im on my hands and knees begging for you to release this

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thanks solr for begging for the release goat

officially number 1 on streams i can die happy

produced by Bowsa

lyrics:
breaksdown 
(breaksdown)
i always end up breaking your trust
(breaking your trust)
and i can't get away from lust
(away from lust)
just hold my hand so i won't drown
(hand so i won't drown)

whole my stupid life
i'm just trying to be something
but i'm just a stupid kid
i don't know anything, anything
so just hold me when i tell you that i'm nothing, nothing
every time i make mistakes i end up laughing, laughing

it's a defense mechanism
i want to be clear
(i want to be clear)
deep inside i'm screaming
i'm shivering in fear
(shivering in fear)
so take me away
(take me away)
every time i try to fix anything
(every time)
everything just-

breaksdown 
(breaksdown)
i always end up breaking your trust
(breaking your trust)
and i can't get away from lust
(away from lust)
just hold my hand so i won't drown
(hand so i won't drown)

stuck again in an endless loop
(stuck again)
i just want to be here with you
(here with you)
hold me i miss you
(hold me)
all i want is to kiss you
(kiss you)

breaksdown 
(breaksdown)
i always end up breaking your trust
(breaking your trust)
and i can't get away from lust
(away from lust)
just hold my hand so i won't drown
(hand so i won't drown)
breaksdown (down)
everything just breaksdown

breaksdown

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy

lyrics:

my stomach keeps on turning 
i cannot stop this burning
sensation in my body
its concerning, it’s concerning 
the rain just keeps on pouring
and thunder keeps on roaring
it getting cold this is my final warning
final warning

what else u want from me?
oh god just tell me please
i keep on wondering
why
why
why
why
this always happens to me
my heart is falling asleep
i never get closure i need so just tell me
why 
why
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 

loosing my mind in the dead of the night
wishing ur face would get out of my sight
can’t even cry, so i put up a fight
broken again, but i say im alright 
run from the truth just to sit in the lie
couldn’t face facts so i let myself hide
played all the games and i still don’t know why
chasing a ghost that won’t hear my cries
love was a cage and i wanted to fly
clipped my own wings just to stay in ur life
gave u my soul and u left it to die
said that u cared while u twisted the knife
stuck in the dark with no tears to cry
light dosent shine where there’s no will to try 
it getting cold this is my final warning
final warning

what else u want from me?
oh god just tell me please
i keep on wondering
why
why
why
why
this always happens to me
my heart is falling asleep
i never get closure i need so just tell me
why 
why
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose

@solrisyours produced this

i still am not actively making music. but i was held at gunpoint to release this.

collide.

life is like.. a rollercoaster lol (with harvest)

all platforms 12/13
prod. guttertrvsh x sorrow bringer
album art by avxid <3

lyrics:

dobry:
throw me to the wolves and watch as i die
where's my comfort?
there's no comfort in this
(you fucked me up)
i can't breathe
shoot me up with enough drugs to help me be
i love it when you fuck with my mental
til you fuck with my mental
show me up

kotaray:
all my demons they cut me down
you can forget it, i'll never settle down
all my veins keeps on hurting as im falling south
desperation as my head keeps on fading out

where did i go?
ive seen my life spill out on the floor
dead in my home, hell i see nothing in my door
hello desperation are you hearing me out?
im talking to myself all my demons on their way down
im trapped out of my mind
let me tell you all the lies
that get me high

avxid:
i could throw up
im no one
its blown up
in my face
i erase 
what you say
from my brain
itll be safe

baby could you look me in the eyes
i aint gonna sleep tonight
i got shard of glass just digging in my eyes
oh ive grown but still i cry

whyd you burn it down i swear theres nothin left
i got metal sticking to my chest
i can feel it when i take a breath
its a bad time inside my head

i can see the torch lights
i can watch it catch fire
it was fun, i wont be here for long
it was fun, but i wont be here for long

ryn:
been so long i know i might break
feel my blood rushing thru my veins
so many things i didnt say
its been years it still brings me pain
tear stains on my shirt i know i cant help it
im crying on my own maybe im just selfish
i wish i showed you how i really felt
but these scars made it so i couldn't get help

kairu:
i tried to help you, i couldnt reach you
i put us through hell, i didnt mean to
and i hate myself, for what ive been through
but im with you now, so can we make it out?

2 drinks in me, but i feel fine
i start to weave through dotted lines
i feel it taking hold of me
i fear im running out of help
i need you, it hurts, to bleed through
the bandages we made, over time and time again

4 drinks in me, you're on my mind
it's hard to sleep alone at night
i fear my heart is growing weak
it longs for you and nothing else
compares to, the pain, we've been through
but still i hope you know, that ill always want you close 


syon:
to me youre colder then dark 
my demons know who you are 
god damn i know from hell then 
they need help from the start 
and god knows that im not going to make it 
so why have me spend it all down here 
i am alone and i dont feel like breaking out
you hit my phone and im letting it ring out 
like you didnt care about me then, so why the fuck do you care now?

