this is the type of song i love gatekeeping

they call me the serial-nutter… i was on the news for nutting in several homeless afghans…

Produced by @splashgvng & @thislandismusic
Artwork by Foreign Forest

Lyrics:
I try but I never succeed
I wish that I could be someone
That I'll never be
I try but I never succeed
I wish that I could be someone
That I'll never be
No I'll never be

Wonder who I am as I stare in
The bathroom mirror as the shower fogs it up
And I think of what I've done
What I will do
And what I'll be after everything adds up
Once again I descend into madness
Take a deep breath, time passes
And nothing ever lasts
So I can find some peace in that
For a minute, then that feeling comes creeping back
What do I say when you ask me how I'm doing?
I just say I'm fine
Try to keep it moving
But in the back of my mind
I feel like I'm going to lose it
Sad part, if I died
It would probably be for their amusement

I try but I never succeed
I wish that I could be someone
That I'll never be
I try but I never succeed
I wish that I could be someone
That I'll never be
(No I'll never be)

I try but I never succeed
I wish that I could be someone
that I'll never be

Wish I Knew

Under the Same Playlist is a tender, modern electro-pop song about connection across distance, two hearts miles apart but still pressing play on the same songs.
It captures that feeling of being linked through music, memory, and timing, the invisible rhythm that keeps people close even when they can’t be together.
With floating synths, pulsing bass, the track glows with nostalgia and warmth, like hearing someone’s laughter through your headphones.
It’s a love letter to shared sound, where music becomes the bridge that distance can’t erase.

Under The Same Playlist

this song hurts a lot for me, but i hope you guys can find something beautiful in it.

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well I've got a ghost
running through my head
that used to be a girl
laying in my bed

don't want the ones that want me
and the ones I want 
leave my heart a mess

so I'm all alone
feeling cold as hell
asking why oh why
I do this to myself

I just wan feel something
but if feels like I don't have much left

I've got a mind full of bad things
but good intentions like an angel with some bat wings

and I'm fine if you ask me
but I'm still running from my problems like a track meet

and I don't know why
I don't want you
or why I want her 
when she don't want me to

and they say love hurts
I guess that much true
cause now we both choked up
lips are turning blue

tell me what is coming next
I can't handle all this stress
got me always second guess - in

what's been running through your head
all I know is your upset
from the tension when we texting

I can never rest in
peace
I can never rest in
peace
I can never rest in
peace
I can never rest in, I can never rest in
x2

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r.i.p

crazy how this life can be so wild
in denial 
i stay saying i don’t want you but id walk a thousand miles

just to see those ocean eyes 
Girl you be moving the skys
saying we friends why we telling these lies
wearing these masks i don’t wanna disguise 

cause i wanna say that i love you 
i wanna tell you the truth 
sleeping is all that i do 
Cause i am dreaming of you 

reaching to pick up the phone 
start sweating i get in that zone 
fear taking over I’m losing control
better without me you better alone 

why would you want me when nobody does
I’m just a coward not worthy of trust
heart has been broken craving for love 
i was an addict  fixed it with drugs

I’m never enough 
never enough 
tired of love 

Living in a clouded dream
Searching for the quiet that you need to breath
Gave up on your sanity to hide behind your shadow
While you tried to take the sun down 
Hearts don’t ever change to gold
Out there thinking that you in the world alone
No one ever told that you have to fight something 
Or you’ll never learn to balance 

i guess imma have to fight time to take this shit battle 
throw my pride right to the side 
need a princess in my castle 

If i open up my heart will you come fill it with some hope 
break me down then tie my down ill provide the rope
forever illl be empty less i let you have my soul
i see a future bright ahead it’s me you and we old 

you remember that night when we sat and watch the stars 
told me bout your heart and i told you about my scars
never felt this open when I’m talking to a girl 
stayed up late then went sleep you had me wanting more 

i have never felt like this 
thief you stole my heart thats what you did 
a year  i spent i never love my ex
more love for you a week can’t wait for next 

i can’t wait for next
i can’t wait for next
i can’t wait for next

Living in a clouded dream
Searching for the quiet that you need to breath
Gave up on your sanity to hide behind your shadow
While you tried to take the sun down 
Hearts don’t ever change to gold
Out there thinking that you in the world alone
No one ever told that you have to fight something 
Or you’ll never learn to balance

clouded dreams [prod. kado]

Song title - Reflection
Production & Vocals by Lund.

