This is really freaking good!the beat is amazing! keep up the great work robo

"Trips are like experiences we learn from that help us open the portal into our minds. Each trip is an adventure, not only through the world and the universe, but also an introspective journey through the vast landscape of our mind. Each trip is a test that helps us learn and explore these places. I present to you my journey, my trips, my tests. Enjoy."

This is my first fully self-produced album that I've spent the better part of two years working on. The making of this album itself has been a trip itself, so many scrapped songs, so many ideas that I couldn't execute properly, so many lessons that I've learned - both for producing and in the real world - but I couldn't be happier with the final result.

This album has everything I've wanted to make in it, whether it be just generic hyperpop, glitchy experimental production, an EDM drop, or a full metalcore breakdown, it has it all and I'm so happy I was able to make it still sound fluid and solid. 

I couldn't have made this album without the help of many friends, so here's a brief list of the people who helped this album come to shape:
Rosie
Nick
Ivan
Angel
Zion
James
River
BLCKK
Flowr
HXSTAGE
And anyone else I showed this album to as it was being created. This wouldn't have been possible without you all, so thank you.

TRIPS//TESTS

trips//tests

cant write you off as a mishap
when you hit my phone i didn't get that
but with every other time you had
did you even really want to try again

pick apart the little messages i sent you
took my heart and didnt try to rip it in two
when i started i thought that i could see right thru
now i know that i knever knew what i would do

when you
]left
im up, set
no limit
never
knew what
to get
now its fucked
feelin like im outta luck
push it just little bit more, but its stuck

and its all a test
wish i never saw you again
but i need that feelin now
please read aloud
what flees out ur mouth
1245, lazy avenue
come thru around 9, with the attitude
obtuse, fuck u, never had a clue
wana take a cruise, from the useless battles you
fight for no damn reason its the end
outta spite make the best damn thing outta lead
never write like this when im out, its the best
guess i like being inside all thru the day
EH eh
and its the fallout
eh eh
when i call out
eh eh
what do i talk about
u just talk loud
didnt think youd walk out

mishap

i’d rather die than live like this ft.cutdeep (afterlife)

empty on the inside

music video:
https://youtu.be/iqHRw1GXgO4

Lost myself
Changed my timezone for what
Bitch I'm here
I wanna kill my vitals
I just wanna be still
I just wanna be still
I just wanna be still

I was high
I was in Sacramento
Baby I'm fine
Baby I'm too much probably
That's what they all say about me
That's what they all say about me

Lost myself
Changed my timezone for what
Bitch I'm here
I wanna kill my vitals
I just wanna be still 
I just wanna still

Fuck the way I feel I'm melting 
Just one more pill I'm helpless
Your words don't heal they selfish
I should think about myself but
You got my ring on your necklace
Just wanna be still
I just wanna be still
The Ativan don't work no more
I'mma bleed out on the floor
Hope I'm sad enough for you
I don't have no more drugs to do
This cocaine got me sick yeah
I heard from your friend that you skipped town
This cocaine got me sick now 

Lost myself 
Changed my timezone for what 
Bitch I'm here
I wanna kill my vitals
I just wanna be still
I just wanna be still

spotify

stagnant demo (p. nature walker)

I just wanna talk way louder than usual
I just want my voice to sound way more beautiful
If it's gonna happen I need a sign
'Cus that would be the best way to spend my life

And if you lost me tonight
You could take my spot and be alright
So put it up, it's easy, like
Just gotta log in and take my spot
I just wanna talk way louder than usual
I just want my voice to sound way more beautiful
If it's gonna happen I need a sign
'Cus that would be the best way to spend my life

And if you told me how
Back then I would've figured it out
I got odd looks shouting
I need another plan, I need some rerouting
You talk way too much
Move blocks, save the bucks
True stuff, label us
Brace me for the patience and my luck
"Oh no he didn't, he just made another rap song"
The fans get livid, they say "you should change the tracks up"
So he starts singing, but it sounds a little jacked up
Save the beat, then come back later
So you can track one
He pulled a fast one, came through with that, bumps
Break off the last song, keep changing, last touch
You can't hide in your bed for much longer
Get up out of there, release it, count the numbers

