[I just wanna go out... I really, nah I really wanna... I've got some bad ideas in my head, I just.]

It's raining in the city, and I just got nobody with me. Will this last forever I want her to hug me, will this last forever I want her to kiss me. But she left my soul, don't know if I wanna do this anymore. No one wants me, I'm too much to handle. I get it I'm too much to handle...

Ever since my friend died it hasn't been the same, I really wonder what death looks like. Will I go to heaven if I commit suicide? I'd be forgotten and gone no no no oh, I already feel like that bro while I am alive. Why tf am I breathing why am I alive? 

I just too much on my plate, music is the only thing that I make. Cause after my head's laid to rest, they are gonna hear me. Don't think that no one would come to my funeral. Don't think that no one would come to my funeral, I'm bleeding bleeding bleeding bleeding I don't know. I started cutting at 13 yea had to cope, and I still talk bout it. 

You don’t have no idea what it’s like to live with 50 lines. I always pretend lil bro that I am fine, gotta smile I gotta smile I gotta smile bright. 

Cause they can't see, I don't want them to see the real me.

burden

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burden (prod osei)

''He's a dog, he's a pig, he's a con. A bullshit artist, a mutt who doesn't know what he's talking bout, doesn't do his homework doesn't care.''

Idc bout the way u tried to look at me ''doesn't care'' man u niggas are some bullies. I would never deal with all that dick riding, keep on talking down nigga u are promoting. Used to sip on lean, I called it my purple potion. I had to quit for my health, you made fun of me cuz I used to cut myself bitch, but you still in my plays bitch. At least I try to better my whole life, fuck them drugs and fuck that nicotine. I'm going through withdrawals, what is my life? I quit smoking on that nicotine. I quit smoking, I quit smoking on that nicotine. If I wanna keep living I should be healthy, but I can't lie on some days it's hard. I don't want no pills, bitch I won't go far. 

Sober, I'm sober nigga, yea I'm sober and it's October. If you talk that shit bout Ciz, yeah it's over yuh I'm in New York with p5 that's the bro yuh, I'm fitted up like ova these niggas got no motion. Posting on the stories shut the fuck up , no one gaf no one gaf. I'm here with my bros they'll not switch up, had to unfollow niggas are so sus go. Idgaf like halo, idgaf no. Nigga u not my bro.

#fastlife #fastlife

#hateme #hateus (prod sarri)

It scares me whenever I think of the future cuz idek where I'm gonna be, got lines nigga on my wrist ppl have seen me as a loser, where I'm at is not where I wanna be. I've been betrayed way too many times, got cuts nigga on my body I still say that I'm alright. I might watch me a movie tonight lil bro I might, rip Serb rip Serb I know that ur now alright.

Ur last wish was to come home but then u died on that hospital bed, cried way too hard cuz I'm upset I'm so alone I don't no friends. No I don’t got no friends to depends, no I don't even got friends bro to talk to. I feel like I'm cursed by that juju , my life is a curse I'm tryna die too. I wish that I met you last year, I wish that I met you last year. I've changed so much ever since that day , had to quit these drugs for a better way. Quit asking me if I'm ok you're being rhetorical . You know you know.

It scares me whenever I think of the future cuz idek where I'm gonna be, got lines nigga on my wrist ppl have seen me as a loser, where I'm at is not where I wanna be. I've been betrayed way too many times, got cuts nigga on my body I still say that I'm alright. I might watch me a movie tonight lil bro I might, rip Serb rip Serb I know that ur now alright.

Ur last wish was to come home but then u died on that hospital bed, cried way too hard cuz I'm upset I'm so alone I don't no friends.

your last words

your last words (prod 1plugsoon + 1h1jaxk)

link: https://youtu.be/kRz8kxpUc4o?si=R-3f-hYwMjR-zm9V

(Wait a second wait a second, I have to go, wait a second..)

