synesthesia

prod slicky

@oldcollin

luv u niz

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/instigate
https://open.spotify.com/track/75TBDR2qvO0UOR8TNCa3ej?si=c0801757b7d74861/

picture taken by @luckiwitch on instagram

instigate (p slicky)

p slicky 
this is fucked!
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/fun-suckr

fun suckr (p slicky)

track 2 @corefish

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/idwflt-feat-corefish-2

cant drive music guy

idwflt (feat. corefish) (p yungspoiler)

scam (p mndls1600)

live:relearn (p slicky)

oh man (feat. alkyl) (p slicky)

prod. ilytwelve

you say i sound like him oh well 
i’m just doing what i love 
tryna make it my living 
i don’t wanna be no scrub 
and i don’t wanna be no one but me 
i don’t wanna be no one 
this when shit get ugly 
singing shit through my lungs 

ain’t nothing copacetic keep it real 
i never come in second first or fail 
now everybody hmu sayin i’m gon hit a mil 
but where were y’all at when i fell? 
( gone ) 
yeah, where were y’all at when i fell? 
yeah, where were y’all at when i-

don’t know what to feel 
been so caught up in your lies 
don’t even know what’s real 
don’t wanna work a 9 to 5 
that ain’t how i wanna live 
don’t wanna work a 9 to 5 
that ain’t how i wanna live 
stop 
show what you’re made of
don’t want the fake shit 
baby i want the real love but 
can’t ever get it 
i never know your intentions 
picked up my heart 
and you left me with these incisions 
i just 
wanna be me don’t wanna be no one else 
but how can i fucking do that 
i don’t even know myself 
trade a penny for a dime 
and my time for some help 
cause i don’t need to know nobody 
i just wanna know myself yeah 
( fuck ) 

ain’t nothing copacetic keep it real 
i never come in second first or fail 
now everybody hmu sayin i’m gon hit a mil 
but where were y’all at when i fell? 
( gone ) 
yeah, where were y’all at when i fell? 
yeah, where were y’all at when i-
fell.
( gone )

epiphany

prod. ilytwelve 
yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around
( i love you )

i dont know what to feel anymore 
stuck in anonymity don't know who i am no more
only took a couple months you walked right out that fucking door
yeah, like what the fuck was it all even for?
if this is how to live then i don't want to live at all
i just wind up all my feelings then i let em go
and it was never for the worst but that's just how it goes 
fuck around to fuck around probably just to feel something more
( i love you )

yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around

and i dont know if i miss you or i miss the thought of love 
im trapped in my consciousness need drugs to get out of touch 
you all diplomatic, im just a manic 
so whose advice do i take if i don't have an answer 
i just spend up all my time in my own mind 
the only friend i got is what i smoke to feel right 
i set the bar high 
a waste of my time 
caught on the deadline, in which im taught to be sure
i struggle finding what's sure 
don't need a hand and not yours 
take revelations it's straining to rip out the sword
i wasn't distant before 
but now i'm distant and more 
my personality inside of me 
it makes me contort 
( i love you ) 

yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around
yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around

fuck!
but i ain't going out sad
do it by myself 
i dont need nobody bad
i remember i was down 
ain't nobody had my back so
now when i go up
ill be up until my body bag yeah.

amenity

(prod. blank)
guitar loop: rjpasin
lyrics: 
when i let you in
didnt know id lose my head again
step back see the whole world fall on me
its all my fault not who i wanna be
and i swear
you wanted something else
dont wanna talk about it
just be by myself
and its over now but i cant regret it
things that you said in my head
never left it rent free down in my head
been stuck for a while now
gave up my home and
i stayed home for a while
tried to cope
but it didnt work im all out of hope
when i let you in
didnt know id end up here again
the seasons change up
filled with karma
is my debt all paid up yet?
and have you taken enough?
ive been shaken up
ive been breaking down
its pulling me apart
and ive faken enough
i dont wanna bluff anymore its hard
but i see now
my smile was your touch
i lose breath with no lungs
and these warm summer months
been cold since you gone
woke up new epiphany
i see what you did to me
i was fucked up mentally
but all i needed was amenity oh
when i let you in
didnt know id lose my head again
step back see the whole world fall on me
its all my fault not who i wanna be 
and i swear
you have to find who you are
it's time to let go.
you fell out of reach
summers been passing time through the breeze and
in my head i plead
someone to save me don't wanna end up stuck in a daze
stare at a daw just to feel anything
bring all my hopes up, tearing em down
no one can hear me despite all the sounds
and i can't move on
you said be honest so ill just say it
i hate myself got no replacement
so im here, stuck between these ears
while avoiding every mirror
avoiding all my peers
and i've felt this way for years
and i see it so clearly
i was falling you ain't even talk to me
doesn't matter now
can't regret it now
or make it better now
don't regret it now.

mirrors

i swear i thought i knew

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lyrics:

[intro]
Spent my whole life deciding
On what I wanna do
So why am I feeling like this
I swear I thought I knew

[verse 1]
My eggs are in the basket
My chips spilled on the floor
I tried to bribe the dealer
But he won't give me no more
I stole some from the others
And booked it for the door
They took me down
And and spit me out
To where I was before
It was a stupid reason
To let it hold me back
I know it hurts your feelings
To hear me talk like that
Not here to make excuses
For what it is I lack
Just tired of feeling useless
Fuck, I'm so good at that

[chorus 1]
Spent my whole life deciding
On what I wanna do
So why am I feeling like this
Like I can barely move?
Try suffering in silence
The weight would bury you
Trust me I'm tryna like it
I swear I thought I knew

