This was originally going to be my response to the whole Big Sean/Kendrick Lamar "Control" fiasco. I decided not to record it seriously, or put it on Youtube months ago like I intended to. I figured I'd just stay away from the hype... but now that the hype is over, I just wanted you guys to hear the verses. Not the best quality, but whatever. These are my first takes, not real tweaking. #Raw 

Peep the lyrics:

Everybody is talking about the king of rap now,
but riddle me this, how many niggas got down, 
on any instrumental, accapella, or ANY type of lyrics ish BEFORE you got got clowned?
How shitty do you have to be to have another nigga be able to say that he's the king of YOUR town?
How many of these seasoned MC's will see that TDE seizes thee crown?
compete of bow down, there's only two options-
you either start rocking, or stop him,
if you want the *Juice*, you've got to climb to the top of the *roof*,
throught the booth, and then you *2pac him*
Yeah, you gotta drop him...that's all,
are you a real man, or a broad?
do you really have the bars or the balls?
or do you need panties and bras?

I don't see my competion as opposition,
I see them as a port-o-potti or a pot to piss in,
I'm probably not topping a popular list-
but I'm plotting some shit, while you niggas got cock in your lips,
I'm cocking no 5th, just concocting cognitive shit to bukakke your body with hits,
so while you're dissing on Kendrick Lamar,
I'm trying to become the God od this shit!

[Hook]

Body these niggas, yeah that's what I gotta do,
41 shots, like those cops did to Ammadou(Diallo)
this is revenge, 
gimme a pen,
this ain't a hobby, man, this is what I GOTTA DO!
since like, 2002 I've doing this,
under the tutelage of who is true to this shit,
this is school to me,
dutifully chewing these beats, and then spewing that beautiful shit,
I've been a student, while most of these new niggas spitting were swimming in seminal fluid,
"TAAJY DON'T DO IT!"
that's what they're yelling and telling me,
since I don't usually do this,

I would usually cool it, 
but these dudes are acting like I really can't do this,
so I guess I've gotta prove it, 
and beat these niggas til' they're showing their bruises,
they thought I got soft, because I drop less bars, and I started making music,
see the improvement,
just because I grow at a different speed, don't mean I ain't moving!
I know I'm not winning by your definition, but when did I ever admit I was losing??
(losing)
Heckling me?
What the hell are you doing?

I reckon you get that I'm wrecking the regular,
just for the record, my rep is impeccable,
under my pec is the heart of a veteran,
how could I EVER be fucking irrelevant??
Bad to the bone,
that's hard to the skeleton,
raw to the core, 
I ain't talking bout melanin...
you say my track record isn't long?
I say, "What the fuck are you measuring?"

[Hook]

No I'm not saying that I am best, 
I'm just trying to kill til' there is nobody left,
so if nobody steps to get caught in my net,
then it's safe for me to say I'm God in the flesh...

Right?

That's what K-Dot did,
That's why everybody want K-Dot head,
but I never saw a rap nigga as a threat,
because I beat DEATH every day I live,

Nobody locally is remotely close to me,
glow on a song with a poem full of dopamine,
selling dope isn't dope to me...
no, it wouldn't be "raw" if you spit all coca leaf,
all these niggas are hardly a roach to me,
how the hell you thinking you're roasting me?
You do know what you hope for me-
don't change what I'm 'spose to be, or the growth of me?
I've got a solar eclipse full of soul in me,
I never bought what they sold to me,
you wanna go toe to toe with me?
get tore up, totally!
I told them to pay the toll with me,
I thought I told them I roll with a pack full of misfit brethren,
who break the Mac(Macon) down like we're stripping a weapon,
stripping your mic, then stripping you nekkid,
the flow gets deep, til' it's filling your belly
#UGH
flow like I'm popping a levy,
scribble like Niccolo Machiavelli,
they thought I was dead, and had rotted already,
but now is the time for arrival, I'm ready!
Who can I light up already?
I need a rival who rivals my level,
Kyle, Christian, Marcus, Deion, 
Richard, Jubee, John(Ave), Etcetera...

[Hook]

TΔ²j.ALON - The "Almost" Control Response [rough recording/mix]

Some throw away bars. I'm just getting back into the swing of things. 

