Toska

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prod by my guy @solofttt
fucking love you all.
more on the way
stay strong
take care; drink water
try to get some rest.
thank you for being here

too much
i don't wanna feel too much
(like what?)
beat up; feet are clamped in the mud
no one
fuck this damper wood i'm hunching over every day
you shouldn't feed me love 'cause i'll regurgitate it anyways

that's the price that i'll pay
not to be overcome by my emotions
a hallow frame, left to be hung on it's own
where nobody'll noticed it's changed
feel that pain of your confusion
and just turn it into music
orchestrations of my patience
retrospective-made illusions

just be cautious not to lose it
'cause some bitch said something stupid
trust me, god i know it hurts
but know your worth and keep on moving
somewhere in the sky
just go outside and raise your head
there's reclusive ways to cleanse yourself
without this constant dread
but this toxin's running deeper
i don't know how long i'll last
i misplaced my faith with hatred
as i'm staring down the glass
i ain't hitting you up like i know you (but i do)
but i'm up a few notches, i'll understand
'cause the past, it haunts you (it does)
i try to reach out, but i got ghost hands

felt too much
now i don't feel enough
felt too much
i may have dove a little deep in the ocean
for my lungs,
couldn't handle the pressure that they had been holding
y'all folding, but i'm focused
honestly i feel omnipotent
only when i get my hands on the potion
or i'm broken, i'm not joking
but maybe if i break daylight, then i'll get shit done
and i'll feel alright
with a tone so stale there was no real cry
on a blood-stained trail, we still bleed overnight
fuck, i bet that you feel it again
incisions embellish your skin
and now you're all alone again
deprived of the people you thought were your friends
i made a couple calls, did they go through?
it ain't fair, i really don't wanna miss you
take care, i'll be blowing on tissues
no air, but, somehow i breathe through
it's 4 in the morning, my guardian's snoring
i'm sorry i lied, i've been sippin away
i'd make me some porridge, but puke it by morning
the cycle is horrid, but i ain't complain

indefinite pain ain't just part of my day
it's been shrouding my brain
like a vulturous gate
this shit's an escape
i'm always afraid
of being locked out of my own mental state
try not to run away just yet, i feel you
breaching my skin, for the meantime

too much 
i don't wanna feel too much
(like what?)
beat up; feet are clamped in the mud
no one
fuck this damper wood i'm hunching over every day
you shouldn't feed me love 'cause i'll regurgitate it anyways
(anyways)

woodworks [prod. soloft]

i'm sorry

berlin

[he4vy] 
i dont think its fair
and im sure youve got your reasons 
but your words made it so clear 
that im not much more than he is
im sick of being fair
and im tired of having doubted
that out of everything ive feared
youd let your actions speak the loudest

wasting all of the time i get 
instead of 
fighting what comes next i swear 
i always
give up when things get rough
ive got a pit inside my chest and still it wasnt enough
ive got a long road to walk and wind
theres still just 
too much shit on my mind
ive gotta 
calm down and think things twice 
ive had a long hard and lonely life 

[scorpio] 
when did one turn into two,
and three into four?
because im missing you,
now more than before
crazy how we're strangers,
we used to be so much more
promising forever,
now im not so sure

im the problem
it happens often
wish i could turn off my emotions
pulse is racing
my heart is breaking
i know im so dramatic
and you hate it

i dont blame you
after everything we've been through
if i were you
i really would have left too
i dont blame you

do you think im a burden?
is that why you dont reply
am i worth nothing,
to you in your eyes?
is everyone just better?
is that why im left behind?
i dont have to be clever
to know im not worth a try

pit inside my chest ft. scorpio (king theta)

i did it all for nothing i guess

@youngburial
@93feetofsmoke
@ihateshinigami

i did it all for nothing i guess

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