ILL SOW MY MOUTH AND ILL GIVE THIS ALL UP

@sorrow_bringer 🖤
mixed & mastered by me 💛
[Audio Sample from King's Game]
~~lyrics~~
it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife 
like it wants in my gut

sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck
but i never went in 
cause it wouldn't be enough
colder than the night
wonder if your touch
feels a saint from above throwing up
from above throwing up

hoping i heal, but i'm proof of the damage
everyone i kill's either hungry or manic
refuse any pills that i'm offered, then panic
if i'm really real, would you feel if i vanish?
let's trace back to the start
i ain't got no time here to waste on my heart
if i wanted peace, i believe i would be "anybody"
can't feel defeat when i'm coated in honey

permanently flawed; let me get my head straight
living at the cost; on the brink of being dead weight
no headspace, just silence.
what do you expect when the sky's blaring sirens?
but i knew the consequences all along
i used too much strength tryna grow stronger
the rapture, and endless disaster

take me by the head 
(okay)
leave no evidence 
(nor trace)

the moon is turning red
the air is so condensed 
simple lives and foolish lies
i raise a knife up to my eye
if one should seek, then one shall find
but what if i've already died?

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife
like it wants in my gut

sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck
but i never went in 
cause it wouldn't be enough
colder than the night
wonder if your touch
feels a saint from above throwing up
from above throwing up

𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬...
𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦?
𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦... 𝘢 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦,
𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵?

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife 
like it wants in my gut
like it wants in my gut...

sugar in the spice (sorrow bringer)

produced by me
hope you enjoy <3

socials:
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lyrics:

Crucified
Out of time
It’s a goodbye
I’ll show you a sign

Out of breath
Cut my wrist
Let it bleed
Til I can’t see

No one’s calling on my phone
So I’m sitting all alone
Contemplating suicide
Cause god it’s always on my mind
 
You can’t say I didn’t try
Living’s just a state of mind
So I’ll stop wasting my time
Get it off my chest

I’m never coming home
Don’t expect me back
I’m taking all my things
All of my burdens with that

No I don’t wanna talk
Cause you’d brush me off
Or I’d scare you off
Cause my mind is like a wasteland

Fighting for my life but I can’t take it back
If you get too close I’ll rip your head off clean
God it’s just obscene
Can’t lay in peace

Now you wanted to fight
But look, I don’t have the time
You lost control of my mind
So its a goodbye

We can’t meet at my place
So pls don’t show me ur face
Just leave me alone

Honestly, I don’t really know what to say
I’ve got everything but still don’t feel complete
Always said that trust is earned, none left in me
Lock my room cause that’s where I’m safe

Don’t waste my life
Talking to myself
don’t need no drugs
Better luck next time

please give me a sign x4

sign

hope u guys like dis one!!! <3
another epic song w me and @imgeist
produced by: what?boy

LYRICS:

Take me back to last winter
When you were still here with me 
And I’m feeling so bitter 
Feeling so bitter sweet 
I’m gone, and your out 
Thinking bout what I should be doing now 
Leave me in the gutter 
I need some time to think about what I have done cause I’m at fault 
And I don’t think I deserve you I am better on my own 
So just leave me in the dust

As I run 
And I go to a place I don’t know 
It’s all changed, see your face, i don’t see you the same as before 
And I’m sorry I was always so cold
And do you have a second to spare 
I need your time baby, I just wanna get outta here
Been losing my mind lately, I cannot see things clear 
I suck at time saving, I ain’t seen you in a year
And since then I ain’t functioned sober 
And it’s you I can’t seem to get over 
But you don’t even remember what we had 
You just blame it all on a hangover 

I’m gone, and your out 
Thinking bout what I should be doing now 
Leave me in the gutter 
I need some time to think about what I have done cause I’m at fault 
And I don’t think I deserve you I am better on my own 
So just leave me in the dust

just leave me in the dust 
oh why the pretty words when u don’t care for us? 
you left a hole in me and ask me where’s the trust 
like you didn’t tear it up 
and it’s okay my love 

but tell me how you feel cause i’ve been losing my mind 
there’s only so much i can take before i let it all die 
and it’s been said my whole life
same song like one thousand times 
but i’m too tired to fight 
so can you save me the lies 
 
you don’t know the start of me 
and i don’t know what to believe 
you left me here just to bleed 
now i’m begging for relief

