Jedi Mind Tricks - Razorblade Salvation [DjSonic's Polar Instrumental]

Addiction has held hostage some of the most beautiful minds and souls. It doesn't discriminate or pick and choose for any reason. It just rots and decays everything good about a person.

This song is about living inside a lifeless mind, lying stagnant somewhere between life and death. Wishful for one or the other, but unable to move. Purgatory.

I wrote this song after being there myself for well over a decade. Only ever living in and out of a "Whiskey Purgatory". Addiction comes in countless forms and destroys lives. I chose to take mine back and pray that anyone still struggling can do the same.

"Whiskey Purgatory"

This one goes out to the hopeless! Enjoy!

2021 - New

Whiskey Purgatory - Live

LYRICS:

[Chorus]
Rid me of myself I've been in my way
Razor sharp words that been in my brain
Try to find something to lift my pain
Something ain't right
Something ain't right
Find me in my head til I lose my mind
Bitin' my tooth til the truth I find
Try to walk a mile in the shoes I've tied
Something ain't right
Something ain't right now

Little bit here, little bit not
What I never had given a lot
Something bout the way that I had lived in a past life hadn't sat right, naw
Independent but not free from the burden of being a bad dude
From the crap shoot that is life got me living deep in a bad mood
Tell me can it last? Worn a mask for the last 20 years give or take
Got me pissed bout the past get the gist? I'd go back just to change
Wait
Give me a bit to adjust because overcomers don't complain, well maybe a little
Got to have a process you know I get lost, yes, from the top to the middle
From chasing a place that I crave and I taste but it's wrong
But it's all that I know so it plays in my head til I'm gone
And as fast as it comes, it never does last very long
I just hope, I don't do, something stupid, while I'm rapping this song
Here's a round of applause for all of y'all that got it together
I hope your bobbing your head to this song while I'm probably dead
Cuz in the prison of addict heart you never know when
It could be your time cuz life is shorter when you start at the end

[Chorus]

Always ready for a different result, never ready to contribute the change
Never age never die, wonder why, always feel like I'm on different pages
Engraved it, embalmed it and blazed it in my momma's basement
And caught me a case with, I just wanted to taste it, copy and paste it
But little known fact, in the back of my mind is a bomb
And I think that it might finally have just gone off in a song
And I
Can't seem to find all of the pieces that scattered abroad
Half are gone, and the other half, not working as well as it was
Not at all
Cuz I've been a psycho, I find that in times of strife I might be the type to
Grab a knife and cut the lights out just to be blind to everything I can hide from
Grab a rifle, just to protect me from my mind or whatever's inside, around and out behind it
It's crowded I don't like it
These mountains I've been climbing, to my demise, I never find
That the ride back down ever lasts long when I can't stop climbing back down
I cannot be the only one out here that can vouch for the little bit of help
That is asked, to just last, in world that is masked up now

[Chorus]

When I get up and give it my everything ready or not 
Gotta give it again when you give it a thought 
And it better be right
Or the rest world will be giving you grief in a fight for the rest of your life 
You can swim or you sink in a puddle of people that love you then hate you for making mistakes and it's crazy
Even the same day they can take away in the same way that they gave it
And love it or hate it's everyone out for themselves
Wish you well, been a pal, it's been real
Like nothing at all just a feeling
Even when a little bit of giving them minute just to maybe give it any second thought
Nope
Not at all, make me never want to give another part of my heart
If it's just gonna end up torn

[Chorus]

Something Ain't Right

Jill Barber - Broken For Good

The Family Album is now available on Outside Music

iTunes: https://geo.itunes.apple.com/ca/album/the-family-album/id1075555634?app=itunes
Bandcamp: matthewbarberjillbarber.bandcamp.com

Matthew Barber & Jill Barber - Comes A Time

From The Family Album, available now on Outside Music

Matthew Barber & Jill Barber - Summer Wages

4 shots (L.A. Vibes remix)

Gypsy music from the roots of the soul and mind that my descendents cursed upon me. This is the music for travelers and wanderers. Those that have no feeling or meaning of home. Still searching for salvation.

