TEARS OF A PIERROT

Lyrics:

i took a sip of you (sip of you)
and i was under your spell (under your spell)

i saw a glimpse of hell (glimpse of hell)
when i fell in love with you (you you you you)

i drank your potions
made of poison

left me hollow
alone with 
all this sorrow

i i i i drank your potions
i i i i drank your potions
i i i i drank your potions
i i i i drank your potions

i burned our picture (burned out picture)
left my ring
for you to see
what you had done to me 

i’ve been through 
the stages of grief
at least a thousand times 
and im still fucking pissed

(burned our picture)

i i i i drank your potions
i i i i drank your potions
i i i i drank your potions
i i i i drank your potions

you waved your wand (wand)
enchanted me (me)
with all your
smart talk 

a magician never reveals 
her tricks (tricks)
a witch 
never cuts her sleeves

you used to know me so well
but after you i've become someone else

i i i i drank your potions (you used to know me so well)
i i i i drank your potions (but after you i've become someone else)
i i i i drank your potions (you used to know me so well)
i i i i drank your potions (but after you i've become someone else)

POTIONS (Demo)

Lyrics:

i met you one Halloween
you were wearing jeans 
and a purple wig 

after that night i’ve been
haunted my whole life
don’t know where to begin

when i hugged you 
it never felt warm
it just felt like thorns
puncturing my skin 

when i loved you 
i was fading 
when i loved you 
always fading 

when i loved you 
i was fading 
when i loved you 
always fading  

we smoked for breakfast
and for lunch
and i had a hunch
but toned it down 

in fact, i toned down
many things for you 

when i loved you 
i was fading 
when i loved you 
always fading

when i loved you 
i was fading 
when i loved you 
always fading

you were there
all the time 
like a shadow
i couldn’t outrun 

lurking over my shoulder
manipulating my brain
saying you want what’s best for me 

but If you wanted what’s best
why’d you keep me in chains?

If you wanted what’s best
why’d you keep me in chains?

when i loved you 
i was fading 
when i loved you 
always fading

when i loved you 
i was fading 
when i loved you 
always fading

when i loved you 
i was fading 
when i loved you 
always fading

when i loved you 
i was fading 
when i loved you 
always fading

f a d i n g (Demo)

Lyrics: 

i try to get a hold of myself
but i slip away

i get a buzz trynna 
mute the voices in my head

that tell me i will stay stuck
in one place

but i was born to groove
why am I so scared?

I’m scared i
will grow old
with nothing to show
I’m scared i will grow old
with nothing to show

oh oh, but i won't stop now
oh oh, nah i won't stop now
oh oh, but i won't stop now

sometimes it gets crowded in my head (crowded crowded crowded)
then it gets polluted in my lungs (just one more)

i feel this pressure like i’m supposed to be
like all my friends

but i just want to be me
i just want to be me 

am i a failure?
just waiting around 
for things to happen to me? 
just waiting around 

oh oh, but i won't stop now
oh oh, nah i won't stop now
oh oh, but i won't stop now

am i a fool? (crowded crowded crowded)
thinking i can beat all the odds? (just one more)

or is the magic i’m looking for 
behind all the work i’ve done?

am i a fool? (crowded crowded crowded)
still thinking i can beat all the odds? (just one more)

or is the magic i’m looking for (but i won't stop now)
behind all the work i’ve done? (nah i won't stop now) 

oh oh, but i won't stop now
oh oh, nah i won't stop now
oh oh, but i won't stop now

(just one more)

BUZZ (Demo)

Lyrics: 

you took away 
all the things 
that made me happy 

was your goal 
all along 
to make me disappear? 

one by one
you tumbled down
pieces of me
until there was nothing left

how could you deprive me 
of my freedom
and call it love? 

how were you able to break me
and make me go above
and beyond 

how could you deprive me 
of my freedom
and make me go nuts
and call it love?

you never gave
importance to my pain
(so don't call it love)

but if i didn’t care for you
the way you forced me to 
you’d lose your shit 

little by little
you manipulated me 

crying when i’d leave 
until i wouldn’t leave you no more 
(no more no more)

even if it meant
isolating me from my friends 
(where have you been girl?)

it didn't matter no
i never mattered no (no) 

how could you deprive me 
of my freedom
and call it love? 

how were you able to break me
and make me go above
and beyond 

how could you deprive me 
of my freedom
and make me go nuts
and call it love?

how can two people 
in the same relationship
experience very different things?
‘cause you were happy and satisfied
oh i wonder why 
oh i wonder why 

i don’t ever want to 
cover my mouth to cry
while you are sound asleep 
it wasnt fair to me 
and maybe it wasn’t fair to you
that i hid my feelings 
but i knew if i didn’t 
you’d never show up for me 

and my needs would’ve been ignored 
‘cause that is what you do 
tell me who took care of me
while i was taking care of you?  

how could you deprive me 
of my freedom
and call it love? 

how were you able to break me
and make me go above
and beyond 

how could you deprive me 
of my freedom
and make me go nuts
and call it love?

don't call it love

CONTROL (Demo)

Lyrics:

i'm turning off 
the stage lights
i'm closing up
the curtains 

the show 
is over 
im ready 
to tell the truth 

truth is, truth is
i lied, i lied
i hid my feelings 
just to survive
tonight, tonight
i'm undressing myself
i'm ready to display my bruises 
my bruises

i'm supposed to be
the funny one 
I'm always there
to make 'em laugh
but tell me who is there 
when i cry at night? 
who is there
when i cry at night? 

i'm taking off my costume 
its over-used 
threads are sticking out 
frays are loose 

everyone must be 
so confused
like how can a girl so colorful 
feel so blue 

but has anyone ever wondered
why is that? 
why is that?
why is that?
does anyone see who i am
beyond this mask? 

i'm supposed to be
the funny one 
I'm always there
to make 'em laugh
but tell me who is there 
when i cry at night? 
who is there
when i cry at night? 

i am done 
hiding 
my terrors

these are 
the tears of 
a pierrot 

i am done 
hiding 
my terrors

these are 
the tears of 
a pierrot 

who is there
when i cry at night?

TEARS OF A PIERROT (Demo)

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TEARS OF A PIERROT (Demo)

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