I’m gone, and your out 
Thinking bout what I should be doing now 
Leave me in the gutter 
I need some time to think about what I have done cause I’m at fault 
And I don’t think I deserve you I am better on my own 
So just leave me in the dust

have a good day :)

bittersweet w/ i'm geist

produced by i'm geist
guitar @hiraethsry
engineered @tnvr555

i suppose time will wear away the pain of not seeing you again
the memory of you
the loving of you
time won't take that away

it would be easier to die

i cant fathom
the fucking feeling in my chest
i inject the venom
hope it leads me to my death
i’ve lost all passion
this isn’t music i just vent
cause i can’t fathom
i take the blade and then i’ll rest
oh
cause i can’t fathom
how u breathe when i’m not there
cause i can’t have love
if it’s not u it’s nowhere
and at this point it’s not fair now…

i never want to fight love
i’ve made you so tired
if we can just rewind
and not get caught in the moment
i know now that our times up
but love you all the same now
yeah we cannot rewind
but i’ll hold on to the moments

i’ll write you goodbyes
till it feels like i’m not choking
but i can’t find the words
to show what was lost and broken
doesn’t matter now
how much wounds i still reopen
i’ll love you the same
even when the words aren’t spoken

i’ll write you goodbyes
till it feels like i’m not choking
but i can’t find the words
to show what was lost and broken
doesn’t matter now
how much wounds i still reopen
i’ll love you the same

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i can't fathom // goodbye pt. 3

produced by i'm geist
guitar @prodjpjp 
engineered @tnvr555

i burnt the words off of my tongue in dismay
they scraped my lungs on the way
oh how i love you i’d say

i watched the flowers decompose at my grave
you’d leave a rose everyday
and then regret you didn’t stay
ohh

i don’t want to talk
but i miss you
starting a new slate that’s been past due
you’re holding on to love but it’s gone blue
i’m holding on to love but it’s not you

i don’t to want to go
but my hearts bruised
there’s someone waiting for me that i can’t lose
choking on my words swear my tongues glued
i can’t say goodbye but i have too

her eyes as green as dancing trees in the rain
i watched the leaves all decay
there’s nothing more i could say

a perfect story, perfect song that had changed
all because i didn’t stay
and now i can’t be awake

oh
u don’t want to talk
but i miss you
promise that i’ve changed its a new hue
you’re letting go of love say it’s all blue
i’m letting go of love cause it hurts you

i don’t want to go
but my hearts bruised
there’s no one waiting for me and that’s fine too
choking on my words but it’s not new
i can say goodbye
it’s all that i do

oh
write the words in the stone
r.i.p. to our bones
petrify me my love
forgive me
i’m not that tough
my patience
trust
it’s all fucked
i’m sorry love
but hey..you might the one
your voice brings me a new calm
so promise me that you’ll come
and hold me close

stone

produced by i'm geist
guitar @hiraethsry
engineered @tnvr555

last single off my album pity out next week
thank you for listening :)

// geist
so let it all dissipate
there’s a lot on my plate
but you’re not on the list love

wipe the smile off my face
you just come and you take
like you want to let me down

but come on now, you left
so leave me alone
i smell the blood
spilled fresh, cut to a bone
and it’s all so tempting
the scent
pheromones
you stare at me
and whisper words like a ghost

"you look like a ghoul
the way that you walk
your eyes glisten red,
are you hungry my love?"

no i'm just a fool,
and i shouldn't talk
i'll sow my mouth and i'll give this all up
yeah i'll give this all up
cause i'm never enough

// yokai dreams
guess u havent had enough yet
havent filled ur gut yet
leave me to the crows
dead on the road
sight will make ur gut wrench
where her heart was supposed to be is just a silhouette
cigarettes and empty threats
tell me, are you finished yet?

stealing a look in the moonlight
ur alive now
and the moods right
im a night owl
til noon light
imma lie down
til the times right
my lover loves to make me believe
that she keep the peace on those good nights
second i'm sleepin
she's barin her teeth and
she could bite
but i don't mind

guess that i'm not used to falling in love
everyone i used to know has move on
and i know you will too
nothing has improved
said we're gonna change, just not any time soon
guess that i'm not used to feeling this way
everything i used to feel has decayed
got the heart of a ghoul
selfish and cruel
thought this was love but i was just a tool

ghoul w/ yokai dreams

produced by i'm geist
engineered + guitar @tnvr555

tell me how it feels
to be right by your side
cause i’d trade it all
if i could turn back time
it’s fine
i took the knife and died
i’ll take your pity and cry
if you see my ghost tonight
promise you’ll wave goodbye

left a note by the door
she said,
“i love you i’m sure
but now that i’ve thought it through
and i can’t go on with you”
severed heart i feel torn
like pain i’ve never endured
and every time it hurts worse
i sit here crying a verse

i’m not gonna fight this feeling now
let it slice through, let it bleed me out
and i really miss your voice
how i need you love
but we’ll just fight more
never hear me out

but u let me down
and i let you down…
yeah you were first
and you ditched this town…
can you see me now?
with my broken crown
do you hear this sound?
bet you don’t listen now..

