i hope i'll see you soon

youtube: https://youtu.be/aCIPzL03src

me
- https://soundcloud.com/nshvllmusic
- www.instagram.com/nshvllmusic
- www.twitter.com/nshvllmusic
- www.youtube.com/c/nshvllmusic
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the loss of a loved one, whether partner or former partner, and either from death or them leaving and moving on

[lyrics]
i'm only 17
i don't know anything
but i know that i miss you

you don't deserve me
i don't deserve you
please take your time
but know i won't be here forever

and watch me fall

i remember the way
you'd look me in my eyes
like no other
just for you
i'd run away
take you anywhere you want
but i won't be here forever

(but i won't be here forever)
just for you
i'd run away
take you anywhere you want

i'll take you everywhere
to the moon beyond
even though you're not here
i'll do it just for you
and join you up there

i hope i'll meet you up there
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genius explanation: https://genius.com/Nshvll-i-wont-be-here-forever-lyrics
(trigger warning)

in the first verse, it's the parter/former partner talking. they do miss kai, but couldn’t stay for whatever reason, also alluding to the fact they won’t be here forever. they’ll be dead or they’ll have moved on.

in the second verse, kai’s saying what they’d do if their former partner was still here, but also pointing at the fact they won’t be here forever either, but we don’t know why or how just yet.

in the buildup, kai is losing his grip on reality and is breaking down. he can’t take it anymore, but he’s still holding on to the memories and moments that made it all, reiterating that they’ll “run away” just for them. but again, you hear “i won’t be here forever” because they won’t be here forever either.

kai comes back once more in the outro and ends it off themselves, saying they hope they’ll meet their partner/former partner up there in heaven when they’ve died of old age or suicide.

i won't be here forever

30 july 2021 - 7 november 2021

back to the beginning

additional vocals by
https://soundcloud.com/inflake
https://soundcloud.com/revenant-edm
https://soundcloud.com/max-dpt-official
https://soundcloud.com/barkoded
https://soundcloud.com/billytoulouseofficial
https://soundcloud.com/itsechoed
https://soundcloud.com/littlefaithmusic
https://soundcloud.com/heyaephyn
https://soundcloud.com/eva-nge-line
(https://www.soundcloud.com/nshvllmusic)

youtube: https://youtu.be/9saMhGG-zuI

me
- https://www.soundcloud.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.instagram.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.twitter.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.youtube.com/c/nshvllmusic
- https://nshvll.bandcamp.com

lyrics [kai]:
the first time i saw your eyes
fell in love at the first sight
day in, day out, i see you
just can't seem to get you out

just for you
i am through

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This song is about having those first moments with your crush/lover. Those moments where you feel like you can’t get them out of your head. Those moments where they are everything for you.

This makes me think of those times where I was in this same position. It felt like they were everything to me. I couldn’t imagine a world without them.
I’d been thinking back to it recently and I just felt like I wanted to get it out of me with the help of music because, at this point, most of the stuff I’d been writing was sad and about losing someone.

just for you

stream

nshvll - until we meet again
metio - anew (nshvll edit)
revenant - get out of my head
nshvll - what will it take ft. revenant
former hero - helvellyn
bonjr x enesai - ID (VIP)
jedwill - immortal (prod. underscores)
grape milk - baby
mctr - crank w/ prodbywho
alasen - expand w/ cvrbi
nshvll - all things new
beakfeet - on my own (nshvll remix)
revenant ft. nshvll - ID (UNRELEASED)

The Jazz Club's Prismata | nshvll

parable speedrun 2 
august 28th 2020

youtube: https://youtu.be/LecH8rzfVWM

makina
- https://soundcloud.com/ex-makina
- https://twitter.com/makmakmakina
- https://www.instagram.com/makinamakesmusic/
- https://machinaone.bandcamp.com/

ST4IR
- https://soundcloud.com/st4ir
- https://twitter.com/LV3TO
- https://www.instagram.com/lv3to_sunking/
- https://lv3to.bandcamp.com/

nshvll
- https://soundcloud.com/nshvllmusic
- www.instagram.com/nshvllmusic
- www.twitter.com/nshvllmusic
- www.youtube.com/c/nshvllmusic

[lyrics]
i just need to find myself
pretend that i'm someone else, do you know me?
i just have no time to cry
my heroes left me i was blind, can you save me?

