HOW TO MAKE A MONSTER: THE COMPLETE GUIDE

Lyrics:

your love felt so violent 
your words sounded like silence

i dont know why i stayed for so long, 
im walking away, im going back home 

im finding my way out, digging a hole
entering my body, you had left to rot

i’d like to touch myself
the way the moonlight grazes me

i had turned so dark, so dark
you could sleep inside of me

i will erase you
and your tints
i refuse to stay where
my light dims
i was born to 
make the sun envious 
uhu, i feel so lucky 

i feel so lucky
i get to be with myself
never again 
will i lose me in someone else

so imma smoke until
i bleed glitter
exoplanets are seeping
out of my eyes like rivers

i would like to lift up myself
the way the sun, rises in me 

i will turn so bright, so bright
no one around me, will ever fucking sleep

i will erase you
and your tints
i refuse to stay where
my light dims
i was born to 
make the sun envious 
uhu, i feel so lucky 

and when i die 
a little inside
i will light up a j 
and call it a night

i will revamp
my thoughts on the past
i went thru hell
and now im dancing my way back 

i will erase you
and your tints
i refuse to stay where
my light dims
i was born to 
make the sun envious 

uhu, i feel so lucky

LUCKY (Demo 2)

Lyrics: 

I am the eye of the hurricane
honey you are fucked
otherwise i’d wish you luck 

i was not made for the mainstream 
i'm a strong current
my rivers are disemboguing 

i will not 
dim my light
just so you can feel
less threatened 

i refuse to
bite my tongue
hate me now
and thank me later 

so jurassic 
bitch i'll take you back 
spitting sounds into your ears 
until you crack 

cult classic 
watch me and take your time
i'm the truth you fear 
i'm that color-clash 

you only hate me 
‘cause you are basic
you wish you could 
roll a joint with me and rock 

(rock rock rock rock!)

instead you attempt
to weaponize your words
just to put me down
bitch, i wish you luck

(you'll need it)

i will not 
dim my light
just so you can feel
less threatened 

i refuse to
bite my tongue
hate me now
and thank me later 

if only you could be like me
a cult classic 
100% authentic 
it's not easy, babe 

if only you could be like me
a cult classic 
100% authentic 
it's not easy, babe 

i will not 
dim my light
just so you can feel
less threatened 

i refuse to
bite my tongue
hate me now
and thank me later 

so jurassic 
bitch i'll take you back 
spitting sounds into your ears 
until you crack 

cult classic 
watch me and take your time
i'm the truth you fear 
i'm that color-clash

CULT CLASSIC (Demo)

Lyrics:

candyland bliss
bubblegum lips
i take a trip
to strawberry fields

cherry kiss
90s cds 
heaven sings
when i take a hit

how high
'til i reach 
the stars? 

traveling
through this pink haze
and i can't feel my face 
but i can take it 

floating
across the multiverse
of my existence
yeah i can feel it

i don’t how to live life
if is not always enhanced
pop that happy pill
you know i live for the thrill

i don’t how to live life
if is not always enhanced
pop that happy pill
you know i live for the thrill

traveling
through this pink haze
and i can't feel my face 
but i can take it 

floating
across the multiverse
of my existence
yeah i can feel it 

i'd die for the thrill

how high
'til i reach
the stars? 

i'd kill for the thrill

how high
'til i reach
the stars? 

traveling
through this pink haze
and i can't feel my face 
but i can take it 

floating
across the multiverse
of my existence
yeah i can feel it 

how high
'til i reach
the stars?

