Wait I don’t even got that many friends

Diary music is a raw, emotionally intimate style of music that feels like a sonic journal entry. It often features confessional lyrics about heartbreak, mental health, and personal struggles, paired with lo-fi or ambient production that enhances its vulnerability.

Diary 101

slidetomycrib + nicky - shedontknowthesoundoflove (p.keo) #twilight

My life hasn't been the best I know that bc I'm just not like the rest. I'm feeling blue inside cuz I'm so depressed, I dunno how else I'm being so upset. Gotta put a smile on my face I don't want no one to know, I know that I'll die one day but I just wonder how I'll go. Will I kill my self, or will I die unexpected? Yeah she broke my heart, that was sum expected, what did i do wrong? Bitch u left me for dead. I just hate her guts, now I know where we stand.

I can't eat no more, cuz I feel sick. Anxiety it took over my body now bruh I feel sick. I relate so much to Travis cuz these girls are all the same. they don't care about me, yeah they're all the same. I was high on the streets and it was 3 AM, was high asf on the streets and they were worried man. 

I could've died that night, it was just one of those damn nights. But I always get back to my demons, I'm positive that my shadow is my mfing demon. Bleeding cuts and stitches, dying's on my wishlist. Bro I don't like college, it feels like prison. I don't want a future job no I just wanna make that music, that's all I wanna do I really wanna make music. 

No im not satisfied (x2) I just wanna escape, I  wanna escape this life. I'm in my bedroom I don't got no friends bro. I'm in my bedroom I don't got no friends no, I'm in my bedroom I got no friends no. In my bedroom I gotta record yuh. Huh.

my shadow is a demon

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my shadow is a demon (prod dimpleb + backxster)

Dunno where to go, I've been in this place before. Picked blades up bro at 13 I wasn't enough, just like my scars bro I'm so fucking lost. Serb I miss u so much yea I just wanna talk, I got scars on my body don't remind me I fucked up. Suicidal thoughts rip robin Williams, no matter what I gotta push thru that shit is resilience. 

She doesn't care about me she she doesn't care bout my feelings. Life's bout learning lessons bro and life's bout all that healing. Guess I got no friends left that shit happens when you're winning.

I make mistakes mistakes mistakes sometimes I fuck up okay, I'm just human don't u understand. I'm just like Gia no one understands, my wrist is bleeding yea it's burning man. These niggas hate me, but I’m not Caring man. She just talked to me but that girl's full of lust, been thru so much pain bitch all I want is love.

Bitch i want is love (x)

awakenings

awakenings (prod dimpleb)

At this point I'm scared to open up and fall in love, cuz I don't wanna be in broken fucking pieces. My blood it hit the floor as I was praying to Jesus, like please help me like can you tell me... I can't even eat today nah and i puked too, nigga as a child I had a dream and it was YouTube. Yea I still got dreams yuh, yeah i gotta chase them. 

I wanna go up w my friends I gotta rest up, wait wait wait I don't even got that many friends. I don't got that many friends, cuz I'll die a lonely man. I'd rather be lonely than to hang with all these fake guys, shoutout to my dad cuz that man taught me much about like. Gotta be a hustler gotta be a hustler gotta be a hustler I can't give up I'm a hustler. 

My dad went to the Netherlands from Ghana and didn't die, yea that nigga saw so much but he's still standing tall. Yea lil boy I got many cuts, but I'm still alive now. They're wanting me to fail yea they're wanting me to fall. I don't owe nobody shit get out ion gaf. Ion owe nobody shit no I don't give a fuck

can't eat (prod 77mending)

I’m surrounded by these people but I'm still feeling isolated, all these niggas wanna sleep on me they all know that I'm underrated. Why'd she kiss me on the lips she knows that she's not gonna see me later. Why'd she do this shit to me she's playing guess bro I’ll be crying later. I don't wanna go to  college I wanna do what I love, I thought that she was the one but I guess that girl she gave up. 

