M.T.T.M (p.Ginseng)

It’s all in my head pt.2 (Marz_Aquarius x Thesis x VAreal)

What You On

mv : https://youtu.be/wS4DveeX-8I?si=Yhb67MajkOEZkWdb
lyrics:
You can maybe come and try to just

Just try to tell me how you’re feeling girl, I need to know
I didn’t get it when you said it left me here alone
You didn’t want it when I had it now I gotta go
You told me love could last forever fuck, I only hope
Now I found out how
I don’t want that now
Talk but don’t pop out
Fuck I need that now

Didn’t want it baby now I gotta fall down
Used to feel your touch the silence got me knocked out
Can’t find the difference between your heart
And that darkness in my head is getting cold out
Eyes open knee deep I fall apart
You bit that hand that fed you I’m like what the fuck wow

Just try to tell me how you’re feeling girl, I need to know
I didn’t get it when you said it left me here alone
You didn’t want it when I had it now I gotta go
You told me love could last forever fuck, I only hope
Just try to tell me how you’re feeling girl, I need to know
I didn’t get it when you said it left me here alone
You didn’t want it when I had it now I gotta go
You told me love could last forever fuck, I only hope

only hope

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only hope [lazylabor] (music video in desc)

a memoir of gratitude

moving on

prod. by me https://soundcloud.com/luv_armor
featuring https://soundcloud.com/pinkcasperr

[nvmbr]
there’s a car crash on 23
it’s you & me
it’s you &..

me, i don’t like to speak that much
but we’ll keep in touch
‘til the evening sun sets
& then we’re fucked

no, i can’t go back
but i miss what we had 
left you in the past
& it hurt so bad

there’s a car crash on 23
flee the scene & leave
like how you left me..

i had big dreams
now i can’t leave this bed
i’m fucked in the head
know that i should be dead..

there’s a car crash on 23
it’s you & me
it’s me &..

you don’t see me that often at all
got my back to the wall
& it feels like i’ll fall
yeah, you don’t even call..

[caspy]
my mind’s a car crash
girl, you’re in the passenger seat
don’t say you want me, baby
‘less you mean it passionately

i’m like a bombshell
empty & uncomplete 
racin’ towards the median
already taste the concrete

you got a web of lies 
to keep my trapped inside
don’t got my head on right
ain’t slept at all last night

i caused a crash last night
right on route 23
soon i’ll be 22 & still hung up on you

why’d you draw me back?
(i don’t think you’ll call me back)
just to leave again like that..
(how you left me here; it’s sad)

b-break me in half
(ohhh)
just to stitch & cut it back..

[nvmbr]
& yeah, these stitches hurt so bad
i felt the glass cut in the crash
you make me feel so fuckin’ sad
like, what’s the point of all of that?

it’s bad.. i should’ve died in the crash
you’re the voice in my head
but i know you want me dead

there’s a car crash on 23
it’s you & me
i just can’t breathe..

car crash

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lyrics
tweaking off dem drugs did like 10 pills today
tweaking off your love baby wat it is today
took like 10 rounds im off gen today
why u following me around bitch i cant lead the way
yeah broke boy i cannot manage ya
got more money in my pockets then a register 
556 will crop him out just like a editor
its time to leave them hoes alone boy im telling ya

time to go to bed
get get geeked pour some red
slime want yo head
if i drop a bag yo family might just leave ya dead
im the type to leave a bitch on read
imma pour up rah red
she giving dumb head sum like special ed
broke boy aint never did a money spread 
broke boy aint never seen a nigga bleed
broke boy aint never felted a dude with led
smoking dumb loud cant hear like what you said
smoking dumb loud cant hear like watcha said
grrr bow i fuck up a nigga head
chichow bitch you’ll never hear that bread

Today

thank u 4 listening 🦇🖤

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birds chirp

produced by flareupski

lyrics:

They talk bout me on twitter so much  you would think I’m cancelled
If it ain’t good for suckin - then what you use your hands for?
Music making moments baby I be making anthems
Be making bitches smack the ground so much u would think they having a tantrum
Jedi shit how I’m a menace in that phantom
Pretty bitches acting pick me cus I’m handsome
Better hope me and your bitch can’t live in tandem 
Make her move to the UK with all my mandem 
Babygirl you look pretty let’s take a photo
MVP in the game like this one’s for hoco
So much powder in her nose look like a snow globe 
Bitch I got the underground up in a chokehold
Yes, I’m pretty and my team stay by my side 
Yes, come with me and I’ll take you on a ride
Yes, no diddy all my boys get up tonight
Be in New York City but I ain’t with that puff shit like what the fuck
That’s your wife that you passing around boy you a cuck
Pack the venue out, then drive back home in blacked out trucks 
Honestly, I thought bout what it’s like to not be me, and boy it sucks
Hate comes from a place of envy, I’m the MVP
I’m starting to feel like Calboy now, cus they all starting to envy me
I’m tryna buy a crib for me and wifey, type on MTV
I know they tryna block my shine but they all just some NPCs

Babygirl you look pretty let’s take a photo
MVP in the game like this one’s for hoco
So much powder in her nose look like a snow globe 
Bitch I got the underground up in a chokehold

She wanna practice all my moves up in my dojo
Said she want my dragon, my shit mythic you Komodo
Wifey brought a friend cus she was getting FOMO
Jason Derulo on the stage I’m flyin solo
Burning castles down since 17, boy I’m an arsonist
Poisoning the water, check your fingernails for arsenic
Shawty play my music while I’m driving, like I’m narcissist 
And every time I step in know I’m shaking shit like Parkinson’s
Yeah, better keep ya head low
I be out in Bristol balling, shoutout baby mellow
Come be my forever shawty, baby you my yellow
Said that shit at 1:43 I love ya baby let’s go
Just turned 21 but I been in the club since I was just a kid
School bus shawty, takin hulks, but that’s in hopes that that was it
Ain’t tryn get low, just so ya know that I won’t ever let ya quit 
And it was cuts, but now it’s VS1 diamond cuts on my wrist
And now I got so many places could be at one time it’s lit
lil baby I won’t leave a trace, I’ll be out in time, make it quick
She hoppin on and ask if I’ll be her valentine, that’s ya bitch
I know you saw her car at mine while you passing by , that was it

pretty (flareupski)

i shut myself off, dead
ion feel nun at all
til my eyes cry red
i feel dead by default
til i'm drained out, bled
i still take all the fault
you can blame me instead
i should take all the fault

i never call, we never talk
i never wanted that, i swear
i swear it's off, i swear we're still the same, i thought
thought we'd be over this, i swear it's all my fault
it's all my fault. i always act like i forgot

bitch i'm way more than pissed off
i got fifty in this drum inside my pistol
i'm so close to breaking my streak, cut my wrist raw
i pray to this sawed off, how i hope it blow your lips off

this bitch so psychotic, almost lost it, ion give a fuck
i could kill you right now where you stand, like is you down or what
i hope that you understand that you're way past just fucking up
i know deep inside you're so depressed, lil bitch just suck it up
swear to god bitch suck it up

we're on different pages
but the same book
i'm waiting
for you to find out
what i did, i'm impatient
i should show you
its ok, i'm still sorry
i thought we, had an understanding
i'm sorry

suck it up

Lyrics & performance by me
Produced by @prodjayysoul
Mixed and mastered by Chris Martsolf (@prodcmarty)

Lyrics: 

I'm really not so good with love
Uncomfortable and overwhelmed
I always make excuses for just leaving
And what I don't want you to see
My deepest insecurities
The fears I dream about when I am sleeping

And it comes on again at 2 a.m.
I wake up from a lucid dream
I'm breathin out and breathin in
I gotta find my peace again
(fly away... fly away... )

FLYYYYYYYY AWAYYYYYYYYY
(I'm sorry)

I wish I could just sit with you
And let myself be see-through
But you might run if I give you the full view
I wanna give you my heart
Want you to see the broken parts
For you to tell me that I'm still what you want

But it comes on again at 2 a.m.
I know it's time to leave again
Before you even get the chance 
I gotta find my peace again
(fly away....fly away...)
I'm sorry :(
Please forgive me

Fly Away

Just an amateur artist with a big love for music. I pour my heart into creating songs about the ups and downs of love and the journey of self-improvement. Each track is a piece of my story—raw, real, and always evolving. Thanks for listening and being part of the ride!