next2u (emorave)

[@3dssucks + @0k1ro + @lei] 
{i did the other drums and strings @ the end lol}

les go
scared of ur love
les go
scared of ur love i-
ugh ugh scared i-
scared

and i dont need ur love 
dont need ur love
and i cant omg
blood in my cuts now
and i could never run
i cant move yea im stuck 
surrounded by drugs
i think i had enough

i cant breath, stand
relax, one breath
cant think my head
i see again
i cant breath, stand
relax, one breath
cant think my head
i see again

i feel alive
all this energy, i could never die
upon the hills i can see what i cant find
i found beauty with my very own eyes
i think i love her and i dont, and im scared
and my words all in my throat
ur love's my fear i-
drop a tear ugh cry
why me why, all i do is try

i made it thru it on my own 
he talking tough ill cut his throat
we push to start like go go go
like u cant talk u stole my flow
break calcium all in my bones
and love engraved all in my code
i still see you as my own
i still see you as my bro
talk to the mirror--like i know
but i dont want u anymore
slamming the door, im running out
and i aint looking back no more
waking up on the floor
its like a been here before
love u i love u more--then i said

and i dont need ur love 
dont need ur love
and i cant omg
blood in my cuts now
and i could never run
i cant move yea im stuck 
surrounded by drugs
i think i had enough

i cant breath, stand
relax, one breath
cant think my head
i see again
i cant breath, stand
relax, one breath
cant think my head
i see again

scared
again
scared of ur love yea scared-
again
scared i-
again
scared
again

i cant breath, stand
relax, one breath
cant think my head
i see again

and i dont need ur love

i see again

spotify

production+guitars by me & @oakscreen
feat. @heavenindaclouds

why am i so annoying
toxic all the time like i'm poison 
talk down n his corpse will be floating
ill be fine, ima try, ill be coping 
why does everyone ignore meh
same thing every day its so boring 
idgaf i'm still hoping
ill be fine, ima try, ill be coping  

toxic all the time like im poison 

ill be fine, ima try, ill be coping 

and im pacin around my room 
cuz i dont kno wat to do
n i thought u were my friend
and u said u loved me 2
i guess true love isn't true
oh my god what should i do
gonna throw up on my shoes (x2)

@heavenindaclouds :
see you staring in the glass with a mean face
i can't see shit i cant see straight now
yea you talkin love we gon' be late now
that's a mistake
i been dealin with shit since i was young 
i'm just tryna have some fun
you could take all this shit back without a gun
you ain't the only one
said you wanted love 
want it all 
but you didn't wanna make a friend 
not at all
you said you taught me lessons taught me more 
i don't really think i get the message anymore
cause ive been thinkin bout love 
is it me or is it trust (x2)
~~
big thank you to oakscreen

stream

coping w/ heavn

Credits://
@kimzhel
@januaryyy
@findwield (mastering)
@bodygaard

Notes://
praise kimzhel
praise sasaeng
praise jxlyy
CEOS of mamacore

Lyrics://
i try to sympathize but we can’t make amends if you won’t back down
i know you can’t decide but i wouldn’t want to trade this for the world right now
where is the compromise you’ve been hearing my side from the word of mouth
i’m so desensitized detached from the girl that i knew so well

and every time you see me
it’s like we’re finally meeting
we only talk so briefly
i’d stay but there’s no reason

and i think that’s my que
there’s nothing left to do
i hate what i pursue
cuz time and time again it’s you

alright get set let’s go
let’s go before our drinks get cold
your face still has that reddish glow
these visions got me missing you

round and round inside my head
inside my head
inside my head
inside my head

Missing You (prod. kimzhel & jxlyy)

Credits://
@heavenindaclouds
@baredex-522947753
@h45
@bodygaard

Notes://
I have no words...
I put so much effort into this song...
I'm glad i did...

Lyrics://
cursed to walk this earth but no one offers helping hands
pick up all the pieces i should really start again
get myself a job and try to make some fucking friends
scratch that, i don't want that, can you help me make a plan?

it might take some time but i think i could come around
i don't want to hand i feel depressive in and out
hope you understand what i be going through right now
cuz i cannot get a grip on what this shit is all about

assume you're always lying when you say you have my back
treat me like the others cuz i don't know how to act
working on my people skills but i just need some rest
waiting for the day when both my parents are impressed

b-974
i need 20 more
package at the door
tell me what you want
some one i adore
i need that for sure
who were you before
am i what you want?

