She doesn't like me

https://soundcloud.com/kt3lly
https://soundcloud.com/1mosh
https://soundcloud.com/kurtains

Lmao

Live to die w/ kt3lly (p. MO$H + kurtains)

black docs and fishnets on
they'd kill to look like u and
i'm not so self-assured
i just wanna go home
ur set to stun
and every mfer finna try it on
ur set in stone
and i look like trash when i'm standing next to you

you command the room just like you do
you command the room just like i don't

now it's makin me nauseous
why u wanna b here
with a jaded bastard?
click click boom
chka-chk-boom
if looks could kill
then you'd do better than a shotgun shell
kill kill, kill kill me now
you'd do better than a shotgun

it's just a matter of time until you clear your mind
and realise, you'll realise it
it's just a matter of time until you clear your mind
and realise i'm trash compared to you

buckshot boy [prod. yungspoiler]

I don't wanna get back into this
Tell me what you've been doing with him
Said it didn't mean anything, that he's just a friend

And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed
And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed
(And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead)

Maybe it'd be better if we let things die
But I won't be mourning you
I already have a back full of thorns
Its true, romance favors no man
And it feels like he's left with no chance
At redemption
Maybe that's because he's still resenting you
(He's still resenting you)

Hope to read between the lines
You sent me
I know where he lives so don't tempt me
Really need you here when I'm empty
If I come around could we talk it out
Or is it better off left unsaid
Your apology would still be accepted
Because you're exceptional
It's hard to see you go

And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed
And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed

And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed
And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead

unsaid w/poptropicaslutz (frevel x mampitsu x orora x northeast lights)

stream/buy

crawl (siemspark x heyrick)

pruhdooced by me :)
featuring @kennedysucks

spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/track/0yM8h5YT5bOeA7f2Nwldki?si=29a448cbef644a97

Lyrics:
It's gon be hard to pack up tomorrow
You let me starve and then you break all the bottles
I know the truth that you
Lost all you borrowed
I know that
You know that
And it gets twice hard when you go the distance
You scrape my knees
And let em bleed no assistance
You froze like twice ice
Extorted my wide eyes
It's time someone else pays the price

Just take my soul and 
Go to hell with it
Who are you to tell me
I'm the one needs medicine
Spring left me with splinters
Now we split up
My mind severing
If he griefing 
I won't let him win
I'll restart from scratch
Won't turn my back
I can't trust anything
Just take my soul and 
Go to hell
Deaden my mind (heavily)
The dagger in my back
Is too deep
Can't use medicine
Fuckboy griefing 
I won't let him win
I knew that it was eminent
Don't want to turn around to
See who did it
My mind severing
My mind sever-
My mind severing

Cause now there's evidence that
Everything I knew is just a lie
But I'm no pessimist
This glass ain't half empty
It's fuckin dry
I don't take medicine
Cause last time I did it
I almost died
I'm a testament that things won't get better
If you don't try
Cause I got too much in my head 
And too much on my plate
But I'm still moving forward
I push away all my friend and 
My whole family ditched me
There's nobody left in my corner
It's getting this bad at the same time
At the same time
I'm my biggest supporter
Everyday I wear a fake smile 
But they can't tell 
Cause I'm a decent performer

Just take my soul and 
Go to hell with it
Who are you to tell me
I'm the one needs medicine
Spring left me with splinters
Now we split up
My mind severing
If he griefing 
I won't let him win
I'll restart from scratch
Won't turn my back
I can't trust anything
Just take my soul and 
Go to hell
Deaden my mind (heavily)
The dagger in my back
Is too deep
Can't use medicine
Fuckboy griefing 
I won't let him win
I knew that it was eminent
Don't want to turn around to
See who did it
My mind severing
My mind sever-
My mind severing
My mind severing
My my my mind severing
My mind severing
My my my mind sever- 
My mind

Severing (feat. kennedyxoxo)

feat. @chiefjuno
prod Oh well. & @thrmls

lyrics: 

I just get mad at me
10 thousand hours of regret
I do it masterfully
I'm overloaded but I'm drained 
Just like a battery
And all my problems
They get worse at night like after three

Man I hate this feeling
It's hard to describe
Living in a box
No one can see me like a mime
Nothing I do is good enough 
I'm never satisfied
And the more I think about it
Then the less I wanna try
Man I hate wading
Lost in the ocean with no one to save me
Try to paint a picture but 
I'm too nice so no shading
All give and no take so
My magic is fading
Tried to build a bridge 
But my legs were shaking

I'm so scared of 
Shit that isn't there
It's getting hard to handle
But I can't pretend
We're just friends
It doesn't make sense 
For me to be your man though
Like can we just be honest
Do you really expect me to solve this
I've been up all night
I'm nauseous
It's never gonna work out 
I called it
She feels so unseen
Dropped out of school
Low self esteem
Taking different kinda pills all for the dopamine
She's been waiting all her life to take it out on me

Man I hate this feeling
It's hard to describe
Living in a box
No one can see me like a mime
Nothing I do is good enough 
I'm never satisfied
And the more I think about it
Then the less I wanna try
Man I hate wading
Lost in the ocean with no one to save me
Try to paint a picture but 
I'm too nice so no shading
All give and no take so
My magic is fading
Tried to build a bridge 
But my legs were shaking

I guess this is all that's left of me
Hate to admit it I got jealousy
Cause I don't really have a legacy
I probably need therapy

This feeling is too hard to describe
Living in a box
No one sees you like a mime
That's why I'm always late when I arrive
The more I think about it then the less I wanna
Try

hard2describe (feat. juno)

Hold You Down Forever

splintered facade is an ambient trap / dark ambient hip hop track.

