preface: this song is not meant to be taken seriously, it is used for coping with romantic loss and breakups. downloads on

Fine. You win.

bpm: 78
key: e min +22c
length: 7:29
recorded on September 15, 2025

i pick up

my wings
set me free from the ground
as long as I'm

without you, 
i'll be as happy as I can be - for once

tell me
will you bring me down again?
is it just

all a joke, 
is there ever an end?
will i be

loved for once?
or will I be one's dove?

i give up
on trying to find the one
is it just

all a lie? 
no one heard my cries
my heart rips

into two
maybe into pieces, just for you

i give my all
but nothing ever seems to 
take the call

i lose my mind all night
but that's alright,
as long as i'm

going home
into bed
kiss of death
suicide without a sign

fly with me
to the end
we can be
together again

again
again
again
again

don't
tell me where to go
live in my own mind
don't lose my life
commit suicide

but every second i
bear the pain i cry
i tear it all down
i fear my biggest doubts

fly with me
to the end
we can be
together again

again

again

again

again

my wings

instrumental for today, this does not contain lyrics

take the blame

artwork by Bushment

this will be my day
and i don't think anything will stop me anymore
when it all falls to the floor

racing against time for the victory
i'll be the last one standing
that's a triumph

that's a triumph
i guess that's all that matters now
thats a triumph
and i guess thats just how it goes
cant take it anymore

and i guess i cant take it anymore
everything must shatter into the floor
and i couldnt care any more
or any less

part of it is the suffering
or on the other side is the sun
i just gotta keep my head up
my head high

it's just how it goes
i gotta hang on to my hope
my hope
my hope

and i guess thats how it went
i just gotta stick to the end
the end
forever

triumph

ARTWORK BY BLEED ON IG - https://www.instagram.com/blee__d

i figured i'd release this now than never

enjoy

full circle

look i didn't have an idea for what i wanted the cover to be so i just picked what i thought fit the track best

enjoy

end scene

1/9

all it meant was for you to love me
and yet nothing is was it seems
i'm a broken visage in the mirror
i'm pretending i can't hear her

i don't want this to ever end, ever end
i guess i'm a broken heart again, again
i confess my sins to the devil, devil
i don't take no chances, i'm a rebel

oh my heart hurts, my heart burns
don't you see it aches for your affection
and i guess we part our ways

and i guess that's just how it goes
and i guess i'm alone once more, more

heartburn

together

crescendo

4/9

and i tell myself
nothing bad's going to happen
without me

all it ever meant to live
was because of you
this wasn't about me

i guess that's where the wind blows
it's a fall from grace now
looking outside counting the days down

i hate being in my own body
i wish i could be happy for once
but nothing ever makes me love

i'm tired, a shaking mess
you wouldn't see that if you just never kept
everything away from me
don't you see

i'm so tired of wasting breath
on a song that i do not mean
i guess i'm selfish to be selfless

and i tell myself
nothing bad's going to happen
without me

all it ever meant to live
was because of you
this wasn't about me

decrescendo

5/9
doves and pigeons

and i tell myself
i'm fine

and i tell myself
i'm fine

and i tell myself
i'm fine

and i tell myself
i'll be fine

and i'll tell myself 
i'll be fine

it's all just a dream
you told me not think too hard
i guess i'll be fine

there's not much else i can do
but leave the past with you
i guess i'll be fine

i've tried everything
we're not better yet
everything fails its meaning
 
and no matter what i do
nothing amounts for you
so why even try

life's a beautiful thing
ruined by the hands of others
it all comes around

so let's take our time now
and let's fix what's left
maybe we're in love again

and i tell myself
i'll be fine

and i'll tell myself 
i'll be fine

i feel

recognition

that way

(8/9)
inspired by carbine's "doomsday"

[i've been wondering]
is it me
i don't want to tell you how to live your live
i don't wanna tell you to say goodbye 
so tell me

are you the love of my life
i don't wanna say goodbye 
we dance forever into the night

is it me you really want
i guess that's
what i really wanted, all this time

please don't do this to me
i'll love you to the end
i hope we'll be more than friends 

is it me
i want to be together
i never want this to end, ever
 
is it me
i want to be together
i never want this to end, ever

and we'll hug and kiss our worries away

and maybe we'll see eachother one day

every time i see your face
my heart looks forward another day
i don't want to hurt you 
i just want to cherish you one more way

every time i look outside
i wonder what could be inside
is it worth stepping out to help
maybe that's why i tell myself,

is it me
i want to be together
i never want this to end, ever

is it me
i want to be together
i never want this to end, ever

is it me

(prod me)

you tell me nothing
at all
i think i'm ready to take, the fall
i want to land into, your arms
but if only we could take what we have so far

am i the antithesis of love
have i created the monster i've become
i hate having been here for so long,
and i hope you can accept my song

i'm scared to death, i'm scared to death
of what i can't believe and or accept
i wish i could even comprehend
at all

i hold my breath i hold my breath
and i beg and pray for the best
i guess you're the one for me
after all


you tell me nothing
at all
i think i'm ready to take, the fall
i want to land into, your arms
but if only we could take what we have so far