While it was raining I looked at the sky, I’m alone again I thought u were mine. I cannot help it I’ve bled all night. Will heaven be waiting for me, or will hell be waiting for me? Wanted to kill myself since a teen but this music’s stopping me. She’s is saying that I’m too vulnerable but my story it made me cut to cope. I’m tryna remove all those traumas from my memory, used to sip on lean pop pills and drink Hennessy. (This is a dirty movie) 

Ever since I quit I became a better me, nigga fuck these drugs I’ll remain the sober me. I’m in Ghana now and my grandma hugged on me, fuck these pedo rappers nigga we’re not locking in. Why’s u talking shit in the comments u should be clocking in. When I’m talking niggas don’t wanna do that listening, was in Times Square smiling like a tourist, (taxi? Can I talk to you at least?) u use one flow come up with some new shit. Cannot understand ur songs bitch stop speeding it up, used to pour that codeine now I pour water in double cups. 

Fuck ur cap rap nigga stop tb bleeding cuts, man these niggas lie bout life n that shits obvious. I just spoke my mind nigga I’m letterboxd, I still gotta watch that one movie with Megan fox. My neighbor doesn’t fwm idc bout him, (why? Idk why I came , I dont like these movies) got another noise complaint idc bout him. I love music too fucking much I can’t fucking quit, nigga get out my business; bro im gon travel again i bought a ticket. They’re preying on my downfall yeah they’re wishing.

wait a second (prod sennai + 77mending) [mv in desc.]

I just wanna hold someone wanna hug someone, cuz I've been cold during all these nights. U could call me lonely call me lonely, I don't think that any girl would fucking like me. I'm so damaged I'm fucking damaged, I don't wanna show my body in public, I'm not tryna swim it makes me anxious. I'm ashamed x3 nigga my blood it covered the way; I hope that I'll be happy someday bc rn I don't fw my life, I wrote a message bro with my knife . 

That was the demon inside of me I can't control it, yea my life is full of pain I'll make u feel it. I know it is but pls calm down, ur full cuts now u can't get out. It's a conflict like everyday I got my good side and I got my bad side, but either way nigga I'm still tryna fucking die. How will ppl describe me after I'm gone after I'm dead , nigga I'm counting the days until I'm gone until I'm dead cuz I don't wanna be here.

damaged goods

damaged goods (prod 1h1jaxk)

Right now I'm living with the consequences, I've never met a girl that wanted to listen. These rappers lame they're in my mentions, I feel like Tony nigga I don't got a friend left. I almost died nigga 2 weeks ago, lil bro remember u should always be grateful. When that boy crashed the car I was bleeding, nigga I rly thought I was dying . Could not believe that was happening, my grandma prayed for me that's why I didn't pass away. I still wanna see the whole wide world, but sometimes I wanna escape the whole world. 

Ghana taught me a lesson about life, your family matters so much in this life. Even tho I'm misunderstood nigga I gotta find a new outlook, that's why I'm on no damn drugs; that shit ruins you. Niggas fucked up all their bodies just to look cool , the world is yours as long as you're alive. Had an epiphany cause bro I almost died, I wanna get back to New York I'm just tryna see the skyline. I just gotta make another song to pass time, now I pray to god I'm living right. I went to the cinema on my own, I got no friends I'm all alone, I got no friends I'm on my own but it's ok I need myself. 

near-death experience

near-death experience (prod maxim + xangang)

I'm tryna save my mental health with vacations, I sometimes don't want to exist please erase it. Nah I don't fw this damn system you're slaving, got many cuts on me bro there's no saving. I want to escape the shit I'm in , bro fuck a job I’m tryna make music. Please help me from all the shit I'm in, I’m tryn be happy it feels too late. U could lose your life at any time, I remember when I thought I was gonna die, I saw my life flash right in front of me. I won't stop music bro til I'm on your tv, I'm living for my friends and family and loved ones. I love my niece and nephew so much they're the ones, whenever I see them I ask for a hug; bro I was smoking on that gas in Central Park.

