idk why but i was thinking of this song earlier and it took me 3 hours to find it lol

IDRWTAI//kennedyxoxo + Kenny Orlando + noahmadethiss + SINNERSDEDX + killmesumday + sace6

two faced//kennedyxoxo

https://soundcloud.com/heybelak
https://www.youtube.com/@prod.L1GHT

Obsessive w/ Belak

feat. @chiefjuno
prod Oh well. & @thrmls

lyrics: 

I just get mad at me
10 thousand hours of regret
I do it masterfully
I'm overloaded but I'm drained 
Just like a battery
And all my problems
They get worse at night like after three

Man I hate this feeling
It's hard to describe
Living in a box
No one can see me like a mime
Nothing I do is good enough 
I'm never satisfied
And the more I think about it
Then the less I wanna try
Man I hate wading
Lost in the ocean with no one to save me
Try to paint a picture but 
I'm too nice so no shading
All give and no take so
My magic is fading
Tried to build a bridge 
But my legs were shaking

I'm so scared of 
Shit that isn't there
It's getting hard to handle
But I can't pretend
We're just friends
It doesn't make sense 
For me to be your man though
Like can we just be honest
Do you really expect me to solve this
I've been up all night
I'm nauseous
It's never gonna work out 
I called it
She feels so unseen
Dropped out of school
Low self esteem
Taking different kinda pills all for the dopamine
She's been waiting all her life to take it out on me

Man I hate this feeling
It's hard to describe
Living in a box
No one can see me like a mime
Nothing I do is good enough 
I'm never satisfied
And the more I think about it
Then the less I wanna try
Man I hate wading
Lost in the ocean with no one to save me
Try to paint a picture but 
I'm too nice so no shading
All give and no take so
My magic is fading
Tried to build a bridge 
But my legs were shaking

I guess this is all that's left of me
Hate to admit it I got jealousy
Cause I don't really have a legacy
I probably need therapy

This feeling is too hard to describe
Living in a box
No one sees you like a mime
That's why I'm always late when I arrive
The more I think about it then the less I wanna
Try

hard2describe (feat. juno)

b-side released for niztopia's charity stream to benefit palestine children's relief fund.

whats so great about rapidly descending
got me stressing out just waiting on the ending
im hella rational but i cant stop the feelings
just tryna get over u 
theres cigarette burns on my skin
i cant deal with tht mindset you're in
falling in love was the dumbest. i've sinned
cause falling never sounded like a great idea
crushed in space, black holes in ur eyes spin me out

produced by yungspoiler
additional prod by onlyfriend

hi niz what u doin this weekend [prod. yungspoiler]

THEY DNT WARN US

prod by stezzyxl 
enjoy

lyrics:
clipping all my beats
you can see the red spreading on my sheets
never liked the green
turn it up like 5 or 6 db
so watch it how u walk
“chasing bags” you’re chasing the 
(hawk tuah)
so watch it how u talk
preaching the “money is power” but chasing the wap?

there’s so much shit that i can say
those are the secrets im keeping till grave
so
get the fuck out of my way
i don’t got patience, i can’t stand to wait
so
get the fuck out of my face
i don’t got time to hang out with the prey 
so
get the fuck out of my 
face
get the fuck out of my

i took these years just to find myself
i learn from god, and all the pain i delt 
it’s time to shed all the damn old skin
repent my sins, thanking god i win

blood is dripping from my neck to the ground
leave a trail of all the mess till im found
till im found, ill never make a sound
even now

2024 pulled up with my wrist slit
2025 i’m pulling up with a new bitch
i’ve seen it all before, trauma locked up in my eyes
i’ve seen it all before
these eyes will never lie (x2)


ya no quiero a jugar
dame dame otro mas
me rompio mi corazon
reglame o porfavor (x3)

dirty

One 4 The Summer (p. nayyar)

in the back of a cab i don't wanna go
to a bar with a crowd where i feel alone
you can tell me to try but i won't
try to fit in - i just don't
some days, some nights i still feel alright
but it's been a minute
i can't get that weight off of my mind
and you wonder why i try to be something else
my friends are doing well
but i'm in a handbasket going straight to hell
as soon as i arrive wanna leave straight away
all these strobe lights they just fuck with my brain
am i the only person who's not on cocaine
i just wanna make songs with friends in the basement
in the back of a cab i don't wanna go
to a bar full of people that i don't know
i'm with my team but i'm still alone
try to fit in; i just don't
so get me out alive.

social anxiety club dancefloor [prod. droozy]

when you speak my heart begins to sink
i know you need some space and time to think
yea i respect that, but

i don't wanna wait for you to bail and let me down
i don't gotta wait for you to figure your sh!t out
i don't gotta wait around for nothing, no one, nobody but me
cus i got my dynasty to keep
yeah i got a legacy to leave

so get rekt

there's only so much time for you and i
no one's getting any younger
such a superficial state of mind
cus i could die tonight

or one of us could be hit by a bus or a truck
simply struck by plain bad luck, god forbid
it's morbid, sordid, fascinating
fragile bodies overrated
when i had that aneurysm
it left no room for pessimism
it's time to play or fuck the system
cus i could fuck anyone else

get rekt [prod. sorrowbringer]

co-codependency
you take the best of me
i'm so hung up on u..

co-codependency
you took the best of me
i'm so hung up on you
always scared that we be falling thru
can you be alone for five more minutes before blowin up my phone?

so it's an issue of trust
everybody's drunk with lust
we all want security
but cheat with impunity
is my commute to work now subject to scrutiny?
goddamn better stage a mutiny

so don't get me wrong, i wanna be with u
'yeah, right' then all hell breaks loose

can you be alone for five more minutes before blowin up my phone?
cus i'm fraying and stressing and twisting my stomach in knots

[produced by yung spoiler]
[art by onlyfriend]

coco dependency [prod. yungspoiler]

onlyfriend

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