prod. sorrowbringer

the essence of your perfume stays on the shirt i wore that day 
i try to wash it out to forget the pain
but it seems that i've caught to a plague

since that night that we stayed up at your place
i've thought about it every other day
like do even remember my name?
it's my fault i left didn't think you'd feel the same

since that night that we stayed up at your place
i've thought about it every other day
like do even remember my name?
it's my fault i left didn't think you'd feel the same
since that night that we stayed up at your place
i've thought about it every other day
like do even remember my name?
it's my fault i left didn't think you'd feel the same

so i take myself right back
whenever i meet someone new
but no one's ever just like you
i never knew of the chance i blew

and now i sit, all alone in the shed
pessimistic about what could be next
it's hard to think when you're over the edge (over the edge)

since that night that we stayed up at your place
i've thought about it every other day
like do even remember my name?
it's my fault i left didn't think you'd feel the same
since that night that we stayed up at your place
i've thought about it every other day
like do even remember my name?
it's my fault i left didn't think you'd feel the same

i didn't think you'd feel the same
i didn't think you'd feel the same
i didn't think you'd feel the same
i didn't think you'd feel the same

(yeah) hit the gas we floor it at the red light
(yeah) 'cause no one really cares if we crash and die
(yeah) you gotta feel the wind to fucking feel alive
(yeah) if you're looking for my body look under the tires

perfume

FinalMaster (49)

and will you dwindle by yourself? 
or succumb to the crowd effect?
we all need a piece of hell; to find the joy in it 
mine was that you never had time for me 
hurts so much, declare it blasphemy 
guess the time's run out 
i'll be leaving by the hour 

and i can see the remnants of your silhouette
still here but you're not gon' be paying rent 
then you go and leave me for the backrooms
slow down, know i'm never gonna have you

have your wishes got you far?
this the disappointing part
oh we'll be dreaming life on mars 
i know we'll never get that far 

and fuck this stupid rut 
i never been this stuck 
they say the blues won't come
they couldn't be more wrong 
not winning games, this ain't solitaire 
do shit in vain, but you wouldn't care
porcelain brain, feel the cracks and tears 
covered in shame, not a debonaire 

and i can see the remnants of your silhouette
still here but you're not gon' be paying rent 
then you go and leave me for the backrooms
slow down, know i'm never gonna have you

have your wishes got you far?
this the disappointing part
oh we'll be dreaming life on mars 
i know we'll never get that far 

and i can see the remnants of your silhouette
still here but you're not gon' be paying rent 
then you go and leave me for the backrooms
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prod. irby, m&m: markuwho

life on mars (irby)

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why feel more? (prod. doublemydose & sorrow bringer)

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"still I don't know much (p. doublemydose x sorrow bringer)"

shout out to sorrow for the inspiration and letting me flip his brilliant track "slow motion".

LYRICS:
“still I don’t know much” 
(by doublemydose  )
On and on my head won’t cease the chatter 
Echoes of decisions heavy like a clatter 
Searching for the peace in a world that’s madder 
In a world that’s madder than before
  Trying to find the truth
Avoid the fucking patterns 
Spinning in confusion dreams I try to flatter
 Fuck It got to focus
Or I might just lose the matter
 Losing it all again  
Voices in my ears they just talk too much
 Lost track of the years still I don’t know much
 Every step I take feels it’s the wrong direction 
Why do I focus on these imperfections?
 How can I look at my own reflection ?
Every step forward I feel the rejection  
Voices in my ears they just talk too much
 Lost track of the years still I don’t know much
 Every step I take feels it’s the wrong direction 
Why do I focus on these imperfections? 
Why do I focus on these imperfections?
Shadows seem to dwell behind my reflection  
Can’t seem to focus I’m just too affected 
Can’t seem to focus I’m just too affected
 Decisions that I fear I just talk too much 
You I never hear we fell out of touch
 Can’t seem to focus I’m just too affected  
Decisions that I fear I just talk too much
 You were never here we fell out of touch

Can’t seem to focus I’m just too affected  
Choices that I fear when I said my heart was shattered
 Voices in my ears they just talk to much to me
 Everything we had you just said it wouldn’t matter 
Back and back again spirits seem to taunt me
 Whispers in my ears I feel them haunting

still I don't know much (prod. doublemydose & sorrow bringer)

Desaster

📝 LYRICS:

The death was just my vanity
Unstable my energy
Untamed with my memories
9 spades I’m not chosen
And I’m falling with November leafs
Lost in hills of Beverly
Late nights got the best of me
Me my own worst enemy