PINK HAZE (Demo)

Lyrics: 

I’m feeling myself right now
 I’ve smoked up all my dark clouds
 And all my demons follow me around  
Like they are scared of me, 
I reached higher ground

I’m just pain crammed into a girl 
 So I choose to chainsmoke myself
out of this world
 Nothing, nothing 
can calibrate me 
I don’t fit in society

I'm touching the sky right now
 I can't hear your hate, I'm up in the clouds 
And all my friends follow me around 
‘Cause it's so fucking boring 
to be walking on the ground

I’m just pain crammed into a girl 
 So I choose to chainsmoke myself
out of this world
 Nothing, nothing 
can calibrate me 
I don’t fit in society

Now I'm swapping to dark mode 
Just pressure, no diamonds
 Push my buttons, I'm cut-throat 
I feed off your envy and I crave more
I'm flickering like a lightbulb
 I’m a psych-thriller, the goddess of gore  
Dreamy eyes always hide nightmares galore 
(Snap!) 
I think you hate me more than you can afford
That look on your face
(horror!) 
I gave you goosebumps, can I have some? 
Lose the sheep’s clothing, I like bones
 Bitch I eat wolves when I'm stoned

CHAINSMOKE (Demo 4)

CAN'T FUCK WITH ME NOW (Demo 2)

Lyrics:

i used to decorate my bruises 
glitter smearing all over my bad ideas
with strawberry gloss and smokey puffs
turns out wanting freedom kept me cuffed
glitter smearing all over my bad ideas

they called me sugar, they called me sweet
but never asked what’s underneath
killed my confidence, then called me friend
isn’t that how monsters are made?

dead fairies in my room
dead fairies in my house, (they can’t fly)
guess if you want to love, you have to be willing to die

dead fairies in my room
dead fairies in my house, (they can’t fly)
guess if you want to love, you have to be willing to die

i lit a candle in their coffins
just to see if their ghosts would dance
they went crazy, like all my ex-girlfriends
then vanished when i took a stance

i stitched my mouth with safety pins
to keep all my monsters within 
but damn i look so pretty when i bite
and smile with cyanide

i buried her
the girl who glowed
under pink skies and clouds of smoke
now all that’s left
is teeth and thread—
a myth reborn
from all she bled

dead fairies in my room
dead fairies in my house, (they can’t fly)
guess if you want to love, you have to be willing to die

dead fairies in my room
dead fairies in my house, (they can’t fly)
guess if you want to love, you have to be willing to die

i used to be so nice, 
but everyone took advantage
made a joke out of me
now i'm the one bursting into laughter (hahaha)

everyone i ever  loved 
slowly pulled me apart 
now fairies are dying inside of me
like a pixie plague of dust

isn’t this how monsters are made? 
i don’t know who i am without all this pain

isn't this how monsters are made? 
i don’t know who i am without pain

isn't this how monsters are made? 
i don’t know who i am without pain

DEAD FAIRIES (Demo)

Lyrics:

me and my girls
we hop in the car
they tell me to hit it
but i don’t smoke cigars

i roll a joint 
before we kick it in a bar 
but we are too old 
to get shitfaced drunk 

we live in an island 
so the ocean ain’t far 
we head towards the waves 
never too old to get high

when we get there 
the moon shines bright 
the stars too are burning
just to feel alive

one of my girls says
put some music on 
and i tell them i got the perfect song 

dark pop for weird girls 
sadness in stereo 
if you let us 
we’ll wreck the world
‘cause sadness is stereo 

me and my girls
we got the night in our hands
my best friend’s still got glitter 
stuck to her face
 from that one drag show 
we snuck into backstage
that's what makes us special 
we turn pain  into pink hurricanes

  we’ve all been the villain 
we’ve all been the muse
we were born to haunt
with eyeliner sharp enough 
to break the rules

dark pop for weird girls 
sadness in stereo 
if you let us 
we’ll wreck the world
‘cause sadness is stereo 

we’re so bizarre
 and that’s what makes us art
(midnight mascara, fuck the haters)

we’re so bizarre
 and that’s what makes us art
(midnight mascara, fuck the haters)

dark pop for weird girls 
sadness in stereo 
if you let us 
we’ll wreck the world
‘cause sadness is stereo 

sadness is stereo 

DARK POP FOR WEIRD GIRLS (Demo)

