go peepee joe

loneliness consumes me
all i see are spirits i'm abusing
i feel like a ghost am i translucent?
life is getting old
should i just do it?

every night i dream about a perfect end like hemingway
i got nothing left to say
i'm always drawing a blank
feels like i'll never fit
abstract shape
can't look in the mirror cuz i hate my face
i been drinking so much
cuz without that i can't depend on anything

i feel like a ghost

loneliness consumes me (prod. taylor morgan & caspr)

SHADE

Gallows

https://teenpregnancy300.bandcamp.com/album/oct-25-1994

Oct. 25th, 1994 [FREE DOWNLOAD IN DESCRIPTION]

Tell me who you're fucking
Shrouded on your sweater
Shame, you wear it like a necklace
I'll tell you that I'm okay
But you've been dancing in my dreams
Wish I could erase your face
I'm trying not to call you
But you're the only girl I've loved
Remember every freckle
I'm lying to myself still
I found a shirt you left in my room
Still smelled like my everything

And I wanted to cry, I wanted to die
I wanted to cry, I wanted to die
I wanted to cry, I wanted to die
I wanted to cry, I wanted to die
I wanna cry, I wanna die
I wanna cry, I wanna die
I wanna cry, I wanna die
I wanna cry, I wanna die

never,forever. - i wanted to cry i wanted to die

never,forever. - you could have stayed

Incision with a swift slice
Lets see what's in my chest
Indecision and a sick mind
Can't say I've felt my best
And I know that kind of soul I used to be
Is not alive anymore
Cause I'm a god damn wreck
And I can't help but feel like I'm a nuisance
Fucking useless

never,forever - couldn't care less

Prod:
https://soundcloud.com/nothingnowheremusic
https://soundcloud.com/seraphbeats
https://soundcloud.com/runawayghost

i still hear you like you never left your bedroom
and god i miss you but i should just fall asleep soon

i should've  been a better son
i could've  been a better one
I'm sorry 
i should've  been a better son
i could've  been a better one
I'm sorry 

We're the misery we make 
and every worthless breath i take
gets me closer to the day i die
 and they can bury me with you
and i wish you could've stayed 
and i wish you had the strength
but theres nothing that can bring you back 
or take away the pain

i should've  been a better son
i could've  been a better one
I'm sorry, I'm sorry

Golden Boy (prod. nothing,nowhere x Seraph x Runawayghost)

go follow my friend @deadbeatteen

1800's vocals mastered by @nameless-singer
pic by @xrosehipsx

no samples as always, me playing guitar

hanging by a thread w/ deadbeatteen (prod. 1800entity)

lyrics:

i can't love me 
will you love me? 
when i'm cold and shaking alone on the floor? 
cause i'm scared and prepared for the worst 
cause i know it gets harder, and harder, and harder, and harder 
i just wanna find my way 
tell me that i'll be okay in the morning 

in the morning 
i feel boring 
i feel stupid and numb like i'm not anyone 
and i just wanna feel..okay 

i can't love me 
will you love me? 
when i'm cold and shaking alone on the floor? 
cause i'm scared and prepared for the worst 
cause i know it gets harder, and harder, and harder, and harder 
i just wanna find my way 
tell me that i'll be okay in the morning

will you love me? (prod. branwen)

no samples.



lyrics:
lay me down beside the interstate
let me see your beautiful face
kiss my scars and help me make it fade
cuz i can't take this fucking pain..
you know how much i feel
when im with you
you dont wanna lose me
i know how you feel when i'm in pain

interstate.

Overthink Ft. Free Throw

This is an old song with a collaboration from Lil Lotus, I don't own this song or the rights to it, I am just editing it to my liking and those who are interested.

@killedmyself
@lilxlotus

If this needs to be removed please contact me appropriately.

[Lyrics]
But there's no avoiding elements of loneliness, and unfortunately, the only thing that helps you through that is calling your friends and saying, "I'm hurting" and they say, "Don't worry, we got your back."
And the only thing that helps you there is knowing that there's a light at the end of the tunnel

And I know that I gotta die someday
So I'll speed it up and blow out my brains
And all my friends say the same fucking thing:
"You'll be fine, close your eyes, you'll be okay."

(I'm not okay, I'm not okay)
I'm not okay, I'm not okay
I'm not okay, I'm not okay
(I'm not okay)
I'm not okay, I'm not okay
I'm not okay, I'm not okay
(I'm not okay)
I'm not okay, I'm not okay
I'm not okay, I'm not okay
(I'm not okay)
I'm not okay, I'm not okay
I'm not okay, I'm not okay

And I know that I gotta die someday
So I'll speed it up and blow out my brains
And all my friends say the same fucking thing:
"You'll be fine, close your eyes, you'll be okay."

But, you know, there are lot of sleepless nights, and there's a lot of stress and there's a lot of, you know, and sometimes your friends and family call you and go, "Why haven't you done anything for a week?"
And you're like, "I wish- I'm just hurting."
You know, just, "Please ask me if I'm okay instead of yelling at me."
"Right."
You know there- there-
It's unfortunately unavoidable, but like I said, the reason anybody gets through any of this is because there are people in our lives that care desperately about our wellbeing and... Umm, when you disappear they don't yell at you, they come up to you and they say, "Are you okay?" and that, that alone, just somebody that you know is thinking of you and, umm, concerned about you, it gives you the energy to fight on,

killedmyself (ft. Lil Lotus)- revealing hope slowed

w/ @cpt_sad

guitars written, performed, and recorded by barren
production by @vibevoka
live drums written/recorded/performed by
Alec Doyle 

the calendar says may
but it is already september
got me guessing on the days
cause i dont remember
the last day i wasn’t bothered
by a searing fucking pain
the medication that im taking
aint working the right way
drive me to the er for a shot of morphine
4:30 in the morning
and im screaming out my lungs
try to take it easy
but you won’t

every nights a party
when you wanna stay fucked up
will you say the same sentence
in the morning throwing up?
do you have the same mindset
rolling that 6th blunt?
do these stupid fucking choices
really give you such a rush?
i just woke up
i know
im fucked
meet me at the corner
of the disagreement
eating at the ruts
im too strung out
on clout
that i dont even have
if i ever come up on some
imma give it right back

what u see
is what u get
i sleep thru the days
to feel closer to death
all this weed in my chest
got me restin
nah, i aint even tryin
to make sense of the words
they go flyin
but shawty dont mind it
so imma just kick back
and go for the ride
ive got ghosts in my aura
ive got smoke in my eyes
i been shed a tear
but i aint ever cry
i walk like a soldier
right into the fight
my thoughts keep me restless
all throughout the night
still keepin it quiet
im lit out in public
fucked with the spins
and im stumblin
roll up a spliff
someone give me the light
we're fully entranced
by these drugs and the height

every nights a party
when you wanna stay fucked up
will you say the same sentence
in the morning throwing up?
do you have the same mindset
rolling that 6th blunt?
do these stupid fucking choices
really give you such a rush?
i just woke up
i know
im fucked
meet me at the corner
of the disagreement
eating at the ruts
im too strung out
on clout
that i dont even have
if i ever come up on some
imma give it right back

never,forever - couldn't care less

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