yi wu 2510

woke up on the wrong side of bed
dreading yet again
got a foul taste in my mouth
down south with a bottle

cant help
myself
youre gone
your loss
cant see
hazy
memory 
empty	

you make me hurt
i wont forgive
i just wanna drink
i dont wanna think
i think im on the brink
of killing myself  

cant help
myself
youre gone
your loss
cant see
hazy
memory 
empty

you make me hurt

i got a call from her 
at 3 in the morning
she said come on over
lets hang
ill bring lots of booze 	 	
and we’ll drink our lives away
half past dawn

she says my mom is out of town
wont be back by next week
“so please spend the night until then”
and im thinking 
about it all
why did it happen fast
she broke my heart
and took it all

now theres nothing left of me
i know it sounds dumb
but my life was robbed
by this girl

so i drove back home
at 200 miles an hour 		     
hoping that i would crash

spend the night until then

boy in a room - things get easier when your here

your hearts not good
you can wait around but dont wait for me 
and it felt good 
when you stuck around and said you love me
but i cant stand
sticking around for somebody 
that doesnt care 
and just uses me for my body

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what am i to you 
your so rude
and i cant get over
i know im new 
but can you choose 
to get closer
im on my own 
and i cant move
without you on my shoulder
the way she hit 
me right there
felt like a boulder

u dont luv me (bloodsekai)

iburnedmyheartout :0

I burned my heart out
I burned my heart out I want more
there is so much bleach in both my eyes
I tried to wash them clean of you last night
I tried to rip my throat out with a knife
I tried to scrub myself clean at least I tried
I burned my heart out
I burned my heart out I want more
I burned my heart out
I burned my heart out im on the floor
there is so much bleach in both my eyes
I tried to wash them clean of all your lies
I tried to burn my flesh off with a light
I tried to scrub myself clean I don't want to cry
I burned my heart out
I burned my heart out I want more
I burned my heart out
I burned my heart out im on the floor

iburnedmyheartout

@menthol100s

the wind makes me want to jump
i will show you the view if you promise to
remember everything we did wrong
told you its done
found you hanging off the branch
nothing came 1st nothing came after
you were the one that cared
the most 
but ill make you choke
no one better to trust
apart from yourself
we could be one
throw away your lunch
dont make the mistake
you have got no one else to lose
apart from your self
no one cares enough about it
dont make the mistake

theres time to kill
your eyes were so peeled
yet nothing felt real
you did what you could
but how could he do it
my idiot friend
who thought forever was a girl
you kept your sadness shouldve kept your glasses
maybe then youd see that youd amount to more than ashes
im too pessimistic talking is traumatic
at least he has the memory of you

hanging off a branch with skeleton

everythingbyme

lyrics:

Good morning, birdsong
I've got eight more hours of hiding my face
The things that I've done here
A thousand in one year
I'm sealing my fate

How much more sick can I get?
Before I go back to sleep
Always waking up in cold sweats
Pins and needles stabbing my feet
Nothing good was gonna come from this

Come on, do your worst
Nothing can top all the discontent
My train of thought has become derailed
How can you blame me for god's intent?

How much more sick can I get?
Before I go back to sleep
Always waking up in cold sweats
Pins and needles stabbing my feet
Nothing good was gonna come from this

sick

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on your own

In February, I was inside one of the practice rooms at my university. It was my second semester of my Freshman year, and I felt like exploring the buildings I hadn't yet seen. The rooms were, by all accounts, imperfect. Each had different chairs, different levels of acoustic padding, varying levels of damage on the walls and pianos, occasional trash, and the slightly out of tune upright pianos, with, luckily, most of the keys and pedals working. None of the acoustic provisions mattered. Most rooms didn't have it, and the walls were thin enough to hear everyone else playing anyway. None of that mattered to me. I spent my first day in the room just playing piano for the first time in what felt like forever. After playing for a little under half an hour, I got a call from a family member. She was asking whether or not I could attend some event back home. I responded, not really thinking about it, and after some further small talk, we finished the call. Once I put down the phone, it hit me -- small and large changes in my life and family, even the ones that just happened recently, will impact how I go about parts of my life forever. That's when I asked the question: What do you do when you know that it's different forever?


I then went back to my dorm room and fit what I could in my backpack: a Shure SM58, an audio interface, my laptop, a desk mic stand, and some cables.