It feels like a psychological breakdown caught between orange and red, between mask and skin, between crown and dust.

🎧 Best experienced with headphones, low light, and closed eyes.

Artwork & music by Michael Mattler.

splintered facade

when you speak my heart begins to sink
i know you need some space and time to think
yea i respect that, but

i don't wanna wait for you to bail and let me down
i don't gotta wait for you to figure your sh!t out
i don't gotta wait around for nothing, no one, nobody but me
cus i got my dynasty to keep
yeah i got a legacy to leave

so get rekt

there's only so much time for you and i
no one's getting any younger
such a superficial state of mind
cus i could die tonight

or one of us could be hit by a bus or a truck
simply struck by plain bad luck, god forbid
it's morbid, sordid, fascinating
fragile bodies overrated
when i had that aneurysm
it left no room for pessimism
it's time to play or fuck the system
cus i could fuck anyone else

get rekt [prod. sorrowbringer]

voc + beat by me
slowed & reverb
guitar by nejdos

i've been fucked up 2x
i know u guys hate me, i'm ballin
every night i hear birds in the morning
and i see ghosts when they call me
cause i stay awake till the mornin

and i feel like i die when im living
full house the cards i was given
its a fight but nobody is winning
i dont see what i should do
maybe i should quit and lose

i've been fucked up 2x
i know u guys hate me, i'm ballin
every night i hear birds in the morning
and i see ghosts when they call me
cause i stay awake till the mornin

in the morning (prod. nothingtodo)

Lyrics

All this pain I'm holding
Feel like I might just start folding
My heart's dead, it got all molded
My head's a sea, I'ma split it like moses

Drive into the back of a building
I'ma hurt myself like you hurt my feelings
All I see is death when I look up at the ceiling
Stuck inside the past, that shit fucking up my healing

Did me so wrong and I think about it all
Ain't no "Ken, yo how you are?" you don't even try to call
I'ma flip until I fall, throw my fist into the wall
Pretty girls so fake, guess that's why they call 'em dolls

I don't know what it is that you want from me
But I swear to fucking god there ain't nothing here to see
Everything I was I'm not and I'm never gonna be again
She gone pull up to the spot so she can leave again

Hurt so much now I just done had enough
Bitch I don't wanna talk can you please just shut it up?
If I get me something good then you know I'll fuck it up
Can't but I could, won't would fall in love

All this pain I'm holding
I might just start folding
Heart's dead, got all molded
Split my head like moses

I think that I might just move on to the next bitch
If I think the one I'm with just might not be the best fit
I'ma keep it honest ain't no feelings I'ma mess with
Still ain't found the one with all these hoes that I met with

Rip my heart out, slam it on a page
Yeah that's how I make a song that be inflamed will all the rage
You could try to sound like me but you & I we ain't the same
I don't even know what I am, how you think I made my name?

I'm selling a lease on what I lean the least on...my soul
I don't think that I'ma really fucking need one
Where I'm going
And I wish I was joking

unknxwn.

spotify.

novana! | Produced by ERLAX

instrumental by @irby314

is it real enough for you to wanna stay this time
or will you leave when the winter makes my mind decline
i don't want to go back to the old you
but i get it 
it's cool if you have to

for your sake
for your mind
and right now it's hard
in the spring i'll be fine

old friends hit my phone like "bro you made it"
and i appreciate the words 
but i hate it
these song aren't a lie
i'm breaking 
pray a gun to my head helps me face it

is it worth it 
is it worth it 
is it worth it 
is it worth it

is it worth it

TWITTER - https://twitter.com/heysinxi
INSTAGRAM - https://www.instagram.com/sinxi__/
SPOTIFY - https://open.spotify.com/artist/7gPvslUym7gEDxebPSkGkZ?si=VyL2pvDuSWSe9l4Hcxn4oA

Lyrics -

you say it's hard when the stars are falling down
and I'm around when you need some love
(yeah when you need some love)
(yeah when you need some love)
oh i'm not okay, but you always keep me here on the ground
and i'll say, oh someday
(oh someday)
(oh yeah someday)

i'll be the man that i always thought I'd be
no lies or anomalies
yeah it's you
oh love, yeah it's you

i want you right here baby oh
right here baby oh
there's no one like you baby
no one else like you no

wish you'd call me
oh how lovely
i feel right at home
you're somebody i never wanna let go of
yeah i wanna keep you here with me
so don't go when i'm needing you most
you're all that i want
i wish that you'd stay here forever with me, baby
cos you're all that i'm needing

i'll be the man that i always thought i'd be
no lies or anomalies
yeah it's you
oh love, yeah it's you

i want you right here baby oh
right here baby oh
there's no one like you baby
no one else like you no

i do it for love
oh love
i do it for love
i do it for us
oh i do it for us yeah yeah

i want you right here baby oh
right here baby oh
there's no one like you baby
no one else like you no

stream xo

Someday

production by https://soundcloud.com/prod-plxce

:)

rest (plxce)

co-codependency
you take the best of me
i'm so hung up on u..

co-codependency
you took the best of me
i'm so hung up on you
always scared that we be falling thru
can you be alone for five more minutes before blowin up my phone?

so it's an issue of trust
everybody's drunk with lust
we all want security
but cheat with impunity
is my commute to work now subject to scrutiny?
goddamn better stage a mutiny

so don't get me wrong, i wanna be with u
'yeah, right' then all hell breaks loose

can you be alone for five more minutes before blowin up my phone?
cus i'm fraying and stressing and twisting my stomach in knots

[produced by yung spoiler]
[art by onlyfriend]

get rekt [prod. sorrowbringer]

onlyfriend

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