"Trips are like experiences we learn from that help us open the portal into our minds. Each trip is an adventure, not only through the world and the universe, but also an introspective journey through the vast landscape of our mind. Each trip is a test that helps us learn and explore these places. I present to you my journey, my trips, my tests. Enjoy."

This is my first fully self-produced album that I've spent the better part of two years working on. The making of this album itself has been a trip itself, so many scrapped songs, so many ideas that I couldn't execute properly, so many lessons that I've learned - both for producing and in the real world - but I couldn't be happier with the final result.

This album has everything I've wanted to make in it, whether it be just generic hyperpop, glitchy experimental production, an EDM drop, or a full metalcore breakdown, it has it all and I'm so happy I was able to make it still sound fluid and solid. 

I couldn't have made this album without the help of many friends, so here's a brief list of the people who helped this album come to shape:
Rosie
Nick
Ivan
Angel
Zion
James
River
BLCKK
Flowr
HXSTAGE
And anyone else I showed this album to as it was being created. This wouldn't have been possible without you all, so thank you.

TRIPS//TESTS

trips//tests

cant write you off as a mishap
when you hit my phone i didn't get that
but with every other time you had
did you even really want to try again

pick apart the little messages i sent you
took my heart and didnt try to rip it in two
when i started i thought that i could see right thru
now i know that i knever knew what i would do

when you
]left
im up, set
no limit
never
knew what
to get
now its fucked
feelin like im outta luck
push it just little bit more, but its stuck

and its all a test
wish i never saw you again
but i need that feelin now
please read aloud
what flees out ur mouth
1245, lazy avenue
come thru around 9, with the attitude
obtuse, fuck u, never had a clue
wana take a cruise, from the useless battles you
fight for no damn reason its the end
outta spite make the best damn thing outta lead
never write like this when im out, its the best
guess i like being inside all thru the day
EH eh
and its the fallout
eh eh
when i call out
eh eh
what do i talk about
u just talk loud
didnt think youd walk out

mishap

The Perc Song  (ft. Yung Bony & Classix)

Itwasntlove (p. siemspark)

PEACE FT. OMINVS (PROD. SMEBEATS)

I just wanna talk way louder than usual
I just want my voice to sound way more beautiful
If it's gonna happen I need a sign
'Cus that would be the best way to spend my life

And if you lost me tonight
You could take my spot and be alright
So put it up, it's easy, like
Just gotta log in and take my spot
I just wanna talk way louder than usual
I just want my voice to sound way more beautiful
If it's gonna happen I need a sign
'Cus that would be the best way to spend my life

And if you told me how
Back then I would've figured it out
I got odd looks shouting
I need another plan, I need some rerouting
You talk way too much
Move blocks, save the bucks
True stuff, label us
Brace me for the patience and my luck
"Oh no he didn't, he just made another rap song"
The fans get livid, they say "you should change the tracks up"
So he starts singing, but it sounds a little jacked up
Save the beat, then come back later
So you can track one
He pulled a fast one, came through with that, bumps
Break off the last song, keep changing, last touch
You can't hide in your bed for much longer
Get up out of there, release it, count the numbers

And if you lost me tonight
You could take my spot and be alright
So put it up, it's easy, like
Just gotta log in and take my spot
I just wanna talk way louder than usual
I just want my voice to sound way more beautiful
If it's gonna happen I need a sign
'Cus that would be the best way to spend my life

"Do you have any other real passions in life outside of music"
"Something that doesn't even have anything to do with it"
"That's- that's something that you hold dear?"
"You know that's a que- you know, I'll get that question a lot"
"And I don't"
"I don't have any, like, other things I do besides music"
"Completely, like, all- that's all I care about"

i want more

These options are giving out
Please talk to me, no reason to shout
I can tell you I walk less now
When I'm out
But that's the other side of the story
No pros inside, got no glory
I'll make a beat or two, but I wont sing for you
The way I see you move
Got my eyes adjusted to it
Now I don't know why I still do it
I'll try to write it, I'm not fluent
Account on private, that feels stupid
But that's the way this shit go
I'm laying a brick road
Can't tell me how to make my own shit, I say so
Give me the new code, 'cus this music stays gold
I'm reppin' "two tones" got my plate and dish loaded

Imma drive a couple hours
So I can turn "us" into "ours"
Stay back for a chemical shower
I say that, 'cus I know what I have encountered
Press a button and it towers onto me
Can't take a second without power, let me breathe
Playback the song we just routed
I hate that you sound better than I do, outed, 'cus

Got used to the changes that you made
But imma play it back, 'cus it's fading
I'll take another shot to erase it
But that don't help me, it just evades it
For a slight amount of time
I can't cry about you online
I wanna try to go rewind
But that's a bad idea to alight
We don't talk, can't sleep on the dot
Just stop it, I feel weak from the plot
And now it's 4AM, got no control again
Reset my phone again
Don't wanna park the Benz, just wanna walk to friends
'Cus when I talk to them, it's not an option to pretend

