The Upload

moi et toi - (p. florett x Drubo)

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(verse)
for some time
i’ve been faking a smile
just tryna get out my mind

for a while
somethings missing inside and
i just can’t find out why

(chorus)
so won’t you tell me what you’re looking for?
you’re taking my control
falling deeper all i want is more
it’s all i’m asking for

you have my heart
it’s yours to keep
now you’re unsure
and i can’t speak

so won’t you tell me what you’re looking for
it’s all i need to know

(verse)
for some time
i’ve been faking a smile
just tryna get out my mind

for a while
somethings missing inside and
i just can’t find out why

(chorus)
won’t you tell me what you’re looking for?
you’re taking my control
falling deeper all i want is more
it’s all i’m asking for

you have my heart
it’s yours to keep
now you’re unsure
and i can’t speak

won’t you tell me what you’re looking for
it’s all i need to know

all i need to know (with Kayou.)

go back inside
lately i've been like a whole different guy
i wanna go another ride
put ten down, with my hopes up high

oh, put me down
i'll be on the ground
surfing on a cloud
i've been lost and found

oh
i've been the road
said this line before
then i wasn't really bored
stopped to look at the things that i lost
but the road ahead never makes me wanna stop

like oh
i've been looking for the place called home
skipped the skin so i could feel you in my bones
seasons changed and took me away from you
falling down i wanna go with you

know i wanna go with you
let me down
let me rest in my tomb
fall took me right away from you
winter's coming next hope i see you soon

guess i was missing something
that just was killing me
i hope that you think of me
cuz you're my everything

oh i know i can be so wrong
when i speak to you
i hope that you think of me
cuz you're my everything

everything you do is so perfect
stay with me lay down on my chest
even tho i know i'm imperfect
it's all for you,
it's all for you

even tho the sun finally went down
and when the rain starts pouring down
i still hear echoes all around

know i wanna go with you
lie me down
let me rest in my tomb
fall took me right away from you
winter's coming next hope i see you soon >:)

guess i was missing something
that just was killing me
i hope that you think of me
cuz you're my everything

oh i know i can be so wrong
when i speak to you
i hope that you think of me
cuz you're my everything <3

EVERYTHING (IMMORTAL)

prod heydium <3

lyrics: 

yeah i struggle a lot with myself
i spend a lot of time stuck in this hell
caught up between realities
i try not to become another victim of mentality
but i tell you what..
this life is slowly killin me

da da da da
this shits too much
da da da da 
like i rlly give af?

how do i make this something real?
i fuck with the aesthetic
i just dont get the appeal...
and its kinda fuckin me up
hardly livin wit the liquor and the drugs
this life has never been enough
i hate myself and it fuckin sucks
yeah its been so long man, stuck in this rut
i could die tomorrow
yeah, nobody give af 

yeah nobody give af...
nobody give af...

NOBODY GIVE AF

Spotify

nobody give af [+heydium]

*thank you to @lxstboymusic for adding a verse to this song! make sure to check out his music

lyrics -‌ ‌written‌ ‌by‌ ‌@backyardbeetle and @lxstboymusic
produced‌ ‌by -‌ @jxsiebeats
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lyrics:
i can feel the bones in my chest 
crumble under the weight
when i say that i got no stress 
you can see me lying through my face
yeah i got this in the bag but i dont though
putting all my feelings all up in my songs bro
i dont even got a check i dont need one though 
all you people are crazy oh

yeah its cold
i dont even know
i cant even feel like the snot in my nose
trippin through this path like you dont even know 
i aint been the same snice i been through the snow
yeah you wanna go back in time 
you cannot fix that 
yeah you know that i will never change 
i know you hate that

[lxst boy]
i know you hate when i get sad
locked in my room, write these tracks
i'll never feel the same
pressured, crushed under this weight

yeah
weight is getting heavy
overflowing and i'm sinking
gotta build myself a levy
to hold the tears back
and my fears back
and im miserable
and i feel that
i'll never feel ok
and i will never change, uh

i can feel the bones in my chest 
crumble under the weight
when i say that i got no stress 
you can see me lying through my face
yeah i got this in the bag but i dont though
putting all my feelings all up in my songs bro
i dont even got a check i dont need one though 
all you people are crazy oh

i can feel the bones in my chest 
crumble under the weight
when i say that i got no stress 
you can see me lying through my face
yeah i got this in the bag but i dont though
putting all my feelings all up in my songs bro
i dont even got a check i dont need one though 
all you people are crazy oh