These girls ain't shit they're all the same they're all the same, cuts on my wrist I went thru pain I went thru pain. You tried to kiss on my bro you're nothing but a hoe. Blood it dripped on the floor oh no, oh no-oo-oo.  

I'm tryna make it cuz I wanna give back to my parents, I wanna make it cuz I wanna live life like it's my last day. The only reason I'm still breathing's cuz of my nephew. Whenever I see that lil kid I tell him I love you. I want nothing but happiness for you. 

[osei... 'hello osei'] <3

I hope that you're not gonna go thru what I went through, if u wanna talk ill be there bro I gotchu. niggas is all talk yea they're lame I gotta block u  

Mm-mm-a aa I'm alone

caged

why i'm still breathing (prod backxster)

[I'm dying you know that? I'm dying here.]

I just dunno who to talk to, you lied to my face when you said Osei I love you. Ion think love exists I think that shit is fake, hoes they stay on tinder they can't get away. Am I good enough? Idk. Bitch why'd you leave me? Those times were a lie, yeah I know, the times that you kissed me.

Stop looking at my body and please look at my heart, I'm not made for lust I got pain and I got scars. Whenever I love, I just be loving too hard. And that shit hurts me all the damn time I should do better. I stopped cutting on myself I’m doing better, it's almost been a year yeah I hope I don't relapse. Loneliness follows me everywhere, used to cut my wrist yeah my blood it was everywhere. 

I know that there's something wrong with me, I should try to sign up for that therapy. But last time it felt like no one was helping me, there's no hope, oh. I don't think I wanna go. I got no one left like oh.

hopeless romantic

hopeless romantic (prod dimpleb)

I don't fw these internships nigga fuck a 9 to 5, like bro I'm so creative I wanna leave college behind. Life shouldn't be bout getting grades life shouldn't be bout deadlines. At 50 I wanna be great I hope I'll live a good life, got passion for that music I'll make it til I fucking die. 

She kissed me on the lips and went away that girl left me behind. Music niggas are so fucking fake lil bro I don't know why. It's fuck Osei like everyday, I had no bad intentions. All u niggas ruined this group, nigga go and self reflect. I told these niggas go and work these niggas wouldn't send shit back. And now u wanna blame me while your ass left by yourself bruh. Idgaf about these niggas they're in high school.

I could call them mean girls, they're bitch made. Y'all niggas are grown talking bout Osei, go look at yourselves instead of playing the blame game. Without me bitch none of this shit would be here today. Fuck a collective bro that shits a daycare, crying on discord nigga as if I care.

Go and make them pedo jokes , go and make them rape jokes. I don’t fw homophobes I don’t fw transphobes. Bro get out of my face bitch ion gaf no, used to be so kind to niggas now bro I'm an asshole. Watch with who you hang, man these rappers are some weirdos. Bro I’m boutta crash I feel like I'm Travis Bickle. Why you on my page nigga get right off my dick bro.

mean girls

OSEI

mean girls (prod april21 + flynnseasons)

recollect ft chaosysl (kynlary chaosysl)

https://soundcloud.com/slidetomycrib
https://soundcloud.com/friendly

searchingforsolace (friendly)

stop out (srdbeatz)

no sleep (cranes luvpurp)

blood on your face ik you’re away, you’re away 
pull me closer, closer 

pull me closer, closer

pull me closer, closer
 
i see blood in your
 mansion 
i see jacob in your mentions 

pull me closer, closer 

pull me closer, closer 

fucked up
sixteen
what you even know about that
tempting
chase her
fuck around lets tit for tat

dont
play with me
dont
stab my back
dont
say to me
dont

shes the one i want
shes the one i want
dripping blood from the tongue
tryna run away called your front
so i ran out
put your neck out
your my next one baby promise i wont let you down
yeah my hunger too crazy
sun down we skipping town
shes the one that dont hate me
her old man wanna take me out
volvo C30
love story pass the towel
thats..

can't eat (prod 77mending)

osei

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