I like being who i am but some times it gets so lonely-- but i dont want to change my personality and be phony

i know that you are hurting
i'll try my best to stop it
your soul is slowly burning
you're running out of options
i'm breathing in these toxins
betrayed by all of my friends
the pain that you been feeling hurts me bad when i'm who caused it

staring at walls in my spare time
i try to forget all the white lies
maybe for once i could feel fine
where'd i go wrong living my life
i can't forgive what i did back then
i'm still just a kid but soon my story ends

i know that you are hurting
i'll try my best to stop it
i remain a burden
i think that i'm just toxic
i'm breathing in these toxins
i hate the place my mind is
the pain that you been feeling hurts me bad when i'm who caused it

i got way too many problems
i don't need a way to solve em
i don't think that you can stop it 
lemme finish off this bottle
yeah yeah
bitch i came right from the bottom
yeah yeah
bitch i came right from the bottom

the pain that you been feeling hurts me bad when i'm who caused it (prod. nilöwh)

produced by Lxst Boy and splashgvng 
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
@splashgvng

-lyrics-
in the dark I'm afraid
that no one will save me
I cannot see you
the walls are closing
in on me
baby can u hear me?
i am still breathing 
the walls are closing

I'm on my own
yeah I might suffocate
I don't wanna die now
I just need a break
I will never settle down
I live with no reason
I volunteer
to continue breathing

(good luck trying to guess what I'm saying here lol)

yeah I'm insane
get stuck up in my brain
I thought it was over
but I will never change
I will stay the same
even though its not okay
I'm a lost boy
I will never find my way

in the dark I'm afraid
that no one will save me
I cannot see you
the walls are closing
in on me
baby can u hear me?
i am still breathing 
the walls are closing

I'm on my own
yeah I might suffocate
I don't wanna die now
I just need a break
I will never settle down
I live with no reason
I volunteer
to continue breathing

if my bedroom walls could tell our stories (lxst boy x splashgvng)

produced by jxsie beats & nuxe
mixed and mastered by lxst boy
@cavasoul
@jxsiebeats

-lyrics-
(lxst boy)
was it something that i said that ticked you off
cause now you won't talk
i feel that we're running out of time
cause i know that i get inside my head
i'll never understand
i never did this now i do it all the time
i am overthinking to the point im never sleeping
i been writing songs, i even do it when im dreaming
i hope this goes away, yeah, cause God, i hate this feeling
i am trapped within these walls, my eyes are glued to the ceiling
yeah

sometimes i get a little closer
there's no words left to say
tell me what you thought would happen
i can't explain
you left your shadow on my matress
sometimes i get a little closer
(and sometimes i get a little colder)
theres  no words left to say
tell me what you thought would happen
i can't explain
you left your shadow on my matress

(cavasoul)
i gave all of my love right away
then for me, im left with nothing
i was walking alone in the rain
i could snap at the press of a button
it's december now, rain coming down
it freezes before hitting ground
it reminds me of the feeling i had on my neck
when you coming around
is it something about me? 
cause lately i feel like you better without me
idk whats going on in my head
but the negative thoughts overwhelm me, im drowning
im never healthy, i cannot help it
how can i help me? i wanna be dead
i still remember the lies you had said to me
so i just fill up your side of the bed
now

(lxst boy)
sometimes i get a little closer
(and sometimes i get a little colder)
there's no words left to say
tell me what you thought would happen
i can't explain
you left your shadow on my matress
sometimes i get a little closer
(and sometimes i get a little colder)
theres no thing i can say
that will undo what had happened
please just explain
i am drowning in my sadness

when it rains in december w/ cavasoul & jxsie beats

Mad cause i never had my shit straight 
I been feelin this way since the sixth grade 
I'm tellin you I'm a mistake 
Lost I dont know where to go
Age 9 got me thinking constant suicide
I was just a kid wanting to die
I'm not sure where I wanna go
Just know that i want you there
Please I feel so insecure
It's hard with these demons on your back yeah
Tell me it doesn't help when I yell well perhaps yeah

Tell me that you need me
I'll stay by your side
Please don't make me choose 
I can not decide 
Show me to your safe space
Show me where you hide(2)

There's so much on my mind
I dont know what i would do
Tired of moving on through
I let you see my underside
I'm vulnerable just to you
Stop thinkin I could love anyone else but you
Without you I would not know what i would do
Without you there's nobody that i would choose
You're the only one i can not stand to lose
So give me your hand
Give me your hand
No regrets in my head 
Just the time
I dont mind
So lets go
Away
From
Here


Tell me that you need me
I'll stay by your side
Please don't make me choose 
I can not decide 
Show me to your safe space
Show me where you hide(2)

Tell Me That Im Yours

mixed, mastered & produced by @scapexgoat

yeah she took my heart 
ripped it out of my chest 
guess you found fun in fucking with my head 
my heart dropped at every word that you said 
maybe I love you’s not the words that you meant  x2

it’s the only way to make the time pass 
still wish it never ended like that 
i keep listening to cars crash 
hoping that i’ll see you but i know you wouldn’t like that


you won’t see me there
i can’t pretend that i care 
you just sat and stared 
can’t talk cuz i’m too scared

scared of fucking up
don’t even text me i don’t wanna talk 
act like this but i’m still in love 
made me upset so i guess i’ll cut you off 

yeah she took my heart 
ripped it out of my chest 
guess you found fun in fucking with my head 
my heart dropped at every word that you said 
maybe I love you’s not the words that you meant  x2

i keep listening to cars crash

lyrics:

It was cold when I met you
I didn't think that I would ever pull through
now your hearts on the rescue 
saving me from thoughts that would haunt you

