Lay Low

⠀:¨ ·.· ¨:⠀7. growing pains              
⠀ `· . ୨୧⠀━━━━━━━━━━━━━━

i used to ask my parents
when i would be
able to see
over the sink

i didn’t notice i got taller until
the top of my head
reached the windowsill

growing pains, i know it’s gunna ache
but things just have to change
cause nothing will remain 

that's why they call it
growing pains
i know it’s gunna ache
but things just have to change
cause nothing will remain

sitting by a riverside
with tears streaming down my eyes
i ask whatever’s out there
if it can hear my cries

hurting fingers going numb 
first cigarette at way too young 
thinking maybe when i’m older
i won’t wanna die


growing pains, i know it’s gunna ache
but things just have to change
cause nothing will remain 

that's why they call it
growing pains
i know it’s gunna ache
but things just have to change
cause nothing will remain



it never stops
but i, have learned a lot

(instrumental)

growing pains, i know it’s gunna ache
but things just have to change
cause nothing will remain 

that's why they call it
growing pains
i know it’s gunna ache
but things just have to change
cause nothing will remain


i just turned 22
i don’t know what to do
i didn’t plan on making it this far
nostalgia for the present
cause it already happened
i guess i’m learning 
it will always be hard

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growing pains

The 3rd & deluxe edition vinyl repress of Ontario Gothic will be available August 27th, 2021. 

Pre-order a copy here: https://shop.orchidtapes.com/product/foxes-in-fiction-ontario-gothic-third-press

"Musicially, “Ontario Gothic” begins where the previous song on the album, “Shadow’s Song” lets off. The the same melody - made from cutting up & copying and pasting singular guitar notes forms the melodic basis for the majority former. The instrumental elements of the middle / transition section make up the Foxes in Fiction song “Breathing In” found on the first Angeltown compilation.

Lyrically, “Ontario Gothic” is written about a close friend name Cait who died in 2010 and to whom the album is dedicated. Cait was one of the closest friends that I had for many years when I was a bit younger. She and I became really close after I had moved back to my hometown in the suburbs of Toronto, away from a farm in rural Ontario that my family lived on from 2001 until 2004. I was coming away from what was the worst and most emotionally tumultuous period of my life at that point and I carried a lot of fucked up anxiety and deep sadness about my life and myself as a person. But more than anything else, getting to know, open up to and spend time with Cait during those first years helped open me up to kinds of happiness and a love for life that I didn’t think was within the realm of possibility at that point in my life. 

She was one of the most remarkable, open and truly good people I’ve ever known, really. The song “Flashing Lights Have Ended Now” was also written about her just a point where we’re drifting apart; a year later she was gone. I wrote this song to crystallize the better parts of our friendship and to remember the healing effect that she had on me as a person which without I would not be the same person or have the same acceptance for life that I do now. I miss her enormously and I feel her influence and presence constantly. "

I was trapped under concrete
Built from the memory
Of all the daydreams
That I buried underneath

Now find me a way to divide
All of the noise on the other side
We’ll change where we live in the fall
Soon it will feel like nothing is wrong

And I could see who I should be
Though a past that casts it’s shadow down over me
In empty fields on summer nights
I feel the flashing lights

Teeth clenched in moonlight
A limitation, want to ignite
Reset my biology
The imitation, the apology

And I felt just like a child
I’m taking it all from the other side
Driving with you in your car
The home that I know seems so far

Spring, fall, I’ve lost it all (the morning fog)
Your empty street where we would meet
These parking lots bless us with peace
Your light has strayed, there’s no release

Ontario Gothic

Foxes in Fiction - Ontario Gothic

https://orchid-mantis.bandcamp.com/album/light-take-me-there-again

light take me there again pt. II

'Video Dreams' is Haunt's first single.

Facebook: www.facebook.com/welovehaunt

Video Dreams

Guitar: Atsuhito Omori
Bass Guitar, Wurlitzer Electric Piano: Stephen Wilkinson

Bibio + Ex Confusion - Swift

Chill lofi track reminds me of stardew valley or sum shit

campfirre - NINO

Sick & Tired

flashbulb memory

reoccurring

Taken from "Dream Forever In Glorious Stereo" out on limited cassette and digital 23rd August 2019

Dream Forever In Glorious Stereo

Night Tapes - Forever

Glitter Hands

found sounds, tape collages, and pop songs about forgetting
https://beacons.page/orchid.mantis

light take me there again pt. II

orchid mantis