Lyrics: 
I look in the mirror
and I hate my reflection
watch hands move on the clock
till my head spin
now all I can do is 
pick apart my imperfections 
don't give me fate love
just give me fake love

(X2)

shouldn't put me down 
your words can be ever painful
say you hold me down
but attack from every angle
I always hold u down 
but you never come around

I couldn't help myself 
you smiled and I was lost
in a lovesick world endorphins 
they can be toxic 
you played me for a fool
cause love was never an option

I want to wake up 
and feel like 
this life is a blessing 
instead I'm drinking whiskey 
loading bullets in my F-N
leave everything I own
to my family and best friends
and I know it aint your fault
I just can't keep on pretending 
that I love my life and 
everything is fine around me 
while I feel like I'm drowning 
demons they surround me 
talking very loudly
all inside my head
I know its all inside my head
cause

I look in the mirror
and I hate my reflection
watch hands move on the clock
till my head spin
now all I can do is 
pick apart my imperfections 
don't give me fate love
just give me fake love

shouldn't put me down 
your words can be ever painful
say you hold me down
but attack from every angle
I always hold u down 
but you never come around

Reflection

OCTAVIO - Nineteen (Sad For No Reason)

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Lyrics:
Lately i've been feeling sad for no reason
So i go get high for the evening
You told me you would stay now you’re leaving
I don’t give a fuck i'm still dreaming

Baby i just need some space
I don’t even wanna taste
And every time i see your face
I know that you can’t be replaced cuz 
You know what to say tho
When i’m not okay no
Used to say you promise
Didn’t know you’d break those
Telling me excuses
We left each other bruises
I roll up when i wake up
You put on too much make up

Saying i love you 
I can’t even touch you
Can’t do this again
So now i'm sayin fuck you
Once is enough girl i don’t need a sequel
There’s good and there’s bad but with you its just evil
Our love is a gun one mistake could be lethal
My life is a movie post up at the regal

Lately i've been feeling sad for no reason
So i go get high for the evening
You told me you would stay now you’re leaving
I don’t give a fuck i'm still dreaming

Lately i've been feeling sad for no reason
So i go get high for the evening
You told me you would stay now you’re leaving
I don’t give a fuck i'm still dreaming

Scary
I'm so afraid
Of a world 
That's painted in gray
Scary 
I'm so afraid

Lately i've been feeling sad for no reason
So i go get high for the evening
You told me you would stay now you’re leaving
I don’t give a fuck i'm still dreaming

Nineteen (Sad For No Reason)

I'll Be Alright

I'll be alright

Prod Kado

Art by mattiswithdrawn

I feel that man,  good luck! I’m sure you’ll come with something great
❤
1
Wed 3:57 PM
Backwoods on the front lawn say I’m alright but it’s all wrong 
No I’m not fine
Shaking like a fault line
All my fault right? 
Only happy when I’m recognized online
I’ve gotta quit wasting my time gotta quit chasing your light 
Getting high all night 
Can’t stay high for my whole life 
But I will try 

Everybody knows that it’s my fault 
That I fell asleep on the sidewalk 
No sleepwalking too fucked up for talking 
Pretty soon be an outline made of chalk 
I’m gonna die soon
And when I do 
I hope that you know it’s not about you 
Turns out I didn’t know enough about you 
Turns out the world don’t revolve around you 
But in my head, everything’s bad 
Everything’s wrong, everything’s sad 
Been way to long I feel like that 
Pandemic vibes, miss mom and dad
And the little lost pleasures I once had 
Is the measure of my life really my stacks
Whether or not you’re better off in my bed
I want to Love what I treasure and clear my head
So get the fuck away from me if 
This isn’t where you want to be then
Just Go abead, you can leave and when 
It’s all over you can be free 
I don’t really understand my thoughts 
That it’s all my fault 
When it’s clearly not 
Every time we talk 
I test my luck 
Then I fuck this up, who would’ve thought yeah 

Backwoods on the front lawn say I’m alright but it’s all wrong 
No I’m not fine
Shaking like a fault line
All my fault right? 
Only happy when I’m recognized online
I’ve gotta quit wasting my time gotta quit chasing your light 
Getting high all night 
Can’t stay high for my whole life 
But I will try

Where You Want To Be

Issues

Moon

Not sure if I have done anything like this style before but it feels pretty new to me. At least repeating the hook so many times.

sorry I sing so much these days IK a lot of the older fans like the more rappy stuff but I kinda discovered my voice and I really like singing and I think its easier to listen to in a broader perspective yknow?

anyways I hope you guys enjoy this mf tho
keep ya heads up and happy new year, lets have a good one!<3

Call Me When You Can

PAPAGODI

@octaviothedweeb

25. Born in Mexico, raised in Louisville, live in LA.

Nineteen (Sad For No Reason)

OCTAVIO the Dweeb

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