NO!

antithesis of love

i feel worthless

ib trustt - spectacular
https://soundcloud.com/trustt/spectacular

worthless

it's only fair
i can't lose something i don't have
i can't win something back

i can't sleep knowing i have caused this
atleast that's what you claim
i'm finally free for once
i don't have to worry about you at all

i'm finally happy
i can finally go to sleep 
i am finally free
you are pure evil and yet you set me free

you are pure evil
apologize for what you feel
but let's be honest
we should just move on

it's only fair
i can't lose something i don't have
i can't win something back

you are pure evil
apologize for what you feel
but let's be honest
we should just move on

pure evil

i havent uploaded in nearly a month so i might as well upload something

sample provided by https://soundcloud.com/wormsie 
check her out please thanks

out of ideas

making a compilation soon 
may have some unreleased stuff. enjoy

freedom

prod me 

don't tell me what to do, anymore
don't tell me where to go, anymore
don't tell me what to do, anymore
don't tell me where to go, anymore

Now look at where i am
I cant imagine looking at where you stand
Used me for four years now i got many bands
Now i feel again

I feel so free away from you
I want to tell you I'm through
I think its time i get revenge
Look at where i am

So don't tell me what to do
So don't tell me what to do
Thank god im not with you
Thank god im not with you, at all

So don't tell me what to do
I'm not someone you can choose
Don't tell me what you wanna do
Thank god im not with you, at all

don't tell me what to do, anymore
don't tell me where to go, anymore
don't tell me what to do, anymore
don't tell me where to go, anymore

So don't tell me what to do
I'm not someone you can choose
Don't tell me what you wanna do
Thank god im not with you, at all

don't tell me what to do

Inspiration by https://soundcloud.com/saycarbine/anthem
Artwork: Cleve Gray "Letting Go #8" (2002)

Don't tell me what you already know
You lied through your teeth
You consider me a joke

Don't plead with me anymore
I already know what you've done
I'm going to sleep for once

Every second i spend thinking of you
Is something i just don't wanna do
Get out of my life already

Oh what a joke what a joke Let's fall down
I don't ever think I'll hit the ground
As long as I'm at peace

Let's dance into the night again
But this time I'm letting go of your hand
As I watch it all fall down

Oh my god I wish I could just live
With someone else to be with
Anything but you

Now look at where I am too
Don't act like a fool
That's all it takes to be happy

I spend my life on the sunshine
I see people walking by
I talk through clenched teeth

So don't ever try to bring me down
Atleast don't try to come back
Live your life and I'll live mine at last (See you)

I walk i walk i walk again
What a joke it all is
How selfish everything is

I'm finally happy for once
I escaped what I have thought
would once be the end of me

Just don't say anything about me
I don't wanna beg or plead
I just wanna live gently

Maybe if I keep this up
I'll finally meet the people I want
It all comes full circle

So what
I don't think i'm dumb

I just wanna live up to everyone that loves me
All they ask is for me to be happy

I can't lose my focus
I need to prove all of you wrong
That's why I've gone so far along

accountability

main sample(s) by Transplant, check her out - https://soundcloud.com/transplant-music

Guilty, are you?

i really didn't want to make this song. i did it anyways.

Artwork by Zilla Leutenegger - "Untitled (2019)"

bpm : 74
key : f#min -33c

So tell me what you live for
I don't wanna associate with you anymore
Not after what you've done
Manipulate your way to salvation and you dont gain much

So what was it for
Why put me down and hate me some more
I'm so tired of having something to live for
You used me for 3 years and claim i was worse

I fight my fears a little more
Especially cause it's not much to ask for
When you lose your lover when they're outed, 
What do you apologize for?

I don't hold back my tears, let it drop to the floor
I don't care what you have to say anymore
When the evidence is in your face, 
will you run away? 

So what's UP
Tell the whole world what you did
Stop running from your guiltiness
When the lights start to shine on you,
Do you, regret what you did?

YEAH
TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT
IF I GIVE YOU WHAT YOU WANT WILL YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP
IM SO TIRED OF CHASING DREAMS WHEN ALL OF IT JUST,
CRUMBLES TO DUST

TELL ME
DOES YOUR HEART BEAT WITH ME, IS IT IN SYNC
STICK MY FACE IN THE WATER IN THE KITCHEN SINK
DROWN MYSELF IN MY OWN MISERY
WAS IT MY FAULT?

SO
WHAT, IM DONE GIVING UP
I SCREAM AND SING INTO A MICROPHONE AND GIVE IT MY ALL
BUT IT'S ALL GONNA FALL, TELL ME WHO YOU LOVE
DID YOU, PROMISE IT WAS HER?

IS IT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR
LEAVE ME ALONE AND FORGET ME AFTER
WHEN THEY FIND OUT THAT YOU MANIPULATED ME,
WILL YOU, REGRET IT AT ALL?

Fight my fears
I don't, shed a tear 
Atleast not for you
Cause we all know what you do


FUCK
GIVE ME MY APOLOGY
YOU ARENT SORRY FOR THE FUCKED UP SHIT YOU ALWAYS SEEK
YOUR WEIRD ASS FRIENDS DONT BOTHER ME
SO, WHY DO YOU NOT?