LYRICS:

I'm on a mission to be legendary,
won't settle for less,
this my destiny-
or it's the death of me.... definitely,
laser pointer precision, 
and I don't need a weapon with me-
spit the shit that ruined Bobby Brown and devastated Whitney
my position- is me being position-less....
Jeet Kun Do..
the T's too cold for this...
I dismantle and break-
a panel of amateur analysts
who never realized what it takes-
to be a great debater- 
slash, nigga debilitator,
hoppin' out the window with this-
the illest defenestrator 
(straight up)
This is light work, I ain't trying,
Immortal flow that's age defying-
who's as crazed as I am?
I raise an iron fist and bang you til you break and dying,
if you're not beyond great with rhyming, we won't make alliance
....I'm fulla pride, so don't wake the lion,
I'm large hadron ...when me and paper colliding... 
Taaj Alon is...
simply modest, but killing ya'll with-
tracks that turn wack novices into fat pinatas 
hot shit... this is an acid colonic, 
you asinine rappers act like you actually want it!

TAAJ ALON - "Taaj Is Like..." [Throwaway Bars #1]

Beat produced by JUX
Artwork by Tim Mcnair

Lyrics: 



TAAJ ALON - Whatchu' Mean? [Prod. JUX]

Lyrics: 
[Verse 1]
Everything is different now... 
I don't think I know who I am anymore... 
I got my head in the clouds, 
it's the only time I see you anymore...

your pictures in the frames, 
remind me....
you'll never see how far I came... 

(chorus) 

You were my only one, my mornin' sun
You saw me shining when you gave me my name
You were my only one, don't know where you are
but you're not hurting, so that's okay with me... 
HEY HEY HEY

[Verse 2]
She said "Taajy, 
be courageous!" 
if you don't like the way it is, you can change it 
(change it)
and I tried, I try-
but without you by my side-
a voice inside, says you can't do that!

I don't have anyone, 
I feel all alone...  
but deep inside I  know that's just not the case! 

(chorus)

You're still my only one, and I'm still your son
and I'll shine because I carry your name!
You were the only one, who showed me how to love
so even though you're gone, you're not far away! 
HEY HEY HEY HEY


[Verse 3]
Everything is different now, 
I remember who I am...
I'm gonna live in the now, 
you wouldn't want it any other way... 


every time I see your face, 
in my dreams...
I will remember when I wake...
you're still here... 

HEY HEY HEY

TAAJ ALON - My Only One [Kanye West Cover]


Why 

Do I fail before I try?

And my dreams all go awry, 

Most days I can get along fine 

But sometimes I just wanna die 



I can’t tell you why

I feel this way inside, 

Some days I can give a good smile 

But there’s times I still wanna die 



I just 

I just wanna lay on down and die 





I can’t face it alone

It feels  like there’s no place on earth I can call home

Im in pain but no one knows 



The emptiness is calling 



I feel I  might fall in 



Why 

Do I fail before I try?

And my dreams all go awry, 

Most days I can get along fine 

But sometimes I just wanna die 



I can’t tell you why

I feel this way inside, 

Some days I can give a good smile 

But there’s times I still wanna die 



I just 

I just wanna lay on down and die 



Unalive


Dreams of the feel 

You were in my arms 

You said you were happy for a change, 

And it seemed to be real, 

But then you disappeared, 



Now I lay here awake, 



In a world where you easily forget my face 

And every single risk I take 

To save you from the darkness, 

(I get lost in it, tried to pull ya heart from it)



You are such a smart woman, 

I’m the idiot, digging for significance 

Screaming silently hoping you’re listening 

Secretly admiring, but still distancing 

There’s miles between what I’m desiring and getting it 

All I know is dissonance 

You see me as an ear, I see you as my AIR 

So the difference is, 

You lose me?  there’s another on another face 

I lose you?

And I’ll probably fucking suffocate



Leaving me dead, 

I am so alone 

When will I be happy for a change?

When it seems to be real… it all disappears



Dreams of the feel 

You were in my arms 

You said you were happy for a change, 

And it seemed to be real, 

But then you disappeared, 



Now I lay here awake 



You love me in my dreams with my flaws 

You touch me, read my thoughts, see my heart 

But I wake up, all I see is what I lost 

I can’t reach you anymore 



I prefer the dream 



Dreams Of the Feel

Lyrics:

VERSE 1:  
I was just a little kid,  
Innocent to what the world is,  
Like everybody, After we get hurled in,   
I was like 11…  Playing with the neighbors,  
One kid said that girl ‘there wanna be ya girlfriend’ 
I was like “whatever!”,   
I ain’t even thinking that, 
 But now I’m thinking how pretty this girl is 
I should  go and get her,   
Saw her looking at me from a distance,  
 like, “Man! This the best day ever!”  
Then the butterflies come, I
 walk over slowly,  
She smiling, 
I notice behind me, 
My friends  like “BRUH!” 
I got no clue I’m bout to get crushed  Til I turn and our eyes meet,   
And she says,  

HA HA!  
NO WAY!
YOU REALLY BELIEVED THAT? 
LOOK AT YOUR FACE!  
HA HA! 
SO LAME!
Then everybody joined in, 
 Everybody saying -   

HOOK:   
YOU A  
FAT, UGLY BOY 
WITH GLASSES AND BUM SHOES! 
YOU A  
FAT, UGLY BOY 
NOBODY WANT YOU!  
YOU A 
FAT, UGLY BOY! 
NOWHERE TO RUN TO -  
YOU A 
FAT, UGLY BOY! 
WHO GONNA LOVE YOU??   