gutter:
i dug in deep, but i found nothing new inside my soul
you cast me off then i found myself just rotting inside this hole
i fucked up but you left wounds that wont recover on their own
now i cant fall asleep without your face as my eyelids start to fall
i pushed myself deep underground
you could find me there and rip me out
but you dont care enough to save me too
i guess i played myself, i guess my part's the fool

so ill just dive in deep into this ashen lake
this fire consumes all my love and all of your hate
she'll proclaim me a witch, they'll burn me at the stake
once im but a husk im sure then she'll feel safe
i hope it hurts it too much
i hope that im ashamed
i know that i deserve
all of this torturous pain
i hope i learn it well
when i go down in flames
if i cant fix this mess
then hell was all in vain

hell was better than this (with Dobry!, KOTARAY, AVXiD, ryn., kairu & syon)

produced by s0ftskelet0ns, who killed this shit
mastered by ne'erdowell
for my brother myles, whom i love

lyrics

I got a friend and he doesn't take enough care of himself
He prays for an end and he bides all his time reprimanding himself 
and he pushes out the cravings of what he really needs
For the habit he built

And he thinks his times up

He thinks she was the one
But it's not worth dying for her
Or the image you had of it all
There's more to this world
Than a girl that you never knew.

Who gave you the idea 
that you're unfit for love my friend
I think I put 2 and 2 together 
they mentioned s&m
That shit was never love and a kid
should never bear these things 
Why you take it out on yourself
There was no winning this

Why do you resign yourself to this mess
Oh Myles you know better

If it feels like you're decaying 
Then the first step isn't praying
Take your foot out of the grave 
And punch the world back in the face
You need some good shit in ur brain
Like Vitamins and sunny days 
You need a proper bit of steak
And then some beers with proper mates 

Why do you insist
On letting this bitch win
Myles you know better

And it's not worth dying for her
Or the image you had of it all
There's more to this world 
Than a girl.

my brother myles (s0ftskelet0ns)

for all those we've lost, keep creating <3

Lyrics:

it's my favorite season
illness in the boy gonna
drown the voice of reason
i don't wanna hear it
i don't wanna deal with this
give me another night to dwell on how i stepped in shit
think it's do or die
friends pass all the time now
i'm not gonna lie
i still take my life for granted
don't know how we manage
face tank all the damage

i can not slow down
for other dreams conclude
another's journey ends
but mine survives somehow?
it's not fair

it's my favorite season
illness in the boy gonna
drown the voice of reason
i don't wanna hear it
i don't wanna deal with this
give me another night to dwell on how i stepped in shit
think it's do or die
friends pass all the time now
i'm not gonna lie
i still take my life for granted
don't know how we manage
face tank all the damage

i can not slow down
for other dreams conclude
another's journey ends
but mine survives somehow?
it's not fair

it's not fair
it's not fair
it's not fair
it's not fair
it's not fair

not fair (prod. remghost)

BEYOND THE TRUTH

cremebrulee (secre)

[Verse 1]
Draw a line in the air
You swear that you can feel it
Chasing shapes that aren’t there
But your heartbeat says they’re real
We all point to the same wrong place
Laugh and call it “just my brain”
Still we’re standing in the same false light
Seeing the same strange thing

[Chorus]
We all fall for the same illusion
Same bent mirror in our eyes
If we’re all wrong together
Does it feel like a lie?
We all fall for the same illusion
Same soft trick of the mind
If we’re all wrong together
Maybe that’s our kind of right

[Verse 2]
Colors bleed at the edge
You’d bet your life on their shade
Touch the ghost of a ledge
Your body flinches anyway
Is it truth if it’s shared?
Or a well-practiced mistake?
Whole world humming the same misheard line
Like it’s the one we meant to say

[Chorus]
We all fall for the same illusion
Same bent mirror in our eyes
If we’re all wrong together
Does it feel like a lie?
We all fall for the same illusion
Same soft trick of the mind
If we’re all wrong together
Maybe that’s our kind of right

[Bridge]
You see water in the road
I see water in the road
Reach out
Hand through cold hot air
And we both swear it flowed
If your lie looks like my truth
And our stories intertwine
Maybe what we’re really seeing
Is the way we stay aligned

[Chorus]
We all fall for the same illusion
Same bent mirror in our eyes
If we’re all wrong together
Does it feel like a lie?
We all fall for the same illusion
Same soft trick of the mind
If we’re all wrong together
Maybe that’s our kind of right


[cello solo]

Shared illusion…

This track is a powerful reflection on unity, survival, and the struggle of a generation caught between control and freedom. It speaks from the perspective of someone watching nations divided, people criminalised, and politicians protecting power while everyday lives are sacrificed. The lyrics confront the pressure placed on society, especially the younger generation, urging them to listen, stay aware, and remember that we’re still living despite the weight of the system.

At its core, the song is both a protest and a plea. Lines filled with exhaustion, nausea, and silence capture the mental toll of being ignored for too long, while the repeated refrain “so don’t go” becomes a cry for connection, resilience, and hope. It’s about refusing to give up, pressing forward instead of pausing, and trying to release something honest and peaceful even when everything feels like it’s gone wrong.

This is a song for those fighting quietly, surviving day by day, and holding on to life in a world that keeps pushing them back—an anthem of awareness, endurance, and unity.

collide.

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