osei - further introduction (prod asgarde/serb)

serb, I miss you so much. whenever I make music I think of you. you were always there for me and wanted me to do better in life, thank you for everything. you’re the only reason I still make music, I would’ve quit otherwise. I miss you. even tho we’ve never met, we spoke everyday and it was our plan to blow up together but now you’re gone and it hurts me everyday. I hope I’ve made you proud. I love you so much. thank you.

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further introduction

further introduction. (prod asgarde/serb) #ripserb

I did not deserve any of this, why? (prod chaosysl + symels)

bro I’m so tired of all these lies, is this what I get for being kind? Is this what I get for being nice? Cut on myself I’m not feeling nice. In this life bro you cannot be kind, cause these bitches they will all walk over you. You’re as fake as a bitch from imvu, you would treat me like I’m some damn animal.

Uh, bitch you know that I’m more than that, I’m at the saks and this bitch is asking for two bags. Bitch I won’t give you that birkin bag, I’m tryna take all my love back. I don’t know what I have done to you, cause from the start all my intentions were pure. Girl wtf have you done to me, got cuts on my wrist yeah I’m crying so hard you’re not thinking of me.

Now have you moved on from me? Now have you stopped thinking about me? Remember when you kissed me, now I’m just tryna heal while you damaged me. What have you done to me, I just cried at the sky and I looked at the moon. Blood’s on the floor… nah I’m not feeling right, I just think that I’m doomed.

I just wanted someone to hold, but I’m all alone and I was something you’re messing with. Look at my heart, don’t look at my body; I just wanted to love on somebody. Yeah these cuts on me ruin my body, I just hate myself I hate my body. Yeah this girl tried to mess me and play me, now she’s kissing on someone that’s not me. Am I not good enough for you? From the start I was staying true, in my diary I wrote about you and what we went thru this shit rly was a rollercoaster.

i did not deserve any of this, why?

i did not deserve any of this, why? (prod chaosysl + symels)

look away. (prod meta + sammy)

I know that bitch mf’ing lied that hoe’s not innocent, I was tryna love on you, you walked away stop texting then? But you’re fucking mad as hell cuz I’m good and I’m better than, I love smoking gas and I just love doing that ketamine; got cuts on my wrist but I don’t care now I’m a better me. I just make my music and niggas think I’m their enemies, nigga fuck mdma I’ll jus stick w ketamine. 

Wanna work you gotta pay cuz I don’t do that shit for free, singing all my vocals nigga I feel like alicja keys, before leaving the party nigga I better check all my keys, bro fuck the Dutch underground cause these niggas is all my kids.

Cause I don’t fw nobody, I don’t fw. Huh huh.  Bitch why would you follow me, you’re not tryna love me up, yea my cup is dark as fuck I jus poured my double cup, I don’t fw Dutch niggas lil bro idgaf. I don’t hang w clones, my glocky’s automatic it’s no fucking bow. Fuck you why can’t you leave me alone, bitch. When you sucked me off you knew I wasn’t average, bitch why r you looking at the cuts that are on my wrist; niggas are so mad cuz they know that I’m so diff. I’m jus doing me and all these niggas is my kids, I put all that money on me I just hid my wrist.

look away.

look away. (prod meta + sammy)

osei - dear child self (prod yungdni)

I’m alone like Daryl Dixon, got a bow with me that shit is no gun; used to get bullied that shit made me cut, I had no friends and I cut my wrist up. Don’t wanna be friends, people give me pain, but when there’s no pain nigga there’s no gain I just love making music idc bout the fame, yeah I’m bleeding so much guess I’m bleeding today. 

They don’t like me nigga what did they say? I don’t know what I did to anybody… I walk around with cuts over my body, I had no friends I just wanted somebody. Bitch, you only wanted my body, I’m much more than a fuckbuddy. I wish that I could hug on my child self, was misunderstood and he needed help; cause I only had friends on the internet. Yeah I had nobody in real life to talk to me, had nobody in real life to hug on me, had nobody in real life to stop me, stop me, stop me, stop me. 