the promises that we couldn’t keep
the memories it’s all agony
and now i’m left here with what i’ve reaped
i’ll plead and beg you for your pity

pity

love, ghost

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83Bd5PWLwBA

[prod. jpjp & deadfish]

i'm geist:
a broken design
step aside and rewind
but time doesn't seem to heal
the body's inside
and the blood is on your hands
so don't tell me that this isn't real

it's not the same, no
tell me where did my mind go?
cause i seem to have lost control
why won't the pain go?
i swear i've waited the time love
but i can't seem to take anymore

so say can i save myself now?
(envy) i think it's far too late you'll drown
but i need them to hear me out
(envy) don't make a sound just shut your mouth

notenvy:
my frame is fractured like kaleidoscope
the only sense of matters left my brain
i swear i'm losing hope
i’m doing fine, oh you don't want to know
the shit that i've been going through
i'm gripping on, i've lost control
another day intoxicated
do you ever think of me
my structure’s slowly breaking
another breath is wasted
screaming from my chest
i fucking wish someone would save me

kais:
i hate it when you talk to me, but talk to me some more
hands to my ears and my face to the floor
love it when they lie to me, so lie to me some more
you fucked me up and put me through the ground
scream for help, but it never makes a sound
you took it wrong, I didnt mean it that way
silent with the pressure, but I let it stay
imma let it till it breaks me
down, I know you want me here but I never come around
im sorry and I owe you that. that’s what this shits about
I walk slow with my teeth glued to my mouth
I don’t talk cus the rooms always too loud
loud
loud

deadfish:
and i'm waking up
heart's fucking numb
it's only 7am
but I can't seem to lay down

anxious bout the day
what's gonna happen today
I just can't get a break
everything's still the same

mind is racing if today you're gon reply to me
nothing points to that but I'll wait just in case

if u had a change of mind
blood is pouring out my eyes
phone is charged all the time
cause I'm waiting for

for you to reply
please stop wasting my time
it just wasn't enough
and I can't make up my mind

you said that nothing has changed
but I don't feel the same
but I am keen to believe cause I'm
just hopeless

funeral:
i get so deep in this shit and i'll never get out
now i'm stuck and i'm waiting
i never think i just act and i ask if i'll make it
or maybe i'm wasting
my time right here, right now
blood leak, blood flow, lights low, lights out

it's way too obvious to me
the way the bodies dust, i bleed
i need one second alone now
one shot, now i'm dead, body goes down

sewerperson:
rust gives way to the chains that hold me
for yesterday could not control me
toxins permeate
the armoured skin that covers me
u poor man ur final day
is ended here from under me
woah bring out the big guns
im in the mood to erase something
huh just try to say something
u getting face fucked
blunt getting laced up
put u in swamp water face up
no matter the chaos faced
i wouldn’t give up
for time will tell
of better days
from here I smell
the autumn rainfall
it helps me stay strong

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time will tell w/ i'm geist, notenvy, kais, deadfish, funeral, sewerperson

Mission (Prod. Whitemayo)

R&B ,Soul.
dealing with loss and betrayal but remembering the words of wisdom from loved ones who have passed on and from the most high.

Will Come To Light

stream anywhere :) https://fanlink.to/read-receipts-ft-heylog

written & performed by: @lonesity & @heylog
produced by: @lonesity
engineered by: @camjmusic & @lonesity

lyrics:

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin' for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

[verse 1:]
nobody wanna hang with me
i get it
i would have to agree
that i'm not perfect
but random people love me
i don't get it
don't know what they see in me
i'm just curious
i'm thinking back on what you said to me
i don't know what i am or what i'm supposed to be
in the end i'll be there when you're close to me
i doubt you'll ever get there, but we'll just wait 'n' see

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

[verse 2:]
nobody wanna hang with me
i get it
i would have to agree
i'm a lost person
i smile finally
but it don't last for long
99 percent of the day
i wear a frown
i swear to god i don't belong with anyone
'cause they tend to fall out of love
keep that in touch
i swear to god no one
understands me
and i end up pissing me off
it's not healthy

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

ghoul w/ yokai dreams

I'm Geist

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