🧸

trembling // elysian

trembling

trembling w/ makina & ST4IR

alternate version of until we meet again
i played this live at school on 28 october 2021

4/5 from "18"

"Whatever you do in this life, it's not legendary unless your friends are there to see it." - Barney Stinson.

me
- https://www.soundcloud.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.instagram.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.twitter.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.youtube.com/c/nshvllmusic
- https://nshvll.bandcamp.com

until we meet again (alternative)

until we meet again (alternate version)

i'll follow the snow trails

youtube: https://youtu.be/9nphjAZwV-0
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7ppdApoWWVJ8y4azxqvqSO

clayekea
- https://soundcloud.com/clayekea
- https://www.instagram.com/clayekea/
- https://twitter.com/clayekea
- https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCFCe6e8C7iPRvRpnBEYAOzA
- https://clayekea.bandcamp.com/

me
- https://www.soundcloud.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.instagram.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.twitter.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.youtube.com/c/nshvllmusic
- https://nshvll.bandcamp.com

lyrics:
follow the snow trail
away from home
in to a place
where I belong
so I follow the snow trail
in a hurry
paint the streets white
with all your flurries

I'll follow the snow trails

I'll follow the snow trails
return from a journey that felt like miles away
I remember when we'd play in the snow
my parents were worried and I'd ignore what they'd say

snow trails (aiden clarke remix)

clayekea - snow trails (aiden clarke remix)

a cover of https://soundcloud.com/boniver/the-wolves-act-i-and-ii, a song i've loved for so many years. i hope you like it :)

youtube: https://youtu.be/CnvaoJXMGJw

bon iver
- https://soundcloud.com/boniver
- https://www.instagram.com/boniver/
- https://twitter.com/boniver
- https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCci2c90HJbY0VAS3_eLF3Wg

me
- https://www.soundcloud.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.instagram.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.twitter.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.youtube.com/c/nshvllmusic
- https://nshvll.bandcamp.com


lyrics:
someday my pain
someday my pain will mark you
harness your blame
harness your blame, walk through

with the wild wolves around you
in the morning, i'll call you
send it farther on

solace my game
solace my game, it stars you
swing wide your crane
swing wide your crane and run me through

and the story's all over you
in the morning, i'll call you
can't you find a clue
when your eyes are all painted sinatra blue

what might have been lost
what might have been lost
what might have been lost
what might have been lost

(don't bother me)
what might have been lost
(don't bother me)
what might have been lost
(don't bother me)
what might have been lost
(don't bother me)
what might have been lost
(don't bother me)
what might have been lost
(don't bother me)
what might have been lost
(on't bother me)
what might have been lost
(don't bother me)
what might have been lost
(don't bother me)
(what might have been lost)

ah
ah
ah (What might have been lost)
ah

someday my pain
someday my pain
someday my pain
someday my pain

The Wolves

the wolves (act i and ii) (cover)

2016 - 2022

6 years of my life that i will never forget. it's been a wild ride, but everything must come to an end. this is it, the future is here. i hope you're ready.

youtube: https://youtu.be/2awRolXj3cE

me
- https://www.soundcloud.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.instagram.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.twitter.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.youtube.com/c/nshvllmusic
- https://nshvll.bandcamp.com

lyrics:
class of '22
i've known you for years now
it's time to grow up
it's time to let go
class of '22
i've known you for years now
it's time to grow up
it's time to let go

every day you'd sit in that same classroom
joking with the teacher
it's time to grow up
and move towards more
you were just a little kid
didn't know much about the world
that kid inside you is still there
you're just a little bigger now

class of '22
i've known you for years now
it's time to grow up
it's time to let go
class of '22
i've known you for years now
it's time to grow up
it's time to let go

i wish i could see where you go
i know you'll be fine
the future is scary
but it's time now
it's up to you
you decide your future
it's up to you now
just know i'll miss you

class of '22
i've known you for years now
it's time to grow up
it's time to let go
class of '22
i've known you for years now
it's time to grow up
it's time to let go

it's time to let go

it's up to you
you decide your future
it's up to you now
it's time to let go

it's up to you
you decide your future
it's up to you now
it's time to let go

class of 2022

a song i wrote a couple of months ago, but never managed to complete

july 2023

lyrics
i wish we weren't impossible
but something is
i wish we weren't separate in disguise/the skies

i remember you were happy
that's all i wanted
i don't wanna be alone
without you

me
- https://www.soundcloud.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.instagram.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.twitter.com/nshvllmusic
- https://www.youtube.com/c/nshvllmusic
- https://nshvll.bandcamp.com

impossible (demo)

I Heard That Noise

Enything

He thinks with his dick, you think with your heart
He tells you that you’re gonna be a star
It’s bitter, pass the fever on
The boys, they say the magic’s all gone

He’s loaded at the bar and herds the boys like sheep
(You're gonna be the next big thing)
He goes to war, don’t let him near someone like me

I face the wind, it sounds like God
There’s something that just feels so wrong
No skin to wear, no face to put on
The girls, they say the magic’s all gone

He’s loaded at the bar and herds the boys like sheep
(You're gonna be the next big thing)
He goes to war, don’t let him near someone like me

I detach the ground beneath
And the gravel’s on my teeth
And my God can’t give the help
Could you pass the fever to somebody else?

We used to run this city in a span of weeks
Those boys, they spiked my drink
Our secret’s safe with me

He’s loaded at the bar and herds the boys like sheep
(You're gonna be the next big thing)
He goes to war, don’t let him near someone like me

He thinks with his dick, you think with your heart
He tells you that you’re gonna be a star
It’s bitter, pass the fever on

The Jazz Club's Prismata | nshvll

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