fuck i did the rest
swallowed all dat shit to give my respitory a rest
i was doin shit that'd give a baby hair on chest
and no im not proud, but i escaped from that cloud
shut the fuck up, boy them voices aren't loud
all those numbers on the internet, but you can't pull a crowd
and if we post up on this side then you are not allowed

oh shit i gotta, lie down
im dyin here won't you pipe down
you always said that what goes around comes back
but orbital, that's not how i'd describe my path
cause i just looked ahead and i see distance in my past
and things ain't goin slow your just too used to movin fast
i still got a couple questions i'm afraid to ask
understand i would but right now ima let it pass

a_pattern_of_disaffection_ (secre x splashgvng)

Thank you @caspywaspy for the beautiful feature <3

Dxnny 

No use for my flesh
guess im crawling out
backed up into the corner
Fucking done it now
Dip out of the function and im running till my legs give out
(Till my legs give out)

I was never invested
But the sex is..wow
i dont think that i was ever ready for the hell inbound 
she wishes that we were telling eachother our wedding vows
i dont think im ready for commitment there i said it now

She told me its your loss
Well Baby i think that you’re lost
nothing you say is making its way
Through to me
X2

Casperrr

im hurting and im aching
My pain will only make my back break
I love you, you hate me i should run away for my sake
all of the trauma Im facing
I cant believe its a part of my fate
i spend a lot of time of my life just thinking bout solving problems in any other way

She told me it was my loss 
Cant really tell if shes wrong
I just cant think i feel lost
I’ll hide it with addys and bongs

your loss ft casperrr (boy50)

hi :)
prod. me

lyrics:
say you wont forget me
i've been lost and empty
i don't need the sympathy i jus need a friend i can lean on

empty, lately i been empty
drugs been lookin so tempting, but ill hang on
hang on tight just for you

she wanna talk, but she heating up.. why you wanna talk when you need help?
i think i know a fake when i see one, and i think im gonna break if you be one
u can find me at my place barely breathin
i was always less needed
than them and i can see it
u can try and call it wont reach me

i dont really talk, but you kno that im like that
you know when it comes to me i dont fight back
read into everything you say, your words never lost with me

i know it gets so hard,
but life is separating us
so i wanna hear you
say you wont forget me
i've been lost and empty
i don't need the sympathy i jus need a friend i can lean on

i remember that look on your face, its so distrusted
i know, you didn't want this
but we found our love
right on pavement i found
u stomped ur feet on the ground
im sorry

say you won't forget me

spotify

1st song off my album "pity", out september 25th 

@lilskeleskrrt @bitekivibes @ytstatic
produced by me, guitar @ikarinan @tnvr555

lyrics:
i started running from you
too fast
n i fell to the ground
spilled out blood on the grass
you said you needed me
like you could never leave
and i fell for it dreaming
made it easy to breathe

but you broke it all
paper walls
you were supposed to be here
but you’re so good being gone
and i felt it all
8 missed calls
hit me up when u need me
and leave me hurt when you don’t

don’t act like you’re so innocent
like it’s not what you want
i gave u all that i had
while u were holding the gun
oh god
it was everything you said from the start
i was waiting on it falling apart

oh oh
what a waste of my time
but if it’s all with you
i’d gladly waste my whole life
oh no
i wish i didn’t say goodbye
the paper walls are burning down
our home is gone..

god damn
i feel my heart tear on every beat
the silence is deafening
truly it’s killing me
u try to forget who i am
i try to forget how your eyes were like thousands of galaxies..
oh, consumed i’m so lost in your stare
comfort i felt like i wouldn’t have fears
writing you poetry wishing you were here
if i held on longer would i still be scared

paper walls w/ skele

produced by i'm geist
guitar @hiraethsry
engineered @tnvr555

last single off my album pity out next week
thank you for listening :)

// geist
so let it all dissipate
there’s a lot on my plate
but you’re not on the list love

wipe the smile off my face
you just come and you take
like you want to let me down

but come on now, you left
so leave me alone
i smell the blood
spilled fresh, cut to a bone
and it’s all so tempting
the scent
pheromones
you stare at me
and whisper words like a ghost

"you look like a ghoul
the way that you walk
your eyes glisten red,
are you hungry my love?"

no i'm just a fool,
and i shouldn't talk
i'll sow my mouth and i'll give this all up
yeah i'll give this all up
cause i'm never enough

// yokai dreams
guess u havent had enough yet
havent filled ur gut yet
leave me to the crows
dead on the road
sight will make ur gut wrench
where her heart was supposed to be is just a silhouette
cigarettes and empty threats
tell me, are you finished yet?

stealing a look in the moonlight
ur alive now
and the moods right
im a night owl
til noon light
imma lie down
til the times right
my lover loves to make me believe
that she keep the peace on those good nights
second i'm sleepin
she's barin her teeth and
she could bite
but i don't mind

guess that i'm not used to falling in love
everyone i used to know has move on
and i know you will too
nothing has improved
said we're gonna change, just not any time soon
guess that i'm not used to feeling this way
everything i used to feel has decayed
got the heart of a ghoul
selfish and cruel
thought this was love but i was just a tool

ghoul w/ yokai dreams

Produced by @leftquiet and me :) 
Out on Spotify :P

who are we 
to some degree
everything I touch Will break 

These things I think 
I shouldn't blink 
Death might be the only way 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain

CRAWL

[+ msg] wrote this when i went to la after a break up. 
featuring @kennyorlando + @kennedysucks 
produced by @prodbyjolst + @thislandis

[+ follow me]
www.instagram.com/seejayxo
www.twitter.com/seejayxo

[+ lyrics]