Tell your family you love them asap, I got no hate in my heart I'm not that kind of man. Last year I was looking for ways to die asap, I was on the bathroom floor bleeding from my veins , I can't believe that I'm alive I’ve been through so much pain . Shoutout fast life they're my twin flames, would not be here without my bros they mean a lot to me. Ciz he motivates that nigga is my twin, Ima work in silence I know we're gon win. Movies have saved my life I'll say that again, movies have saved my life I was about to lose it. Cause I got no friends irl, I was on so many drugs these movies made me quit pills. Ima need a fucking hug you know I'm gonna cry still, bro there was a fucking chance I'd die a few weeks ago, at that moment I wanted a chance to keep growing. I'm smiling hard I’m smiling hard I can't show it, I can't show the pain that I'm in, I can't show the pain that I'm in. This fucking mask is tiring...

I really.... nah I really wanna.. I've got some bad ideas in my head, I just.

god gave me a second chance

god gave me a second chance (prod 1h1jaxk)

I'll die alone who gives a fuck about a friend? Like the CIA these niggas are just keeping tabs. Quit smiling at my face cuz I'm seeing the mask, that's why I took some steps back bitch I’m not ur mans. Yeah I was holding a gun they called it contraband, next time I'm in New York Ryan he will be the camera man. Bands on bands on bands these niggas know that I got multiple , I cannot trust a soul oh no oh no I'm just like serpico, these cuts they're on my wrist cuz in the past bro I was bleeding more. If you talk shit bout my brother we will both  Be in a fucking war. I can't even stop watching movies, cause I'm tryna forget bro I'm tryna forget. 

I gotta find a way to cope with all this trauma, im a lone wolf I don't deal w all this drama. I'm not a sheep a follower bro or no lama, bro u wanna talk that shit you'll get your karma. I know I wanna die but for Serb ima keep going , bitch I'll never stop until I know I've made it. I have lost count bro I got so many haters. Haters my haters bro they're my motivators, I'm walking in the streets of New York bro just like nori, if I don't fwu I'll block u w no warning. I'm not tryna get high I'm just tryna get money , cause that matters more yeah that matters more. I don’t even mind being sober , cause that shits giving me a chance so I could focus . I’m taking all my shit bro w my focusrite, they wanna blackball me but they can't get rid of me. I'll always stand my ground idgaf about u, bro they're all temporary idgaf about you.

serpico

serpico (prod isiah + octo +  maax)

''That's what I think of you: a jerk-off. You're laughing cause you're a jerk-off. You're a fucking jerk-off! I'll tell you something else, Mikey. I fuck you right where you breathe, because I don't give two shits about you or nobody else.''

I am the nigga that they envy, I was in New York smoking that tree. Dgaf bout what a nigga gotta say about me, stole my aesthetic nigga u know that ur my fucking seed, I feel like Negan bro I'll make a bitch out of you. You're fucking slow that's why ur friends are laughing at you, look at your circle man these niggas talk behind ur back. Nobody fwu lil nigga ur fucking wack. Go and laugh bout my traumas, bitch. When u record yourself you say "bro how did osei do that?", yall follow me like yall are zombies from the walking dead. But you're on season one, nigga I'm on season ten. Tryna act like ur the good guy, ''warning him''. Don't talk bout my mental health, you're still the same nigga singing bout cutting himself. The difference between me and you is that I did go thru shit, nigga I don't cap rap my supporters know it. I'm smoking gas in New York bro with halo, we'll be on your tv that's why you're hating. Shoutout jdif yeah that nigga's British, they're tryna break us up nigga cause we're winning. 

Nigga I don't do no ass kissing , it's crazy how u hang w niggas that are laughing. U cannot handle feedback and that's why you're so trash, go watch the walking dead nigga u are so ass. Ur making trillers with a BB gun you're pretentious, and u were on my dick bro on my priv twitter. That's why I got u out, nigga I had locked you out. Always talking to me, nigga I had got u out. U tryn get noticed, u tryn get noticed. And ur the store runner, ur tryn get noticed. Ur friends are laughing at you , u tryn get noticed. Can't handle feedback, that's why you're a bitch. Spreading my lyrics everywhere I know I'm an author, niggas are looking at my stories with instagram stalker. Hanging with my opps them niggas don't even like you, they were all on vc laughing at you . You're my son go do your homework, you're my son go do your homework. Yeah I'm the founding father, go steal my flows lil bro I got unlimited, u talk shit then u delete nigga ur a bitch .

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