Jedi Mind Tricks - Razorblade Salvation [DjSonic's Polar Instrumental]

Addiction has held hostage some of the most beautiful minds and souls. It doesn't discriminate or pick and choose for any reason. It just rots and decays everything good about a person.

This song is about living inside a lifeless mind, lying stagnant somewhere between life and death. Wishful for one or the other, but unable to move. Purgatory.

I wrote this song after being there myself for well over a decade. Only ever living in and out of a "Whiskey Purgatory". Addiction comes in countless forms and destroys lives. I chose to take mine back and pray that anyone still struggling can do the same.

"Whiskey Purgatory"

This one goes out to the hopeless! Enjoy!

2021 - New

Whiskey Purgatory - Live

Here’s the truth about this album
I wrote it while I was poundin’ shots of whiskey by the gallon
Left my family wondering how can I be living life without em
These songs meant more to me than my commitments that I vowed em
Didn’t want to be around em
My head was dark and clouded
I’m not proud of it
I spiraled out and thought that I just want to do my music
Go get high and just abuse it
Wanted to choose to just be through with everything beautiful
And lose myself to do what I want to do
But here’s the truth I wish I knew

That nothing I’m doing has ever been darker then everything happening right now
Since I was I child I hideout, under the covers turn the light out
Don’t know how to fight, that might be the reason why I became an addict
It was the world that I was mad at
Blame my brother, mom, and dadda
That’s when I turned into everything that I hated
Disrespectful rebel that got a shoulder chip and labeled I don’t give a sh*t I’m faded
Underrated, give me baby at 16 so I can raise it
Just so later she can turn on me and sabotage and hate me
Just rewind it back to prison
And the trauma that I lived in
And the God that touched my heart and
Said my crimes have been forgiven
And my soul found rest right inside of that broken mess
And I think I’ve been broken since
Cuz the other way don’t make sense
And then I paroled and wrote my first real album
I’m singing I HAVE A DREAM
Until I can’t speak from shoutin on that mountain
Is it loud enough??
I found a way to heaven
If I can stay right outta my way
I swear that I’ll make it past the clouds
Cuz now I’m ready

I will wait for you
I will wait for you
I will wait for you
I will wait for you

There’s a monster underneath the bed, in my head, and in the closet space
So I fell hard and it cost me everything except an arm and leg
Cuz if you asked me what the last thing on my mind had been
A part of me would say “just keepin it hard man, I’m bored again”
This tug of war has got me luke warm and I’m too torn to get used to any new norm, I’m a rose bud with a huge thorn
It’s my duty to soldier on with every new war
But my shoes torn, I’m tired of looking at blue skies with new storms
That’s why I wrote this EP
So I could walk away from this relapse with a CD
To remember every feeling
To lie there dead and bleeding
To come to life again I’m breathing
If you ask me yes it hurts cuz there’s a fight to get to this healing
I don’t want to even cry about it anymore
And anyway
It’s history
I don’t know why it still feels like a mystery
It gets to me
Just listen to the gist of it, just picture it
And leave out all the rest
Cuz it will all make sense eventually

I will wait for you
I will wait for you
I will wait for you
I will wait for you

I Will Wait (ft. Cadence)

Jill Barber - Broken For Good

The Family Album is now available on Outside Music

iTunes: https://geo.itunes.apple.com/ca/album/the-family-album/id1075555634?app=itunes
Bandcamp: matthewbarberjillbarber.bandcamp.com

Matthew Barber & Jill Barber - Comes A Time

From The Family Album, available now on Outside Music

Matthew Barber & Jill Barber - Summer Wages

4 shots (L.A. Vibes remix)

Gypsy music from the roots of the soul and mind that my descendents cursed upon me. This is the music for travelers and wanderers. Those that have no feeling or meaning of home. Still searching for salvation.

Mad Chad - No Place Called Home (Gypsy Music)

Grand design
I'm always getting caught up with these plans of mine
I always got to have a distracted mind (uh huh)
I barely pay attention almost half the time
Must not have had a lot of crap happen right (nope)
Just want to relax but I'm past the point
There's too much on the path that is asinine
So what's that, it's just a bit of life
That you won't get without a fight
That's why this music, is where I would escape, like a drug it would grab me and start to relax my mind (yeaaah)
Cuz I was young when I learned about the worst parts, a little kid standing on his porch with a dandelion (la la la la)
That's when the cops kick the door shoutin get on the floor, with their guns drawn pointed at my mommas eyes
And I don't get it, and I don't wanna get it
Mom, why you getting taken by this man with your hands behind?
The same thing happened to my dad
Had to watch him get cuffed in the street for the second time
And thus begins
A lifelong battle of resentment for cops cuz I couldn't understand the crime
I just saw a bunch of cowards without a spine 
That would bust up in your house just to pass the time
And I was pissed, I must have been six, with my hands in a fist, and I'm sick with this askin why
So I started listening to Slim Shady (that's Rock Bottom)
Him and Dr. Dre had a way that they rapped these rhymes
I put my headphones on, as I drift away and just relate a bit to these master minds
I've got a million emotions I can't define
When my heart and mind they just can't align
I smack rewind and then I go and black my mind and chill with a track that could take me back in time
And get it



