The Upload 12/13/2021

I woke up hungover at a songwriting camp with the line, "I'm unworthy of love" taunting my mind like an itch I couldn't reach. Took a shower and wrote the hook, "I don't wanna sabotage myself" and then joined forces with Evan Coffman and Jeff Carl to write the rest of the song in the 4 hours we had left at camp. The result is an intimately honest song about my struggle with the voice in my head telling me I'm unworthy and the depression that comes with that cyclical fight. You're enough. Love yourself. Took me awhile to come around to that. Enjoy "Sabotage"

Sabotage

Distant Calls (feat. Flore Benguigui)

LYRICS:
Living this fucked up life 
I don’t know whose in control
This feeling is getting old 

Swear I’m losing my mind 
I can’t seem to think things through 
I just think of you 

And she just wants to run away 
Yeah she’s not feeling it these days 
And I can’t stop feeling this pain 
Yeah I can’t stop feeling this pain X2

No she don’t wanna be with you 
No be with you X2

These thoughts have my terrified 
And I don’t want to disappoint 
When I drown in this constant noise 

They say I need to grow up now 
Telling me I have no choice 
Oh I can’t fill this void 

And I just want to run away 
Yeah I’m not feeling it these days 
And I can’t stop feeling this pain 
Yeah I can’t stop feeling this pain X2

No she don’t wanna be with you 
No be with you X4

Landing On The Sun

Back to You

FROM BELOW

Heart In A Cold Room

Little joys of the finite

The Hating Game (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)

7/11

achilles heel - j. maya

Pierce My Heart - The Boner Ragers

Thank you for 10k on RUNNINGFROMTHECOPS 🖤 
NEW MUSIC WHEN THIS HITS 10k!!!!

ONMYOWN W/ M3MO , BRA¥D£N , Nevi

UnderWaterBreathing

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HALO - Single

HALO

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Mixing, mastering, and producing by @dustbunnybedroom
Co-produced by Mahal Slick

Lyrics:
I've looking at the stars out my window-sill
Reminiscing about decisions I'm regretting still
Vision getting blurry, so unstable like I'm off a pill
Don't know if I'm really living life, or if I'm even real

Life is full of meaning, they say you should understand
But to me it feel like magic, I can't even seem to grasp
All these people say I'm young but I feel like an old man
Someone tell me, is it normal, I can't even seem to stand

Mind is wandering, pondering second guesses
Another 2am message
These memories from the past, started creeping on me again
Now this pillow under my head getting wetter, now I remember
You're never gonna get better if you're pushing to forget

Looking up so high, I can't even see the ground no more
Tell me why am I staying up so late
Sleep is what I need to make me do more

Now I'm falling down again
Lotta different feelings gonna come around again
You know I got way too much to count in my head
Yeah yeah yeah
Someone tell me how to sleep, cuz this ceiling's all I'm seeing lately
Yeah, yeah

Breaking through the surface with my hand
Pull my feet up off-a my bed
Now I'm pacing up down again
Do she see me as just a friend
Take a sip now I feel refreshed
Lying down, like I never left
No expression, be looking blank
Many feelings, but feeling dead

But no, it's okay, yeah
These emotions bottled all day, yeah
Lying down like it's a party, yeah you know that's all me
Pictures in my head I'm drawing, ain't no time for

Falling down again
Lotta different feelings gonna come around again
You know I got way too much to count in my head
Yeah yeah yeah
Someone tell me how to sleep, cuz this ceiling's all I'm seeing lately

familiar ceilings (prod. dustbunnybedroom)

one of the songs from
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mgHUvwIWDxc

The Upload 12/13/2021

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