both tracks self produced
mastered by @anem0s
@gasmaskatl helped a ton with mixing the beats
@alisynn pulled me out the vocal gutter (FR)

bounced around a bunch of different projects while learning production for the past few months with a heavy focus on these two just to see what I was capable of while trying to stay within the conventions I was used to type shit

thanks for sticking around :)

* cover art was a picture taken by me and enhanced with ai

art credit: @rpsu (irusu)
produced by @ogpichu and a bit by me

//Lyrics

was it something you meant to say to me
i need a break, you on my rank falsely
got em in, run from the jakes, im gonna take what I need
I cannot lose, take another route
I know that soon youll know what im 'bout
you got this room fillin up with doubt

you just wanna take, mine
you never say sumn, feels like we watchin paint, dry
I could just wait time till I know I can make it right
fake, disguise
wait, this time
cause im gonna come back and
take, mine
you never say sumn, feels like we watchin paint, dry
I could just wait time till I know I can make it right
fake, disguise
wait, this time
cause im gonna come back

im at your home
you're not alone
you shut the door on me
walkin and steppin in clothes
you cant afford, on me
i dont need your advice
only lost when I try
god, my thoughts wanna die I
swear to god if you wont say something
Ive been in the wrong but I wont fake nothing
sinking in style
I was just a child
was it something you meant to say to me
i need a break, you on my rank falsely
got em in, run from the jakes, im gonna take what I need
I cannot lose, take another route
I know that soon youll know what im 'bout
you got this room fillin up with doubt

you just wanna take, mine
you never say sumn, feels like we watchin paint, dry
I could just wait time till I know I can make it right
fake, disguise
wait, this time
cause im gonna come back and
take, mine
you never say sumn, feels like we watchin paint, dry
I could just wait time till I know I can make it right
fake, disguise
wait, this time
cause im gonna come back

doubt

doubt [p. pichu]

How you feeling now
Boy I feel like hundred bucks
I gave em the run around
I been asleep for months
Waving to the crowd
Hey, Hi! What’s Up?
Got me where you want me now
(fuck)

Baby tell me what you want
(Don’t ask me for luck)
I could give you what you want
Show you what you love
got me in a necklock
i'll tap out at enough
waiting for the next shock
maybe it’s the drugs

speaking bout the pill
been an hour
i don’t feel shit
swear they dress down til i show em all a real fit
taking tabs til i get sick
(okay)
cali xanax way too good
don’t know how to quit

How you feeling now
Boy I feel like hundred bucks
I gave em the run around
I been asleep for months
Waving to the crowd
Hey Hi What’s Up?
Got me where you want me now
(fuck)

How You Feeling Now

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/cope 

prod KBL
mastered by anem0s

lyrics:

Think you’re right (think you’re right)
People change, feelings fade given time
But I don’t mind
Change my name, take a break, give the wrong advice

Scrape my face on the pavement
Not playing it safe when
I feel so complacent
There just ain’t no way that
I got replaced and
My heart’s still vacant
What the fuck am I saying?

Pay no mind 
To the way that I cope when I’m falling behind
Fake my life
All the weight on my shoulders is gone when I die
Least I tried

Guess if this was your plan then you fucked it up
Was it not enough for you to hold that shit over my head?
Ain’t no place that I’d rather be than reality
No new mentality (still wish I were dead)
Pulled you out like a cavity and I felt the gravity
That I’m just a coward that’s all that I (wish I had said)
There’s no place for neutrality, A new felt duality
When I got nobody to blame but myself

Pay no mind 
To the way that I cope when I’m falling behind
Fake my life
All the weight on my shoulders is gone when I died
Least I tried
Pay no mind (ain't no place that I’d rather be)
To the way that I cope (than reality, no new mentality)
When I’m falling behind
Fake my life
All the weight on my shoulders is gone when I died
Least I tried

Heard you tried to say you’re sorry I
Tried to ignore you
Like something that’s not important
So maybe I’m holding onto a grudge
That I shouldn’t but I will
I couldn’t swallow your pill
There’s no assurance in hell
So if you tell me you’re down for the count let it all go
No missing out, running ‘round in a circle
Can’t hold me down, run your mouth, jump a hurdle
Get out of town, headed south, because it was
Always you

cope (kbl)

wishes

official music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MHobHG2OXfE
stream: fordis.lnk.to/wishes

-

i wont take you back since
i hate to remember that all of this shits my fault
left it in the past tense
when it hits september i feel like im on my own

i was so wrong
i wont ever take you back
left your phone blocked
got fake friends
dont trust them too
got some cuts up on my shirt
shit you put me through

wasted all my time and
ruining my past and
cheated on the race but you still finished up on last place
fuck that
you dont know me too
hope they're always looking up to me
cause i wont look at you

sometimes i wish and i pray
that you'd call my phone
and you'd tell me its okay
now you killed a part of myself
put a pillow to my head and i'd
cry the pain away

i've been trying so hard (damn)
i've been trying so hard
i've been trying so hard
damn

damn
damn
damn

i was so wrong
and i haven't felt this lost in like so long (so long)
put it on god
he ain't care about my struggle in like so long

so i act like i ain't numb and im so strong
and am i a waste of time cause you moved on?
closing both my eyes hope i respawn
left me on my own had to sit and write a new song

i was so wrong
i wont ever take you back
left your phone blocked
got fake friends
dont trust them too
got some cuts up on my shirt
shit you put me through