VERSE 2: Years pass, I’m a grown man, 
 I know exactly what the world is,  
Everybody caught up in the whirlwind,   
I done learned my lesson,  
I stay to myself, keep my head down, 
 A small circle, I figure is best now  
Until I went and met her…   
At first I wasn’t  thinking that,  But the way that we connected so fast,  
Told me I should  go and get her,   
At first I was so happy that I did it -  
Like damn, maybe things CAN be different   
Til the memories COME,
 She says I’m her soulmate 
She smiling, 
I’m closed off inside ,  
So I say  I can’t TRUST,  
I never seen her so crushed,  
Tried to speak with voice broke up like    

OH MY GOD, TAAJ !
THERES NO WAY! 
THAT YOU REALLY BELIEVE THAT! 
LOOK AT ME, BAE!  
I GO “NAH NAH! 
I KNOW THE GAME 
YOU SEE THE SAME THING  EVERYBODY ELSE SAY!”   

HOOK:  
JUST A 
FAT, UGLY BOY! 
DREAMS NEVER COME TRUE,
YOU A 
FAT UGLY BOY! 
NOBODY WANT YOU!  
YOU A 
FAT UGLY BOY 
WITH NO ONE TO RUN TO ! 
YOU A 
FAT UGLY BOY  
WHO GONNA LOVE YOU?   

No one can love you   
Until you love you

F.U. BOY

Don't Call Me

Lyrics: 

Time,
it gets away, 
it just gets away sometimes (x2)

can't grab on tight, 
cuz it won't wait, 
do whatever you like, 
but it won't stay-
let it pass on by, 
just let it pass on by...

VERSE: 
What is forever? 
each endeavor  has a variation, 
and nothing stays the same cuz everything's forever changing, 
it's been that way ages, 
since the first day's creation, 
since earth burst into existence- 
it's the been this system, and we obey it.. 
cuz everything is universal, 
yo, when you immerse yourself in doing verses- 
you're just pursuing purpose, 
and that's the thread connecting every person, 
we're just words in cursive, simply telling the story as we're searching, 
for meaning to it all, 
clinging to memories before the fall, 
and clocks, that have no meaning on the wall, 
we are confined by lives-
defined by time, 
never valuing outcomes, only the grind, 
I spun a rhyme and called it atonement, 
I'm my opponent, 
why would I mope in the present- if I could thrive in the moment? 
hours, seconds and minutes are meant to be measured bro, 
but souls are infinite, stop counting the ticks and  let it go!

(HOOK)

TAAJ ALON - Time Gets Away [Prod. J1K]

Rough self-done mix. Was just really excited for you guys to hear it. Use headphones if you have terrible speakers. lol 


Lyrics:

Shame on me, 
everything grows and evolves, 
but it seems that I'm the same old me...
there's no hope anymore,
when they just put the blame on me, 
as if this whole thing is my fault, 
when nobody cleared the way for me..
got me so insecure

VERSE:

I'm 27 now.... 
graduated in 2007, I was 17- 
wet behind the ears, 
grew up in a life, 
with a lot of shit that I had never seen, 
Years went by,
struggling constantly, 
college was never an option they offered me, 
didn't have nobody spelling it out for me, 
or looking out for me, people looked down on me... 
I was different and I knew it, 
so self conscious,
every opportunity I blew it, 
don't know-
what the hell I'm doing, 
grown ass man... 
only thing I know about is music, 
every bday is depressing, 
same ol same...
homey I been rapping since 11...
still aint made it bigger than the internet, 
even lil niggas that I taught got a bigger rep, 
feeling like a 
failure, 
with every year that I fail ta, 
compare to any standard 
of what a real man is, 
even single woman that care I abandoned, 
cuz I was scared for them, to see these bandages...
that I managed to wrap with my own hands, 
never had a man to man with my old man, 
now I'm grown, 
and told, to be my own man, 
and I don't even know if I can!


