my confession

Top bottom psychology is all that resonates
i see a hole i stick it in cause it all feels the same. 
if im home or if im not, i dont care abt if im safe
she could jump me w her guys as soon i pull up today. 

all my doctors look at me and tell me to cut back on mydrinks
and my smoking is so excessive my eyes looking like they bleed 
and maybe it all is getting better objectively
but subjectively every morning i wake up in pain

and these lovergirls wear covergirl
they’re magazine friendly 
and maybe she fucks me good its way better than you think 
and she cares about me and cries for me whenever im pain
ans shes nothing like you but that disturbes me more than you’d think

i got a new girl in my bed everytime i wake up
and my friends hype me up fucking much cause theyre all so soft to touch 
and they care abt my body 
always want to get me off  
and theyre nothing like you
that disturbs me more than i want. 

tell me you’re leaving one more time 
ill leave before you get the chance 
i wish for once id have all the fucking power right in my hands
and i felt this way before 
i will not feel this way again
I will never hand over love for another fucking bitch 

I want a gun in my mouth 
I want you to end it like you wanted 
like should 
like you would 
like you tried to 
do you remember?

everyday is an ache and i wish it would end
i have so many people who love me
so many fucking friends
and despite it all i miss someone who only wants me dead
i dont understand this shit 
i dont understand this shit 
Is this a metaphor deep down for everything i ever seen 
and I’m more like my father everyday that i breathe 
the empty cans only remind me I’m feeling beat
and this time, i guess this time its way more than physically.
who do i call for in moments where the pain is beyond my head? 
I will never understand the feeling of wanting your dad
i will never understand how it feels for mom to love you beyond 
academics or honestly any dream that makes you look good to them 

I want a gun in my mouth 
I want you to end it like you wanted 
oh like should 
like you would 
like you tried to 
do you remember?
i have so much to say but not enough life left to express
im a mess and im disgusting i’m everything you ever said 
ill succumb one day to urges, wind up dead by my hand 
you will wind up sayin “this is why i never loved that man.”

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eu sou o jovem crowley
ig: fearsavi

a cada dia que passa acumulo mais problemas
acordo e leio os livros sagrados de thelema
eu sou o deus das sepulturas, te mando pra cripta
sugo sua alma, me comunico por meio de escritas

sinta o calafrio quando chegar a madrugada
melhor rezar e pedir pra não acontecer nada
savi por favor, foi o que eu escutei da boca do otario
queimo o seu corpo igual eu queimo aquele cigarro

pra mim ce não é ninguém
em que você ta querendo colocar medo com esse seu jeito, bitch
bolo mais um beck cheio de haxixe
quem é você pra querer chamar eu pro feat

to flutuando, sim, to transcendendo
indo pra outro plano, tudo ta pequeno
ta quase acabando, daqui já to vendo
eles dizem que eu sou um ser supremo

caçando mais um motivo pra eu me sentir animado
contando almas, to vendo alguns rostos, semblante fechado
pergunto pra entidades, a vontade toma o meu corpo
se cê me encontrar cê só vai sair daqui vivo ou morto

thelema

IG: Aspicientismusic
small dude from big city
xxx amsterdam <3

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