wasted all my time and
ruining my past and
cheated on the race but you still finished up on last place
fuck that
you dont know me too
hope they're always looking up to me
cause i wont look at you

sometimes i wish and i pray
that you'd call my phone
and you'd tell me its okay
now you killed a part of myself
put a pillow to my head and i'd
cry the pain away

i've been trying so hard (damn)
i've been trying so hard
i've been trying so hard
damn

damn
damn
damn

i was so wrong
and i haven't felt this lost in like so long (it's not worth it)
put it on god
he ain't care about my struggle in like so long

i wont take you back since
i hate to remember that all of this shits my fault
left you in the past tense
when it hits september i feel like im on my own
—

wishes

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/hr-3
track 1/2

self prod
mastered by @anem0s
@gasmaskatl helped a ton with mixing the beats
@alisynn pulled me out the vocal chain gutter

I'll always be on your side
if even only in hindsight
but I don't mind spending half my time
wondering if you're okay
'cause I can't listen to you
but I know you feel the same about me
I'll be right here until you find me
Is that surprising?
I wont take it light
unveiled at the perfect time
the dent inside of my psyche
It shouldn't be that hard to understand
you know I tried to explain
that it don't matter how much you changed
I'm not tryna bother you but
I got water if you walk through the flame
(know it's not as scary as you think)
but you know that I can't believe that now
too bad I wanted to say
cause if you got my back then I got yours and
I know you know so tell me why is everybody the same
youll pick me up and throw me down again like it's all a game
what a shame
nobody's listening to anything to anything that i gotta say
guess it's all my bad now
but you should know I'm on my last try to get my story right I
can't listen to you
I know that I cant be the bad guy
It's just not worth my time
I won't take it light
unveiled at the perfect time
the dent inside of my psyche

hindsight

self prod 
mastered by @anem0s
instrument mixing help from @gasmaskatl
@a1isynn pulled me out the vocal mixing gutter

track 2/2
april 5 https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/hr-3 

say something else why dontcha
said what's your problem?
cause if you got one, please dont try to say it to me
i can't say it doesnt bother me
but in all honesty i'm handing out apologies, i'm not even sorry
you say it's all my fault and that you wont back down
say something else why dontcha
but look who's talking like they know so much
as if it doesn't make a difference at all
but if we stayed in touch
we'd have run into a wall
so is that enough for you

to reconsider at all 
if it's just to tell you that I'm sorry I'm not
cause if I hadn't have lost then I
wouldn't find out how much I'm really worth
but I can't say I'm not tired of always feeling hurt
you could say a million words
but it still won't get to me
lacking the empathy you need to feel a little more important dontcha
but there's no need for me to panic cause
I feel it more clearly than you

(4cf)
so why I gotta find a way to get over just saying you're right
got you for closure growing older and freeing my mind
there's something heavy on your chest wanna put me in line
just cause i knew you watch your best i might give it the time
aw but it's alright baby you needed t hat
last shot when you was hurt you know it's a part of the fact
if i had just a little more time I might have something to speak for myself
and no I cant be no one else


https://twitter.com/oldcollin/status/1771246823102972362

reconsider (ft. 4cf)

produced by @nt7e & @zivve17

out on all platforms now

~ lyrics
I woke up at 3am
You're texting my phone again
Tell me that you "wanna be friends"
But I already know

Baby I already know
Can you leave that shit alone?
Kick you to the curb
I can finally move on
I don't owe you anything
But whatchu wanna know?
"Are you comin' over?"
Pft, bitch I'm hangin' up the phone

Yeah I'd rather be alone when the
Bass kicks in
I can scream over a hihat
Voice shifted
I'm gonna take my fuckin' crown back
Do it for the king
And don't call me again 'cause I'm
Hangin' up the phone
(Phone x4)

Hangin' up the phone
And now it's 3:30 in the morning
Still up and I got that liquor pouring
Thinkin' about things that I regret
And memories I wish I could forget

But damn
I still see you everywhere
Makes me wanna disappear
But I know that I can't

Cause in reality, don't wanna lose you
And I kinda miss it, my fuckin' world is you
And I can't face it
I fuckin' hate it
Cause I feel like I can't
Talk to you
Bitch I'm hangin' up the phone

Yeah I'd rather be alone when the
Bass kicks in
I can scream over a hihat
Voice shifted
I'm gonna take my fuckin' crown back
Do it for the king
And don't call me again 'cause I'm
Hangin' up the phone
(Phone x8)

phone w/ zivve

song from 2021 that i thought wasnt good enough...awkwerdddd

beignet

video out now: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fnzyutj7XJ4

back like i never left x

__

set your mind right
i dont really care but
i just wanna know when the times right
and i know you got no friends but
i just wanna know where ur minds at
took a prozac
faded
left my third eye on a mindmap
fuck unconscious hating
you dont wanna know where my minds at

and i know you hate the sight but
i dont wanna leave when youre blinded
shed some tears in amsterdam cause
i dont wanna hear when we're fighting

wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses

i dont wanna hear when we're--
/wont cut away, cut away with your losses/
i dont wanna hear when we're fighting
/wont cut away, cut away with your losses/
i dont wanna hear when we're

-

produced by neverforever

tears

The Unbreakable

coming2terms (delto & ryo)

@oldcollin
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hindsight

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