[verse 2]
I'm not one for power trips
But I know I'd trade it all for this
I was blind to have faith in roads I picked
Now I'm dying to see the end
And I tried to be the one you needed
I was trying to be something rare
Tell me how to make you feel like he did
God, it hurts to be so unaware
It was a miscalculation
An unfit generation
In a shit situation
With our lives all fueled by big corporations
To give means for creation
That demands innovation
Guess I had no chance from the start
Got stabbed through the heart
They ripped me apart
By spending my youth telling me I was smart
Dissuading my art
In favor of charts and graphs
And corporate plaques
No regard

[bridge]
I do not follow the path
Watch me say no to the cash
You give it and I'll give it back
Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah
This shit is a lot to unpack
The odds will forever be stacked
Don't tell me the code can't be cracked
'Cause this shit is all that I have

I do not follow the path (and I tried to be the one you needed)
Watch me say no to the cash
You give it and I'll give it back (I was trying to be something rare)
Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah
This shit is a lot to unpack (tell me how to make you feel like he did)
The odds will forever be stacked
Don't tell me the code can't be cracked (God, it hurts to be so unaware)
'Cause this shit is all that I have

I do not follow the path (and I tried to be the one you needed)
Watch me say no to the cash (spent my whole life deciding)
You give it and I'll give it back (I was trying to be something rare)
Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah (on what I wanna do)
This shit is a lot to unpack (tell me how to make you feel like he did)
The odds will forever be stacked (so why am I feeling like this?)
Don't tell me the code can't be cracked (God, it hurts to be so unaware)
'Cause this shit is all that I have (like I can barely move)

I do not follow the path (and I tried to be the one you needed)
Watch me say no to the cash (try suffering in silence)
You give it and I'll give it back (I was trying to be something rare)
Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah (the weight would bury you)
This shit is a lot to unpack (tell me how to make you feel like he did)
The odds will forever be stacked (trust me I'm trying to like it)
Don't tell me the code can't be cracked (God, it hurts to be so unaware)
'Cause this shit is all that I have (I swear I thought I knew)

[chorus 2]
Spent my whole life deciding
On what I wanna do
So why am I feeling like this
Like I can barely move?
Try suffering in silence
The weight would bury you
Trust me I'm tryna like it
I swear I thought I knew

purpose

picture

Take the pain away

Yeah, building walls between us, I feel like a mason
I just popped a Xan, I think someone laced it
Huh, smoking weed, making money from my basement
I think I found the key, threw it away, I fucking waste it

It don’t make sense, I been getting wasted
You don’t wanna fuck me now, so I been fucking Harley
Huh, I really miss my bike, I wanna Harley
Every time I get into a crash, it doesn’t scar me

I just left her all alone, now she call my phone, and she tell me that she hate me
Huh, I just use her for some dome, I can’t let her know, huh, yeah, I can’t let her break me
Huh, back on lean, I been sipping so much
I just poured a 3, mix it with my soda
Huh, yeah, it’s so hard to grow up, huh, yeah, I’m like so what

Yeah, building walls between us, I feel like a mason
I just popped a Xan, I think someone laced it
Huh, smoking weed, making money from my basement
I think I found the key, threw it away, I fucking waste it

It don’t make sense, I been getting wasted
You don’t wanna fuck me now, so I been fucking Harley
Huh, I really miss my bike, I wanna Harley
Every time I get into a crash, it doesn’t scar me

Love Jigoku - so what (prod. Love Jigoku)

remember,

@brakence @50landing
_

i dont wanna be well known
just wanna be known well
id rather be lonely
than be by myself
dont wanna go home
or put my pride on the shelf
cause i dont need help
from anyone else

and ive been feeling so low
help me back into character, i was
"reckless kid born and raise in america"
now im a lost cause and truth be told
i lie too much, my bad
trust me im working on it

i thought i'd die young
likes didnt do shit
i know well being well known's useless
ill go to hell too eager to care
im on a screen island where no one stares

i wanna find whats inside me
feel every fiber
done sucking up cause
im no longer a liar
dont know how to be myself sometimes
but whenever i need your help
i always tell you now

i know now
it was all costumes, funny dances
to play my mind
now i need to believe it
and i wont hold onto something familiar
we were kept back from the people we really were
its a start
i just hope i agknowledge the gifts from the past
when we run out of time

i just wanna be known well
not well known
id rather be lonely than be alone
id rather sleep in a hotel
than sleep in my home
but ive been pulling my weight in my thoughts
no matter where i go

ive been feeling so low
help me back into character, i was
"reckless kid born and raise in america"
now im a lost cause and truth be told
i lie too much, my bad

i got a star studded cast of friends
that never answer the phone
no matter when i call
gotta stop trying so hard to try so hard
otherwise ill have nobody at all

im still learning to be direct
cause for years ive been a mess
in '18 i changed address
not the right one but the best
cause my parents are my success
i still need to earn their respect

im just tryna figure it out

theres probably a lot
that i should've done differently
and i, oh i went to hear it out
but i was never listening
i knew that it's not alright
just trying to find the light
summon another spark
or maybe its gone and died
i try to stay out of sight
i gotta leave by the night
i cant seem to clear my mind

but i know now, that it was all
a bad dream, crash scene playing in my mind
and i shouldn't believe it, so i
cant hold onto something familiar
when ive lost sight of the people we really were at the start
and ive started to see it. cause

i dont wanna be well known
i dont wanna be well known

i dont wanna be well known
just wanna be known well
id rather be lonely than be by myself
dont wanna go home or
put my pride on the shelf
cause i dont need help from anyone else
_

thank you to will and graham for the bgv in the second chorus
thank you to the boys, and bekah, and my parents for knowing me well

well known (w brakence & 50landing)

@oldcollin
human resources, music trillionaire

scam (p mndls1600)

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