Blood on my wrist, with lean in my tummy. I just wanna forget about my life, I just wanted somebody to hug on me. Now I only got my diary and music, cut on myself bro I was so foolish. I’m glad I stopped that shit, I gotta take care of myself. Huh, uh, hah; I still think that I’m needing help. I still think that I’m suicidal, yeah I’m going to hell bring the Bible. I’m not holy bro like a disciple; I know that one day ima just die tho. yeah when this shit happens in my sleep, I cut myself shit was deep. 

…she’s tryna make me doubt on myself, she’s tryna make me cut on myself. bitch dumb yeah you kiss and tell, huh huh smoking gas yea I know you could smell.

dear child self.

dear child self. (prod yungdni)

long sleeved / ill never understand you (prod flynnseasons)

I just wrote in my diary, lil bitch why did you cry to me? Lil bitch why did you lie to me? Lil bitch why would you lie to me? Think that you got two faces, I’m knowing niggas they hate us; I got money I’ll stay up, I’m on ket ima stay up. Cuts on me bro I bled up, got long sleeves in all weathers. I’m not trying to get her, bitch I don’t understand her. Nigga she wants me dead bruh, yea she want me to cry huh. Yea she want me to die, huh? Loved you, why would I lie huh?

Don’t know why you would kiss me, even tho you don’t want me. Caught some feelings, I’m sorry. But it’s cause you love bombed me, kay you thought shit was funny? Now you cannot just talk to me. Ima ignore you… like you have ignored me. 

Huh huh, like you have ignored me. Got too many cuts on my body; we’re not friends anymore I’m not sorry. Bitch you ruined this shit let’s just stop here, bitch you ruined this shit ima stop here. (??), I got a chain with a cross here. Remember when you would play with my hair, now you are pretending you don’t care. (??) got scars with a broken heart. Cuts on me life is hard. It’s like I went thru a war. 

I shared my secrets but you’re someone that cannot keep it, I need some therapy these people are seeing my wrist slits; when they’re hearing osei these niggas r saying “this shit’s diff”, I’m walking in circles it’s like my life’s a playing gif. Hah, you said that I changed your life… Too bad that shit was a lie, huh, when I cut nigga I cry, Kay. Sometimes I wish I would die, I turned my wrists to the sky. I guess I’m praying to Christ cause I hope that today ima die. Blood’s on the floor and I’m crying, she did not know what she did when she was lying, I was stuck on your bitch like a lion. Nigga I can’t stop fucking crying.

long-sleeved / i’ll never understand you.

long-sleeved / i’ll never understand you. (prod flynnseasons)

they don't care about your feelings.

they don't care about your feelings. (prod chaosysl)

osei - my veins (prod yungdni)

You don’t understand me, no you’ll never understand me. Blood is on my wrist I just cut so deep, living life is tough bro it’s so heavy. 

You don’t wanna see me win, you wanna see me upset here. I don’t wanna be sober that’s why I did some ket here, blood is on my clothes I wish that I was so dead here. You left me to die like do you remember last year? Last year, last year; this ket’s going heavy. I wanna die like I’m so upset here, you just wanna talk but you don’t even got racks in. I just wanna live but she wants to break my heart. 

I’m on my knees I’m boutta fall apart, cuts on my wrist I’m ashamed but I can’t stop, feel like I’m annoying to you no I won’t talk, I’ll finna eat that hoe out like she’s a poptart. I’m cutting my wrist hard, cutting so hard. I hit a vein nigga I know this shit’s not smart, I hit a vein again I’m in pain I’m in pain yeah. If you hate me, then I want you to say that. 

It’s okay it’s okay cause I hate on myself too.

my veins

my veins. (prod yungdni)

osei - the story of mine, I’m at war with myself. (prod thr6x)

My story is tough you’re not ready for it, hid my wrist yeah because of the weather.
Had to cry myself out life is getting tougher, I don’t care if your life’s going better. I’m hiding my cuts I just put on a sweater.
I miss my childhood shit was going better, until I reached 13; that’s when I cut myself I was bleeding was hurting. 

My life changed forever, now I gotta deal with these scars these scars. And she knew bout my story, she still broke my heart. Am I not good enough nigga? Im gon fall apart. 
I shot with precision I’m going to war, I’m at a war with myself, war with myself. Cut on my wrist yeah my demons are talking to me, I think I need serious help. 

