Lyrics by @lostinenthropy
Reimagined by ila

Salt lungs

Sorry for the messed up levels! 

Lyrics:

Phone face down
Screen got cracked
Said I’d quit
Then I slip back.

Boots in the hall
One sock on
Glass in the sink
oh my god the bourbon’s gone.

Scrolled through drafts
I Didn’t send
Lied I’d stop
Then oh my god I pressed send.

Fridge light buzz
Flickering white
Tongue feels thick
Oh my god my skull feels tight.

I’m not most people
I drink just to fight
I regret every drop.
If I remember it right.

Coat on the floor
Keys by the drain
Bottle cap bent
Oh my god a weird pain
Words came fast
You moved slow
Left the porch
oh my god into the snow.

Room went dim
Thoughts turned loud
Tried to stand
But oh my god I fell down.

I’m not most people
I ruin what’s right
I regret every drop
If I remember it right.

Wiped the mirror
Missed a streak
Same as the thoughts
I never speak.
I swore I’d quit
Even set the date
Laughed alone
Oh my god that's my fate.

Sun broke in
Seared my face
Breath like cigarettes
Oh my god there's no escape.
Called my sister
Voice was low
Said I’d quit
Oh my god She hung up slow.

I’m not most people
I ghost what I love
I regret every drop
If I remember it right.

Sink ran warm,
Scrubbed the cup,
Let it go,
Oh my god that's enough.

Bourbon

Shadow Lessons

Leaving Palma, hearts on fire

The Spanish guitar .mp3

This song is a deeply personal exploration of the complexities of creativity, ego, and the human experience. The entire concept was born from the mind of my friend @DJShAnkAri, who shared with me her thoughts on the pain of being an originator, only to see her ideas and influences go unacknowledged. I was inspired to take her ideas and craft them into a song, and I'm proud to give her co-writing credit for this piece. 

The song grapples with the tension between artistic expression and the desire for recognition, as well as the struggle to transcend the ego and find freedom from the trappings of pride and fame. At its core, the song is about the power of beauty to both inspire and ensnare us, and the importance of learning to witness our own experiences rather than becoming mired in them. 

Through the lyrics, I aim to capture the nuances of this inner conflict, and the ways in which our experiences shape us, even as we strive to rise above them. The song is an invitation to reflect on the nature of creativity, identity, and the human condition, and to find a deeper understanding of ourselves and our place in the world.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
I saw myself in someone else’s lines
Unspoken echoes dressed in borrowed rhymes
They never turned to say my name
But still I burn and feel the same
A quiet theft, a silent sting
Why does the source feel everything? 

[Pre-Chorus]
I know it’s ego, just a shell
But in that shell I often dwell
The pain’s a mirror—clear and cold
Still, I don't know how to let it go 

[Chorus]
Beauty holds me like a flame
I turn from pride, I turn from fame
But this one trap I can't escape
She wears my wounds, she knows my shape
I could be higher, I could be free
But beauty won’t let go of me 

[Verse 2]
Aloysius in the shadow’s grace
Unnamed fathers lost without a trace
We feel, we shape, we spark, we bleed
Yet never called the root, the seed
I should stand outside this game
But even ghosts can burn with shame 

[Pre-Chorus]
I know it’s ego, just a role
A mask that hides the monad’s soul
Still I confuse what I create
With who I am—and that's the bait 

[Chorus]
Beauty holds me like a flame
I turn from pride, I turn from fame
But this one trap I can't escape
She wears my wounds, she knows my shape
I could be higher, I could be free
But beauty won’t let go of me 

[Verse 3]
We are gods inside these scars
Drifting truth in jars of stars
The soul still wrestles with the clay
But learns to watch, not slip away
To feel, then filter, pain from grace
To love the art, but not the face 

[Bridge]
Be the witness, not the war
Don't need applause to mean you're more
In silence lies the deepest truth
Creation doesn’t ask for proof 