[hook: seejayxo]
got too many ties i can't let go
im obsessed she got lips of an angel
orange hair dark eyes with a halo
baby i just wanna know what u came for
got too many ties i can't let go
im obsessed she got lips of an angel
orange hair dark eyes with a halo
fucked up in the back of this range rove'

[verse 1: seejayxo]
guess im posted on the west side
stop playing with my heart i told u ten times
we goin turn this to a homicide
on my life, im outside
looking at the stars in the sky
dont know what im hoping ima find
cuttin up and blurring all these lines
get this cash everything goin be fine

[verse 2: kenny orlando]
wandering the lost city of angels 
caught her putting batteries inside her halo
but her weaponry still cuts through ask my chainmail
and im pouring up trying to regain health
im on the coast and im speeding down the highway
in the model x looking like im about to fly away
she just came over and i can tell that she's trying to stay
with the lips of an angel soft kisses on my face

[hook: seejayxo]
got too many ties i can't let go
im obsessed she got lips of an angel
orange hair dark eyes with a halo
baby i just wanna know what u came for
got too many ties i can't let go
im obsessed she got lips of an angel
orange hair dark eyes with a halo
fucked up in the back of this range rove'

[verse 3: kennedyxoxo]
and ill make sure that you never forget me
im in the Tesla but you know i burn gas like a chevy
you know that im posted with my brothers like ed, edd, & eddy
pockets full of bread im eating good like the butler from jesse
fuck that im the star of the show 
I keep saying one day ill be fine but I probably won't
I know you don't care but I been scared 
and I thought you should know
Every step I take is only taking me farther from home

[hook: seejayxo]
got too many ties i can't let go
im obsessed she got lips of an angel
orange hair dark eyes with a halo
baby i just wanna know what u came for
got too many ties i can't let go
im obsessed she got lips of an angel
orange hair dark eyes with a halo
fucked up in the back of this range rove'

lips of an angel

+ spotify

lips of an angel (feat. kenny orlando + kennedyxoxo)

art by kirinhara 

oh 
breakdown 
when does it hurt less 
say i’m sorry
give my head a rest 
all frowns 
could the year just end 
i lay under trees
forgive me love for i’m hopeless 

i feel the thoughts arising as i sit in the dark
i don’t have the words to say what’s wrong with my heart 
people treat me like we don’t all bleed the same 
i guess we don’t bleed the same 
cause i spill blood all on the stage  

oh 
and i hate being sober 
guess i’m the pumpkin now
the way they carve me in october 
yeah oh 
aim your knife a bit lower 
cause it feels like i swallowed my heart how it’s over 
 
but the night’s still yearning 
sky falls apart 
waits for you 
it’s darling 
said i’m fine 
just hurting 
i’ve felt so much worse 
but i still made it to the morning 

it’s cold
don’t let me go 
just take me home 
i can’t be here alone :/ 

so cold 
like ice makes up all my bones 
i try so hard to let go 
but what’s life without a home

i've felt so much worse but i still made it to the morning [prodsecre x heyrick]

i can't look at you

prod: @irby314
master: https://soundcloud.com/diskrypt

another missed call
it's all that i wanted to see the leaves fall
please i'll 
be all alone 
and i'm not able
skin crawl 
i know what you want 
and that it's painful
tangled
it's not hard to see your angle
i see the cuts in this 
baby it's not picturesque
can't cover up the stitch
see the scars surround my chest
oh, i think i love you too much to be a good thing
don't think i trust you enough 
i get the feeling

this'll all be over soon
baby i can't look at you 
feel my skin turn pale and blue 
baby i can't look at you 
this'll all be over soon
baby i can't look at you 
feel my skin turn pale and blue 
baby i can't look at you

can't get out of what i started 
that's a problem
cause you like to lie regardless
if i'm honest
try,
keep me broken hearted
be your target
cry my dearly departed 
i'll be your last one

it goes on 
and on 
and on 
(i'll be whatever you want)
and on 
and on
and on
(until i beg you to stop)

i'll be whatever you want 
until you beg me to stop
no matter what the cost 
i think about it a lot
i'll be whoever you need
pretend i'm on tv
want you to stare at me 
want you to reach through the screen
i'll take it off for you,
regret it
a doll for you to mess with 
he told me have some respect for myself
didn't get the message 
pour it out, get me drunk
oh i'm and easy one to bed with
let me down, not enough 
oh i'm an easy one to end with 

this'll all be over soon
baby i can't look at you 
feel my skin turn pale and blue 
baby i can't look at you 
this'll all be over soon
baby i can't look at you 
feel my skin turn pale and blue 
baby i can't look at you

picturesque

standing by the bedside
baby you know you’re picture perfect
lights off moving so slow as you undress
i’ll take time but promise i’m back before the sunset
you’re gone i should’ve known that i was worthless

why is everybody spiteful
like where’d the love go?
suddenly you hate me like i meant nothing despite all…
pushing every corner like i’m not walking on tight ropes
i know the truth is that you’d never care if i fall :/

go on
hold on
seems i made it home but it all seems
so wrong
so wrong…
there’s blood all on the floor leaking down from the walls :(
i just hate that you would never call
tell me that you care but don’t try at all
okay baby posing like a doll
i’ll clean all the blood of off the walls

i don’t serenade
i spit blood out my mouth
or all the thoughts will poison me :/
i love when it builds
and feels like i’m a walking tragedy
i romanticize the pain like it’s not fucking killing me :P
swear its fucking agony

say it’s a dream
wake me up i’ve had enough
cause i feel nothing
my
emotions
have
shut
the
fuck
up.

i've felt so much worse but i still made it to the morning [prodsecre x heyrick]

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