These drinks too toxic
Tripping while walking
Love the way it’s rocking
Zone in while we’re talking
Mindless in the Ether
Always take it deeper
Two steps with the reaper
Born to push the meters

My last surrender upon me
I ask you remember the fallen
The ashes I hold is the old me
An inch of regret will destroy me

My last surrender upon me
I ask you remember the fallen
The ashes I hold is the old me
An inch of regret will destroy me

I think I think too much
The outcome is disastrous
Find myself just hiding
All the things that make a masterpiece

Beauty in the struggle
Second thoughts will be the death of me
Take away the imperfections
There won’t be much less of me

Over analyze, paralyzed by possibilities
Walking on a line
Only seen at its simplicity
Running out of time
But the clock won’t get the best of
I won’t let the stress affect
The outcome of my ecstasy

It’s been too long
Let go, gotta let go
Hiding, lying
‘Bout time that I let go

My last surrender upon me
I ask you remember the fallen
The ashes I hold is the old me
An inch of regret will destroy me

My last surrender upon me
I ask you remember the fallen
The ashes I hold is the old me
An inch of regret will destroy me

It’s been too long
Let go, gotta let go
Hiding, lying
‘Bout time that I let go

Vanity

Say I Love You

yeah

What I'm Sayin

lyrics:
Yeah, yeah, so hard to tell. 
Why the fuck you sell your memories 
for fake jeans, for fake tea, for a fake replacement me 
Take it, take it back. 
Take it, take it back. 
Take it, take it back. 
Fake love, fake so bad. 
Fake love, fake so sad. 
Fake birth, bitch ass. 
Come on, so sad. 
Come on, so sad.

Hittin' your phone all day long, God. 
I'm in dialtone hell, feel my soul lost. 
Why the fuck you can't tell when I'm breaking? 
I pray and beg and beg and suffocate. 
Fake bitches that wanna cry break. 
Shameful hate is recreational hey. 
I'm glad that ain't my own fate. 
Can't really express feelings deeply. 
So I keep inside and hide, hoping I die. 
Ruined relationships, no one by my side. 
So I go and hide and hide away, no, not today. 
No, cause the drugs don't pay, it won't show. 
I won't let it, the hurt, crash, and perseverance though. 
Go get it, I don't know where to start, where to go. 
Where's my head at? I wanna blow, wanna blow it all out. 
My head's filled with doubt. 
Yeah, my head's filled with doubt. 
Can't get out this cloud. Can't get out this cloud. 
What you doin' to me now? 
Every fuckin' pick that I take. 
Every fuckin' mistake that I make. 
Every fuckin' smile that I fake.
Questioning every step that I take. 
Every fuckin' pic that I take. 
Every fuckin' mistake that I make.
Every fuckin' smile I fake. 
Looking at the old me, same me, new me. 
Glitching pics of old me with the TV.
Can't really express feelings deeply, 
so why the fuck you sell your memories? 
For fake dreams, for fake tea, for a fake replacement me.
Take it back, take it back, 
take it back, take it back. 
So sad, so sad. 
What you do to me? 
What you do to me? 
What you do  to me?

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(Prod. Wayside x Jolst)

Memories/Semi-Freestyle

Featuring @sorrow_bringer on the beat. Performed and lyrics by me, doublemydose.
LYRICS:
Rain on the glass same face in the mirror
Try to run away but the voice gets clearer
Eyes in the mist every step she draws nearer
Stuck in the screen like a glitch in the feeder
I just want to know you but I don't even know me
Digging up graves of the garden of the old me
And time does not seem to heal
Mistakes I've made now revealed
And I don't want to live like this anymore
Every single day I wake is like the day before
Always wanting more
Living score to score
Ashes on the floor never feeling like before no
What if I said I still could change?
What if I said I was to blame
Knowing now that nothing stays the same
God only knows I don't need the pressure
Try to run away to the ground I'm tethered
Looking at the past all the storms I've weathered
Knowing well now we'll never have one another
I've lost you in the end
I have nothing left to give
I'm letting you go
For the last tIme
I don't want to do this anymore
Every single day's like the day before
I don't want to live always wanting more
I'm not the same person I was before to you
Before to you
I'm not the same person no
I don't need the pressure
Every single days like the day before
Rain on the glass same face in the mirror
Eyes in the mist every step she draws nearer
Stuck in the screen like a glitch in the feeder
I just want to know you but I don't even know me
Digging up graves of the garden of the old me
And time does not seem to heal
Mistakes I've made now revealed
I don't want to do this anymore
So leave me like you left before

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