You could be my favourite place
I've ever been
I got lost in your willingness
To dream within the dream
You could be my favourite faded fantasy
I've hung my happiness upon what it all could be




There's something about when you start to get sad
Or when lifes getting harder and part of it's bad
And you let down your guard in your heart that is wrapped up in scars from the parts of your heart that were shattered
And listen to artists with heart when they rap
It can heal all the trauma that stops you from laughing
Cuz music can take all the carnage and damage and make em just memories locked in the past 
When your young and your mother and father get hammered
And use you to get on each otherss last nerves
And custody battles where judges get mad
And your mother gets drunk cause she just couldn't handle
The pain that it causes, when love doesn't last
Cuz it started out happy with mommy and daddy, but feelings they change (change)
And everything changes
Til all they demand is they want understanding
And all that you want is some peace in your home, but it seems like it even just hardly would matter
It's all that I'm after, cuz after my father got cancer I promised to God that I'd had it
And life doesn't stop, in fact its just giving it all to you back going farther and faster
And dark as it gets, we don't have the power to change anything but our thoughts and reactions
It honestly really don't matter how broken and battered and scarred from the battle
There's always a thousand more bars in this ladder you gotta keep climbing up all that it has
And turn up the speakers so loud that you can't hear your thoughts over all the guitars and pianos
Til all of the curtains they close, and all that is left is the stage and the sound of this audience clapping



You could be my favourite place
I've ever been
I got lost in your willingness
To dream within the dream
You could be my favourite faded fantasy
I've hung my happiness upon what it all could be

My Favorite Place ft. Damien Rice

Song from the upcoming EP.
The Slip EP

LYRICS:
Lying and trying to put up a front
Nothing makes sense
Slippin up give in again, just to repent
Simple again, til it was not
Small town with a ranch
And havin a family it was the plan
But tendancy hinder the way that it panned
Isn't it sad? Just to withstand
Knowing that the bottom isn't the end
Get to the top just to visit a friend
Figure out that the biggest doubt
Was the trigger that had entered in with the gin
Luck stopped with the buck shot
Trust not for that one spot
Bumped out of the club now
Slump down to that truck stop
Fun is the game, andrenalain
Bringin pain to a world that is already wounded
Refusein to change remaining with the dead, then be excluded
But truth is who is gonna be suited up when it's time
Or get booted uprooted to the place you been headin to the pine
You flew the coop, to the point there's no return
Sure, you're feeling the burn but nowhere to turn but where you don't belong and don't deserve
A learning curve
hoping there's room in the future to beat the verdict that you earned
just burn down the curse of the past and be rid of the hurt for the terminal work that you learned

[Chorus]
For the last time
It got me for the last time
I swear I did it for the last time
You know I did it for the last time
I swear it got me for the last time (like the first time)
I know it got for the last time (like the first time)
I swear it did me for the last time (like the first time)
I know it got me for the last time (like the first time)
Yeah

Smile,
Even when no one's around
Learn to be holdin it down
Don't go with the crowd
Wow, how can you pout
When nobodys choking you out
Drip
Sit down for you flip out
Git down for you trip out
Slip out of the spotlight
Went down to that strip house
Wishing that the itching coulda
Given something different but it
Didn't I admit it I'm not kidding
From the beginning
It's been a mission
Driven to gold and anything that could hold up my interest
Always try to be bold individual, plus all the things I stole from Pinterest
I wasn't always in a pinch
When it was a sinch
I never would flinch
But when I was given an inch
I figured I'd give it a mile before I turned into the grinch
But to this day, to my dismay, nothin has panned out
The old ways that I grew up, blew up in my hands now
Truth is that it stands out, who says that you can't shout
Bruce Wayne in the skylight, two face in the town now
But I ain't a joker I been in the ditch and know what deal is
I give it all that I got now, to give respect to the realness 

[Chorus]

The Last Time

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I Will Wait (ft. Cadence)

Tension

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