Bridge: 
The say the past I gotta let it go, 
and move onto another episode, 
but how am I supposed to let em know, 
that I hate myself more than they'll ever know

HOOK: 
Shame on me, 
everything grows and evolves, 
but it seems that I'm the same old me...
there's no hope anymore,
when they just put the blame on me, 
as if this whole thing is my fault, 
when nobody cleared the way for me..
got me so insecure

Verse:

rewind,  
2011 I got recognition and self esteem
rap paying off, 
selling verses was a day job,
I was a stacking up the cream 
getting fans who were telling me I was the dopest spitter they had ever seen, 
it was crazy, from the comfort of my Mom's basement, I was cracking overseas, 
then it all halted, 
I was too awkward, 
to get out the house and physically be seen,
confidence only in anonymity 
fans quickly turned into my enemy,
I shoulda struck it when the iron was hottest, 
honestly I was just looking for guidance, 
looking for validation, never got it,
losing my mind,  losing my mama.. 
losing the motivation for creation
 age 22  too suicidal,
look in my eyes and see Lucifer inside em, 
no role models, never had an idol, 
seeking love inside the bottom of a bottle 
swimmin in it, 
I was living in it, 
I was contemplating life and ending the shit, 
while denying people any intimacy, I was...
gone.... 


Bridge: 
The say the past I gotta let it go, 
and move onto another episode, 
but how am I supposed to let em know, 
that I hate myself more than they'll ever know


HOOK: 
Shame on me, 
everything grows and evolves, 
but it seems that I'm the same old me...
there's no hope anymore,
when they just put the blame on me, 
as if this whole thing is my fault, 
when nobody cleared the way for me..
got me so insecure







Shame On Me (Prod. CashMoneyAP & KingLeeBoy)

[Re-upload] Idk what happened to this track. It just disappeared,

TAAJ ALON - Red Eyes [2012]

By Any Means

TAAJ ALON [2010] - Turn It Off!

TAAJ ALON - Higher Living

#SadderDayFreestyle | Week 1

Lyrics:

(Interview clip)

I’m so close to a different life, 
But so far from where I wanna be, 
Maybe because I am not giving all of me 
I offer apologies, 
For thinking I could leave this awfully- 
addictive art of spittin these songs
sitting here solemnly, 
Thinking back to autumn leaves and drawing parallels- 
of how the whole world witnessed the FALL of me, 
My talent was startling- 
When I had first started out, 
Mama called me *Pookie,  thats why the music “calling me”* 
no longer a new jack, 
But I’m still plugging audibly, 
used to be haphazard-
Now I act half heartedly, 
Lost that part of me (that was) genuinely driven in rap artistry
It’s been really missing and that’s hard on me.
All the happiness I spread is a lie, 
I could look in ya face a smile and still be ready to cry,
Every second I sigh, living hell, ready to fry 
every time I laugh I am really ready to die! 

(Biggie outro)

Ready 2 Die #SadderDayFreestyle | Prod. ThatKidGoran

#SadderDayFreestyle | Week 2 

Lyrics: 

(Movie clip intro) 

If I was honest, I would say I just want em to understand,
Exactly who I am, I ain't iron, I'm just a man, 
Addicted to lying, saying I'm alright while I stand watching everything that matters disintegrate in my hands ,
Innovative but damn, seems I'm more of a  coward, 
Anxiety towers, 
And I forget that I'm in power ...

My potential has soured 
My intentions were good-
I guess I have been devoured 
By what I misunderstood,
My thoughts are a flood, 

Washing the love away, with mud that stains the walls 
never understate, 
It's clear to me that none escape the jaws- 
-of the-
 Beast within me that seeks anything that could-
Bring me happiness, and shatters it, 
Leaving nothing but blood, 
Why do I devolve to sabotage?
Why do I have to horde a catalog that could bring me everything I could ever want ?
Why am I stuck climbing this Everest, forever numb, 
Missing the present wishing for moments back  that'll never come,

Apparently I need some therapy, 

I need to breed an heir, so they can breathe some air in me, 

I need a reason, cuz currently it ain't there for me..

If I don't care about nothing who TF gonna care for me? 

I remember them days, living so sparingly, 

Taking showers and starting to cry hysterically… 

Thoughts of perishing, no family to bury me… 

Empty funeral, no pallbearers to carry me… 

HOOK:
When the day still feels the night, 
Lost in the fray, too afraid of the light, 
Everything gray, 
Never pray, never fight, 
I guess I just gave up saving my life.