I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THE FUCK YOU DID
STOP HIDING FROM ACCOUNTABILITY
WHEN YOU HAVE NOWHERE ELSE TO RUN,
WHAT, WILL YOU DO?

RUN
RUN AS FAR AS YOU CAN "CATCH ME IF YOU CAN"
I DONT GIVE A DAMN IF YOU TRY TO MANIPULATE ME AGAIN
IF I HAD ONE MORE THING TO ASK YOU,
WHO DO, YOU THINK I AM?

"WE'LL HUG AND KISS OUR WORRIES AWAY AS WE FALL"
I GUESS IT WASNT WORTH IT HUH
IF I HAD ONE LAST THING TO SAY IN THIS SONG,
"WAS I, WORTH IT ALL?"

Fear Fighter

maybe i should drop more, sorry for the wait

acceptance

dead silence

This is a cry for help.

bpm: 73
key: c#min -36c

It's all my fault, isn't it?
I did this to myself, within
I guess you give what you get
Nothing else to expect

Was it worth it to love me?
Are you happy with what it had to be?

The sun set is coming
I try to start running
Before it's too late to make it home

Don't shed too many tears
The past is the past 
I guess it's too much to ask

Don't cry too much
Don't miss it all
I know I hate myself
Save yourself and run

Don't look back anymore
I fall to the floor
I can't walk anymore
Atleast not in this world, so I

Fall
Fall
I fall 
Into the ground

Fall
Fall
I fall 
Into the ground

Here I go, again again
This night never seems to end
I wish I could be loved again
But the hatred never ends

Here I go, again again
My body twists and bends 
I can't live until the end
The hatred never ends

self hatred

merciless


key: f#maj +22c (e flat min) 
bpm: 72

I wish you gave it
Everything you had

I'm tired of escaping
All the love I've had

When I left you
I've never felt so free before

When I lie down on the floor
I tell you I can't take it anymore

You never gave it
You never gave it, all you had

Love was wasted
Move the pain away,
Now I'm free for once

Moving on
Through the leaves I fall
Meadow trees and doves
Happy for once

Hope leads the path
Release the past
You never gave it
All you had

So tell me where to go
Don't tell me how to live
I'm tired of it all
I need to keep existing

I live out of spite
Get out of my mind
I know I'll be alright

You will not stop me
You will not take me down
I'll live life as much as I can

To live as honestly
As I possibly can
That's all I ever wanted to be

Moving on
Through the leaves I fall
Meadow trees and doves
Happy for once

Hope leads the path
Release the past
You never gave it
All you had

all you had

credit to @nearocker for the idea
sample: "i'll take care of you" by Tyler, the Creator


i'll take care of you (flip)

key: b min (d maj) -40c
bpm: 91

I'm so,
tired of all of it

I just want, to be honest
I just want to move on
Let's just call it here

I sing my song
To free myself within

(I guess it's over now)

I bring my song to you
I want to apologize through
All the madness too
But i'm tired of giving you

All the doubt
I tried to keep you around
I clean my sins out
I wasn't good enough for you now

I'm not good enough
Leave me alone for once
I just want to move on
But I wasn't good enough

Tired of all of it

I just want, to be honest
I just want to move on
Let's just call it here

I sing my song
To free myself within

Tell me what you're hopin for
I dont play no games no more
Tired of all I see
Cause I don't believe in you and me

Was i ever enough?
Was I ever the one?
I've been through all of it
Let's just move it on

I don't love no more
I don't want you more
I just want to be free
I don't wanna beg or plead

I don't wanna be stuck no more
I've got all of my support
Just to keep me moving
Ain't no end to this movie

I earn some hope every day
I can't let you take it away
I'm done rocking thru the pain
I'll make it out my way

Hold on stronger every day
I won't let you erase me
After all i know how much you
Loved to manipulate me

Don't tell me where to go
Don't tell me how to live
I'm free from your existence
Let's just call it here

Fight my hatred a little more
I won't let you drop me to the floor
I'l tell you what i really want
I just want us to move on

i wasn't

Feeling better than ever..

key: g min
bpm: 73

Live my life a little more
Sever my ties a little more
You really think I'm losing my hope
You haven't seen the rest of my faith though

I sing my heart out just for you
I know a lot of things I say can be untrue
But let's be honest...
Is there ever room to move on?

So tell me how it goes
Story ain't ever end how it's 'posed 
Getting my grades up and my degree
What else you do you want me to be

I ain't ever seen nothing but green
Nike SB on my feet, pigeon embroidering
Lobster claws with the orange tint
And you still think I'd give in

Ima make this shit for my family
Hope a little harder than usually
I seek out the truth in me
I don't need no one like you within reach

Tell me who you really love
Hoping it really wasn't me
Especially for all the shit you put me through
Leave it all behind and I feel so free

Live my life a little more
Sever my ties a little more
You really think I'm losing my hope
You haven't seen the rest of my faith though

TAKE IT OUT!

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