Yeah my demons don’t give a fuck about my body, huh huh huh. I’m at the park and I just did that ketamine, I’m tryna forget my demons they be eating me. 

It’s like all my drugs are healing me, help me now. I’m bleeding so much right now, I’m hurting so much like wow, got many cuts I said wow…

[scream]

the story of mine, i'm at war with myself.

the story of mine, i'm at war with myself. (prod thr6x)

give it time and patience, you’ll heal (prod chaosysl + symels)

I don’t think I wanna fall in love, too scared to open myself up. Cut on my wrist yeah I’m bleeding up, that girl knew that I was feeling her. I’m bleeding so much yeah life is rough, ion wanna live yeah I’m so fucked up. 

Told that bitch why’s you not seeing me, told her why’s you not hugging me? I want a girl that just loves me, yea i want you to kiss and to touch me; i love too fucking hard please don’t play me, people say give it time give it patience. I’m so alone with no patience, earthquake hit on me like a Haitian.

My heart is sum you were aiming, for. Nigga don’t fall in love with a whore, I’m with thr6x and we’re pouring them 4s. Yea I’m loving my friends they mean everything, on so many drugs and I see everything; cuts on my wrist cause I don’t show everything yeah you only see my happy, goofy side. 

Yeah you only see my happy, goofy side; cuts on my wrist that’s something I gotta hide. Nigga I will blow up just like dynamite, yeah she’s talking to boys that’s not sounding right. I just sniffed on that ket n I’m feeling right, yeah I did all that ket and I’m feeling nice. Perc it got me to itch but I don’t got lice, yeah my day1s they switched on me they all lied. 

Yeah my day 1s they switched on me they all lied, shoutout ysl cause that boy never lied. Yeah that bitch is a hoe, shes not my wife. I won’t talk to you; let me live my life. Last year I was so delusional, bro I was moving delusional. 

I don’t wanna open up anymore, Glocky go pow yea this Glocks in my drawer. Huh, I’ll never understand her; bitch you’re getting on my nerves. You’re tryna hit my heart, want me hurt; I’ll leave on u that’s what you deserve. In a tesla, hope I won’t hit a curb. Cuts on my wrist bitch I’m so hurt, cause they don’t understand me; they’ll never understand me.

give it time and patience, you’ll heal.

give it time and patience, you’ll heal. (prod chaosysl + symels)

osei - what’s the meaning of life?


This is the last chapter of you, you don’t know what I have just been thru. 
Cuts on my body, guess I’m misunderstood, yeah she’s tried to play me and I’m not in the mood. 
Yea I’m missing my bro and I’ll do this for you serb I’ll do this for you, and I know that you’re seeing me think about you me recording about you. 
What’s the meaning of life? I keep losing these people for good. 
What’s the meaning of life? I keep staying so misunderstood.

what's the meaning of life?

what’s the meaning of life? (prod yungdni)

osei - I can’t I can’t (prod sixcults + asgarde/serb)

https://www.eveorin.com/

Where have you gone? Cause I don’t know what I’d do without you, was my brother I was laughing with you; but you’re dead now bro where are my tissues. Huh, uh huh uh; cut myself i don’t know where to go, can’t believe i had to see you go; people leave me that’s sum that i know. 

Why would you leave me, I just gotta cry. Could not believe it when your dad said you died, I was hoping he’d lie to me; people always just cry to me. 

But I got no shoulder to cry on, yea I got no body to hug on. People see the happy side of me, that’s the only thing they see, the only thing they see. They don’t see the guy, that cuts on himself. I just gotta cry, I’m so sad you could tell. Even tho you hate me, yea I still wish you well. I’m in so much pain, I just cut on my… self. 

You’re no longer in pain serb, you’re in heaven bro you’re not in hell. Wish that I could switch seats with you because my life’s not going, well. 

I wish you could hear this.

[you guys, you guys. serb passed away man. I can’t, I can’t. I’ve.. never met him, I…]

Thank you for listening.

long-sleeved / i’ll never understand you. (prod flynnseasons)

osei

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