[Chorus]
Beauty holds me like a flame
I turn from pride, I turn from fame
But this one trap I can't escape
She wears my wounds, she knows my shape
I could be higher, I could be free
But beauty won’t let go of me 

[Chorus]
Beauty holds me like a flame
I let it hurt, I let it name
But then I step beyond the fire
Become the void, the quiet choir
I could be higher, I choose to be
Even if beauty won’t set me free 

[Outro]
I feel, I fall, I know the cost
But nothing felt is ever lost
The soul may ache, but still it sings—
The witness wakes beneath all things

Thanks so much to the incredible @DJShAnkAri for the amazing remix of this song...
https://on.soundcloud.com/H8r9kZajYnwV2z6QqR



Beauty Holds Me

The road is cracked the signs are gone
I keep on walking though I’m all alone
A shadow whispers where do you belong
But the answer’s stuck in a broken song

I turn the key but the lock won’t spin
I knock and knock but no one lets me in

No way home .wav

This Is Sappy

It’s ok
It’s ok to be me 
To be me.
Me me.
It’s hard to me
To be…
Me
Me 
Me

Ending… just when…
I thought it was just the start
Of something unexpected 
Unexplainable
Unable to see
I guess it isn’t meant to be
Wasn’t meant to be 
To be for me

Damn it all to hell
Blow the world up
I don’t care (I don’t care)
Put me to bed. Empty my fucking head.
I’ve spent my life trying to
Satiate those who pretend to care
But I am spent.(I am spent. Spent)
My money is all gone
My heart broken too many times to count
I surrender to the dark gods of yesterday
Hoping for a better day.

If my disappointing days counted as spare change
I’d have an overflowing piggy with disgusting mange
Instead I have a lean piglet pink and dumb
As losing leaves no change but just tired senseless young 

Ending… just when…
I thought it was just the start
Of something unexpected 
Unexplainable
Unable to see
I guess it isn’t meant to be
Wasn’t meant to be 
To be for me

It’s ok
It’s ok to be me 
To be me.
Me me.
It’s hard to me
To be…
Me
Me 
Me

It’s ok
It’s ok to be me 
To be me.
Me me

it’s ok to be me

Quando fraco, me dás força,No Teu abraço, encontro paz.

NORTHERN LIGHTS by Nova J

[Verse 1]
I saw the Northern Lights last night
Slicing the sky like birds in flight
The sun goes down, the shine departs
Half a year of endless dark
If you were here, I wouldn’t complain,
But I walk alone on this frozen lane.

[Pre-Chorus]
Through the cold, through the unknown,
This empty town don’t feel like home.
Your eyes were bright, steady, and true,
Now all I see is the dark without you.
(Oooooh oooooh)

[Chorus]
Just us two was all I knew
Now I’m still here, but half of me’s you
Win or lose, I can’t undo
The life we had, just me and you
(Oooooh oooooh)

[INSTRUMENTAL]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

[Verse 2]
I’ve seen mountains split in two
But nothing broke me like losing you.
The earth can shake, the sky can fall
Saying goodbye’s the hardest blow of all
When sorrow calls, I can’t confide
I only whisper to the other side

[Pre-Chorus]
Through the fire, through the unknown
I stumble on, but I’m alone
Your hand once held me, your love the flame
Now I cry and call your name (mmm)

[Chorus]
Just us two, our time was true
But night keeps falling, I can’t break through
Win or lose, I’m bound to you
Just us two, without you

[INSTRUMENTAL]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

[Bridge]
The colors rise where the shadows go
Green and violet, the heavens glow
I search the stars for a sign of your face
A fleeting spark in the vast of space

[Outro]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

Through the cold, through the unknown,
This empty house don’t feel like home.
Your eyes were bright, steady, and true,
Now all I see is the dark without you.

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, our time was true
But night keeps falling, I can’t break through
Win or lose, I’m bound to you
Just us two, without you

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, without you

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, without you

[whistling]

Shadow Lessons

Ora Belle