Goth trauma bonding </3

needed you, what happened to all your friends?

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friends

all guitar & vox by me
this was made in a rly short time lol

lyrics:

look at that, blood leaking down my arms again
can’t eat, all these words are fucking with my head
i feel sick, not doing better
to your hands, heartstrings are tethered 
tired of the rainy weather, can’t get out my fucking message 

useless, can’t fix it
i’m fucking pathetic
don’t ask me to do shit,
i’ll tell you ‘forget it,’
i’m tired of breathing,
the toxic waste inside the air
i cannot be me, 
i’m breaking down & no one cares

words on the walls, they still speak to me softly
wrap around my feet, then they wrap around my body
letting go of everything i’ve ever known, ever known
wanna leave the world, i’ve got nowhere to go

It's fine, whatever

@aeter song
dm @aetervault on ig for removal

aeter - skin

prod me 

odihu
she lives inside my head
idk what she said
i wasts staring at her pretty face and down to her legs
i tell her about the scary things and shit i regret
pretty face turnin red
i want her in my bed
i hope she knows how much i love her
i pray that she doesnt find another
shes the girl inside my dreams
i know one day shell come crawling to me

blehh
the way she talks to me 
has my heart skipping beats
i need to find a way to make her fall in love with me 
she's the one for me
yeah i'll love this girl forever
don't know what she thinks
but we should be together
girl girl girl girl i love you
i wanna get to know everything about you
you're the girl inside my dreams
i know one day you'll come crawling to me

lovecupid
can you crawl in my head
and tell me all the pretty stuff you have said
can you open me up and pour your love into me
and tell me pretty things i would always need
i keep on having dreams about you
i just wanna know do you love me too
i just keep on thinking about you
why the fuck did you need to leave me too?
i hate you

the girl of my dreams (ft. if birds were real & lovecupid)

prod desmi

theres this girl
shes online
i want her to be mine
long black hair
and pretty
i think that
she'll kjill me
why does she stare at me
gave her a note
that she didn't read

femcels demo

https://open.spotify.com/album/2dYoEEbN0bD7fsFvaU4UJy?si=8eGdmCbQT2auLzzwyMQVfw
prod me
@bloodsekai @odihu

i cant, i cant feel or digest
hard to eat when i get upset  
on this feeling
everybody calls love
i cant, i cant feel or digest
hard to eat when i get upset  
on this feeling
everybody calls love

im so scared
im on my own
spent 8 days
with a dry phone
cant recall
when i went out
its so dark
im all alone
i feel like im a monster
i always get so mad
i turn away from u
put the world against my back

i cant, i cant feel or digest
hard to eat when i get upset  
on this feeling
everybody calls love
i cant, i cant feel or digest
hard to eat when i get upset  
on this feeling
everybody calls love

im so shuttled in
and i wish life was different
im a joke who am i kidding
so much things my life is missing
like a summer ant 
im stomped on and forgotten
i think my soul is rotten
im just steadily just falling 


i cant, i cant feel or digest
hard to eat when i get upset  
on this feeling
everybody calls love
i cant, i cant feel or digest
hard to eat when i get upset  
on this feeling
everybody calls love

monster

monster (ft. bloodsekai & odihu)

i look at her and then she looks at me
she can see me blush through the computer screen
she jumps into my arms and falls just like a tree
she says in mellow tone can you please be with me like
meow
meoeoeoeoeoeow
meooooeoooow
meoeoeooow
meoeoeoooow

oh i don't think i can
resist the way u talk to me
u help me by existing
u move my heart by twisting till it beats
oh i'm really nothing special
and sometimes im a handful
but u make things eventful
so i can cheer as long as ur here
i dont want u to go so stay with me
don't disappear
i know things can get hard
but i can make it be so clear
so stay with me
stay with me
pls dont leave
pls dont leave

i look at her and then she looks at me
she can see me blush through the computer screen
she jumps into my arms and falls just like a tree
she says in mellow tone can you please be with me like
meow
meoeoeoeoeoeow
meooooeoooow
meoeoeooow
meoeoeoooow