1,2 just tell me what to do (3,4)
tell me where to move
tell me what to choose
you wont tell me what you want
anything at all, you know who to call

you know who to call
for anything at all
i can get it quick
yeah that's how we ball

pristine, magic
lights cam action
guess what happens
guess what happens
so tragic, black magic
my habits, so drastic

pissed off, captions always matching
i could never do this shit alone you make it happen
played a part in everything i did but then you vanished
couldn't fu-
couldn't help but think that i was average

used to cry while driving from my work going home (1,2,3,4)
i was 19 hoping i could have someone to hold
want to be the person people look up to the most
and i wouldn't mind dressing in designer, head to toe, no

not tryna be difficult
but i'll try to be a little less cynical now
a little less critical
if you were unsure would you risk it all? no

bodyGaard & 73x - Helping Hands (prod. heavn + baredex + bb)

SANITY [p. kenzee]

never go back

goodbye 4 now

@prodpitfall @ddertbag

you dont exaggerate or anything
like
t t t
tell me what u want im not tryna be a nice guy
dirty cup with drugs and u know i paid a high price

i think im connected its the wifi
im starin at the sun its such a bright light

he wanna gamble w his life he might die its not my fault
im prada steppin on this ice it might crack ik u dont have my back

u know i need 1 more chance
makin ur diamonds all dance
magic one wave of my hands
bad debt was paid in advance

was paid in advance
my diamonds dance
u couldnt like it
ik youll never mind it

drugs in my email (brr!)
no we couldnt talk thousand meters away
i could never live w ur face in my head
i think im off better off dead

u got cigarette breath
and it looks like ur friends hate me
tried to play the game the right way
now u treat me like a baby

foam is flowing from my mouth
this uber thinkin that im crazy
made a plea for peace and comfort
now my demons actin shady

never asked for much from no one
i think im chosen
to the lay the roses out on anybody who bespoken

The Lighthouse (2019)
Ephraim Winslow, well now he got a.. spiffy clean slate.

And Thomas Howard.. well, he don't.

No prospects.

Exaggerated [or, No Prospects] (prod. pitfall x ddertbag)

joystick ft ericdoa & endie prod 4am

me x @kurtains x @wido123456789
my part mixed by @rosesleeves
song is out on all platforms <3

[Hook: kurtains]
Treat it like a fashion I know they wanna be me
Walking down the runway modeling with Glaivey
Yeah we dressed up for a nice occasion
Spinna on my hip and it hates them, got they heart racing
Treat it like a fashion I know they wanna be me
Walking down the runway modeling with Glaivey
Yeah we dressed up for a nice occasion
Spinna on my hip and it hates them, got they heart racing

[Verse 1: wido]
Wanted me to die, hit me up it's too late
Yeah I know they hate me, but we own the runway
Put you in a trash can, your shit is containers
You can please me three ways euro, dollars, pesos
Stop walking, make me want to die
They pull up with 3s and 5s, I pull up with dirty knives
Call me Mr. Suicide cause I want my own homicide
Pills and water on my left shoulder, syringe on my right

[Hook: kurtains]
Treat it like a fashion I know they wanna be me
Walking down the runway modeling with Glaivey
Yeah we dressed up for a nice occasion
Spinna on my hip and it hates them, got they heart racing


[Verse 2: heroine diaries]
If we talking pills then you know I fucking need it
I’ve been state to state ask your girl she be fiending
They don’t want smoke all I hear is fucking squealing
Yeah she broke my heart pass the xannys get to healing
Why the fuck your fit so basic
Pull up on them leave them faceless
Fuck my home town I’m most hated
Small town kids ain’t been much places
Start to feel normal so I think I need the benzos
Crying like a bitch when he find out in the friend zone
Heard his new tape I said who the fuck this Bladee clone
Kill myself tonight just so I don’t have to be alone

[Hook: kurtains]
I know they wanna be me
Walking down the runway modeling with Glaivey
Yeah we dressed up for a nice occasion
Spinna on my hip and it hates them, got they heart racing
I know they wanna be me
Walking down the runway modeling with Glaivey
Yeah we dressed up for a nice occasion
Spinna on my hip and it hates them, got they heart racing

never go back

lieu