Try and change the subject
What have you done yet
This isn't fun at all
I can't tell which story that I've got myself on
I need shelter it's pouring, I can't stop here too long

And imma drive a couple hours
So I can turn "us" into "ours"
Stay back for a chemical shower
I say that, 'cus I know what I have encountered
Press a button and it towers onto me
Can't take a second without power, let me breathe
Playback the song we just routed
I hate that you sound better than I do, outed, yuh

playback

"Let me get an actual good song, sorry- sorry- I- I- I'm-"

You think you're so damn cool (So damn cool)
But I hate that fucking face you make when you cry
You play it off like its true (Play it off like it's true)
But you blocked me on everything the very same night
Night
But I make you feel so helpless
Had a date tonight and you felt sick
Your behavior, narcissistic
Fake hesitation, change the subject

You're so aggravating
You drive me fucking crazy
Just go, you know it's the main thing
Change your fucking hair again, your ties are breaking
You're so aggravating
You drive me fucking crazy
Just go, you know it's the main thing
Change your fucking hair again, your ties are breaking

"Man, fuck this bitch, honestly du-"

I bet you can't help but think that this song is about you
You better believe it, I made it for round two
The changing of seasons, helped me to the ground
You wish you could ever see it
I'm never around you
But that's the main thing that you do
You try and make me feel bad, such a fool
Am I insane, please answer truthfully
You'll never believe me, you're a fucking demon

"So just forget it"
"That's an impossibility"

You can't help but find a lie
One more call is all it'll take to want to die
If you think I'm coming back again you're fucked up in the mind
But you did it every night so why don't you go ahead and just cry

You're so aggravating
You drive me fucking crazy
Just go, you know it's the main thing
Change your fucking hair again, your ties are breaking
You're so aggravating
You drive me fucking crazy
Just go, you know it's the main thing
Change your fucking hair again, your ties are breaking

so cool

Pick it up from the top, where'd the minutes go?
I give up on the spot, is it miniscule?
Not now, take five, put your hoodie up
I don't even like to talk, am I good enough
One, wake up, take all that you want to
Two, hate lunch, make something it's up to you
Fake fucks, they won't get a buck for who
What, when, time and place, what's it come to?
You hate all your friends, but it's not fair
You think they'd give in, but you won't share
Patience, places, better get up there
Wait this isn't it, quick get your own chair

Is it not enough? You just made a thousand bucks
Pick it all apart, ticket isn't valuable
Is it not enough? You just made a thousand bucks
Pick it all apart, ticket isn't valuable

All the memories slip into a pipe dream
What's it mean to be? Throw it all beside me
I'll pretend to see what's really enticing
So embarrassing, look at what you're writing
All the memories slip into a pipe dream
What's it mean to be? Throw it all beside me
I'll pretend to see what's really enticing
So embarrassing, look at what you're writing

"Woah woah woah, woah woah"

All I ever thought of was never what I wanted
Place, time, never mattered
You probably never saw it
But you look back and vomit, like was I really honest?
Hate time, you can't handle
You sleep, but you don't want it
Break it into something new
Same shit, what you going to do?
Crazy, what you're turning to
Phase Shift, press the button, blue

Is it not enough? You just made a thousand bucks
Pick it all apart, ticket isn't valuable
Is it not enough? You just made a thousand bucks
Pick it all apart, ticket isn't valuable

All the memories slip into a pipe dream
What's it mean to be? Throw it all beside me
I'll pretend to see what's really enticing
So embarrassing, look at what you're writing
All the memories slip into a pipe dream
What's it mean to be? Throw it all beside me
I'll pretend to see what's really enticing
So embarrassing, look at what you're writing

miniscule

LYRICS//
Shawty we are over why you acting cool
I don’t wanna be friends with you boo
I don’t wanna be surrounded by a fake hoe
And she steeling energy I just need to let go
And I just need to let go
Cause this bitch was draining and she tryna take my damn soul
And she wanna go around talking bout a fake hoe
But she don’t go around telling how she wasted my time
Trying my best not to fold, trying my best to keep control
All of this shit getting harder and harder to reach out to me, I don’t know, won’t get out of it
Wanna go somewhere, where you are, where you are, where you hide
You and I, we will die, in the night, you and I

Contemplating living this life without you
Cause I found a girl that is better than you
And she won’t ever waste my time
And she won’t ever fucking lie
And she’ll be better than you, smarter than you, cuter than you cause she telling the truth
And she won’t ever turn her back on me, and she won’t ever turn her back on me

