LYRICS:
and its ok can i hold on 
i really dont know about myself 
can you digitally cure yourself
are you coming homing home when i say so 
i miss you (do u miss me back) (x2) like hold on 
i feel like i was here for you like so long 
i feel like i been falling for you so long 
i feel like i feel like ive been moving solo 
need to see me 
can u fell me 
you feel like ive been so long 
you waiting on your love 
its ok i just wanna fuck 
you would stay with me so looooooooooooooooooooong
hold oooooooooon
i sit here
can you be with me 
can you love me 
but its ok with me 
i said it fuck you gonna wait for me
i feel in love with these racks lately 
baby
love me? wait till you love on me 
hold
can you hold on to me 
can you hold on to me

Digital Cure

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nasir & bt - without (chinapoet)

jlovely - help (nic dove)

I slept through the summer. Everyday's a nightmare

空白（prod.lsd+mag)

patchmade lcb bootleg

music for the modern commuter

I sat inside, alone.
That’s all I had been for most of this time.
Just me, myself, and I,
In this tiny room, with nothing else but my laptop, drawing tablet and a pen
Seconds turned to minutes, and minutes turned to hours as I listened,
And envied the sound of excitement and happiness those younger than me were having.
No matter the reason for them meeting up,
I hated that they got to have fun while I waited.

Days closed in on the one I was meant to be with my own friends…
Each of them canceled, 1 by 1.
The loneliness only sinking in further and further,
As well as jealousy and envy for those who got what I didn’t.
Being an overthinker definitely doesn’t help in moments like this,
Makes me wonder so many questions that hurt to ponder.
Do they not want to see me? Was I annoying?
Had they finally had enough of me?

Were they tired of me?
Did I do something wrong?
Is my past repeating itself?
Is it happening again?! WHY?!
Please just tell me if you don't want to hang out.
I'll understand! I swear I will!
But please give me some clarity...
Oh, no reply? You're busy? Ok...
My phone is tossed across my bed.
My tears are allowed to pour and I comfort myself best I can.
That's how it's been for what feels like forever.
Doing everything with just me, myself, and I.



end it all?

Tracks in order here:

Listen to Contemplation, a playlist by The Beautiful Dark on #SoundCloud
https://on.soundcloud.com/aqD3ZVbtA7pXQ6LBKC
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Tempo 11 BPM
432 Hz

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Fuel my focus
Be my breath
Good gravity
Sink me to calm awareness

Fuel my focus
Calm my chest
As thoughts flow in
See them pass

I am breath
Respiratory pulse
Safe as a spirit
Mend mind convulse

Fuel my focus
A tender tame
Cue calm awareness
Fill my frame

Blissful body
Therapeutically tuned
Blissfully bound
Traquil marooned

I am breath
Balance breathe
I am breath
Serene agreed

Contemplative #4

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