Imma give you my hope
and we’ll take pics on the road
baby lets take this slow x2

if I loose you, ill dig a bigger hole than if i’d mess up
I cant control it 
your hand looks cold girl lemme hold it
there's nothin like the way u walk 
I think that's what sold it

It was cold when I met you
I didn't think that I would ever pull through
now your hearts on the rescue 
saving me from thoughts that would haunt you

staring at ceiling, girl where are you?
I want you in my arms but imma call you
these lonely nights of fearin what i'm gon' do
lookin at life, I can't see it without you x2

i can't see it without you x3

cold

spotify

cold (you pt.2) (prod.ocean)

Spotify: https://ampl.ink/j48Br
Visuals: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=edCCms1X3sk

Artists / Producer:
@ohsobrkn

Lyrics:
You don’t love me like you use to
no you don’t 
you fooled yourself if you think you do
that’s all you know
and i’ve been dead inside
i’ve tried to tell you why
but you just hit mute
cuz you don’t love me like you use to 
no you don’t

you saying that you love me
but it’s looking like a lie to me
im feeling like a sample
cuz i think your only trying me out
you gave me hugs
but now im covered in doubt
it really hurts
but you dont notice
even if i said ouch!
you dont show me to your friends
our love is all pretend
im believing 
our grieving
is forming to a trend
your leavin’
me bleeding
but still i will forgive
then you tell me we should end
and that’s really hard to get cuz
i really gave you my all
you know i’d really pick you up
from any time you would fall
and then she looked me in the eyes
and asked me why dont you call
why dont you tell me that im pretty
then she started to bawl 
she looked down and said

you don’t love me like you use to
no you don’t 
you fooled yourself if you think you do
that’s all you know
and i’ve been dead inside
i’ve tried to tell you why
but you just hit mute
cuz you don’t love me like you use to 
no you don’t

look im sorry that you think
i really lied to you
i really love you
and i promise that im trying to
show my sorrow
for the all pain
that you’re dying through
i know your crying
but trust me babe
ive been crying too
im sorry that i broke your heart
im sorry that we feel apart
and even through
all the times
that i neglected you
i acted tart
no resting
my depression 
the stressing
it got the best of me
my obessions
put us in pain
and now i finally see

i don’t love you like i use to
no i don’t 
i fooled myself if i think i do
that’s all i know
and you’ve been dead inside
you tried to tell you why
but i just hit mute
cuz i don’t love you like i use to 
no i don’t

ohsobrkn - you don't love me like you used to

Lyrics:

Chorus
I just wanna go far away
Yeah, I can't stand a new day like this
And when I dream, I wake
Up to just another nightmare

'Cus I'm the ghost next door
Invisible to people around here
Yeah, I'm the ghost next door
Nobody likes the ghost next door

Verse
I'm haunting my own room the way I sit here alone
I'm just a ghost to you so I'm someone that you'll never know
I try to get your attention but you just look through my bones
I think my texts are ghosts too, you left me read on my phone

No friends to hang with, a sheet over my head and I can't change it
I'm floating through the walls I see people, still I'm so vacant
They think that I'm a creep by all the ways that I lurk
Man, I'm feeling like rxseboy 'cus I'm a ghost and it hurts

Chorus
I just wanna go far away
Yeah, I can't stand a new day like this
And when I dream, I wake
Up to just another nightmare

'Cus I'm the ghost next door
Invisible to people around here
Yeah, I'm the ghost next door
Nobody likes the ghost next door

Bridge
I'm like Casper but I'm just not as fun
I get scared a lot so I'm looking for a place to run
But I'm invisible so maybe that whole plan is dumb
Plus I'm getting used to being outcast so lately I've been numb

I like being who I am but sometimes it gets so lonely
But I don't wanna change my personality and be phony
But then again I need some friends instead of pretend-homies
So until then I'll be praying and I'll be waiting so slowly, yeah

Chorus
I just wanna go far away
Yeah, I can't stand a new day like this
And when I dream, I wake
Up to just another nightmare

'Cus I'm the ghost next door
Invisible to people around here
Yeah, I'm the ghost next door
Nobody likes the ghost next door

listen on spotify!

ghost next door (feat. fawlin)

lover boy (prod. citrusgastank)

https://open.spotify.com/track/1qj0UgftgV05jJO53BzUDV?si=UK3lzbqcQnSdqYwgsAWJbA

I'm so cold
I've been trapped inside my own head
I've been so cold
Ooh

It's probably nothing
But I cant stop thinking
I know that you love me
But I do not think so
And I've been so cold

I've been trapped inside my own head
I'm so cold
I've been trapped inside my own head

Yeah
Let me talk about the demons like in every song
The demons arent demons they are just my thoughts
And I've been thinking too much 'bout the future
I found you and lost you
And I cant stop thinking

Everything is shrinking
And my mind is waking
I'm running in circles
I'm trapped in my own head
I need to stop thinking 
Get out of this wrong place
I'll give everything
For a clear mind

Ooh
Ooh

It's probably nothing
But I cant stop thinking
I know that you love me
But I do not think so
And I've been so cold

I've been trapped inside my own head
I'm so cold
I've been trapped inside my own head
I've been trapped inside my own head
I've been trapped inside my own head
Ooh

It's Probably Nothing (Prod. Micco.) (Now on Spotify)

lyric video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2bIPJzxYI4&ab_channel=ghosthands

EMA
https://www.instagram.com/eemqadri/
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCY7b2zsCnmOp87E0-B_YrTA
https://open.spotify.com/artist/4AEanoatGq10hOPB33rUAu?si=qxFIlVoBRoq929vfOBI6Zg&nd=1

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places we used to be (feat. EMA)

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it was fun <3

ghost next door (feat. fawlin)

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