Shawty we are over why you acting cool
I don’t wanna be friends with you boo
I don’t wanna be surrounded by a fake hoe
And she steeling energy I just need to let go
And I just need to let go
Cause this bitch was draining and she tryna take my damn soul
And she wanna go around talking bout a fake hoe
But she don’t go around telling how she wasted my time

She never went around telling how she wasted my time
Never went around telling how I was a good guy
Then she wanna go around acting all cool with me
And acting fake with me, and that ain’t cool to me
I used to let that shit slide, and I was dumb as fuck
Didn’t know what I was doing but I fucking doubled up
I should’ve listened to my friends, I should’ve listened to my heart

somewhere you are (prod. puhf)

Produced by @redcigarettes (SHANIKAI)
Mixed/Mastered by @novafled

Long live Shanikai, I love you bro and i know you my guardian angel now and you're watching over me. I gotta make you proud <3

COLD TEA #RIPSHANIKAI (SHANIKAI)

I LOVE ME MOST (NOVÂFLED)

Written and Recorded by: @whoisscarred
Mixed and Mastered by: @whoisscarred
Produced by: @whoisscarred

Lyrics:

Compare a cold killer 
The soul stealer 
The go getter 
Coke dealer, Dope realer 
The sole sinner 
What’s the bigger picture 
And that tone sounds awfully familiar 

I just took my shrooms
Take me on a ride 
Feeling like the sun 
Cause I’m on the rise 
I already seen this 100 times 
You not by my side when I’m gonna shine 

Take the pressure to the face 
I wouldn’t let it go to waste 
Living up to my name 
I would die for you but would you do the same 

Have you ever thought about me 
When I wasn’t shit 
You was calling up my phone 
Like you wasn’t just a bitch 
Acting how you wanted 
Now you got me fucking pissed 
I was on the other end 
Thinking this was really it 

Compare a cold killer 
The soul stealer 
The go getter 
Coke dealer, Dope realer 
The sole sinner 
What’s the bigger picture 
And that tone sounds awfully familiar

Tatted up my body 
Conceal my identity 
Better start the riots 
Environments losing energy 
I can’t stop and think about these enemies 
One chance to get mines and end the fiends 

You get up under me 
You better keep it clean 
Begging on your knees 
What you really need 
I don’t do lean 
That shit wasting dreams 
Leave you for the screen 
Don’t know what u mean 

Got some lemonade 
Mix it with some Hennessy 
Down a whole bottle 
Got me drowning 
Now I’m in a daze 
And if I’m filled with rage 
They put me in a cage
I wanted center stage
But I done flipped the page

Soul Stealer

SOUL STEALER (PROD. SCARRED)

Yaa Eye Eet (Prod. Jack Frost & Sean La. Vie)

prod by Slugwurf
feat. @funeral

(ex)
Imma spin his shit until I kill em all
Now I'm dizzy yo
I don't go outside unless I'm masked up
Fuck my city yo
Imma call my lil sister up
To put some bullets in your main hoe
Put a 50 on a choppa now its sounding like a drum roll
762 singing really loud 
Got so many bullets I could take out the whole crowd
I like getting really high I like the clouds
Gotta a lotta snow don't need a shovel or a plow
Even peep the shit behind me like an Owl

Never miss a shot
I think the Army prolly want me
Keep on dying and I keep on comin back
I'm like a zombie
Kind of lookin like a zombie
Thinkin I'm doin too much xtsy
50 titty on the Glock I always got it next to me
Antisocial I cant do the hoein 
Come get yo bitch because she texting me
Unless yo ass a god or sum why the fuck you testing me?
Imma cut you up like I'm a slashing build on 2k
I don't fuck with fronts
Nah i don't fuck with overdue pay

(funeral)
Ima shooter, I got fye on me like cops do
If he wanted smoke wit me, fuck it like he get dropped too yuh
I'm alone I ain't got nobody to talk to yuh
Ion fuck wit nobody like they walk thru yuh

Choppa on me drive thru, I shoot thru the drive thru
Iron on me drive thru, baby ion like you
Tell yo friend to fuck wit me, like fuck it, ion mind you
I can't start to understand all the shit that my mind do

Like what the fuck is that
Fuck it ho, my bad 

(ex)
Sorry hoe my bad
If police pull us over you gon have to claim my bag
Always got a pole on me but if you get to close to me 
Then yo ass still can end up stabbed
Imma dump until its empty and then use the other mag
Imma shoot until its empty
I gotta another in my bag so please don't tempt me
I got a problem with my thoughts
I think I got a problem with me
Bitch I'm sick as fuck my head fucked up
And it aint finna stop until I'm six feet underground
I been drinking so much I'm finna drown 
Gotta another bloody nose I feel like Millie Bobby Brown
11 different strains 11 pounds
I can make yo ass go missin
And they all gon think that you went out of town

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