Mad Chad - No Place Called Home (Gypsy Music)

Grand design
I'm always getting caught up with these plans of mine
I always got to have a distracted mind (uh huh)
I barely pay attention almost half the time
Must not have had a lot of crap happen right (nope)
Just want to relax but I'm past the point
There's too much on the path that is asinine
So what's that, it's just a bit of life
That you won't get without a fight
That's why this music, is where I would escape, like a drug it would grab me and start to relax my mind (yeaaah)
Cuz I was young when I learned about the worst parts, a little kid standing on his porch with a dandelion (la la la la)
That's when the cops kick the door shoutin get on the floor, with their guns drawn pointed at my mommas eyes
And I don't get it, and I don't wanna get it
Mom, why you getting taken by this man with your hands behind?
The same thing happened to my dad
Had to watch him get cuffed in the street for the second time
And thus begins
A lifelong battle of resentment for cops cuz I couldn't understand the crime
I just saw a bunch of cowards without a spine 
That would bust up in your house just to pass the time
And I was pissed, I must have been six, with my hands in a fist, and I'm sick with this askin why
So I started listening to Slim Shady (that's Rock Bottom)
Him and Dr. Dre had a way that they rapped these rhymes
I put my headphones on, as I drift away and just relate a bit to these master minds
I've got a million emotions I can't define
When my heart and mind they just can't align
I smack rewind and then I go and black my mind and chill with a track that could take me back in time
And get it



You could be my favourite place
I've ever been
I got lost in your willingness
To dream within the dream
You could be my favourite faded fantasy
I've hung my happiness upon what it all could be




There's something about when you start to get sad
Or when lifes getting harder and part of it's bad
And you let down your guard in your heart that is wrapped up in scars from the parts of your heart that were shattered
And listen to artists with heart when they rap
It can heal all the trauma that stops you from laughing
Cuz music can take all the carnage and damage and make em just memories locked in the past 
When your young and your mother and father get hammered
And use you to get on each otherss last nerves
And custody battles where judges get mad
And your mother gets drunk cause she just couldn't handle
The pain that it causes, when love doesn't last
Cuz it started out happy with mommy and daddy, but feelings they change (change)
And everything changes
Til all they demand is they want understanding
And all that you want is some peace in your home, but it seems like it even just hardly would matter
It's all that I'm after, cuz after my father got cancer I promised to God that I'd had it
And life doesn't stop, in fact its just giving it all to you back going farther and faster
And dark as it gets, we don't have the power to change anything but our thoughts and reactions
It honestly really don't matter how broken and battered and scarred from the battle
There's always a thousand more bars in this ladder you gotta keep climbing up all that it has
And turn up the speakers so loud that you can't hear your thoughts over all the guitars and pianos
Til all of the curtains they close, and all that is left is the stage and the sound of this audience clapping



You could be my favourite place
I've ever been
I got lost in your willingness
To dream within the dream
You could be my favourite faded fantasy
I've hung my happiness upon what it all could be

My Favorite Place ft. Damien Rice

Song from the upcoming EP.
The Slip EP

LYRICS:
Lying and trying to put up a front
Nothing makes sense
Slippin up give in again, just to repent
Simple again, til it was not
Small town with a ranch
And havin a family it was the plan
But tendancy hinder the way that it panned
Isn't it sad? Just to withstand
Knowing that the bottom isn't the end
Get to the top just to visit a friend
Figure out that the biggest doubt
Was the trigger that had entered in with the gin
Luck stopped with the buck shot
Trust not for that one spot
Bumped out of the club now
Slump down to that truck stop
Fun is the game, andrenalain
Bringin pain to a world that is already wounded
Refusein to change remaining with the dead, then be excluded
But truth is who is gonna be suited up when it's time
Or get booted uprooted to the place you been headin to the pine
You flew the coop, to the point there's no return
Sure, you're feeling the burn but nowhere to turn but where you don't belong and don't deserve
A learning curve
hoping there's room in the future to beat the verdict that you earned
just burn down the curse of the past and be rid of the hurt for the terminal work that you learned

[Chorus]
For the last time
It got me for the last time
I swear I did it for the last time
You know I did it for the last time
I swear it got me for the last time (like the first time)
I know it got for the last time (like the first time)
I swear it did me for the last time (like the first time)
I know it got me for the last time (like the first time)
Yeah

Smile,
Even when no one's around
Learn to be holdin it down
Don't go with the crowd
Wow, how can you pout
When nobodys choking you out
Drip
Sit down for you flip out
Git down for you trip out
Slip out of the spotlight
Went down to that strip house
Wishing that the itching coulda
Given something different but it
Didn't I admit it I'm not kidding
From the beginning
It's been a mission
Driven to gold and anything that could hold up my interest
Always try to be bold individual, plus all the things I stole from Pinterest
I wasn't always in a pinch
When it was a sinch
I never would flinch
But when I was given an inch
I figured I'd give it a mile before I turned into the grinch
But to this day, to my dismay, nothin has panned out
The old ways that I grew up, blew up in my hands now
Truth is that it stands out, who says that you can't shout
Bruce Wayne in the skylight, two face in the town now
But I ain't a joker I been in the ditch and know what deal is
I give it all that I got now, to give respect to the realness 

[Chorus]

The Last Time

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