(when u look at me
i cant help but wonder
why u wouldnt leave
u know im a fuckup)

when u look at me
baby i cant help but wonder
why u wouldnt leave
u know that im such a fuckup

baby pls i beg dont go
i need u more than u could ever know
i need ur texts on my phone
i need ur love it gives me hope

baby i want u to hold me
thru this damn computer
eternalized in the screen so i dont lose her

i look at her and then she looks at me
she can see me blush through the computer screen
she jumps into my arms and falls just like a tree
she says in mellow tone can you please be with me like
meow
meoeoeoeoeoeow
meooooeoooow
meoeoeooow
meoeoeoooow

nyaa w bloodsekai & yuki

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Yod5zUEZ5SyNe0LTqbhVu?si=f91fced6fb2c4d31

w the boat @yukisasayaki prod me

i can't get out 
I've been feeling so fucking down
no one hears me 
when i'm clearly screaming loud
every chance i get
i mess it up without a doubt
put me in a crown
when im the worst like all around
benefit from the misery that i feel
cuz i know no one wants me around anymore
there's no mistake, i'm a waste
i'm not real
cuz that's the sense i get
i'm played with like i'm fake

im drowning in my sorrow
about tomorrow but also yesterday
i don't think i remember
it's been like this forever
I've never gotten better
at least that's on my record..
my hearts buried down
cuz no one sticks around
I've wrote my vows
to never open up
to anyone
i dont need new friends
im better off alone and dead

i cant do it
wont make it thru the day
yea ill prove it
slit my throat n decay
u want what i want
n i rlly want me dead
it mightve been from
all of the things u said
n i cant take it
the words infecting my head
i guess no one would care if i bled out in my bed
im such a loser n im always such a fucking burden
i try n socialize but i can never get a word in
n u look in my eyes n tell me that im fucking worthless
u leave me paralysed oh pls just finish me for certain

and worst of all, it's me

and worst of all, it's me (ft. yuki)

xowillow cover + @bloodsekai

now on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/0RHM2lVQmkyg1CThPz8jMI?si=7ugw5TuNQ_GjQUi74W4cqQ

Im feeling super out of it
Next to you my heart starts to flip
Im super lame
Cant entertain
And when I try and talk to you
I always end up looking rude
I dont know why
I fail every time

I took some tips from guys online
Put on some lipstick then I'll find
A girl like you
You are so cool
Youre super punk
I super suck
You sucker punch my fucking guts
I cant be fine
I'm out of line

Dont wait for me
Delete your discord
Don't wait for me
I'm already gone

loser cover

@akira3ksucks + @weejk cover prod me

red eyes
i might die
u fill my thoughts with suicide
drugged up everytime
u cut my name into ur thigh
bloodstains on ur dress
u left me here with nothing left
stab ur knife right in my chest
treat me like all of the rest

i cant decide
if u should live or die
rot my brain everytime
ur never satisfied
if i say that i love u
would u say it back
my head is filled with fluoride
turn to a maniac

u decide if i should live or die
i cut my wrist while u look in my eyes
tell me lies until i feel alright
watch me die as u lay by my side

red eyes
i might die
u fill my thoughts with suicide
drugged up everytime
u cut my name into ur thigh
bloodstains on ur dress
u left me here with nothing left
stab ur knife right in my chest
treat me like all of the rest

so there's this girl (cover)

https://open.spotify.com/track/7mqbAhXUufSH7hlw0O2tr7?si=8ac1bdc7afc3412a

time & time again
i keep on trying
but i see no end to this

rip my hair and flesh
replace my bones n skin

agonizing heartache
im worthless im so sorry
if im gone dont worry
i might be better off alone

just throw
me in
a coffin

i broke
ur trust
n promise

if only i
i was honest
i wouldn't push myself away

agonizing heartache

prod me

oh i guess
things are all over now
and i guess we'll go back
to the way things
used to be before

when i was counting on u
u just left me to the side
got me crying over u
i swear this happens
all the time
and when ur cutting
all alone again
like all the other times
i hope u think of me
and u fkn realize in time
that u miss me
so our memories
werent a waste of time
and when u kissed me
for hours
did u feel a thing or
its all just a lie?

It's fine, whatever

forgiveness funeral

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