When I talk u don’t listen, with my boundaries bro I'm not forgiving. I’ll stop talking to you so you'll see what's missing, yea my body hurts I'm on the floor it’s stinging. I think I just cut my friend off no I got nobody else, I don't wanna hang out and do drugs lil bro can't u tell. That's some kid shit, I'm not on that kid shit. Cuz life w too many drugs is not living, idgaf about being high, rap niggas pop a pill before they touch a mic . I don't need no drugs to get my feelings out, if you want a feat you should pay in amounts.

Niggas they got my name in their mouths, you gotta face all your demons. Cause you'll always get back to your sober self, why are u spending money on these fucking pills? Yea u should look in the mirror and be honest w who you're looking @. I remember like last year I wasn’t even myself; that's why I'm tryna tell u to lay off the pills. 

Like go and lock in, think bout ur future. Think bout ur mom n dad n family, man all these drugs they're so unhealthy. Remember when I almost died bro on that shit. No one was there for  me no one cared bout me no one was there for me. No one was there for me but I am there for you, I hope that you'll listen to my words. 




Ily. <3

don't forgive, don't forget.

SPOTIFY

don't forgive, don't forget. (prod astrid)

Sometimes I'm on my knees saying god save us, everyday I'm questioning my goddamn existence. I remember the first time I took a blade from the kitchen, I remember the first time I told myself I hate existing. I wasn't even 10 and I already wanted to leave the world, why did she leave my soul after I bought her these diamonds and pearls. I was kissing her neck bc I was thinking that she was my girl , you left me to die while I was ready to show u the world.

I'm in bed watching movies bro I don't have a friend left, I used to cut way too often I don’t wanna see that. I don't wanna see my body, this music took over my life and my body. I’m going insane, I talk about music, I live for that music, I work for that music, I dream about music I’m going insane. I don't see myself nigga clocking in for like 40 hours and sell my soul for a job, when will it stop. When will it stop?

If I had a gun w me id shoot my damn brains out, if I had my blade w me I'd cut my damn veins out. Nigga I'm sick in the head and I got nothing else, once day I'll crash out and die I hope I won't go to hell. I just spent 5 hours watching novecento, movies rly saved me cause I rly don't do no drugs no more. Getting older and wiser I'm trying my best to stay sober, I rly called it quits cold turkey and I said it's over. 

Sometimes I'm on my knees saying god save us, everyday I'm questioning my goddamn existence. I remember the first time I took a blade from the kitchen, I remember the first time I told myself I hate existing. I wasn't even 10 and I already wanted to leave the world, why did she leave my soul after I bought her these diamonds and pearls. I was kissing her neck bc I was thinking that she was my girl , you left me to die while I was ready to show u the world.

1900

1900 (prod ikari)

#longliveserb #seigarde

She left me why'd she do this? Idk why they are always in my business, the only reason I make music is because of Serb. Can't lie I miss my brother, I’m honest w my music I’m not undercover. I cannot wait to better my life by going to therapy. I gotta improve my life and my decisions, bro I know that my body's full of them incisions, bro cutting myself was not a good decision.

My bro's in heaven spreading his wings, I’m doing this for you... I often feel so lonely idk what to do, I wanna express myself with my art , was a creative child cuz bro I was always making art. Bro I'm honest w my songs I cannot lie, back in the day I'd look at my wrists to cry. I don't want medication gotta get rid of my demons, I crashed out I was in my feelings. I'm sorry that I always overthink, back in the day i'd do them drugs bro and I would drink: but that’s not the solution. 

I'm delusional you might as well call me Rupert, cuz I will make it one day bro just watch me, cuz I will make it one day bro just watch me. They don't believe in me they don't want me to succeed. I won't slow down ima keep going.. I gotta keep going cause my brother is watching over me. He was the only one that believed, I’m tired of feeling like a burden. Back in the day I'd cut myself that shit was burning. I'm still fucking hurt, yeah I'm hurting.

incisions

incisions (prod shrine + epv)

I can't even be myself bro around everybody. I'm tired of putting on a fucking mask, bro I wish that I could disappear and not come back. Because all my life I've been somebody that I'm not , I can't even tell everyone bout my cuts. Bro I've just been somebody that I'm not, but they always tell you that time will resolve all pain. I'm in my twenties but I still feel all that teen pain. 

