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EASTGHOST - Only One

i took you for granted baby
and i haven't changed a bit
self medications and bullshit spilling outta my head
but i still tried to convince you
that i solved all my issues
cuz that'll fix the shit i can't fix for a bit, won't it?

i took you for granted baby
and i haven't changed a bit
self medications and bullshit spilling outta my head
but i still tried to convince you
that i solved all my issues
cuz that'll fix the shit i can't fix for a bit, won't it?

i'll convince myself to stop tryna miss you
erasing every fucking thing that i've pictured, don't matter how much it hurts
slivers of memories flash like View-Master pictures
meanwhile i tear my fucking hair out 'bout how i fucked it, i fucked it, i fucked it up

i got nothing to offer now, babe
i don't expect you to wait around for me
but i wish you fucking would for my sake; selfish
hung up on comforts while we're still strung out with pain

yea we're both drunks
maybe you a little less than me
but we piss each other off on the daily

i took you for granted baby
and i haven't changed a bit
self medications and bullshit spilling outta my head
but i still tried to convince you
that i solved all my issues
cuz that'll fix the shit i can't fix for a bit, wont it?

love

i took you for pomegranate

Two years
In a way, I still haven't left you
But I let you come and go as you please, and break my boundaries
Why do I have to show my tears
To convince you, just to pry out sincerity
I'm getting tired of breakdowns, and begging's getting rough on my knees
I still miss you dearly
Thrown away a thousand songs I wrote from my heart
'Cause I can never seem to say the words that I want

Write, rewrite in desperation, might convince you if I get it right
I know that I can't change your mind, but I'm deluded I might

yet another shitty little song for you

you said you're deleting your old pictures of us
so i found my old phone, blew off the dust
though it hurt a bit, i mostly just thought
how could you rather have them lost?
i'll lose my voice before i shut up
yelling melodies of memories touched
know we've both grown apart and grown up
but how could you rather have them lost?

how could you rather have them lost?

waste my youth in my room
thinking 'i wish i could'
life's novelties worn off
anhedonia
barely withstood

i feel too little, and im tired, and im much too scared to die
im bored im bored im bored im bored im ---??

trite, uninspired, worthless
and ive tried, ive tried so hard
wired, like im flailing on purpose

wat de heck

its getting harder to stand
and fuck, i know what you did
you still made my life a mess
somehow again

now im ruined again
more sobriety tests
from those i thought were my friends
somehow again

bury my head in the sand
losing my mind over this
??
somehow again

now im ruined again
more sobriety tests
from those i thought were my friends
somehow again

somehow again

i wanna go to bed
i could stop the violence
blissful, perfect subconscious
ill dream of desert islands
where ill be all alone
and never fail myself again to be enough
my whole self atoned
as long as no one sees the entirety im ashamed of

let me sleep
i can die for a bit
in my sheets

INSANE challenge: james tries not to kill himself (difficulty: IMPOSSIBLE?)

need to numb all of these feelings
think some meds might really cure me
not those from dr. nazri, they make my dick not work
could stare up into the ceiling for hours
and never get bored
these days are as exciting as that seems to be
think honestly I'd prefer bed sores
seems like my only hobby is complaining
i live to be dramatic
I'll live my life in static

fuck these psychiatrists, I think that I could do it better myself
I'll relapse for the tenth time over
but this time, I swear getting drunk really helps
cuz everything that hurts gets left sober


picked up a treat for myself!

PAIN RELIEF

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