And if you lost me tonight
You could take my spot and be alright
So put it up, it's easy, like
Just gotta log in and take my spot
I just wanna talk way louder than usual
I just want my voice to sound way more beautiful
If it's gonna happen I need a sign
'Cus that would be the best way to spend my life

"Do you have any other real passions in life outside of music"
"Something that doesn't even have anything to do with it"
"That's- that's something that you hold dear?"
"You know that's a que- you know, I'll get that question a lot"
"And I don't"
"I don't have any, like, other things I do besides music"
"Completely, like, all- that's all I care about"

i want more

These options are giving out
Please talk to me, no reason to shout
I can tell you I walk less now
When I'm out
But that's the other side of the story
No pros inside, got no glory
I'll make a beat or two, but I wont sing for you
The way I see you move
Got my eyes adjusted to it
Now I don't know why I still do it
I'll try to write it, I'm not fluent
Account on private, that feels stupid
But that's the way this shit go
I'm laying a brick road
Can't tell me how to make my own shit, I say so
Give me the new code, 'cus this music stays gold
I'm reppin' "two tones" got my plate and dish loaded

Imma drive a couple hours
So I can turn "us" into "ours"
Stay back for a chemical shower
I say that, 'cus I know what I have encountered
Press a button and it towers onto me
Can't take a second without power, let me breathe
Playback the song we just routed
I hate that you sound better than I do, outed, 'cus

Got used to the changes that you made
But imma play it back, 'cus it's fading
I'll take another shot to erase it
But that don't help me, it just evades it
For a slight amount of time
I can't cry about you online
I wanna try to go rewind
But that's a bad idea to alight
We don't talk, can't sleep on the dot
Just stop it, I feel weak from the plot
And now it's 4AM, got no control again
Reset my phone again
Don't wanna park the Benz, just wanna walk to friends
'Cus when I talk to them, it's not an option to pretend

Try and change the subject
What have you done yet
This isn't fun at all
I can't tell which story that I've got myself on
I need shelter it's pouring, I can't stop here too long

And imma drive a couple hours
So I can turn "us" into "ours"
Stay back for a chemical shower
I say that, 'cus I know what I have encountered
Press a button and it towers onto me
Can't take a second without power, let me breathe
Playback the song we just routed
I hate that you sound better than I do, outed, yuh

playback

"Let me get an actual good song, sorry- sorry- I- I- I'm-"

You think you're so damn cool (So damn cool)
But I hate that fucking face you make when you cry
You play it off like its true (Play it off like it's true)
But you blocked me on everything the very same night
Night
But I make you feel so helpless
Had a date tonight and you felt sick
Your behavior, narcissistic
Fake hesitation, change the subject

You're so aggravating
You drive me fucking crazy
Just go, you know it's the main thing
Change your fucking hair again, your ties are breaking
You're so aggravating
You drive me fucking crazy
Just go, you know it's the main thing
Change your fucking hair again, your ties are breaking

"Man, fuck this bitch, honestly du-"

I bet you can't help but think that this song is about you
You better believe it, I made it for round two
The changing of seasons, helped me to the ground
You wish you could ever see it
I'm never around you
But that's the main thing that you do
You try and make me feel bad, such a fool
Am I insane, please answer truthfully
You'll never believe me, you're a fucking demon

"So just forget it"
"That's an impossibility"

You can't help but find a lie
One more call is all it'll take to want to die
If you think I'm coming back again you're fucked up in the mind
But you did it every night so why don't you go ahead and just cry

You're so aggravating
You drive me fucking crazy
Just go, you know it's the main thing
Change your fucking hair again, your ties are breaking
You're so aggravating
You drive me fucking crazy
Just go, you know it's the main thing
Change your fucking hair again, your ties are breaking

so cool

Pick it up from the top, where'd the minutes go?
I give up on the spot, is it miniscule?
Not now, take five, put your hoodie up
I don't even like to talk, am I good enough
One, wake up, take all that you want to
Two, hate lunch, make something it's up to you
Fake fucks, they won't get a buck for who
What, when, time and place, what's it come to?
You hate all your friends, but it's not fair
You think they'd give in, but you won't share
Patience, places, better get up there
Wait this isn't it, quick get your own chair

