got that heavy miles, this is a really nice song man :)

this is kindaaa old, so ignore the mix LMAO but I decided I'd add some stuff and go ahead and release it <3

prod. by afterlife

distort (afterlife)

https://twitter.com/prodjolst

im not saving face i just expect em all to hate me
why i even care, there aint nobody that can save me
nothing is enough too far behind the dreams im chasing
ive been lost in the background fading

you kick me when im down then say you wanna fuckin talk?
couldn't have been right, i guess it wasn't what i thought
so keep my fuckin name out of your mouth until i rot
you'll never see my face again i knew i wasn't wrong

i gotta pay for my actions
intimate details become a distraction
i wont permit it, i'll give no reaction
i lay in emptiness, life's no attraction

i wont lie, i dont really try enough to settle all the spite
the hatred in my heart and the envy in my eyes
get me back inside ive been driving all night
i can see the sunrise

brush it off, i really get what i give out it hits me 10 fold
like a mirror shinin back reflecting inners of my mental
nah its not you it's only me, maybe you could get it
if you saw just what i see

life is no attraction (jolst)

i m m a g o s m o k e

produced by killedmyself

completely non profit

lyrics

smoking on a fat stack
think i had a heart attack
tryna make my mind blank
all my blunts are fully packed
she just made my back snap
she just made my soul black
i just spent a fat rack
its okay ill make it back

in a week maybe two
look at my face i gone blue
im smoking on hazy now
bitch im smoking u
what u gonna do
i put u in a mood
im just fucking rude
aint nun to do with u

smoking on a fat stack
think i had a heart attack
tryna make my mind blank
all my blunts are fully packed
she just made my back snap
she just made my soul black
i just blew a fat rack
its okay ill make it back

its an all black fit with the silver chains on top of it
metal in my face i feel this jewelry pierce my fucking skin
i dont get what the hell the fucking problem is
i cant love myself despite when im hearing all these compliments

im just doing what i do
wanna see what i can do before im 22
maybe have a house with a pool and a view
i can just kick back smoking bongs on the roof
i can just kick back getting plays getting views
see my name not my face in the news
i dont need no girl on my waist or a boo
and i like being alone i dont need u too

smoking on a fat stack
think i had a heart attack
tryna make my mind blank
all my blunts are fully packed
she just made my back snap
she just made my soul black
i just blew a fat rack
its okay ill make it back


heart attack 110 (killedmyself)

thank you to @sewerperson

bates:
im alright
but id be better if i could just step inside
and i took the reigns
just tryna take control back of my life
but its too much to fight
i reach back and swing, i try
i gotta wet my knife
said it to my face and lied
im too mortified
entrances stay fortified
i dont want advice
trust ive heard it a million times
i cant take in sights
swear that my fuckin brain is fried
such a lonely night
i cant say it but i'll try

i kept the worst all around me
now you'll know better than to fuckin doubt me
its been way too long
i can hear the shadows call
more than writing on the wall
reaching forward and i fall

yeah its terrible
absence of words just happened to say it all
it got way too much i just couldn't go out and face it all
its all my fault
give into misery, lean in and i drop
couldn't find the words
looking back and i seem to know it all

sewerperson:
tell me twice
first time i was mummified
i'll abide with anything u say is right
in the dark we all turn to lesser life
candle light saves me in these lonely nights
war inside ur head is purely natural baby
once i say my grace i turn to animal baby
pray for me cause i been out my head as of lately
tables turn and friends turn into heathens that hate me
i feel i'm the perfect candidate in this purge
i got shackles on my ankles while i pick at this dirt
i guess i dont got my angel looking down on my state
cause if they were then i'd be subject to a numbing of fate
as time goes by i could feel me rot
the light cuts thru me and it tears me up
i apologize for the pain i had caused
i know it doesn't make it right but at least i fought

bates:
yeah its terrible
absence of words just happened to say it all
it got way too much i just couldn't go out and face it all
its all my fault
give into misery, lean in and i drop
couldn't find the words
looking back and i seem to know it all

hindsight bias ft. sewerperson

nevrfall sequel 😈

shoutout @ztope for mix and mastr

lyrics

the pallets warm so i cant call it art
ripping teeth, picking skin leaves a mark
liquor pours, while our eyes at th stars 
its not much but i call it a start 

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 
when i hurt i evolve my dear
painting pictures all alone there’s nothing more i fear

ill wait, wait for u to call my name 
uh, but
we dont got long i wont be forming greys
hey,
this aint my fault i was saved 
had no choice, i was left in acid rain
 

no, now u jus stabbin me
dont, dont let me off easy
woah i cant tell if this a dream 
mirror always fogs when i think i know what i see

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 

pulled on strings oh im more than aware
oh im not lost i just reak of despair

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 
when i hurt i evolve my dear
painting pictures all alone there’s nothing more i fear

the pallets warm so i cant call it art
ripping teeth while picking skin leaves a mark
liquor pours, while our eyes at th stars 
its not much but i call it a start 

paying fees to the dark and unstable
sparks flare as the tags on the toes are unabaled
hearts warm but its taking its toll on the brain
step forward, im in need of updating

everythings gonna be ok

everythings gonna be ok (nevrfall)

reuploaded cuz shizukesa taught me a better looping technique that loops it on beat

s/o to https://soundcloud.com/yonah-b for uploading the og snippet, first thing i evr made on fruity loops, only goin up from hereee.

og: https://soundcloud.com/yonah-b/residential-snippet-03-02-2022

it's okay, wipe your tears, i'm better alone
found myself when i stopped picking up the phone
all my friends inside im not tryna loathe
never felt at home
you would've never known
i can't talk less
when you're my sin
in the morgue dress
and the timeless

residential. - morgue dress (santana) (remastered + extended snippet)

why you leave

not home. - why you leave

meditate (prod. taylor morgan x 4evr)

wastedyouth x seejayxo x lil skele - big bags (+ iof)

produced by: @malithmusic

lyrics:

and ill stand right by ur side, meet u at 9,
behind ur hair u hide, and thats a bad sign,
i wanna make it to July, hope we make it to July 

everytime she's around, yeah I fuckin flatline, 
pretty sure nobody should be that nice,
in my arms you cried, i promised you a better life

get out
im done
say goodbye to your mum
they all told me
you're the one
I guess everyone was wrong
ppl keep on dragging
my name in the mud
u cant catch me lacking,
I put that on my blood,
I FEEL THE scene is cracking,
and it don't feel too good, 
about the boys in black, yeah
you're fake not misunderstood 

and ill stand right by ur side, meet u at 9,
behind ur hair u hide, and thats a bad sign,
i wanna make it to July, i hope we make it to July 

everytime she's around, yeah I fuckin flatline, 
pretty sure nobody should be that nice,
in my arms you cried, i promised you a better life

meet at night
bedroom eyes
thats a sign
did u lie
I fell on
to the knife
arms u cry
better life

i m m a g o s m o k e

not home.

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