Child self my child self yeah he's so hurt, cause that nigga he never wanted to reach 20. My child self could not even talk bro to his parents, all my life I've been disappointing my parents. I'm sorry that I'm this way, I swear I hate myself too. I wanna die I wanna disappear , why am I here? I'm like why did you put me here? I’m suffering like everyday it doesn't stop. Once I’m dead you'll hear my songs and I'll be bro in your thoughts.

No one gives a fuck about my music cuz I'm alive, let's see bro how you think about my songs yeah at my funeral. Oh now u care, oh now u care? But u never cared about me. Nah u never even texted me, no u never checked up on me.

It's funny how things could change once you're deceased, 6 feet deep. 6 feet deep, uh uh.

At least I'm with my best friend now.

teen pain

teen pain (prod sennai + 77mending)

<3 .

I'm trying my best to stay calm I can't crash out, today my niece was born yea I'm feeling love now. Ik that I got cuts but don't look at them now, I'll try my best to be a good uncle. I'll try my best, I'll try my best I promise. I'll do a better job than my uncle I promise, cuz he abandoned me yea he never contacted me. I just hate thinking that no one would care to message me.

Blood's thicker than water, I'm so glad ur now on this earth. I'll do the best that I can, if u ever need me I'll be right there, you give me joy. I thought deep ab my life like sigmund Freud. Sometimes I’m glad I didn't kill myself, cuz I would never have experienced this. Life can be beautiful it's what you make of it, I think that bro I got a purpose. Purpose, I think that I got a purpose. I think that I need to share my pain with my music, if I never had music I would've been dead. That's no joke I think that I would've fucking bled.

I'm an outcast I guess that I'm an outcast , at school I got bullied bc I was an outcast. I was always locked in w edits, I didn't have no friends irl and they knew it. Even w music I'm being pushed away, ima go my own way yea my own lane. Uh uh uh. Ye uh uh uh, ye huh uh

i’ll be good, i promise. i love you so so much. <3 #uncleosei

i’ll be good, i promise. i love you so so much. <3 #uncleosei (prod nassim)

I just want her ye to hold me, I just want her ye to touch me. I have changed a lot it's fuck the old me, I would damage myself and I would people please. But there was this one moment when I realized, realized bro I realized I should get better. My blood is seeping through I shouldn't have worn a white sweater, yeah I'm sorry I’m sorry I did that. 

My wrist is turning red again, and my legs they hurt. Some nights I wanna die like Kurt, at the end it’s always me that fucking gets hurt. Fuck I’m abandoned I'm scared of being left alone, why.? I bought her a rose but she thinks I don't ever try. Why is my love unappreciated? I can't breathe ,I can't breathe, I wanna die. Just like high school me I'm so done w life, I never fitted in I was always left behind. Just like tarentino bro I gotta fucking grind, I gotta fucking grind cuz bro I just don't like this life that I live. 

I’m tryna change my life w my music, cuz I know that there are ppl like me crying here, crying here, cutting here uh uh .

I just want her ye to hold me, I just want her ye to touch me. I have changed a lot it's fuck the old me, I would damage myself and I would people please. But there was this one moment when I realized, realized bro I realized I should get better. My blood is seeping through I shouldn't have worn a white sweater, yeah I'm sorry I’m sorry I did that.

kiss me

kiss me (prod nassim)

Why does death happen when u least expect it?  I'm in my bed and I'm fucking bawling, that's why everyday I'm tryna tell my friends I love them. U just dunno when it’s gonna be the end, but when I do die I hope that I die a legend. Cuz I gotta leave a mark on this world , I've bled so many times in this world. Life's unfair why am I in this world? 

I'm paranoid I don't even got no friends, I stg they betrayed me at the end. All these designer items they don't even matter, you can have everything in the world while having cancer. Fuck this money, I just want good health. Blood's moving thru my veins like it's wine, I cannot stop this slow and decline. I keep lying when I tell them that I'm fine.