- backyard beetle and lxst boy 2021

backyard beetle - stress w/ lxst boy (prod. jxsie beats)

prod @ghosthandsmusic

lyrics:
So turn down the lights low
I guess
Getting used to being lil lonely for a bit
I guess that it's ok
I know
want it done quick
But I'll go slow
times growin old
but i cant say sorry
know my future is unsure
im so scared of turnin up failure
i dont know

so what about now
i cant escape it
fumblin down
to darker places
but i got help
right up beside me
what i felt
is beyond what i see
so what about now
i cant escape it
fumblin down
to darker places
but i got help
right up beside me
what i felt
is beyond what i see

Over and over
My minds always sinking
Was lost in the gutter
Cause I know that feelin
Death can approach
And write a note for me
Anytime so thats why I live the fullest baby oh
fucked up
They said its all in the conscious
They don't know what
I do to break up the silence
So I switched up
Left them back in their anxiety
Certified that I'll grow
Wanna get certified gold
I can do platinum things
Please don't ask about me
So I'll just sit in the back
Record shit then relapse
till I'm front of the map
Till I'm front on the map

so what about now
i cant escape it
fumblin down
to darker places
but i got help
right up beside me
what i felt
is beyond what i see
so what about now
i cant escape it
fumblin down
to darker places
but i got help
right up beside me
what i felt
is beyond what i see

socials:
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https://www.instagram.com/left.quiet/
https://twitter.com/left_quiet
https://soundcloud.com/leftquietverified

beside me

@noxious-nights - 1st
@navyxower - 2nd
@yoimn3ver - 3rd
@soulfadexo - 4th
@emptychest - 5th

(noxiousnights)
I lost it all 
But I act like i'm okay
Even life is dying
So how am I still there ?
I take control
I can't put up with that shit
I'll be doing my best
Lately that's how I live
If you believe what i say then you got it all wrong
Only truth that i talk is written in those damn songs
She's been coughing like she's dying when she hits the bong
I'm playing with her hair and i help her staying strong
No, I promise saying how i fucking feel never helped me at all
I have this burning pain so i'm never feelin cold
I gotta move up North, all year long i wanna be in the snow
my body's gonna rot, will my story be told?

(NAVYXOWER)
blatantly, suffering, daily
WAKING UP, TO DREAMS THAT FUCKIN SCARE ME
holding on to you can fuckin save me
MAKING UP UR MIND, I NEED SOME HELP PLEASE!

i just wanna do, somethin right in my life
dont want no broken dreams, just keep my memories in line!
CONTEMPLATING LIFE
MY VISIONS GONNA DIE
DONT LET GO OF MY HEART
DYING RIGHT INSIDE

(teddyboi)
i got scars on my arms, i got scars on my thighs
people call it a nightmare, i call it my life
ptsd and substances, they coincide
i met the devil, he told me go inside
he put me in a chair, and said "this fuckers gotta die"

im not good at answering texts
tell me you love me, i leave you on read
plug tells me these are strong
tell me when i should care
id rather be high & dead
than comprehend that you were there
its all abt the music
aint nobody care

(soulfade)
Snow White ate a poison apple
Losing all at a downfall
Not fair for losing control
Might be just a “be all, end all”
Like lost babes in the woods
Pale wolves come rushing on in
I know what could’ve gone worse
Time is strange, but I know it’ll last

(emptychest)
what else is there 2 say? 
im okay
u still stalk my stories every damn day
ay taking hits
take a hint, take a hint
youre acidic
i love the way the smoke burns in my throat
i love the way it hurts and the way i ignore it, ignore it 
do you like how i hurt? do you like how i hurt? yeah.
does he like how i try? does he like how i try? no..

