Name: Bills by NOUELA
Duration: 2 min 52 s
Description: When somebody asks you to record an "indie" version of a destiny's child song, you say YES. You say it LOUD.

Climbing Up the Walls Cover

hey… it’s me. uh i don’t know if this is getting through, but i’m just gonna talk like it is.
i’ve been sitting with this thing that feels like it’s been inside me forever. it’s weird. it hurts, but it also clarifies things. like the joy and the frustration i feel? i think they’re the same thing, the same root. i think i’m living this like double-consciousness. not like a social one, but a biological one. like… if something’s alive, that’s enough you know. if it breathes, it belongs. if it’s participating in the whole energy exchange, it’s family. everything is already… in relationship.

and people keep asking questions like, what’s the purpose? or what’s the value? and i’m over here thinking like, is it alive? what does it need? how do i stay in the right relationship with it?
it feels like we’re not even speaking the same language.

and it’s not curiosity that frustrates me i love curiosity. i love wonder.
it’s the way human systems keep forgetting the intelligence that’s like already built into being alive. like knowing has to be earned, or certified, instead of just like experienced, remembered? i don’t know uh

i feel this tension inside me, there’s probably a million ways to say it but i feel like everything is a conversation and it’s because i listen i hear things most people have trained themselves not to hear.

but the joy is still there. always. it’s always there. this like quiet knowing that reciprocity is the default state of life. life doesn’t need to be convinced of its own coherence you know like, humans do.

and you know like i joked the other day that evil is live backwards, but… it keeps hitting me. you know if you turn life backward, cut it off from relationship, it becomes domination. extraction. hierarchy.

and there’s this loneliness that’s hard to shake in like seeing what feels obvious while everyone else is mesmerized by something artificial. when i say all i do is listen, i mean i’ve stayed open in a world that rewards shutting down. and people like me get treated like they’re naïve or unstable or inconvenient.

but i’m not the crazy one.
i’m just not willing to un-learn what everything else keeps forgetting.

Is It Alive?

When somebody asks you to record an "indie" version of a destiny's child song, you say YES. You say it LOUD.

Bills

FIGHT off the Debut album "Chants" to be released June 12th through The Control Group. 

Bills

NOUELA

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