That girl wants me cuz she knows that Osei fucking provides, they put me in the limelight. I'm getting this attention cuz they're hating my guts, i know that last yr I wasn't  alright. Everyday I wake up saying rip Serb. I've been thru so much I  Deserve better, I don’t deserve this fucking life my wrists they hurt. Everyday bro I'm just crying. I'm just crying uh uh

legacy

legacy (prod juniorislost + seraph)

I'm in the ring I gotta win, because I struggle hard when I look in the mirror. I can't stand my reflection, I punched a wall and I saw blood I'm needing help bruh. I cut myself I cut so hard I'm needing help bruh. I’m stitched together, with sorrow and with shame. Each scar a story, each cut links to a name. Since I was 12 shit hasn't been the same, she’s calling me, she called me by my name.

You're being passive aggressive to me, like while u don't even fucking know me. You always try to be bitch and offend me, like how tf would you do that to me. You can't be surprised when I take a distance, when I was like 12 I'd take blades from the kitchen. And then I ended up w wrong friends, ended up w wrong drugs. Bro I was like 17 when someone called my phone up, she was on the train tracks crying. Everyday I think bout giving up and dying, used to get bullied I was scared to go to school: you're tryna baby me yea u look like a fool.

I know we bleed the same blood but that don't me that we're close , I've seen way too fucking much I'm traumatized yea we know. I almost lost my life last year I wanted to go, popped too many pills last year I had to stop that. I was on like 5 drugs bitch I almost died there, will I ever get love? Bro I'm so damaged. Yea these bitches wanna talk bro for my body, but who is gon be here for me when I need somebody? I just want someone to hug me. I just want someone to hold me, I just want someone to tell me I'll be okay.

I know you see me smile too fucking much but I've never been okay... I can't believe I've been betrayed, nothings ever been the same. Yea these friends they come and go, all my friends have gone away. I think I'll stay in my bedroom, and make my music today. Yea my body's full of cuts: I think that I'm out of luck, I think that I'm out of luck, I think that I'm out of luck. 

I don't know who to trust, I'm too paranoid. I don't know who to trust I'm too paranoid. 

I'm in the ring I gotta win, because I struggle hard when I look in the mirror. I can't stand my reflection, I punched a wall and I saw blood I'm needing help bruh. I cut myself I cut so hard I'm needing help bruh. I’m stitched together, with sorrow and with shame. Each scar a story, each cut links to a name. Since I was 12 shit hasn't been the same, she’s calling me, she called me by my name.

raging bull

raging bull (prod bleachcraft)

[I don't like to get emotional, but I know exactly what he goes through. Understood. Some of the same experiences?]

The silence echoes off these walls, where laughter used to ring. Now shadows dance where light once fell, I'm so hopeless I keep on trying to kill myself. Why ain't I succeed? Oh fuck why ain't I succeed? 

I used to burn bright, now I'm a dying flame.. now I'm a ghost among the living feet, these shattered pieces on the floor reflected who I used to be, I'm not tryna go back to that person. I'd always people please yeah that shit would just damage me, it’s cuz of my African household.

The last thing Serb did on his laptop was make a beat for me, I can't believe that ur gone. U were only 18 brother u were only 18, if I could swap with you bro I would. 

There's a space inside my chest where my heart should beat, I'm making music cuz I'm tryna build a legacy, once I'm gone you'll all hear these words straight from me. They hate osei too bad that there's no stopping from me.

shattered glass

shattered glass (prod jannah + ilychrxme)

Could you please stop playing games? I’m human with feelings I don't like any games. Just got an urge to cut myself, you shouldn't be surprised if I ever kill myself. I'm so lonely I'm tryna heal and I'm tryna do better, am I lying to myself when I say ima do better? Bro I used to love her during valentine's I was sending her letters, but then she broke my heart.

I took my accountability and I knew that I would love you way too much, too much am I too much for you? I was really telling my life story to you, but u never cared about me. No u never cared about me, that's how the story is gon end bitch, u don't have to lie u don't have to pretend bitch, when u was tryna kiss my friend it was the end for me. Romance is dead as fuck, romance is dead as fuck, romance is dead as fuck.

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