Shattered Dreams w/ noxiousnights, NAVYXOWER, teddyboi, soulfade & emptychest [+ sogimura]

lyrics

i been smoking stem thru the day
barely feel it im a heavy weight
and i dont drink water wanna feel it in my brain
im a dehydrated bitch 
what u got some shit to say
im not healthy and i know that
im not healthy and i love that
liqour pouring and i felt that
done a lot of t breaks and i failed em

i been on my shit on my drink
i been fucking up these cups
im a lot im a cunt
why the fuck u acting tough
its enough its enough its enough enough enough 
im smoking stem in this bitch and im feeling awful rough 

Yuh huh I'm a wizard with these mixers
I make several drinks in a night I'm feeling shitfaced
Hopping on a beat from my bro I call em brethren 
Hit me for a sesh and I send that cash and it's no question

I got fuck all followers 
But prods still offer me beats
I get on these beats 
And turn into a beast
I'm all up in these sheets
And blood all up on these sheets
She gon punch me in the face and it gon make me cream

Maybe it's fueled by the substance
Who really gives a fuck
Know that I'm in my shit
Know that I'm going hard
Disrespect my name
And run it thru the dirt
I don't give a shit
Just know u fucked me first
Hold up hold up
Rum gonna fuel this hold up
Roll up roll out
Transformers shit we all out
im smoking on gas out the bag now
she wanna fuck i say not now
she press against my pants and i take a shower to go and calm down

i get sick of people easily
but i dont mind ur company
wont u stay the night with me
take it to the level that u want to 
if im being honest i just really wanna please u

enough. (viera x jolst)

Produced by me

Lyrics:

I’m sorry how shit went down
Between you and me
I know it wasn’t all your fault
But shit is so different now
So please let me be 
cause I don’t wanna be your pawn

Ooh
You’re taking up my headspace lately
You
You Think of all the ways to break me

You still want me you can’t get over it
I still get under your skin
You’re barely breathing and your throat is red
Just let me go get a grip

Ooh
You’re taking up my headspace
You
You’re taking up my headspace

I just wanna let you know
That I don’t ever think about you anymore 
While you make videos
About how much you hate me I don’t care at all

Ooh
You’re taking up my headspace lately
You
You Think of all the ways to break me

You still want me you can’t get over it
I still get under your skin
You’re barely breathing and your throat is red
Just let me go get a grip

Ooh
You’re taking up my headspace
You
You’re taking up my headspace

headspace (demo)

Little Games (Prod. Holyvexy)

[+] there's a mirror in my living room...
* featuring @pinkcig + @emofruits * produced by @jolst*

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TWITTER: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: www.discord.gg/DRfW7Q4Bmu

reflections

reflections (feat. pink cig + emo fruits) [prod. jolst]

Artist:
@shikixo

Produced by Sorrow Bringer
@sorrow_bringer

Lyrics:
tell me why u gotta make this hard for me
i ain’t mean to break your heart baby pardon me
no i’m sorry, i didn’t think u even wanted me
so tell me why u coming back and why u haunting me
tell me why u always come right back to him
yeah u walk away with me you’re looking back at him
and i’m sorry i missed your call i’m off a xan again
i don’t even wanna fuck i’m off the tram again
yeah. i see u in my dreams
i just wanna get some sleep
oh, but u won’t let me bleed
no, u won’t let me

i deleted your picture but i still got the memories
u live inside my head i swear u write all my melodies
i was 17, everyone switched except my enemies
write my elegy and bury me with music and ecstasy
everybody’s telling me to let it go
to let it go
we were 16, u don’t miss me no more

(i feel like i love you now more than i did when i knew you
and that’s the cruelest thing i could ever do.
i’m sorry)

tell me why u gotta make this hard for me
i ain’t mean to break your heart baby pardon me
no i’m sorry, i didn’t think u even wanted me
so tell me why u coming back and why u haunting me
tell me why u always come right back to him
yeah u walk away with me you’re looking back at him
and i’m sorry i missed your call i’m off a xan again
i don’t even wanna fuck i’m off the tram again
yeah. i see u in my dreams
i just wanna get some sleep
oh, but u won’t let me bleed
no, u won’t let me

shiki xo - haunting me (sorrow bringer)

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