This was not perfect. I'll be posting behind the scenes on my social medias so you can see the process (probably Instagram, YouTube, and TikTok). My username is kevinkempt on all of those. There's a clear room reverb and very audible piano from other students practicing in the background. All this tied with the cheap gear I used are not ideal conditions for a """studio""" recording. I couldn't be more happy about it, though. The song would not exist any way other than how it was recorded. Figuring out the chords and melody on the piano and practicing my lines for hours in that room honestly made me attached to it. The song was recorded in two sessions, one being in February and one being in April (mainly for adding more background vocals and figuring out ideas for the bridge and final chorus). When I went in April, I went into one of the practice rooms without really thinking about it. This one had slight acoustic padding. I recorded for around an hour, and kept experimenting, but when I listened back, I kept hating the result. It took me so long to realize that I wanted the sound of the other room. Before that, I never really considered how these similar spaces could have such different sounds, let alone how I could like one of them more than the others.


I wouldn't trade the process of this song for anything, and I hope it connects with you in the music. Maybe you can answer what to do when you know that it's different forever.

Lyrics:
What do you do when you know that it's different forever?
What do you do when you see someone else's family portrait?
When do you say you're beyond a lost cause?

Maybe I was a ghost in the frame
Reaching out while you lost my name
Maybe I was the last to know
Everything leaves. I should've let go
(I called but the number changed)

What do you do when you know that it's different forever?
What do you do when it feels like a blur in the rear view mirror?
Where do you go when the road never rotates back to home?

Maybe I was a ghost in the frame
Reaching out while you lost my name
Maybe I was the last to know
Everything leaves. I should've let go

I called but the number changed
I knocked but the house was estranged
I walked past the place we stayed
Until my reflection gave way

Maybe I was a ghost in the frame
Fading out while you learned my name
Maybe I was the last to know

Everything leaves. I should've let go (You should've let go)
Everything leaves. I should've let go (You should've let go)

Everything leaves. I should've let go

What do you do when you know that it's different forever?

Different Forever

prod, mix, master by @bloodsekai

u said we'd be together
yea jus u n me forever
but i hate u more than ever
u stripped me of my flesh n leather
x2

but i keep coming back
self respect is where i lack
u know i got none of that
now u rlly got me trapped
but i cant hide from anyone except me
feelings classified n i jus swallowed the key

cut me open
im so broken
my hearts frozen
but u dont notice

i cant watch u fry my brain
do u enjoy inflicting pain
cut ur wrist n write my name
i didnt know u were this insane

u said we'd be together
yea jus u n me forever
but i hate u more than ever
u stripped me of my flesh n leather
x4

more than ever

produced by me

i can never shake the feeling that i'm wasting my life,
i never cared but now i realize you've been feeding me lies
i let you reach inside and pull out every part you don't like
i can never have a heart if i keep giving you mine

so, what's the point in going home when i know nobody's there
don't know how i have never noticed, but it's never been fair
i hear a voice calling from heaven, i'm not sure if it's yours
i wanna leave this vessel if i'm not meant for more

you beat the light out of me, and swallowed all as needed

if i knew that this life wasn't free, then i wouldn't have lived it

i cannot remember my dreams, but all of them were ruined

something in the machine has been broken, don't know how to fix it

this body is ruined

pink lighter

49430948083902

Guess I got through
Despite you
You say I’m just like you
I’ll never be you
It’ll only get better
From here
It’s only getting better
Away from there

Saw your plan to bring down
Things to the ground to your level
There were few that you know
Never let them know of your level

It’s so moving
To look at time
It's so moving
That we don't mind
You act surprised
To see me moving
Well let it be
Confusing

Saw your plan to bring down
Things to the ground to your level
There were few that you know
Never let them know of your level

Moving

The third single off of "ECLIPSE"

//

I know the end has come for me
The sun has burnt to misery
Blinded me, still I can see
Inside the mind of Eden's tree

The light it bleeds
The dark holds me
Stolen dreams are
All I see

The light it bleeds
The dark holds me
Stolen dreams are
All I see

Stolen art for you to keep
Made in hopes to wake your sleep
Broken hearts bleed and die
Laid to rest upon the sky

The light it bleeds
The dark holds me
Stolen dreams are
All I see

The light it bleeds
The dark holds me
Stolen dreams are
All I see

You're all I need
So listen please
Escape the lies
That have been placed

Inside your mind
By evil beings
That control your life
Oh can't you see?

The light it bleeds
The dark holds me
Stolen dreams are
All I see

The light it bleeds
The dark holds me
Stolen dreams are
All I see

//

made in 2 hours <3

sick

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