( pr. kg <3 )this song isn’t rlly one that i plan to blow up off of but rather just a song that NEEDS to be out. i meant every word i said. hope u like it <3

lyrics: 

wake up every single day no motivation left in me , i’m struggling with overthinking crippled by anxiety 

people tell me vent about it then turn around & laugh at me, so even if all alone i feel like that’s what best for me

i lie in bed all day make songs all night
i know that it’s not healthy but i promise i’ll be alright
i really wanna cry but i try & nothing comes out 
i haven’t ate at all today & it’s already dark out

hold me, until i stop bleeding
tell me, that u would never leave me
evn if it’s all a lie, i tell myself it’ll be alright
hold me, until i stop bleeding
tell me, that u would never leave me
evn if it’s all a lie, i tell myself it’ll be alright

i tell myself it’ll get better with more time
i know you wanna help but depression’s in my bloodline
ill blame myself even if it isn’t my fault 
like damn my bad i’m just miserable by default 

i hate my subconscious 
i’m rambling bout nonsense 
i take ur words straight to the heart so please hold ur comments

i’m sorry if i’m trippin i just don’t know what is next for me
maybe i’m just meant to be alone it could be destiny 

hold me, until i stop bleeding
tell me, that u would never leave me
evn if it’s all a lie, i tell myself it’ll be alright
hold me, until i stop bleeding
tell me, that u would never leave me
evn if it’s all a lie, i tell myself it’ll be alright

bleeding (hold me)

featuring @xona
produced by heylog & xona

lyrics:
(heylog)
in the winter my hair turns dark and the tips curl
when can i learn how to meet a girl
hurry back need to defend the available angles
i swear i've made contact with monsters and angels
in the winter my skin dry's after a shower
don't care for the sun but i love all the flowers 
you missed my call now she thinks she has the power
do what you want just know that you are a coward
oh hi, 
didn't see u waving by
its not like ur wasting my time
finding out what its like
to be the light
cause you
um
don't know where i'm coming from
your life's only just begun
i can show you what its like
to feel numb

(xona)
cause I hate when i'm alone 
I’ve witnessed what she honed
it burns me through my core 
so tell me what’s-
and I don’t wanna waste my time
see a blur of image that I like
seeing nothing but girl who tries to lie
and you wish that I’ll fall again 
just to show your other friends
but I know I’m adamant, toxic is your finest edge
day by day it’s on myself
feeling weaker on my guilt 
told no one I needed help 
It’s on myself

(heylog)
need to get my life together climbing up steep hills
enjoying the sunset under the windmills
i cannot stand here nor can i sit still
i'm not on anything nor do i take pills

(heylog & xona)
i'm done with everything nor do i even care
do you want attention?
laugh all u want i'm just tryna be nice here
and i don't know why
i think i'm normal, maybe a little weird
do you think i'm here? maybe something's not clear
i got my morals, tryna meet my peers
don't need a sign on why i need you right?

spotify

animus ft. xona

forget the hearse
i'll see u in the morning
things can't get worse
there's nothing i can do

with eyes unclouded by hate
i start to circle the drain
perform no funeral rites
and i'll be one with the rain

climb out the pinebox like a ghost into the mist
nah they won't contain me in a 6 x 4 foot pit
naw, why would i wanna stay here?

forget the hearse, i'll see you

rain spirit [prod. yungspoiler]

black docs and fishnets on
they'd kill to look like u and
i'm not so self-assured
i just wanna go home
ur set to stun
and every mfer finna try it on
ur set in stone
and i look like trash when i'm standing next to you

you command the room just like you do
you command the room just like i don't

now it's makin me nauseous
why u wanna b here
with a jaded bastard?
click click boom
chka-chk-boom
if looks could kill
then you'd do better than a shotgun shell
kill kill, kill kill me now
you'd do better than a shotgun

it's just a matter of time until you clear your mind
and realise, you'll realise it
it's just a matter of time until you clear your mind
and realise i'm trash compared to you

buckshot boy [prod. yungspoiler]

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

produced by heylog

lyrics:
we went through a lot of ups and downs
yet you still stayed close to my side
we often dug straight to the ground
you don't know what i look like now
just a number in my phone
i'll love you the most
march is a horrible month
why's it always cold
spent the end to cry
i miss you every night
don't call me when you see this
i'll hit decline
i don't look the same
as i used to
is this a bad thing
log, i don't know you
i don't look the same
like before
and i don't recognize myself
anymore