Is it not enough? You just made a thousand bucks
Pick it all apart, ticket isn't valuable
Is it not enough? You just made a thousand bucks
Pick it all apart, ticket isn't valuable

All the memories slip into a pipe dream
What's it mean to be? Throw it all beside me
I'll pretend to see what's really enticing
So embarrassing, look at what you're writing
All the memories slip into a pipe dream
What's it mean to be? Throw it all beside me
I'll pretend to see what's really enticing
So embarrassing, look at what you're writing

"Woah woah woah, woah woah"

All I ever thought of was never what I wanted
Place, time, never mattered
You probably never saw it
But you look back and vomit, like was I really honest?
Hate time, you can't handle
You sleep, but you don't want it
Break it into something new
Same shit, what you going to do?
Crazy, what you're turning to
Phase Shift, press the button, blue

Is it not enough? You just made a thousand bucks
Pick it all apart, ticket isn't valuable
Is it not enough? You just made a thousand bucks
Pick it all apart, ticket isn't valuable

All the memories slip into a pipe dream
What's it mean to be? Throw it all beside me
I'll pretend to see what's really enticing
So embarrassing, look at what you're writing
All the memories slip into a pipe dream
What's it mean to be? Throw it all beside me
I'll pretend to see what's really enticing
So embarrassing, look at what you're writing

miniscule

JUMEX - SLEEPWALKING (DEAD FOREVER)

joe's (p. ryan ansel)

a layered instrumental I hope you enjoy :)

a voyage on seeking peace through pastoral simplicity 

Arcadian Solace

FEATURING CHROMEHEART AND GUTS
ORIGINAL TRACK BY STROODGE:
https://soundcloud.com/badinka/stroodge-king-of-the-dead
REMIXED BY GUTS

ETHER MOUNTAIN X STROODGE - KING OF THE DEAD REMIX

this what my songs sound like before i actually record them

wizard. (rough)

Prod by @shyybeats
Mix Master @koj3on

네가 뭘 나의 대해 알아
난 널 증오해, 아기
널 가뒀지 내 안에 속박
you're my toppema
난 몰라 어젯 밤에
또 실수했을 거야
넌 나만의 여자니까, so
you're my toppema

너가 나에게 두서를 바꿔
답할 차례, 너와 나의 사이는
어색해 날 많이 기다렸잖아
넌 나의 대해 모르잖아
미치겠어, 널 더욱 떠올리게
되니까 말이야, 느껴 더 깊게
babymaker database, 누구를
거쳤던 내가 너를 만족시키기에
어서 날 기억해줘, 우린 fire 널
기쁘게 해, 너가 날 찾게 해, 너의
그 추억 속 맨 끝에서 miranna

네가 뭘 나의 대해 알아
난 널 증오해, 아기
널 가뒀지 내 안에 속박
you're my toppema
난 몰라 어젯 밤에
또 실수했을 거야
넌 나만의 여자니까, so
you're my toppema

Toppema

oh i think they like me </3
.
.
wake up and i pray for my bitch back
wake up and thank god that i hit that
maybe i'd have better luck if shawty was into me
now that im on all these girls hop in my jeep

oh i think they like me
oh i think they like me
tell me why ur new man actin just like me
lil wine shawty
keep a bottle beside me
im so sorry baby 
but u just a one night thing
i be chasin money
and the drugs got my eyes closed
bloody nose at the function
baby im all alone
baby just call my phone
im tryna come over
im just a loner
im just a loner
.
john solo

shawty love to say 
how she not even into me
but all up in my phone 
she dont reciprocate that energy
i give her what she needs
yeah i know she into me
yeah and i want the whole thing
i want the whole thing
all up in the back with her hands in my balmains
nose in that cocaine
feelin like cobain
need me a moment
i need me a moment
yo love is like a drug and i just drown in that potion
yeah i need me a woman
come be that woman
she say that she dont love me but i know that she want me
yeah i need me a woman
come be that woman
rip my heart wide open 
she love it when im hurtin

-emo fruits aka young red wine bed time cry all night <3

mishap

robo

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