The Coward. #SadderDayFreestyle | Prod. Syndrome

#SadderDayFreestyle WEEK 3 


Lyrics:

I keep pushing you away, 
I don’t want you to see that- 
When you’re next to me that I need that 
I keep pushing away, 
and idk why, idk why 

>>
 I keep pushing you away, 
Although I’m feeling the opposite, 
Idk what I get out of it 
Love is a thing I cannot admit- 
(Why does it kill me to say….)
that I want you more than anything….
Maybe a part of my issue is, 
I don’t think I deserve anything, 
>>

So I think I keep pushing you away, 
Tho I  want you to see that- 
When you’re next to me that I need that 
I keep pushing away, 
And idk why, idk why 
>>
Bridges burn 
Faces pass  
Things decay, 
Nothings made to last, 
hearts can break, and I’m made of glass-
I don’t wanna die alone, 

>>
Why do I push you away 

How do I begin to tell you that I’m scared?
I never let myself feel love, 
So it’s odd when I see you right there,
like, damn- 
-can’t even breathe right when you’re not here- 
 I need you like air,
I need you like-
All the times that you needed me around- 
-and I flaked cuz I knew I might care, 
then I threw a light jab- 
Like,
“Girl, why you tripping?
Calm down, shit, it’s not a big deal!”
But I need to get real, 
I’ve got wounds, 
If I let you get through 
Maybe then they might heal, 
I make you think you’ve got close, 
Then I reveal-
Every step that you made 
Is another lightyear-
In the opposite direction, 
I wanna make your tears stop- 
But I don’t think  I know how to give affection…. 

( I keep pushing you away) 

But I think now I get the message 
The cushion I make for protection,
is now an empty bed that I rest in, 
You give me more than investment-
Why do I seem to give you so much less than? 
my biggest fear is what if this-
is what I needed to get and I missed it… 

>>
Cuz I’m pushing you away…
When  I  want you to see that- 
When you’re next to me that I need that 
I keep pushing away, 
And idk why, idk why 

Bridges burn 
Faces pass  
Things decay, 
Nothings made to last, 
hearts can break, and I’m made of glass-

I don’t wanna die alone

Pushing You Away #SadderDayFreestyle | Prod. Caspr + Saint Tomorrow

#SadderDayFreestyle | Week 4 

Lyrics:

You can live whatever life you wanna live, 
stack ya money to the sky, 
You can’t take it when you die, 
just remember not to lie to what reflects- 
In the mirror, cuz ya eyes show the proof, 
You can’t hide from the truth… 

<<VERSE:
I know what’s up… 
I overthink-  and that slows me up, 
I got low esteem, and that holds me up- 
When they asking me when I’m blowing up 
I’m like “mmmmmm”
I don’t think I’m dope enough, 
Need more time to make colder stuff- 
....just need more time, 
In my mind, I’m like “I’m old af” 
So bruh, if I make it, then I know it’s luck, 
It’s like why can’t I see what they say-
Everyone tells me I’m great, 
I got a gift, 
But I can’t seem to be present, 
I’m stuck with depression 
The pressure is telling me quit, 
Don’t really have any friends…
Close enough to me that I would be willing to vent- 
To, 
So I make music for you, 
This is the shit I admit, 

When I cry nobody knows
I can’t say how many times I considered suicide, 
But then that would mean that I would die alone…
And I don’t wanna die…
I don’t wanna die…. 

>>HOOK:
You can live whatever life you wanna live, 
Do what you need to to find
Your reason to be alive, 
just remember not to hide from what it is- 
That truly makes us you and I
You can make it if you try… 

You can live whatever life you wanna live, 
stack ya money to the sky, 
You can’t take it when you die, 
just remember not to lie to what reflects- 
In the mirror, cuz ya eyes show the proof, 
You can’t hide from the truth… 



<<VERSE:

I told to clock to wait on me… 
I’m up, I’m back, got ta  get this weight off me, 
If you out, there listening-
Just say a prayer for me… 
Cuz I need, 
All the love anyone can rain on me… 
Can’t keep this pain on me
((I must be honest with me, to be honest with you
and Honestly I do got something to prove, 
Mama and papa did not raise a fool- 
So why not make dollars from what I can do?


>>HOOK:
You can live whatever life you wanna live, 
Do what you need to to find
Your reason to be alive, 
just remember not to hide from what it is- 
That truly makes us you and I
You can make it if you try… 

You can live whatever life you wanna live, 
stack ya money to the sky, 
You can’t take it when you die, 
just remember not to lie to what reflects- 
In the mirror, cuz ya eyes show the proof, 
You can’t hide from the truth…

Taaj Alon

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