2 weeks 'till i go home
can't wait to see you, oh
october is when you go
now things are coming to
an end

she'll only love me if i just love myself
but baby with you i felt things i don't feel
i couldn't imagine to feel someone else
the thought of it always gets me overwhelmed
i hate separating from people i love
but i go forever without anyone
i will go for days and not say any words
you won't hear from me cause i sit back and lurk
closing the drapes to block out any light
the things that i do i would never advise
it's so bad for me and hm, i wonder why
growing more acne and i'm not surprised
don't look at me, please don't look at my face
the way that you stare makes me humiliate
i swear i get uglier
i don't look the same
you won't recognize me by how much i've changed
changed

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@onlyfriendyeah 

// onlyfriend
i'm just a spirit in your bedsheets
so hate me
fuck your friends and move on with your life
it's taking everything i've got to even try
now i won't say forever, forever's come and go
cause people change and people leave
it's just the way it goes

i'm just a spirit in your bedsheets
i've been dead and gone for six weeks
won't take you back
don't hold me down
please don't tell me how you feel alive
whenever i'm around

// i'm geist
ohh
you have a way with your words
to always get what you want
no
i’d tell you how much hurts
but what’s the point of it now

six weeks dead still in my bed
and the sheets stained red, holes in my head
and after all was said, i watched you burn it down
had me holding on tight, to a love in the ground
promised we’d be alright, so how is it over now?
oh if you just stayed the night, we would have figured it out
now i’m stuck here without you
minds plagued full of doubt
and there’s nothing to amount too
with these stains on my crown

six weeks

six weeks w/ onlyfriend [iof x king theta]

had that (prod. 808AD x Ochoo)

Shodely - relaxed (prod. by embraceWLRD)

fuck out the way

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

https://soundcloud.com/prodmichael

Lyrics:

(bbyk9)
A few words now
Girl you’re in my brain

Could you move cause
Girl you're in my way

Yeah you're just watching, you don’t care if I break

Leave me in the dirt, and walk away

Yeah you fucked me up now I've gone bad
Barely finished this song I was too sad
I got cheap drugs in both hands
I got problems don't say that

And I'm attached now she's mad
Pop pills. and I lean back
You come in, paint the scene black
I got bad plugs like where he at?

Please just shut up get out my way
Mud in the cup blunt to my face
It makes me sick so I don’t say her name
She’s fucking him rubbing it in my face

And I’m not okay
Two or three words put me in a disarray
Need a lil somethin to numb out the pain
Gave me your love should've known it was fake

A few words now
Girl you’re in my brain

Could you move cause
Girl you're in my way

Yeah you're just watching, you don’t care if I break

Leave me in the dirt, and walk away

(heylog)
Like pls girl just get out the way
But she tried seeing if he was okay
And his eyes filled with heavy rain
But he lied said hes happy im great

No she has no idea hes in pain
But he smiles faking every day
And he always said "dump me on the blame"
So he vanished and left not one trace

And if u think i love you baby im already passed ya
And hes falling far behind maybe tyo will help u catch up
I got bigger problems than to worry bout the both of ya
So imma go to sleep even though ill probably dream of you

I wanna get rich so i can isolate in montana
Maybe have a cat and a golden retriever
One named max and the other named bella
Maybe have you, cause i really want you

(bbyk9)
A few words now
Girl you’re in my brain

Could you move cause
Girl you're in my way

Yeah you're just watching, you don’t care if I break

Leave me in the dirt, and walk away

inmyway ft. heylog (prod. xmichaelwarren)

co-codependency
you take the best of me
i'm so hung up on u..

co-codependency
you took the best of me
i'm so hung up on you
always scared that we be falling thru
can you be alone for five more minutes before blowin up my phone?

so it's an issue of trust
everybody's drunk with lust
we all want security
but cheat with impunity
is my commute to work now subject to scrutiny?
goddamn better stage a mutiny

so don't get me wrong, i wanna be with u
'yeah, right' then all hell breaks loose

can you be alone for five more minutes before blowin up my phone?
cus i'm fraying and stressing and twisting my stomach in knots

[produced by yung spoiler]
[art by onlyfriend]

coco dependency [prod. yungspoiler]

onlyfriend