Name: HOW MANY MEN DROWN BEFORE THEY SAVE THEMSELVES by EXILE
Duration: 3 min 27 s
Description: An alternative rap track about hitting the point where silence stops working. This is the moment a man sinks far enough to finally see what’s pulling him under. It’s heavy, honest, and centered on the question most men never say out loud: How long before you let yourself breathe?

This is the story of growing up in a world where softness is punished and called weakness. I learned early to hide my sensitivity, my intuition, my heart. This track is me reclaiming those things and saying out loud that softness is not the opposite of strength, it is strength.

DON’T BE SOFT

This is the moment the “funny friend” breaks character. The smile stops working. The jokes stop landing. It’s when the people around you still see entertainment, but you feel like you’re dying inside. It’s what happens when performing becomes too heavy to carry.

WHEN THE LAUGH DIES

An alternative rap track about hitting the point where silence stops working. This is the moment a man sinks far enough to finally see what’s pulling him under. It’s heavy, honest, and centered on the question most men never say out loud: How long before you let yourself breathe?

HOW MANY MEN DROWN BEFORE THEY SAVE THEMSELVES

Produced, Recorded and Mixed by: Nathan Allan Sunderhuse

Defective

“I make music for people doing the hard work the ones healing their trauma, breaking their patterns, and rebuilding their identity.
My sound is masculine vulnerability, shadow work, and emotional truth.
I don’t make songs to entertain you.
I make songs to guide you through the parts of yourself you were taught to hide.”

HOW MANY MEN DROWN BEFORE THEY SAVE THEMSELVES

EXILE

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