Lyrics:

 i think i was born different 
a little magical, a little rare
 like while people star-gazed
 i saw worlds in my head
it felt lonely 
that no one could understand

 i’ve never been able to be  fully here 
because half of me died  before i was ten
 i’ve never known  a life without grief 
but i promised myself  i would create something out of it
 and despite the downfalls
 i followed those dreams 

the emptiness  echoed so loud 
that i fell in love  with designing sounds
 but a part of me  is still there  by the door  
waiting for someone 
to come home 

i was too young  to know betrayal  
the way i did 
some days i wish  i just got 
to be a kid
so i think it’s time  to return to her  
and seek out justice for all the times
 everyone pretended  they didn’t notice
i was getting hurt

the emptiness  echoed so loud 
that i fell in love  with designing sounds
 but a part of me  is still there  by the door  
waiting for someone 
to come home 

no one loved me hard enough
 for me to believe it 
i became an orchestra of longing
to be found— except no one ever did

so i tucked my thoughts  so deep within 
i woke up one day  and i was out of reach
it was different once i turned sixteen
and my wounds became  
displayed on my skin

the emptiness  echoed so loud 
that i fell in love  with designing sounds
 but a part of me  is still there  by the door  
waiting for someone 
to come home 

i murmur spells 
while the world sleeps
 i still got magic
growing inside of me

i murmur spells 
while the world sleeps
 i still got magic
growing inside of me

GRIMOIRE (Demo)

Lyrics:

my blood is cold, 
my mind is bright 
i’m a runway-walking
 warning sign

rocking my black dress,
 hell’s bells chime 
revenge tastes like power — 
now i’m beautifully malign

 i used to cry myself to sleep 
now i lick blood off knives 
(like it’s cherry lip gloss )

 i look so pretty when i bite 
i kissed God then left him behind 
your prayers won’t reach my high 
my female rage is undressed
 the whole earth shakes in fright 
tell me how does it feel to be
 deeply horrified?

 i sleep during the day
 and haunt men when it’s dark 
 feral wolf 
i’m more than just a bark
(mary jane laced with violet flames)

 i’m no longer that girl you contained
 sexualized and vandalized
 i’m the ending you deserved

 i look so pretty when i bite 
i kissed God then left him behind 
your prayers won’t reach my high 
my female rage is undressed
 the whole earth shakes in fright 
tell me how does it feel to be
 deeply horrified?

 tell me, how does it feel
 to have your fate in someone else’s hands? 
your dignity distilled
into venomous wine 
you made a monster 
isn’t she great?

 tell me, how does it feel
to press on your buttons 
 and collect poison in packs
 you covered me in wounds,
 but i eat my enemies like snacks

 i look so pretty when i bite 
i kissed God then left him behind 
your prayers won’t reach my high 
my female rage is undressed
 the whole earth shakes in fright 
tell me how does it feel to be
 deeply horrified?

(i look so pretty when i bite 
 strutted deadly through the night
i look so pretty when i bite)

PRETTY WHEN I BITE (Demo)

Lyrics: 

untamed adrenaline
bubblegum sin
i feel the rush
but we can't touch 
so call me
and ask me how i've been

babygirl, i'm undressing you in my head
give me a call when your mind's a blur
i'm dreaming of you in lower case
give me a call, oldschool, tumblr

midnight crush
you are waiting on the line 
ask me what i'm wearing
but i'm taking it off

oh my god, 
this is cosmic lust
memorize your number 
‘cause you understand my thunders

i know you feel it too
and all my secrets
i want to share them
 with you

babygirl, i'm undressing you in my head
give me a call when your mind's a blur
i'm dreaming of you in lower case
give me a call, oldschool, tumblr

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love can't be deleted 

I'm your favorite glitch 
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I'm your softest scream 
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you can't bury this feeling
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girl, i'm under your skin 
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babygirl, i'm undressing you in my head 
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give me a call when your mind's a blur
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i'm dreaming of you in lower case
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give me a call, oldschool, tumblr
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babygirl, i'm undressing you in my head
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HOW TO MAKE A MONSTER: THE COMPLETE GUIDE

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